One Sided Love
Chapter 20: chap20

ALEX

I feel like shit... what did I do.... I should stop that moment when I saw her yelled in pain but I was lost in my lust n in her sweet tightness.... n then I full filled my need n totally ignore hers... I feel ashamed she was fucking pregnant... I can also hurt her ...n when I saw her body covered in marks because of my rough fucking I just want to kill myself...she looks so devastated, scared n numb...I enter in my office n made myself a drink..n lost in my work so that I can work n try to forget what I did. It was almost 8:00 when there was a knock in the door I looked n saw it was kate ... she has changed to some brown dress n looking so fragile...

She said in a small voice without looking in my eyes' Dinner is ready do you want to eat here or in the dinning room'

I was quite for a moment looking her ... n checking her if she is ok... then I

I replied im coming'

She left quietly.....when I reached Emma was sitting in her rocking chair and Kate was sitting far away from my side... I try to avoid looking at her but all I can saw how quite she is now, never lifting her head, looking so sad and weak...slowly eating her food, which was still fulled... why she is not eating properly.. she should be more hungery she doesnot eat properly during breakfast, lunch n now dinner.... may be it is because of me... i thought in guilt.

After dinner kate put plates in the dishwasher n take Emma for a bath and then to bed.

All this time i was thinking how to apologized to kate... because looking at her so broken was killing me... i need to clear this bad air..

I went to her room and saw her in sleeveless night gown and she was talking to some one

She said " sir I know.. but i have to resign ... n dont worry about the project it is already done and send to your mail I was working on it today... Im so grateful you want me back but i really need a break from work ... now im married n have a 2 year n unborn kid to take care ... so plz understand.... sure sure sir when Im looking for job again NYPH will be my first choice... ok goodnight'

I feel more guilty she was really finishing her project and have left her job because of me... when she turned n looked me .. she flinched

Kate

When Alex left me in room broken... i went to washroom to clean my self ... when i looked at myself at mirror my arms n back and neck was covered in marks... n some where a little painful... looking at those i remember all that and I cried heavely....

After bath i went to check emma n smiled for my angel and cooked dinner... i was wondering should i called Alex for dinner... if i didnt he will get angry again... so with little courage i called him

After dinner i went to call my boss where i told many lies to understand why i need to resign... then after called i turned i looked it was alex standing outside my door... i get scared... did i do something wrong again.

I said in a scared voice" Hmm Alex... you.. you need something'

Alex

Her scared voice too much for me.... she was looking so vunerable.. i try to relax her n said ' yup everything is fine... I just want to talk to you... can I?.... If you want to sleep ... then I will talk to you later'

She confusedly looked n said ' No you.. you can talk'

I come closer to her n I saw that her stomach was looking more bigger then previously may be it is the gown but.... she was looking fucking beautiful... I try to focus on why Im here ... I picked her hand n set with her in the bed

I said ' Im.. sorry... im so sorry I can't even tell you how much ... I just lost control some time when im angry... there is no justification for what I did... but let me tell you I can't control my attraction that I have towards you... you bring something inside me ...I ... just forgive me plz'

She looked with me teary eyes 'I didn't know that you were attractive towards me.... I won't lie yes I was scared... you make me feel like some cheap wh##r... you... ne.. never kissed me.... but now you apologized I can forgive you... but plz don't hate me... I can't tolerate this'

I picked her face with both hands n said 'im a jerk...a heartless bastard... but I won't do this again... let me rectify this'

I slowly put my lip to her n kissed her ... I stop for a moment to look if she is willing or not..... but she just closed her eyes like she was saving this moment in her memory.... I kissed her more passionately n gracing her body with my hand... I was so lost in a moment that I know in any minute I will undress her n lost myself in her.... I fondel her breasts. which are bigger than before

I asked 'Are you sure kate... you can say stop if you dont want it'

She smiled' I want it...'

I didn't wait for any moment again... I passionately kissed her every body part... n slowly n gently enter her...n kissed her neck... kate was very responsive n she was softly moaning which was making me lose control a little but I make, sure she is satisfied first... for a moment my hand touched her stomach n I stop... it look so real... kate opened her eyes n looked little hurt... but I try to focus on a moment.... Í fasten my speed n finally come....we both were sweating n I looked kate... she has the most beautiful blush n lightly grace her face then I fell in sleep.