His Secret Obsession
Chapter 34

(Emery)

I don't know what the hell I was thinking, I just blurted it out..seeing how he looked at me, how he almost called me baby but held back..I didn't want him to hold back, I wanted him to touch me..to hold my hand and call me baby or say I'm his kitten. I want Asher with my whole heart. I wanted to take that leap with him..to let him know I accept him and I am in this..

The look on his face was one I will never forget, I honestly thought he was having a heart attack or something. The way his body tensed and his eyes darted away as he stared off into space, trying to wrap his mind around what just happened.

After the Rollercoaster ended, he just sat there, shock still filling his face as I witnessed Asher freaking out for the first time in his life. He knows that I know now..it's all out there..I did my part and now it's up to him. Is he going to act on it and make me his girlfriend in real life or is he going to go back on everything he said. I feel like I put my heart on the line but Asher is worth it..I just hope he gives us a chance and doesn't back out..

I slid out of the car, standing up as Asher still hadn't looked at me. I don't know what to even make of it. It's like he is frozen in place..

I quickly walked over to Jackie, seeing the broad smile on her face as I needed to get away from Asher for a minute..the weight of what I just did settling in and making me doubt everything..

Was that a huge mistake? Did I just ruin everything? Those thoughts began to flood through me..I tried being forward for the first damn time of my life and now I feel like I might have made a fool of myself.

We walked down the ramp as Jackie held my arm tightly and Carson came up beside me looking down with concern.

"Do you feel sick or something Em? You look a little pale." He asked, studying my expression as I plastered on the fakest smile I could muster.

"Nope, all good. Where to next?" I squeaked, seeing Asher nowhere behind us as I glanced back while Jackie began tugging me along to the next ride. It was one of those where you sit in a circular car thing and there is a wheel in the middle and it spins you around. "Everything okay?" She whispered into my ear as we showed our bracelets to the worker controlling the ride.

"Yeah I'm fine." I tried to calm my racing heart. This pit in my stomach growing by the second as I began to spiral uncontrollably.

Those negative thoughts bombarded my mind as the absolute worst played over and over again, shrinking my confidence and ego to practically nothing.

Carson, Jackie, and I all squeezed into one of the cars and they locked it up. Carson began to spin the wheel, making us go in circles as Jackie and I laughed..I was trying..really hard.

Just then the ride began to move, making the spinning even more affective as we went in circles around the track. I glanced out, my eyes trying to focus on a single object while Carson continued to spin us.. That's when I saw him, he looked like he was out of breath as he stared at the ride, his wide eyes catching my gaze as we went in circles. He looked panicked and my heart began to race. His gaze not breaking mine once as soon as I we came into contact.

The ride began to slow, making it so we could see each other at all times..the urge to throw up filled me but not because of the ride..but because of what I had done.

Asher walked over toward the gate, his eyes still wide as we got off the ride and walked through the exit. I looked down, my fear growing more and more as I felt somebody grab my wrist and began to pull.

"We need to talk, now." Asher said firmly, making me look up in surprise as his emotions seemed hidden and that wall was back up..my heart sunk.

"Hey, where are you going?!" Carson yelled from behind us as I turned my head meeting his gaze.

"We will meet up with you guys in a minute." Asher growled, continuing to pull me as Carson started walking forward with a scowl on his face but Jackie stopped him. She whispered something into his ear, making him visibly sigh and nod his head before turning away from us.

I looked back toward Asher, glancing down at his hand as he gripped my wrist tighter, pulling me through the sea of people until we were now hidden behind a gaming booth.

He let go of me, his hands flying up to his hair as he ran his fingers through the dark locks quickly and began pacing infront of me. Seeing him like this making me feel horrible..I knew this was too good to be true. I just should of enjoyed it while I could until he broke it off..how could I be such an idiot?

"How long have you known." He whispered, standing away from me as I couldn't bring myself to lift my head and meet his gaze.

"Since you helped me move in." I admitted quietly, wishing the ground would simply open up and swallow me whole..there will be no recovering from this..this will truly ruin me.

"Why didn't you say anything?" He asked..now I felt pissed off..why didn't I say anything? Is he kidding me right now? Why didn't he say anything?!

I can't do this..I can't handle the way he is acting I had a bad feeling about where this was going. I know it's not right to run away from my problems but I can't take it.

I turned on my heel, prepared to walk away as I took a step forward, being stopped in my tracks by two strong arms wrapping around my waist and holding me in place. I felt Asher pull me back flush against his chest as tears threatened to spill from my eyes any second. I dropped my head, trying to hold it all together as I felt Asher's face nuzzle into the crook of my neck. His long body engulfed me completely as I smelt so small and fragile beneath him.

"I'm sorry..that..that came out wrong..I just..you knew and you didn't reject me..you kept talking to me.." He whispered, his emotions finally flooding through that wall as I could feel his vulnerability revealing itself.

"Asher..I meant every word I said to you.." I whispered, taking a shuddering breath as I was putting it all out there..I had nothing left to lose.

"I understand if you got carried away or you got caught up..it's fine..but to me, all of it was real." I choked out, warm tears spilling over and now sliding down my cheeks as I wiped them with frustration.

"You don't think it was for me?" He sounded hurt, his warm breath fanned against my neck causing a shiver to run through me.

"I don't know." I admitted, feeling more confused than ever as Asher hastily turned me around. His hands slid up onto either side of my face as he slowly tilted my head back, making me look up as I quickly shut my eyes, afraid of what I might see. "Look at me Emery." He commanded, his fingers tangling into my hair as I took a deep breath, bracing myself for what might destroy me completely.

I opened my eyes, my gaze locking onto those silver orbs that stared into me with such intensity that it took my breath away completely.

"I love you Emery Lewis and I want you..I have always wanted you." He confessed before crushing his lips to mine. My heart combusted from the contact, my eyes shutting tightly as he moved his mouth against mine. His touch full of desperation and wanting...his kiss deepening with each second as he wrapped his arms around me, pressing me into him with such a longing that my head was spinning. Our mouths fused together as his tongue slipped out, tasting me with pure raw desire. I let out a soft whimper, the feeling of the man I have loved for years confessing his feelings to me was almost too much to bare as my knees turned weak, causing him to grip me even tighter.

"I love you, I love you so much that it hurts.." he said between gasps, as we pulled apart making me gulp for some much-needed air.

"I was so scared Emery, so scared you would hate me..that you would never want to speak to me again and the mere thought was destroying me." He admitted, placing small kisses on the corner of my mouth as he dug his fingers into my flesh, holding me like he was afraid I would disappear right before his eyes.

"I..I love you too Asher." I stuttered, feeling my cheeks warm as he whimpered from my confession. My words making him press his lips harder against me.

"Say it again..please.." He begged, sliding his mouth down to my neck as he began nipping and licking at my flesh.

"I love you." I whispered, feeling embarrassed by how raw and open I was being.

"No..say my name." He gasped, kissing his way back up my jaw, causing my stomach to flutter uncontrollably. I closed my eyes, tilting my head back as I let him ravage my body any way he wanted.

"I love you Asher McNeal." I panted, losing all control of my senses as I melted beneath his touch. I felt like putty in his hands, my knees weak, and my head light.

Asher groaned, my words making his hands tighten as he pressed his mouth to mine once more, engulfing me with a passionate kiss as my body hummed beneath him.

"You are mine..only fucking mine." He claimed, pressing his palms against my ass as he lifted me up swiftly, causing me to yelp as I wrapped my legs around his waist. "Say it Emery." He growled, dragging his teeth along my jaw as he kissed and nipped at my sensitive flesh.

"I'm.." I gasped, trying to form the words that I felt deep down in my soul but unable to bring to life.

"You're what?" He grumbled, thrusting his hips and pressing his hard erection against my core as I moaned. What was he doing to me? Anyone could walk by and see us..

He continued to grind his hips, sliding his hard cock against my center. The layers of clothing doing nothing to stop the pleasure that began coursing through my body. Every thrust sliding against me as I began to grind my hips in sync with his smooth motions. "Say it baby, tell me who you belong to." He whispered, his hands kneading my a*s as I threw my head back, letting him feast on my neck as he bit and sucked me with raw desperation.

"I'm..I'm yours." I practically cried out, feeling my core tighten with each grind of our hips, all rational thoughts flying out of the window as all I wanted at this very moment was Asher. Suddenly he began to thrust faster, his hard covered cock rubbing against my swollen clit as the friction built more and more beneath my shorts.

"Let go for me Kitten." He whispered against my skin, causing me to cry out as he muffled my moans with a searing kiss. His tongue piercing me deeply as he swallowed each cry and moan hungrily.

I couldn't take it any longer, falling over that ledge as a blinding orgasm crashed through me as I felt my body convulsing against Asher, his own groans filling my throat as he cried out into our kiss. He jerked one last time, moaning and panting against me as his kiss turned sloppy and unrestrained.

He dragged his mouth down, breathing erratically as he began trailing soft kisses all along my jaw and neck.

"Fuck baby..that was incredible. See what you do to me? You don't even know how hard it's been to stay away from you." He groaned, making my heart race as the realization of what we just did settle in as I buried my face into the crook of his neck and hid myself. He began rubbing my back lovingly, his kisses turning more gentle and his breathing becoming steady.

"Are you okay?" He asked me carefully and I nodded my head.

"I can't believe we just that." I admitted, hiding further against his neck as he chuckled deeply.

"That's how fucking hard it's been..just doing that and touching you was enough to..you know." He laughed and I couldn't help but giggle..I didn't think we would do something like that.. especially in public..I must of been out of my mind. How embarrassing! "Fuck, you are so beautiful, let me look at you baby, let me kiss you." He whispered, making me pull back as he studied my face intently and then began placing small rapid kisses against my cheeks and nose, causing me to giggle uncontrollably.

Suddenly I felt my phone vibrating, causing my eyes to widen as I reached down and pulled my phone from my pocket, trying to get out of Asher's hold as he shook his head no and I frowned. Seeing it was Carson calling, my eyes widened and I answered it quickly. "Hello?" I said while trying to compose myself, knowing he must be confused by where we went. "Em, where the hell are you?" He sounded pissed..

I swallowed hard, meeting Asher's gaze as he clenched his jaw and looked just as pissed as Carson sounded.

"I

I just..we um went to the gaming area. We will be right there." I stumbled out..closing my eyes from the realization of how flustered I sounded.

"Get here right now." He ordered and hung up the phone..crap..this isn't going to end well..

I can't lie to Carson..what am I going to do? Oh god..I'm freaking out already.