His Secret Obsession
Chapter 80

(Emery)

We have officially been here for three days and I never want to leave. Getting this alone time with Asher and not having any responsibilities or interruptions is like a dream come true. We have been spending most of our time at the pool, on the beach, and in our room..okay..there is a lot of time spent in the room. I just can't keep my hands off of this man..I'm officially addicted. I had just woken up and slowly crawled my way on top of Asher...I couldn't help but smile as a deep sexy groan escaped his perfect lips. Oh god, he had to be the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I slowly dragged my hands up his toned chest, feeling his smooth skin as the corner of his mouth twitched into a smile while keeping his eyes closed.

"Hmm..I was just having the most amazing dream..and then I woke up to it coming true." He hummed deeply, causing my heart to race as I felt his hands sliding up my curvy hips.

"Oh yeah? Care to elaborate?" I asked seductively, I don't know when I became so bold but I wasn't going to question it now.

"Why tell you when I can show you." He growled, his eyes fluttering open as I was suddenly being lifted up and placed back down right on top of Asher's thick hard cock. The sudden penetration making me moan out as I felt all of him slide deeper inside of me. Asher made quick work, his hips thrusting slowly as he continued to stretch me further and further until I he filled me to the hilt, causing my back to arch as he took advantage of the situation. His mouth latched onto my stiff peaks, his tongue swirling and flicking my n****e as my fingers dug into his arm, trying to hold on for dear life.

"Fuck you look so beautiful filled with my c**k baby. I love watching you bounce on top of me." He groaned, his mouth latching onto me as he sucked and licked me vigorously.

I soon felt his hands cupping my ass, lifting me with ease as he guided me up and down his full length, the pleasure building and building as I tried not to go limp in his arms. I felt so overwhelmed by the sensation like it was our first time all over again. It always feels like this with Asher..his touch alone making me drunk with desire as I lose myself with him completely.

Incoherent words began to fall from my lips..the sound of our skin slapping together filled the air as he drew his hand back before smacking it down and spanking my a*s as I rode him faster. His c**k slammed into me as I shook on top of him, that pleasure coming to a head as I came tumbling over the edge. My lips trembled as I screamed out Asher's name, his own mouth kissing and licking my body as he too found his release. His hips bucked one last time as he plunged deep inside of me before stilling as he spilled everything he had inside of me.

"Fuck baby, I love you so damn much..you are my everything..you are mine Emery Lewis..only mine." He claimed while placing sloppy wet kisses across my shoulder and chest.

"...love..you..too.." I panted, trying to calm my racing heart as I felt his c**k twitching inside of me..was s*x always like this? Or was this not as special as I felt it was? The moment Asher fills me up, it's almost like I lose sight of everything and only his touch and taste is all there is..it's like we become one, his body fitting mine perfectly as he knows just what to do to drive me wild.

"What are you thinking about?" Asher's warm breath fanned against my neck as he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me down onto the bed, holding me close.

"Just..well.." Oh god, was I really going to ask this? Asher is my first and only..I guess a part of me just wants to know that this is just as special for him as it is for me.. Maybe I am a glutton for punishment because if he says all s*x is like this...yeah, that won't feel good.

Asher lifted his head, his eyes locking onto mine as I bit my lip nervously.

"Emery, what is it?" He asked worriedly, making me clear my throat as I nuzzled my face into his neck, embarrassed about what I was going to say.

"Is..well has sex always been like this for you? I don't know, never mind..just forget I said anything." I blurted before shutting my eyes tight. Yeah..why was I even asking this?!

I felt Asher shaking beneath me as a deep chuckle left him. His hands sliding up my back as he threaded his fingers through my hair, making me shiver from his touch.

"Baby, what we have..what I feel with you..this is beyond anything I have ever experienced..this is soul mate shit baby..this is you completing me in every damn way possible. I never felt this way before in my life, and honestly never thought I would..I never believed in true love and soul mates..but then you came along. Well, you were always there..I just tried to fight it as long as I could." He trailed off, making me freeze as two words that he spoke blew my freaking mind and I kind of stopped listening after that honestly. "You..you think we are soul mates?" I breathed, feeling my stomach flipping uncontrollably..does he really feel that way?

"Don't you?" He asked curiously, a lopsided grin filling his face as I nodded my head..I could feel my cheeks burning as I tried not to freak out.

Even though Asher has lived with me and seen all of me, he still makes me feel like I have been stripped bare and my vulnerability is all out there for him to see. I have given everything to Asher McNeal..every damn part of me and a part of me is scared it is too good to be true..when will he wake up and realize who I am? Will he see the old me and realize it was all a mistake? Will he realize he belongs with a model or some celebrity who is prettier or more on his level? That's the level Asher is on..he has big things ahead of him and what if one day he realizes I'm not really the one for him..I know these are my own insecurities but how can a girl like me..the girl nobody ever wanted in that way..the girl who was always the friend and sidekick..how could he truly want me? "Are you okay?" Asher asked, making me nod my head as I slowly pulled back and cleared my throat.

"I'm just going to use the bathroom." I whispered and quickly leaped off the bed. I don't know what the hell was happening but shit just got real. I felt like I was having a panic attack or something..hearing Asher tell me we were soul mates..it made me realize something..it made me realize that if Asher ever changed his mind..if he decided I wasn't the one, it would destroy me. All these things he says and all the things we do..I have given every bit of myself to him..he has me..he has every single part of me and what if he decides he doesn't want me?

Why the hell am I thinking this right now? Have I gone all in too soon? I wasn't even protecting myself a little..I have trusted in Asher completely and there's no reason not to. But where does he see this going? I know he says things about our future but how serious is he? Oh god..I need to calm down..I need to relax..

I began breathing heavily, my eyes blurring with tears as I turned on the sink and splashed water all over my face. I found one of my shirts on the counter and slipped it on, feeling like I was too exposed at this moment..I needed to calm the hell down. "Baby, what's wrong?" Asher's deep voice sounded behind me, making me jump as I turned my head and saw him standing by the door, his face full of concern as I turned back and began wetting my tooth brush. If I told him everything would I just scare him away? Would I put unneeded pressure on this and cause it to fracture when nothing was wrong to begin with? Why did I even need constant reassurance..why can't I just be happy with whatever Asher gives me? This should be more than enough right? Beggars can't be choosers.

"Nothing, I'm just tired I think." I squeaked before shoving my toothbrush in my mouth and began brushing. Yeah..my level of avoidance was at an all time high today..I don't know what's going on either!!

"Emery..don't lie to me." Asher said firmly, his voice serious as I froze in place..I had never heard him speak to me that way, it made my heart ache.

Asher walked up to me, his hand reaching for my toothbrush as he pulled it out of my mouth and rinsed it off before wiping my lips with a washcloth..why was he so damn attentive.

"Baby, tell me what's wrong right now." He commanded, making me drop my gaze as I wrung my hands together nervously.

"I don't know..I just started getting into my own head.." I admitted, making him tense as he reached out and gripped my chin before tilting my head back and forcing me to meet his gaze.

"Did I freak you out? Was it too much?" He asked worriedly and I furrowed my brow, his words shocking me as I shook my head no.

"No..if anything..I just.." I began, trying to get the nerve to say what is hurting my heart.

"I know you said before that I am it for you..but Asher..I'm scared." I admitted, feeling like I always have these doubts..these doubts that I'm not good enough.

Then it hit me..this doesn't have to do with Asher, it has to do with my own insecurities..my own fears that the guy I love is too good for me. That I can't live up to how he sees me and it won't be enough..that I won't be enough.

I began crying, not sure why I was even ruining this..what the hell is wrong with me right now?

"Fuck Emery..come here baby." He pulled me close, wrapping his arms around me as I sobbed against him.

"Why are you scared? Tell me baby, you need to tell me exactly what you are feeling, don't shut me out, please." He begged, his lips kissing the side of my head as he gripped me tightly.

"I'm scared because I love you Asher..I love you so much and I'm worried that I'm not good enough..that I'm not what you deserve. I know it's stupid..and you tell me all of these amazing things, but I have never felt like this before and what if it's too good to be true?" I let it all out, my body shaking as I cried against his bare chest. His fingers buried in my hair, tilting my head back as he crashed his lips against mine. His mouth sliding against my cheeks as he kissed my tears away, making me whimper. "I'm scared too baby..so fucking scared. I'm scared to ever lose you, I'm scared by how much I love you too and how I dont want to live a single day without you." He admitted, making me sniffle as I looked into those silver eyes. He felt that way too?

"Fuck..I wanted to make this perfect for you..I had a whole fucking plan and everything..but I need to show you how much I love you..I need to show you I am in this for life Emery Lewis. That you are the one I want..the one I never thought I deserved. You are it for me..you are all I ever wanted..and I want this..I need this for the rest of my damn life. Emery...will you marry me?" He asked, making my heart stop..what the hell did he just say?