I Fall In Love In Another Dimension
Chapter 42

Deep darkness is not as frightening as the indifference of the loved one.

Yací and Estiben acted like a couple of strangers, until he could not stand the situation any longer, and confronted her:

-Doctor, it's unbelievable that after all we've been through, you now ignore me.

She stopped her work and looked at him and said:

-I feel very uncomfortable.

The scientist opened his eyes wide, as if they were about to pop out of his head, to ask her, "What about?

-Is it because we pledged our love for each other? Or is it because you are a vile liar?

Very annoyed, the doctor threw the tool she was working with and angrily replied:

-what do you know about love that you enclose it in perfection, as if we were gods, when we are nothing more than simple humans, is that nothing matters, why survive, to continue living without meaning and it is true that I am a liar, but I have done it to protect you.

Estiben felt that it had served him well to confront him, so he decided to continue doing it:

-it's the same bullshit you tell me, but you don't have the courage to tell me the truth, it must be that you are too ashamed, don't you trust me? It must be that you are a piece of shit and you think I am just like you.

The doctor threw herself at him, grabbing him by the neck, tried to choke him, and finally burst into tears, stammering these words:

-it's that I'm ashamed, you understand me, but at the same time it's also a burden not to tell you, although at this moment it doesn't matter; look I'll tell you the truth, I killed my last husband because he was a coward who inflicted physical and psychological violence on me; He brought me mariachis the day I had planned to finish him and it was a lie that I had the strength not to give in to his details, I would have liked to, but it was not that way, so later I found myself in the same foundation, sleeping with a bipolar monster who exalted me in public and mistreated me in private, so one night again I found myself crying in silence, imagining that he would separate me, he woke up, very furious because of my crying, he hit me until he fell asleep and I remained silent, as I could I got up I looked for a knife in the kitchen and stabbed him once for each blow he gave me, I remembered every insult, every humiliation.

In the end the bed was flooded with blood, I cleaned the house very well, I buried him in the garden as we did with the pets, which he did not deserve, I should have thrown him in the garbage, then I went a few days to my parents with the children, but I know that there is no perfect crime, a neighbor's dog dug up a hand of the corpse that made his frightened owners call the police, that's why I spent many years in jail until the conjunction happened and the government got me out because I could be useful to them, what they didn't know was that in jail I met some close collaborators of Altares who offered me to be a spy, plus a lot of money, but in turn I also offered to be a double spy for Pollux, just like you I don't care about the regimes, I only care about what I could earn; for the people there is not much difference between a democracy or a monarchy, electing the masters does not give us freedom. We have to look for the way to be in the winning team, no matter if tomorrow we were wrong and we have to change to another side, what matters is to continue in the fight in the way of the winners, knowing how to adapt to the changes.

Estiben was very astonished by all these revelations, besides seeing that his strategy was working, so he followed it:

-So according to you, morals and honor are not important, but survival, that's what you did regardless of your native country, although I don't care about that, I am shocked that you won't tell me the truth, because I did tell you my whole pathetic life, it is said that in a relationship if trust is over, everything is over, so maybe we shouldn't be together.

The doctor simply turned her gaze to the horizon and instead of saying an offensive word, she hurt him more with her silence.

Then the scientist felt that he had to continue forcing her, he could not let the conversation stay there so that their relationship would end or lead him to a series of torments to try to replace a reconciliation, so as a police interrogation he told her:

-of course, you are a liar and also a coward who is not able to face your mistakes to look for the solution, you just prefer to act like an ostrich, you put your head in the ground hoping that everything will pass, that it will be solved magically, you are a pushover.... The doctor approached her with a powerful slap and shouted at her:

-What do you know about me? Have you always been with me? You think you are good because I fell in love with you easily, I did not want to tell lies to anyone, but I was trapped in a game of counter espionage, and I was always worried about endangering my loved ones, my children and my parents, the same with you, since I saw you I liked you very much, although maybe you are right, we don't have to be together anymore, better this way we will leave this relationship a little incestuous, although maybe this theory of the dimensional pairs was just another hoax that occurred to me in prison, maybe we are not soul mates, maybe we are not even something.

Estiben watched her as she ended up crying, however, he still needed another answer that might not get him anywhere, but he did:

-At least tell me if it's true that you would go live with me? Or was it just to protect you, was it all about falling in love with me, to keep me under control and be a good collaborator, while you went along with Pollux' plans from the beginning? Yací, between whimpers, answered him:

-"Grow up! You act like a child, wake up, you are already 44 years old, you should already know the difference when someone really loves you, and I am no more Pollux' accomplice than you are, we are just drifting ships that have to adapt to the waves of power, our condition would not be different with another tyrant, for them we are just pieces in their chess, although someday it will be our turn to be the ones to move the pieces, meanwhile we have to play along, but I know this doesn't matter to you, the only thing you want to hear is that I love you and that I would change all this crap to be with you, you would let the universe disappear just to be together, someday I hope you forgive me and that we can be together, I know a girl doesn't say this, but I'm not a girl anymore, I'm mature enough to know what I want, but it would be very silly to make us kill each other before we can enjoy intertwining our souls forever.

Maybe it would be okay now, though the strategy was paying off for him, so he continued:

-How do I know I will be able to trust you, how will I be able to give myself completely, how will I be able to love you beautifully, if I even know, what do you expect from me?

She looked at him seeing in his eyes a soothing light, she touched his face again, this time to caress his skin, not to hit it, and whispered to him:

-we are alive after so many calamities, that should be reason enough for two people of our age, besides we know that we can throw ourselves without seeing the abyss of falling in love, until we reach the bottom and if we need to cross it, if we fail we will recover, we will get out again from where we embark, although in our future there may be problems and betrayals, we will know how to treasure the time we love each other without limits knowing that if something fails we will recover, as we have done all our lives. In a soft way they approached each other and both lips told each other without words what was missing, they closed with a kiss the anguish and misfortunes, the fallacies and misunderstandings, magically the caresses of their mouths were like the rain that cleans the muddy streets. A sweet kiss of love, which closes this chapter.