His Secret Obsession
Chapter 81

(Asher)

Well, that didn't go the way I wanted this to go..but I could feel Emery freaking out. I could see it as soon as she ran into the bathroom. Fear filled me and I thought she was having doubts, I thought she was changing her mind about me and I was trying not to panic..l wanted to yell and freak out..I want to beg on my damn knees to fix whatever I did wrong and then she finally told me what was going on.

She was freaking out too, but not because she changed her mind..she was scared. She felt exactly the same way I did and was scared I would change my mind. How f*****g foolish of her..she still doesn't see how much I love her. She still doesn't realize that she is my f*****g world now. How can she not see this..how could she not feel this? I know she loves me..I know she is my soul mate and yet she thinks I deserve better?! What the hell does that even mean? She is the best there is..she is the only one there is. To see how lowly she thinks of herself hurt me..

It isn't a secret that Emery is insecure..I know this because I see the way she looks in the mirror or gets shy when she is naked around me..but truthfully I was attracted to Emery even at her heaviest..she was always beautiful to me and always will be. I needed to tell her how real this is for me and blurted it all out there..needing to show my girl that I wasn't going to go anywhere, that she was my end game and I planned to make her mine in every way possible. Emery Lewis will be Emery McNeal and no one will ever take her away from me.

I quickly pulled back before racing to the closet and grabbing the small blue ring box. I had been so f*****g nervous about this moment..but right now all I feel is determined. I need to show her I mean this..that I have since the moment I asked her to be my girlfriend. I knew then that she was the one..that she was the only one.

I strode back into the bathroom, the look on my girls face was full of shock as she stood there with her mouth open..f**k she looked adorable right now.

"Baby.." I began, getting down on one knee as I reached out and took her small hand in my large one.

Her eyes traveled down as she stood there frozen in place.

"Emery Lewis, from the moment I saw you, I knew you were special..your big hazel eyes and warm smile..you always made my heart race even as a kid. I didn't know what it was at the time..but now I know it was my soul reaching for yours..my heart trying to tell me just who you are to me and what you will be in the future. I tried to stay away for as long as possible..I didn't believe in love..I didn't want love because I was afraid of what it could lead to.." I continued, my eyes filling with tears as I looked up at this woman I loved with my whole damn heart.

"I was afraid you could destroy me, Emery..afraid that you would blow up my whole world and make me feel things that could possibly ruin me. But I couldn't stop this..I couldn't stay away because I knew we belonged together. That we were meant to be from the start. That's why I don't want to wait..I don't want to waste any more time without you as my wife and I want to be so f*****g selfish..I want you to be my forever..I want the house and the kids..I want all of the perfect imperfections that make us who we are together. You are my other half, and for once in my life, I finally feel whole..you have made me complete baby.." I looked up into those beautiful hazel eyes as I opened the box, revealing a diamond ring that reminded me so much of Emery. It had an oval diamond with three smaller diamonds on each side. The band was rosegold and I knew as soon as I saw it, this was the one.

"Will you marry me, Emery Lewis? Will you become Emery McNeal and be my wife?" My heart was in my damn throat..the tension so thick as I had never been so f*****g scared in my whole damn life..what if it was too soon..what if she said no?

Seconds felt like hours as Emery just stared down at the ring, her eyes big and round as they filled with tears..suddenly I saw her head tilt into a small nod, making me wait on baited breath for her to speak..but she never did.

"Words baby, I need to hear you say it." I blurted anxiously..not sure if she really did just nod, or was that my imagination?

"Y..yes..yes I will marry you." She whispered, making me jolt up immediately as I scooped her into my arms. Yes..she said yes! I couldn't help but laugh as warm tears streamed down my face. The sound of her own sweet laughter filling my heart and making it burst as I kissed her passionately.

"Yes?" I asked once more, just to be sure..I needed her to say it again..

"Yes baby." She smiled, the most beautiful fucking sight I had ever seen as I placed my mouth against hers, kissing her roughly as I squeezed her body tightly..f**k..she was going to be mine..she was going to be my wife..mine, all mine.

I pulled back once again, my hands reaching up as I wiped away her tears and she did the same to mine, making my heart skip a beat as I smiled down at her.

"You just made me the happiest man in the whole f*****g world." I had no doubt that it was the truth too..I had to believe that no one has ever felt this way about a girl..that our love was one of a kind and one for the fucking ages..this was rare..I knew in my heart we were so damn lucky, that our fate was always destined to be together.

I reached down, my hands trembling as I grabbed the ring and slowly slid it on her ring finger..stomach filked with butterflies as the sight of my ring on her finger looked so damn perfect..

"Baby, it's so beautiful." Emery gasped, her eyes gleaming as she stared down at the ring, making me smile even wider.

"I knew it was the one the moment I saw it." I explained, not wanting to admit I bought it before she even knew I was Asher..yeah..I know..I was fucking crazy to do that, but I knew in my heart she was the one.

"I can't believe this is real." She laughed as another tear slid down her cheek. I slowly wiped it away with my thumb as I bent down, my lips hovering just above her as I smiled brightly. I know we are young..I know this is all happening so fast but so did Emery's mom and dad..and what he described about Emery's mom, I felt that way too. He knew from the start and I know deep down I did as well.

"No more doubts..no more thinking this isn't real." I said gently, making her nod her head as I kissed her tenderly, my body humming with complete bliss as I held my fiancee in my arms.

"No more doubts..I promise..I love you Asher McNeal..I always have and I always will." Her words touched me deeply, making me realize I wasn't the only one who felt this from the start..I was just the idiot who pushed it away for so long. She knew too..Emery knew who she belonged to and now we were never going back..our happily ever after was just beginning, and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with this girl..with my other half...my soul mate.