Alpha Dominic
Chapter 51

Still Dominic's POV

I walked out, not because I couldn't beat the s**t out of him but because deep within me, I knew that he had said the truth, I pushed her into the arms of another man. It's all my fault, if I wasn't such an a*****e, there is no way she would have been with him. I had no reason to throw a tantrum over this issue, it's all my f*****g fault and now I have to sit calm and bear the consequences of my actions.

I walked out of the bar, my heart still burning in anger. I saw Harriet and Beth standing in the hallway, but I don't have anything to say to them, I'm too pissed to think straight, I'm too f*****g pissed to act rationally. I just walked past everyone, walking down to my room in silence. I'm not going to fight over her, no, I won't do it, I have absolutely no right to fight over her. If being with another man is going to make her happy, then I'm cool with it. I got into my room, shutting the door behind me as I thought about everything that has happened between us since she walked in through that door.

First I had wanted her to acknowledge and accept our bond, then I found out that the has an alliance with King Ashford and I acted like a complete a*****e by pushing her away, rejecting her so rudely. Even after the rejection, she never gave up on me, she still tried to prove her innocence and prove to me that she has nothing to do with King Ashford, she went as far as poisoning my generals to draw out his moles, putting her life at risk in the process. It's true that her plans didn't go well because the mole outsmarted her got to the generals, killing them off for good. But the fact remains that she tried to get to the bottom of this issue, she tried to capture the mole while I was busy screwing an omega in my office.

Damn, I'm such an i***t.

How on earth could I be so stupid. I should never have pushed her away, I shouldn't have treated her with so must hate and disgust. I pushed her into the arms of an i***t, a complete asshole. I had thought that she would fight harder to be with me, I thought she would do anything to be with me. When I eavesdropped on her conversation with Harriet, I heard her saying that she would do whatever it takes to make our relationship work out well. She had said that she was willing to do anything to make me come back to her, why did she give up so quickly, what could have changed her mind?

I guess she must have given up on me when she saw me banging Bianca in my office. What was I even thinking, why did I give in to that temptation? I'm sure it's definitely not about the pleasure because I got no pleasure from banging that w***e, I was f*****g thinking about Bethany all the while as I kept f*****g her. It's not about the pleasure and it's definitely not love, it's got to be my stupid ego. I just did it to satisfy my ego and punish the b***h for always throwing herself at me. Now I've pushed her away, now she is in the arms of another, how the hell do I live with that, how can I live my life without her?

I want her in my life, not because she is my mate from the moon goddess, no, that is not the only reason. I want her because I love her, I love every damn thing about her. I want her, everything about her makes me love her over and over again. Her fiery, stubborn personality makes her even more desirable, and it makes me love her even more. I just can't let her go, I'll never give up on her, she is mine, mine!!!

"Who the f**k is that and what the hell do you want with me?

Get the hell out of here!!!" I yelled in anger when I heard someone knocking on my door. I'm not in the mood to speak to anyone, I just want to be left alone, I want to be left with my thoughts. There is nothing anyone can say or do to cheer me up right now, I just want to be left alone. Who knows, if I stay here thinking about it, I could come up with a way to get her back.

I heard a silent footsteps approaching me and I got even more pissed as I imagined who the asshole could be. My boys know better than to approach me when I'm in a foul mood. I am not on my best behavior when I'm in one of these moods, I could hurt someone, or worse still, I could angrily kill someone that I'm not supposed to. It is always best to leave me to myself when I'm having a bad day, or when I'm in this mood, that is why I'm surprised that someone would dare to come into my room after witnessing what just happened in the hall between Miguel and I.

I listened as the intruder approached, it sounded like the hills of a woman. God help me if it turns out to be Bianca because I'm going to struggle her before she gets a word out of her f*****g mouth. She is the reason I'm in this shitty situation, if it weren't for her stupid seduction, I wouldn't have decided to punish her that way. I sat up on the bed, watching the entrance to my room, waiting to pounce on the intruder if it turns out to be someone as annoying and irritating as Bianca. I stilled when her scent hit me so hard as she got closer to the door, it's her, Bethany, what the hell is she doing here, why has she come?

"Please let me in." she muttered softly when she got to the door. I had even forgotten that I locked the door when I got in, and here I was waiting for an intruder to walk through a locked door. She spoke in a tiny whisper because she knew that I could hear her clearly through the closed door. I wonder how she knew that the bedroom is not soundproof. I made my floor to be sound proof, there is no way that anyone outside of my sitting room could hear what is happening in here, but once you're inside, you would definitely be heard, even through closed doors.

"Please Dom, let me in." she spoke out once more when I didn't respond to her the first time. I got up and opened the door, then I turned back immediately to sit in my position, glaring at her as she stood by the door looking so nervous.

"What do you want?" I asked her sternly when she didn't say a word for a good few minutes. She had simply stood there, playing with her fingers, ignoring my eyes. I just couldn't sit there looking at her, I can't gaze at her for so long without getting turned on, that's how much I love her. Merely looking at her could give me a hard-on, and that is exactly what is happening right now. I'm as hard as a rock and it's so uncomfortable to be starting at her when my d**k is so hard. I was looking at her, but I'm not seeing her clearly. My mind was conjuring different thoughts in my head that is f*****g driving me crazy. In my head, I could see her in my arms as I kiss her so passionately, but even in my head our passionate moment didn't last for long because I got replaced with that i***t. At first, it was me that was kissing her, but then it changed drastically and I couldn't see myself anymore, rather, it was Miguel that I saw kissing her and it infuriated me even more as I glared furiously at her, making it known to her that I am as pissed as hell. "What the f**k are doing here Bethany, did your date reject you as well, did you come running back to me because you got rejected a second time?" I asked her mockingly, making her eyes go wide in shock as she glared back at me. I have no idea what I was doing right now, I mean, I'm supposed to be begging her to forgive me and take me back, but here I was mocking and losing her off even more. It seems like a certain spirit usually possesses me whenever she is around me, I tend to act like a complete asshole. I was staring closely at her, her mood changed a bit when I said those words to her, she looked like she was about to flare up and respond back to me, but she calmed down almost immediately, looking down to avoid my eyes as she said, "I'm sorry." She muttered softly, as she stood still by the door, her eyes still looking away from me.