Reject Me Again, My Alpha
Chapter 144

” Devon ” she breathed out , she sounded so broken. All I wanted to do was to comfort her, but I needed answers. I was pissed to have to replace out this way , mad because we had just spent days together every second just the two of us. It isn’t the way you’re supposed to replace out your apparently going to be a father. ” How did this happen ? I thought you didn’r want pups just yet ? ” I asked her , trying to keep my voice even. I didn’t want to completely ruin this moment by being overly mad , or this becoming an argument.

” Apparently, a regular human contraceptive pill does not work to keep wolves from impregnating you ” I couldn’t help the laugh that escaped my mouth , it helped lighten the mood. ” I could have told you that. I guess I didn’t think that was how you were keeping safe. Maybe I should have asked . s**t , we suck at this communication thing, don’t we ? ” I sighed, rubbing the back of my neck. Looking up, she was standing awkwardly looking nervous. Putting my anger aside , I walked forward and put my arms around her. Anger wouldn’t make this situation any better.

” So , am I going to be a dad ? ” I asked her , she nodded her head against my chest. ” I’m so sorry that I didn’t tell you “, it came out mumbled with her face pressed into me the way it was. ” Let’s go sit down and talk ” I kissed the top of her head and pulled away. Grabbing her hand and pulling her to the sofa. When we were comfortable , with her pressed into my side and my arm wrapped around her. I began, ” So when did you replace out ? ” I asked her. ” When you had been taken and we made it back to the pack , Mary, one of the coven women, can sense when someone is carrying. She said she had sensed it for three days. I asked no one to tell you while you were there , because I didn’t want to add extra stress to you. Or worry , and to be honest, I was in utter shock , panic I guess. I pushed it to the back of my mind and tried to ignore it was happening while all of us were still in danger. The reason I have not told you these last few days , I can not really say. I don’t really know. I just wanted us to be us. I can not help that others knew before you , they found out when I did. What I could have done was not keep you in the dark this long. For that, I am sorry, Devon. ” She looked at me, tears brimming her eyes. I could see and feel her literally freaking out about it.

This ran way deeper than her just not telling me , that was obvious. This was her having some internal struggle regarding it too. ” How are you feeling about it ? ” I asked her. Yea , I was hurt. But I could also see she was too. And one of us had to put our hurt on one side for a moment so it didn’t end in an explosive argument. She looked at me in shock that I had asked her that question. She even expected me to keep hold of my anger. Smirking down at her , I grabbed her chin between my fingers ” I’m still hella mad baby , after we have done communicating like rational adults. I’m going to spank you a*s red. But right now , I need to care for my mate’s feelings and her mental health. So calm your arousal down baby , we have got a long afternoon of talking before we get back to the good stuff. ” Her nose wrinkled up cutely. Leaning down, I pecked it with a short k**s and then gestured to her to answer my question.

She let out a deep breath and sat back , turning her head back into a normal position , instead of twisting it up to see me. I hate not seeing her beautiful face , it was so expressive. But , maybe this way, it will be easier for her to express what she was really feeling. ” I’m scared shitless , look what I had for parental guidance, Devon. It wasn’t great. Then I struggle with this battle with the darkness that comes with my heritage. It lingers in me constantly. Every time I cast magic , I have to be in control. You saw my coven , they had all given into it. It’s so easy to flip that switch and not have to live with feelings such as guilt and sorrow or have self-consciousness. What if our baby and future babies are born more like me than like you? And, we do all we can to keep them from giving in and then they do anyway. They would be our kids and we would love them , but they wouldn’t be good people. If we supported them , we would change our morals , or would we disown them ? It’s just a lot to think about and I wanted time to get my head around it , come up with a plan so that they wouldn’t turn into monsters Devon ” I could hear the lump in her throat she had , she was choking on it trying not to give in to the tears.

” Devon ” she breothed out , she sounded so broken. All I wonted to do wos to comfort her, but I needed onswers. I wos pissed to hove to replace out this woy , mod becouse we hod just spent doys together every second just the two of us. It isn’t the woy you’re supposed to replace out your opporently going to be o fother. ” How did this hoppen ? I thought you didn’r wont pups just yet ? ” I osked her , trying to keep my voice even. I didn’t wont to completely ruin this moment by being overly mod , or this becoming on orgument.

” First of all, baby. All your feelings and worries are valid. I don’t want you to think I am being an a*****e towards them when I say this. They are things we will have to think about definitely , and they may be bridges we have to come across. But , as for your parents being your role models in parenting. f**k that baby , look at you. You are so nurturing , with Penny. With everyone , and you have fought against your monster for years , way before you met any of us. Ran away from all of those you knew to keep from having to be it ” I took a deep breath and let it out.

” So , that part is bullshit. You will make such a good loving mum. And the second part , look at the people and the family we have around us. That child will only ever know love and goodness. We have a whole support system that will help us. If things ever do turn bad , we will deal with it together, Violet. Me , you and the whole f*****g pack out there that love us. Plus , do you really think our lovely previous Luna , who you know will declare herself a grandparent to that kid, will give it a chance to be evil? Damm that woman can get scary. She would kick its a*s if it tried. She kicked mine and Enzo’s enough if we ever strayed to the wrong side of the path . And whatever freaky s**t is going on with Antheas’ babies and ours , those babies are like grown-a*s people in the womb. By the sounds of it , and they’ve attached themselves to our kid. So , they must sense our baby will be good ” I laughed.

But she didn’t: ” Or they’ve found who they can flip to the wrong side with. Anthea was once told her babies would be that powerful. They could easily turn “she sighed. And I had nothing really to say to that. ” I want to say all the same s**t I just said and place it in that situation too. We can’t be fearful , we just have to give them as much love and guidance as we possibly can. Any of us wolves can go rogue , vampires can too. In every paranormal species, we have bad ones. That is just how it is. s**t , humans have too. We can’t control who decides to be bad , baby ” she sat quietly for some time and I left her with her thoughts.

” I wanted time with just the two of us as well before we had children. I know wolves tend to mate and start popping kids out straight away, so it is normal for you. But I wanted to be selfish and just enjoy us and myself for a while , go traveling and just be free after years of being trapped. Does that make me horrible ? ” she asked. ” If it does, then I am too, ” I answered and she looked back up at me with shock again. I laughed at her expression. ” I was a little taken back when you first suggested waiting , like you said it’s what us wolves do. Mate and breed. But the more I thought about it just being me and you for a year maybe , I liked the idea. I have travelled, but mainly for pack business. I haven’t traveled much besides that from the pack. But, I just want you to know. I am not disappointed that we are expecting now , not in the slightest. We have all the time in the world for me and you to travel. We have a family that will look after our pup if we want a break away together. We can even show the world to our pup. Having this baby won’t stop us. Trust me Violet, I won’t let it. ” She smiled, which was like food for my soul. ” I believe you ” she whispered, looking back away from me.

She blushed , her face going beet red. ” Hold your hands out ” she said. Confused, I did and a professional camera appeared. ” I’d like to join the pictures on your walls. ” And I looked at her in awe. ” f**k ” I breathed. Before bringing the lenses up to my face, I started snapping away. Violet looked off into the distance , she looked at the camera and she looked at ease. After snapping away for five minutes, I pulled the camera down. ” Send this home and get your f*****g sexy a*s in here “, I growled. She happily did as I asked. And after we had fun , I asked her for the camera back to get some in the river shots. These ones would be sexy as hell too , because she had that just f****d look in her eyes. I think my house will be full of pictures of my mate by the time I am done. There was nothing more sensual than the human body , and my mate had that sensualness in spades. f**k imagines these pictures while her belly pretrudes with my child. ” Baby ” I say, grabbing her attention back to me. ” I am so happy we are having a baby , I just want you to know that. I’m not mad. I know why you were scared. I forgive you for keeping i to yourself for a minute, OK ” and I saw some tension leave her body. I saw that she had needed to hear it. She waded through the water and made the camera disappear again. This time we just kissed in the water for ages. Our skin was wrinkly by the time we got out.