A Mysterious She-wolf
Chapter 19

Kavi's POV

Can you be happy and sad at the same time?

Yes, here I am!

Logan and Surya have found their mates the day after the war and they were glued to each other.Madhu and Vibha were friends from childhood and they belong to Crimson Moon pack whohappened to meet Logan and Surya in a pack festival. Madhu is Logan's mate; Vibha is Surya's mate.These two females were so sweet but possessive at the same time.

The females were too fast to apply for transfer. They met each other parents and everyone was sohappy. My friend and little cousin had found their other half and they are going to live their lifehappily. Surya privately apologised for his earlier behaviour and also stated how he and his wolf wasso much in love with Vibha and her wolf. But his wolf and he still feel protective of me and we feelbonded in some way. His mate understood about it without much drama but I could sense a hint ofpossessiveness in her eyes whenever Surya talk to me. I noticed Logan's orange scent mixed withstrawberries and noticed his mark on Madhu's neck. The way they look at each other with so muchlove makes me very happy. Surya being new to this, he is taking their relationship slow.

And my mom was staying home as much as possible and she was trying to compensate all theseyears by giving more attention to me. But I asked her to behave normally after a day and sheagreed. I can't act all the time being happy when deep down the mate bond was torturing me.Though her love makes me feel better for my sore mood caused by my mate.

Days were passing too quick but I had frozen without moving forward in my life. In two days, mymate getting engaged to Pooja and in three week time, they planned to get married. Even though Itry to be strong, I couldn't keep myself together. I got a mail to be present at the council tomorrow.And as I planned I spoke with Sezhiyan before five days. I still remember the event clearly.

A Flashback ~

After the trip with Dhaya, I finished my training and mind linked Sezhiyan that I want to meet himHe asked me to come to his office.

"What is that you want to talk to me, Kavi?"

He asked me with a frown and concern.

"Alpha, I knew your love for me. And I promised myself to tell you everything about me. Butyesterday, I didn't disclose my complete detail. And I didn't want to keep any more secrecy fromyou but this is about my personal life. So I thought it was enough to tell you to avoid unnecessaryconflicts. But I want you to keep this as a secret. Because I decided about my life and I want you torespect my decision.”

He looked at me calculatively and extended his hand to promise. Our palms met and he promisedto keep it as a secret and he won't even disclose it to his mate. I smiled in gratitude and pulled mymoonstone pendant over my t-shirt.

"After my grand parent's death, that witch was so grateful for them to give their own lives to saveher. So Zarina offered to give me whatever I want within her power. From the memories thatGrandpa has given me, I found many males not respecting the value of their mates. My mom's materaped her and another male whom she trusted had tried to take advantage over her, even while hismate was also alive.

I have noticed the mates rejecting each other for silly reasons. So I asked her to break the bond Ihave within me to my mate. She denied it and told she could not do some sinful thing like that.Then I asked her to give me something which would hide my bond and I could make my mate feelthe bond if I didn't have that thing. She was conflicted and afraid as she didn’t want to do the sin ofseparating the mates. However, she gave me this moonstone pendant and told that my matewouldn't recognise me till this pendant was with me but a simple touch would make him recogniseme and I should keep my physical distance with him.

Her idea is wolves won't keep distance after replaceing their mate, but she has no idea how stubborn Iam. I found that the idea isn't bad. So I accepted this pendant from Zarina."

I paused on seeing him getting angry.

"Are you out of mind, Kavi. What kind of crazy game is this? First, remove that thing from youMates are blessings, Kavi. You shouldn't do this. Remove it, now."

He yelled at me. But I could see how much he was concerned about me. I smiled sadly at him."Remember the promise, Sezhiyan. My mate is in our pack. I met him before two years at a roguetournament. He came there with our Logan. My wolf wanted him instantly and I felt our bondgetting alive. But he didn't recognise me. I wanted to know about him. But things happened and Ikept the secret within me. After the war, I decided to tell him everything and to apologise forkeeping him away all these days. My unfortunate time, he was in a hurry. He decided to go foranother she-wolf. Yeah, Akhilan is my mate. But he is no different from my mom's mate. So pleasedon't tell anyone about it. Let's see what destiny has for me.”

There was a lot of emotions from Sezhiyan. He inhaled a deep breath with shock at first when I saidthat my mate belongs to our pack. His eyes showed recognition when I described him. He looked atme in pure torture when I confirmed his doubt and compare him to my mom's mate.

"He had waited for you a very long time, Kavi. He had agreed on this arrangement only because ofhis mother's pressure. Tell him the truth, Kavi. I want you both to be happy.”

He asked me almost in requesting tone. I nodded my head no.

"If he really wants to be with me, he would have made his parents understand how important hismate is for him, Sezhiyan. They are werewolves too. And they are mates. So they would understandif he stood stubborn. But he didn't. He didn't fight for me. He gave up so easily. I am too easy forhim to give up."

I sighed and continued.

"If he could replace another she-wolf for his mate, how do I expect his loyalty to me? I can't trusthim, Sezhiyan. His every action would make me suspect him. We can't live a normal life. It was ratherbetter to live alone, Sezhiyan. All I want is a peaceful life. Please understand me. I knew you think ofme as your daughter. Would you want your daughter to live a life with someone who didn't wait forhis mate and had agreed to marry another she-wolf?"

I spoke without hiding any of my emotions. He sighed in frustration.

"You said you are feeling the bond alive. So you will feel when they mate. It's pure torture, Kavi. Andyou could never get the life that could be only possible with one’s mate. I can't even imaginereplacing Mithra with someone else. How are you going to live the rest of your life? How was yourwolf reacting?"

He asked with concern.

"Yes! I will feel them. I need to see if it is possible to break our bond. Or I have to go somewhereelse to stay. As you said I can't think of any other male. My wolf blocked me for a day. But she wasalways so supportive and understood the reality with maturity. But I knew she had a secret hopethat her mate would come back to her. But the truth can't be denied!"

I said to him with an exhausted sigh. He nodded his head.

"I respect your decision, Kavi. But please reconsider it for me! All I want is a happy life for you. He isa good man. He would give you a great life."

I smiled at him and bid bye to him and walked out thinking whether is it even necessary toreconsider my decision. I wasn't watching my steps and almost ran into Akhilan. I was breathlessand my wolf made me take as much as his scent possible. And it was doing so many chemicalreactions in me.

"Sorry! I didn't see you coming!"

I tried to walk past him. But he stopped me blocking the way by extending his hand. He has a lookof concern.

"Why are you walking like a dead person? I thought you would be back to cheerful Kavi afterreuniting with your mom. But you are looking worse than before! Do you want anything?"

He asked me with a frown.

"You"

My mouth got its own brain and I said it before I could realise. I coughed hard covering as if I didn'tcomplete the sentence.

"You didn't know anything about me! And I am happier than ever because I gained my mother'slove again. You stop worrying about me and concentrate on your fiancee.”

My mouth was bitter after speaking to him like that. I could tell he was about to deny my wordsfrom his body language but the screeching voice of Pooja interrupted us.

"Oh my sugar cup, I need a favour from you. Come and help me to select our engagement dress.Eww... Why are you talking to this bitch? I don't want my mate to speak with such a whore!"

My wolf came took control to my surprise and she made me take a threatening step towards Pooja.I knew my eyes were shining silver.

"Keep that dirty mouth to yourself. I don't have any restrictions from my human anymore. I won'thesitate even once to tear you limb by limb. If you haven't seen me tearing my mom's mate likethat, ask him."

I realised my wolf was softening her eyes at his mention. So I took the control back. She was lookingat me in pure horror. If she has so much fear, why was she behaving like a bitch?

I palmed my forehead and walked past them. But I could feel his gaze following me.

A End of the flashback ~

Akhilan tried to talk to me in the past four days whenever he was away from his fiancee or hismother, but I avoided him at all costs. Everyone started asking me why I was dull. I was trying mybest to act normal but I couldn't help but go into a sad mood whenever I was alone. And thesleeplessness was evident with my dark circles and no cosmetics was enough to hide the redness inmy eyes. I was going to my teddy's spot daily at the time of Sunset. I would lie there in my wolfform for hours. If only my teddy was my mate, I would be the happiest person in this world. But Ican't question Moon god.

Once my mom took me to hunt in our wolf form. Her wolf showered me with her love. Mukilan andDhaya were busy with pack works because Sezhiyan had planned to step down in a few months andbeing Logan found his mate, these two were doing the works of him.

I started feeling pretty lonely though I knew everyone cares about me. Even at this busy schedule,everyone showed their love for me by constantly looking after me whenever they could. I startedusing my bike because Surya's mate goes to the same college as us. He would behave usually insidethe class but the time we had together had considerably reduced. Also, I don't want to be the fifthwheel. And I won't deny the burning jealous within me on seeing my mate with Pooja. I just wantedto go far away from here!

After today's college, Alpha asked me to meet him immediately. I went to the office and foundVijayan, Beta of Blood warriors pack and Luna Shrini there. I gave the two a nod as a courtesy andsmiled at Iniyan. Iniyan jumped on me and hugged me tightly. I quickly connected to him andhealed his one-week-old bruises. He gasped then giggled.

"Hey buddy, did you grow big in seven days?"

I asked him happily. Iniyan looks a bit healthy than last time.

"Hey, Kavi! Yes. Daddy and meanie llamaran were not at home. So Mommy feed me well but shesaw all my wounds."

He whispered to me like he was telling secrets but I could tell everyone heard it with theirsupernatural hearing.

"Is it so? Now show Mommy you are okay now."

I whispered back. His eyes lit up and he ran lifting his shirt and proudly presented his flawless skin.Luna looked at me with gratitude and walked up to me.

"Iniyan, go out and play with other kids. Mommy will call you back after this meeting. Be a goodboy. Okay?"

He nodded and went out excitedly.

She stroked my head in a motherly way and looked at Sezhiyan. He nodded his head and stood up."They wanted to speak to you, princess. I am going to check with my mate. Tell me when you aredone.”

He walked out leaving me in confusion.

"Tell me, Luna, how can I help you?"

I seated myself next to them.

"Hello, Alpha! I'm Vijayan, Blood warriors Beta. We are here to ask for your help."

I looked at him with wide eyes. Luna kept her hand on my shoulder and smiled at me.

"When I was seventeen, a group of rogues attacked our pack. They cunningly killed Alpha and Beta'sfamily. I'm the daughter of third in command. They killed my parents too. But we managed toeliminate the rogues with the help of neighbouring pack’s troops. I was so afraid of theresponsibilities and the threat hanging over us. I inherited the Alpha powers because of thehierarchy.

One evening when I was in my wolf form and running across the territory, pack's head warriors triedto rape me. Krishan, a warrior from Black Lake pack, saved me and being so naive, I spilt everythingto him and cried on his shoulder. I didn't know he was a power-hungry person but he was a goodperson to some extent. He took care of me so well. He announced that he was my mate and askedme to mark him. As the top rank people died, I have no one to consult and I trusted him. And forthe wellness of the pack, I sacrificed my life with my mate and marked him as my mate. Becausewithout a proper Alpha, there would be lots of threats for me and my pack. I never happened tomeet my destined mate though.

He trained everyone very hard and made us fearless with the strong army. He never involved me inthe administration of the pack. He ran it in his desire. But as an Alpha, he did a good job. He wasfrustrated when I have gone into heat and I allowed him to mate with me. Ilamaran was born. Hetreated me well and I was satisfied with that. Then after a few years, we got Iniyan. We loved Iniyanvery much.

But when he didn't shift, things started getting hectic. Everyone started treating him differently. But Ifailed as a mother because I didn't even notice my baby's struggle for the past four years. Theydistanced me from Iniyan telling he needs the training to shift as his wolf and I agreed to makeIniyan happy. I never knew Krishnan cheated on me and did such horrible thing to his destined mateuntil you said them in that fight.

llamaran was always so bossy and tries to imitate his father. He strongly believed in mates and nowhe was broken and feeling that all his life was a lie. He despises his father now. llamaran'scommands were never as strong as his father's. Now I knew the reason. Because of you the rightfulheir of our pack. That's why your command made all the wolf submit and they returned at the war.Now the Pack needs you, Kavi. The pack is like a headless person now. Vijayan and I are managingfor now. But we need our leader. We need you to claim what is rightfully yours. You are born to leadus.

We knew this is too much. But you can't deny that you are our Alpha. And the pack need its Alphanow. Think about it and make a good decision soon, dear.”

She explained to me everything in a calm manner making my head spin.

What? Am I the rightful Alpha? Oh my Moon! I am his first child. So his Alpha qualities would havebeen in my blood. Is that why I could beat him?

Luna and Beta stood up at my silence and left me there thinking. After a few minutes, Sezhiyancame in and sat next to me.

"If you are going to let your mate go, at least accept this leadership. Your wolf knew how to leadthem. And this is one good opportunity as you asked. The distance would keep the bond less activeOver a period of time, you might get a chance with the other one. You can't live alone all your life.Everyone needs someone to hold on. To love and to hold us when no one was there. Mates usuallydo that. But... ARGH! Why you are complicating your life Kavi?"

He held my hand and his talk started in soft tone but ended in frustration.

"The chapter of my mate was closed, Sezhiyan. Even if he comes back, I don't think I can accept him.He wasn't only breaking my heart but also he was participating in breaking the heart of Pooja'sMate. Leave that! I didn't even grow up like a normal girl. I don't know anything about this Alphathing. I need time to think."

I walked out of his office and found Luna Shrini speaking to my mom. It seems like they are okay ateach other presence. After all, they both were betrayed by the same person. And also I learntshocking news that they had planned to visit the council to meet Krishnan and llamaran. I don'tknow whether they are going to confront him but I could tell both of them cares for him. Stupidmate bond!

I need to prepare myself before meeting the council members. Let's see what happens there!

[To be continued...]