A Girl’s Diary
Chapter 44 - One Way Ticket To Hell

I tried to calm down but failing while my thoughts drifted. What if Ron noticed who was under the mask?!

Nah! He was too dumb to notice. I mean, he ditched me for weeks without as much as a text while I was that awesome girl. I mean c'mon I would totally date me! Maybe that was a lie but still, he ditched me for fame.

I fiddled with my fingers thinking about all the possibilities that could never be.

"Cinnamon," Ron said cutting me out of my thoughts. I gave him a smile before putting my hand in his and heading inside together.

The blinding lights of cameras made me grin and lean into him even further making him smile. I wanted to punch that smile off his stupidly handsome face. Ugh!

As expected, the announcement caused a stir among the reporters invited. The rest of the night was spent with me touring around socializing with people while Ron was pestered with questions from the guys in the band.

All in all, it was hands down the worst night in my life!

As I walked back home, my legs carried me to my partner in crime, Tommy!

He was sitting on the swing in their backyard. That little devil that got me in trouble... well Aurora did most of it but it was the final straw.

I sat down next to him not uttering a single word. I was so mad and I didn't even know why.

"Okay, what the hell is going on with you?" He asked out of the blue.

I shrugged making him give me a pointed look. "Cinnamon has to fake-date Ron while Elena broke up with him and hates his guts... nothing much!" Was that the right thing to do? Jumping to conclusions?! "Why is your life so disastrous?"

"I ask myself the same question every day, buddy." It was silent again for a few minutes.

He huffed. "Do you still like him?"

"No. Yes... no!" I sighed in frustration. I really wanted to hate him, I did but this stupid stupid heart wasn't having it.

"If you're hesitant, shouldn't you talk to him before making assumptions." I glared at him. "I'm not telling you what to do and it does seem bad but maybe there's am an explanation to all this mess." "Maybe if he continues lying, there will be an explanation." I murmured barely hearing myself over the wind.

"But last time there was an explanation."

"That was a lie!" I said feeling tears but I blinked them away. Even now, I still believed him...

Tommy engulfed me in a bear hug. "You know I heard this thing before it says 'If you wanted it go for it, take a risk don't always play it safe or you'll die wondering" He was silent before adding "And fuck it if this doesn't apply for you but you don't have to be afraid of the heartbreak. It already happened darling."

"You sound like an old lady!" I chuckled softly.

"Well, that must be a one hell of a cool lady."

"Can I at least make him jealous before trying to talk to him?"

"Hell yeah, I'm up for any drama." He grinned a wolfish grin and I knew he was up to no good!

Perfect!

The next day I woke up to Tommy jumping up and down. Who could wake up that happy, I'd never know!

"What now?" I groaned shielding my eyes from all the light. I could feel my heart pulsing into my temples. Ugh, fuck headaches in the morning. Fuck the morning. Fuck life!

"I didn't want to tell you this yesterday but we have to meet someone." He was overjoyed. Not a good sign!

"Who?"

"Just get up, you look... there are no words to describe this really."

I knew I'd look like Anna from Frozen!

He pushed me up and into the bathroom. I decided that taking a shower would be the best thing to do since I wouldn't dare brush my tangled hair otherwise. But then halfway through my shower when the headache was starting to lessen I realized I wasn't at my freaking home.

The dull throbbing in my head was so persistent like a ticking bomb, I couldn't think for a while where I was or what I was doing... was I hit by a bus? Cause it sure felt like I did.

Wait... waaait! Oh my God!

How did I get to Tommy's room?!

And wait a second was I wearing his shirt?!

No, wait. That was beyond the normal dramatic me. I always wore his shirts!

It always drove him mad and I loved making him mad. Plus where would I get over-sized boy shirts to sleep in otherwise?

What happened last night?

And just like that everything came back.

I got drunk!

Even after I swore I wouldn't touch alcohol again after that incident with Ron, I decided last night it was a good idea to drink away my sorrows.

More embarrassing memories came over... I kept crying and crying saying how much I hate him but love him too while Tommy was giving me more tissues and looking like he'd burst in laughter. But then when I stopped crying I started dancing and saying incoherent nonsense and I think Tommy took a video of this! Dammit!

"Idiot. You're an idiot." I told myself as I stared into my reflection.

"Tommy," I shouted.

"Are you done?"

"Yeah, can you go get me clothes." I almost batted my lashes, not that he'd see it anyways.

"Already did. Your mom was happy to help." Gulp! "I'll leave them out here and get out, yeah?" I heard him say before I heard a door closing.

I got out and I nearly cursed like a sailor when I saw the outfit. Why would my own mom want me to wear a skirt? I wasn't about to wear girls' clothes right? Right?

Ugh! What options did I even have?

'Last night's pants that smelled like... just something disgusting or wearing something that belongs to Tommy which will make me look like a clown plus the chance of it falling was pretty damn big'. Yeah, I was wearing the skirt!

I gave myself a once over in the mirror, I looked hot! Which was part of the reason I didn't want to get out like this.

I got downstairs to be welcomed by a grinning Uncle Cody.

"Were you kids having a wild party last night?" He asked making me spill my coffee. I wanted to cry. Precious coffee was wasted. "Did you have a sleepover? Huh?" He wiggled his brows.1 "You're not suggesting that we were... eww... I can't even say it." Tommy said while I raised a brow.

"I'm not going even to comment on any of this," I said sipping my coffee.

"I'm not a reporter to give me this, honey." He smirked. "So when you two invaded my wine cellar did you get all steamy?" I wanted to snort. "I mean I'm all for you two dating and marrying."1 "I'm outta here!" I said raising my hands up in defeat.

"Yeah, let's get out, honey!" Tommy said patting his lashes at me like a cute little dog.

"Yeah, but I didn't say to do it in front of me, kids." Uncle Cody scolded but we were out and running away from him.

We got into his car and he took off. "Are you even going to tell me where we'll meet this mysterious person?" "Yeah, sure."

"Who's that even?"

"Yup." "Tommy!"

"Yeah."

"Are you even listening?"

"Sure."

"Do you like eating cockroaches?"

"Of course"

That was it.

"Aww... what was that for?"

"I was grabbing your attention?" I asked innocently.

"We're here anyway."

I followed him inside the restaurant as we got up the stairs Tommy whispered in my ear "Don't kill me, okay?"

He was already dead!

We approached a boy which bouncy hazelnut curls "Desmond! Hey man!" My eyes widened as Tommy hugged the guy.

Out of all people we could meet in the world, we met him?!

My one and only ex!

I was doomed.☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐