Reject Me Again, My Alpha
Chapter 37

I found him on the back porch, the one that was fenced off and away from what we used as a stage. He was leaning on it , Violet was standing in front of him. ” Hey ” I greeted both of them. They both turned to look at me. Looking a little wary if anything. It became awkward really quickly. ” What you doing out here ? ” I asked when both of them only said hi back. Rion looked at Violet. He nodded his head and she walked off. She walked past me and gave me a kind smile as she did. ” We gave all the names to the council of who was coming with us. They passed you all off. But they are not keen on us not sticking to the rules. You all not going into detainment while they assess you and such. But given the circumstances, they have let us slide by the rules under one condition “. Shoving my hands in my pockets, I tilted my head.

There was no point voicing anything , it was obvious I would want to know these circumstances. He rubs his head and looks down , so I already knew I wasn’t going to like this , because he knew I wouldn’t like it. ” They want to put you all into statsis for the journey there. A member from the council will come and meet us with a witch to do it “, he told me, without looking at me. ” Stasis ? as in a sleep-like state ?” I asked him. I wasn’t one hundred percent clued up on magic , but I had read books in the past to replace out bits. He nods his head and I start shaking mine. ” Hell f*****g no , are you serious? Like, I f*****g trust you enough for that. You could dump our bodies and run off with Anthea. So you could have her all to yourself ” he actually smirks at me , while I was ranting.

” Not that the idea isn’t appealing , but I wouldn’t, for the same reason I jumped in out there. That’s the reason you’re out here, right ? To see why I was the first one to protect your back. Because if you got hurt or died , it would kill her. No matter what you think, Enzo , I am not enjoying this. I did not come here with the ambition to steal another man’s mate. I lost my mate and I can tell you , it feels as if someone is pulling out each organ with a rusty knife. It feels like you fall into a bottomless pit of nothingness with nowhere out. I kept waiting for my heart to stop beating and just give in, but it never did. If not for Violet and my people, I would have jumped into the volcano and ended everything. I would not wish that on my worst enemy or you, I guess either, ” he half smiled at me.

” So what is it you want ?” I asked him. He turns and puts his arms on the railings, bending over a little . ” I do not know , I feel her , whenever I am around Anthea, I feel her. Anthea is sweet , beautiful and kind too. I feel my b***d pump wildly when she is around. I actually feel alive. I am not here to steal her , but like you say she has the choice. It’s her choice , I can not leave and make it for her. I see a divide between her and her wolf , she needs to become one , Sianna needs to become Anthea. And one of them must kneel to the other. One must give one of us up , reject us. If that person was me , I would leave happy knowing that my Sianna is in a good p;ace with Anthea. But if she chooses me “, he looks at me.

His eyes narrowed , not in a threatening way, just in a way that was meant to show me this was serious. ” Then I would be selfish and accept her , no matter if I didn’t wish that pain on you. Because she would have chosen it to be so. And I would protect her against anyone , including you , your whole pack. I would not lose her again if she had chosen to be mine again. I would cherish her and make up for all my past mistakes “. We stared at each other , until we heard a noise above us. I jumped the porch and looked up to see Anthea hanging out of the window upstairs in my room. She was trying to get the window to shut , her face beet red.

” She isn’t leaving here without me , so whatever you have to do to get us there is fine. I’m sure the others won’t be very pleased about this either. Now excuse me , seems our little nosey wolf needs help “, taking a few steps back, I ran and jumped. Grabbing the porch roof and easily lifting myself up onto it. She was still trying to pull the window down as I went up to it. ” Step back little wolf , let me in ” I whispered, with a smile. She admits defeat against the window and stumbles back. Climbing through the window , which feels surreal , sneaking into my own bedroom window. Once I had managed to get my big body through the window , I turned and pulled the window to the right a tad before sliding it down. “There’s a trick to this window ” I told her as I turned around.

When I did, she was sitting on my bed , looking a little lost. ” Are you OK ?” I asked her, taking a seat beside her. She shrugs ” Not really , it didn’t exactly go well down there. There’s all of this mess with the two-mate thing. I don’t want to make anyone feel like what he just said ” waving her hand towards the window, she sighed and laid herself back so she was looking up at the ceiling. “I’m sorry you had to hear he kissed me , I mean it was barely a k**s he kissed here ” she lifted her finger and pointed to the corner of her mouth. Not that it made the jealousy much better for the demonstration.

” What do you feel when you are around him exactly? Is it the same as what you feel about me ?” I asked the question that had been nagging away at me. Laying down at the side of her , I put my arm under my head and looked at her. I didn’t want to hear it , but she also had to have someone to talk about this to. She had no female friends. There was Abigail but she was a little young. Violet , but she’s Rions’ brother. It wasn’t exactly a good option for it to be me either, but at least she could express it to someone.

“It feels different, ” she says. She looks to the side towards me. And smiles ” You don’t really want to hear this, do you ?” I’m guessing my face wasn’t selling the fact I was cool with this. ” Not really , but I want you to be able to talk about it , so I’ll do my best to be as unbiased as I can be , seen ay i’m hoping its yours truly that gets to put my mark on you when all of this is done “.

She rolls so that she is on her side facing me instead. ” You don’t have to do this ” she says. I mimicked her movement. ” I want to “, I reassured her. She studies my face , then laughs ” OK but you asked for it “. She warned me. She closes her eyes and I study her beauty back. She keeps her eyes closed when she starts speaking. ” With you I feel like I’m living , I feel this breath of life awakens all of my nerves start tingling all over my body. I feel like I’m living on the edge with you. And obviously, I know first hand how you can make me feel. With him, it’s like it’s me, but not me feeling it. When he’s close to me , there’s this feeling of safety , like I don’t have to be scared of anything because he’s safe. Then its this slow building buzz , long lasting and dependable “.

Not going to say I wasn’t currently trying to hold back a sneer. I tried my hardest to keep a straight face. What she described was that I was basically dangerous, exciting, a thrill. He was the safer option. He made her feel safe and that she could depend on him. “It must be hard to be around that ” I manage to grit out instead.

” It is. Rion is right for me and my wolf to bond, to seriously bond. I think I have held her back all of this time. I had the same hopes my parents did. My wolf will fix me. Fix me to be a normal wolf , then here we replace out she’s a super wolf. And now I feel even further away from her. I do not feel she chose right , I have just always wanted to fit in. Nothing more , just to walk down the village and people say hi to me, to replace a mate and there be no drama behind it. Have a family and just live simply. That is all I ever wanted and dreamed of ” she opens her eyes and looks at me and I see the raw emotion.

” So two alphas as potential mates were not what you dreamed of no ? “I try to lighten the mood and it works, she laughs. ” Not really no ” she answers. ” Just for the record , I know I was a d**k at the beginning. But I would protect you with my life too , you can feel safe with me as well”. She leans forward , and places her lips softly on mine ” I don’t want to feel safe all the time . Where is the fun in that ?” growing deep in my throat, I threw myself at her and rolled her onto her back. Climbing on top of her. ” Lets start with those nerves first. I know a place that has a thousand nerves. We can wake up hmmm ” I run my nose along hers and she m***s against my mouth.