A Girl Nobody Wanted
Chapter 56

Please, God... Please, let me be wrong... I don't know how can I bare if I am correct...

Can anyone's life be more complicated than this?

I thought I finally found my happy place... But if I am correct regarding Luke, then this is not a happy place...

What should I do now?

Yes... I should talk to him before anything. I can be wrong too... I should definitely talk to him.

He can't just avoid my questions anymore. I have to make him answer me.

I grabbed my phone, which was beside me on the bed.

I was about to dial Luke's number when I noticed the current time. My God! It is already 2 pm. I didn't feel time passing at all. There is no use of calling him now.

"I want to meet you the first thing in the morning." I sent him a text.

I was still in the same clothes that I wore to university. I felt really exhausted, physically as well as mentally.

I went to take a bath, trying to comfort my self.

I was feeling hungry too but I didn't feel like eating anything. Therefore, after taking a bath, I just lied down on my bed. I have engaged in my own thoughts once again. All the happy memories that I have with both Luke and Jake were flashing back in my mind. My eyes filled with tears... I want all three of us to be happy... I just want that...

Luke's POV

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After dropping Sarah at her place, I drove really fast. I didn't feel like going to my cousin's house too. So, I stopped the car on the roadside and called my relatives to inform them that I won't be able to come today. Then I turned the vehicle and went home.

I was feeling so pathetic. I was planning to tell her that I am gay... But I never expected to tell her that I love someone... I don't know what made me tell her all this.

She is a smart girl... Honestly, she is one of the smartest girls I have ever met in my life. So, my only fear was, could she sort out who I love... I think I spoke too much... I revealed too many details...

Please, God! Don't let her think more about this... If she knows the truth, she will be devastated... I can't even imagine how she will react.

You are so stupid Luke... She just found happiness in her life. Your stupidity can ruin everything for her...

I was blaming my self and praying God that she won't think deeply about anything...

But making my worst fear a reality, I got a text from her...

"I want to meet you the first thing in the morning."

She knows!!!!

There is no doubt in that... You better prepare for it, idiot...

Yeah... I need a perfect plan... I must make her believe me. It won't be that easy. She feels us, both me and Jake... You can lie to a person who is not close to you, but when it comes to a person who is very close to your heart, it is so damn hard. But I need to do my best...

I need to make her believe every word I am going to say... I don't care what limits I have to break in that process...

Sarah's POV

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Luke came to pick me up at around 7.30 in the morning.

"Where you want to go?" he asked after I got into his car.

"Somewhere we can talk freely..." I replied.

"Let's go to my house..." he said.

I agreed. He drove us to his house. Both of us were extremely quiet throughout the drive...

This is the first time I came to his house. The house looked almost like Jake's house. Small but luxurious.

"Sit..." he said, showing me the sofa.

"You need something to eat? I have some sandwiches..." he said.

Fu** the sandwiches. I just want to talk to you. I wanted to say... But I was so hungry too... I was so close to vomiting with my empty stomach.

So, I nodded.

After a few minutes, he brought me some sandwiches and coffee.

We ate in silence.

"Give me, I will wash..." he said, taking the plate from my hand.

Carrying our plates and mugs, he went to the kitchen. I followed him.

He was washing the plates, paying his full attention. Like it was the most complicated job in this world. He is obviously trying to buy more time. But I can't let him... I couldn't get any sleep all night... I want answers... "It is Jake, isn't it?" I asked, trying my very best to be strong.

"What?" he asked after a small pause. He was still turning his back to me. He was still cleaning those damn plates and mugs...

"The person you love... It is Jake, am I right?" I asked again.

"What?" he said again. But this time he was laughing.

"Why are you laughing?" I asked annoyingly.

"What else should I do?" he asked, still laughing.

"You have to answer what I asked..." I said.

"It is not him, Sarah..." he said. But he was still washing those plates and mugs. Is he going to wash them until they get disappear?

I went to him and pulled his hand.

"Look at me..." I said firmly.

"Let me finish this first..." he said.

"No!!! Look at me!!!" I yelled.

He seemed to be startled with my voice. He dried his hands from tissues and turned to me.

"Okay, madam..." he said with a sweet smile.

"Look at my eyes..." I demanded.

He looked deeply into my eyes.

"Tell me, Luke... It is Jake, isn't it? Please don't try to fool me..." I said.

He stared at me for a few seconds, and then he smiled.

"No, Sarah... It is not Jake..." he said, keeping his eyes on mine.

"Don't lie to me, Luke... You love him. You love him more than anything else..." I screamed.

"Yes... I love him..." he said calmly.

I felt like my heart stopped for a second. I wanted him to tell this, didn't I? But hearing it from him is harder than I ever expected.

"But not as you think..." he added.

What?

"I know him since I was an infant... I grew up with him. I basically did everything together with him. So, how can I not love him? He is more like a twin brother to me..." he said.

"So, the person you talked about yesterday... It is not Jake?" I asked confusedly.

"Are you crazy, Sarah? How can you even think about something so stupid? Can you ever think of your twin brother as your lover? Same goes with me for Jake..." he said.

"No... It cannot be... You are still trying to hide the truth from me. Luke, listen... I want to hear the truth... I am not an idiot... You clearly said how much you love him. You are willing to stay single for your entire life for that person... I can't think of anyone you love that much other than Jake..." I said.

"I love Jake a lot... Really a lot... I am willing to do anything for him, no matter what it costs me... But I love him as a brother... As a friend... It is totally different from the love I have for this other person..." he said, smiling.

"Okay, let's say you are telling the truth... But then why you can't tell us who it is? Jake has shared all his secrets with you... I have done the same for you... So, I can't see any reason why you can't tell us other than the person you love is Jake..."

"Sarah, it is not Jake... Why you can't just believe me? You are driving me really crazy..." he said in an annoying voice.

"You are the one who drives me crazy, Luke... I couldn't sleep at all last night... You guys hide so many things from me... But I don't bother you asking about them... But this... This I must know... Luke, please... Tell me the truth..." I said again, holding both of his hands...

"I am telling the truth, Sarah... You think I can lie to you while looking at your eyes... I love you, Sarah... I can't lie to people I love..." he said gently.

"Then why you can't tell us who it is?" I asked, while my eyes filled with tears...

"I can't tell you because even I feel embarrassed about my feelings towards him... Both of you know him so well... I don't want to feel uncomfortable when I am with all of you together..." he said.

"You don't have to feel embarrassed or uncomfortable in front of us, Luke... You know so well how much we love you..." I said.

"You won't say so if you know who that person is... Jake is the same... He is going to be really pissed off if he knew..." he said, removing his hands from me, and walked towards the living room. "Luke..." I shout at him while walking behind him.

"We are never going to be judgmental about anything related to you... You are being afraid for no reason..." I said.

He sat on the sofa. He was staring blankly at the wall... His face was totally expressionless... I couldn't understand anything... I really thought it is Jake... But now with what he said, I am shaken... Yet, I can't totally believe him... I can't really think of anyone he loves, that we won't approve... Wait... Did I really thought about approving... A person both me and Jake will not approve...

My whole body started to tremble... God! I can think of a person that suits this... But no... There is no way Luke can love him... That can never happen, right...

But I have to make everything clear...

"Is that Shane then?" I asked after a long pause... Even I couldn't believe I had the strength to tell his name...