Bullied By Twin Alphas
Chapter 29: Moon Goddess Territory

It was like the ocean swelled in my ears. I could hear my heartbeat and my breathing was slow.

In a coma? What does that mean exactly?

Dash’s voice was the only one that broke through, and I jumped up. Shock was written all over the nurses face.

“What do you mean ‘in a coma’?” I whispered. I almost thought she didn’t hear me, but she scanned over the clipboard in front of her.

“Well, when we brought him in, he had almost no b***d, so first we had to do b***d transfusions, and that was a slow process.” She began explaining as she read. “Then, while we were doing b***d transfusions, we had to clean his wounds. At that point in time, I do have to tell you that he flatlined at least three times.”

Wyatt wrapped his arm around my leg, pulling me close to him and holding his face against my thigh. Xander had grabbed my hand and was stroking his thumb across my knuckles. I squeezed Xander’s hand, my other hand running through Wyatt’s hair, trying to comfort us all.

“After we finally got him stabilized, we continued the transfusions as we sewed his tail back on. We are currently unsure if his ears will ever be the same. To keep infection from setting in, we had to clean and stitch his throat and neck in some places. And his sides have been stitched as well-“

“When can I see him?” I interrupted. This list was long. She glanced up at me, startled.

“Miss Winters, you have to remember-“ she began.

“I don’t have to remember s**t. Where is my mate?!” I was getting more angry, more frustrated, more scared by the minute.

“Lily, please.” Wyatt said weakly. I quieted down, Dash still urging me to go to Xavier.

“I’m sorry Miss Winters. It will still be at least a couple hours until we can turn him human. We have to keep a watch on his wounds and make sure they’re healing. As long as his heart is beating, there’s a small chance he’ll come back. But he has no brain function as of this moment.”

I sobbed softly, nodding as she walked away. I sat back between Xander and Wyatt, crying into my hands. They both put their arms around me as I sobbed, rubbing my back, arms, legs, just trying to comfort me. Of course their presence alone comforted me, but it wasn’t enough. I didn’t feel right without Xavier, too.

[XAVIER POV]

My eyes opened to nothing I had ever seen before. It was pitch black, but my body was laying against a cool surface, my skin cooling down from the fire it felt not long before. A dewy mist floated over the surface, rolling over my skin in little waves. I turned my head and watched them, laying there for goddess only knows how long.

I wasn’t in pain. My breathing was fine. My heartbeat was regular, and I could hear just fine. My hair scratching against the surface proved that to me. Wait, this surface…is that grass? I rolled my body and put my palms against the ground. It was grass! I smiled, feeling comforted as the mist kept rolling. When I looked up, the night sky was clear and full of stars, the full moon shingling brightly. I heard the bubbling of a river and looked to my left to see water flowing lightly, babbling across the rocks. Trees sparsely lined the stream, large and bushy, their leaves blowing in the softest breeze.

Is this what was after life? My heart squeezed in pain to know that Lily wasn’t here with me. Tears streamed from my eyes, and I almost couldn’t bare it. To give myself some time to come to terms with everything, I began following the stream.

I’m not sure how long I followed it. Was there a time here? The moon never seemed to move, so I wasn’t sure. The mist continued to roll over my feet gently, almost lapping against my skin. I realized I was naked and completely vulnerable, and I stopped to look around. Was there no one else here? Was I all alone for the rest of…time?

I continued walking, keeping an eye out for anything besides the mist. After goddess knows how long, I began to hear a soft humming. I thought it was the breeze, but as I continued to follow the sound, it became louder, turning into a melody. I stopped for a moment to listen. The rush of water added to the melody, which made me feel safe. I felt secure, wanted, cared for. I began following the sound at a quicker pace, the song becoming louder but never stopping.

Not too long after I first heard the song, I came across a clearing. It was beautiful, with multiple different blooming flowers, the mist rolling through them. The stream led into a large pond, the water crystal clear, reflecting the always dusk back at the sky. A large round stone sat above the pond, but there was a lady on the stone.

She was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. She had long, flowing silver hair that circled around her and rested off the edge of the rock, with what seemed like faeries flitting in and out of it. Her body was slender and toned, her skin a beautiful cream color, and I realized she was naked. The melody was coming from her, and she had her eyes closed as she hummed and played with her hair.

“Excuse me?” I said, and she held up a finger, signaling me to wait as she continued humming. I sat and listened, waiting patiently for her to finish. By the time she was done, I was laying at the edge of the water, staring at the sky.

“What can I help you with my child?” Her voice was like a million voices all in one, all moving in sync. I turned around and stood, surprised. Our eyes met, and I gasped as I stared into hers. Her entire eyeball was pitch black, but they were full of stars and galaxies. As her eyes moved with my every moment, so did the galaxies and stars. She had a warm smile, the smile of a mother, and it enveloped me in love.

“M-moon Goddess?” I whispered, falling to my knees. She smiled down at me, and I bowed as close to the ground as I could.

“Stand, my child. Please, tell me why you are here.” She quipped, the voices ringing like an angelic choir in my ears and through my head at the same time.

“I…I don’t know where here is, Moon Goddess.” I stood and placed one hand over my chest and one behind my back, keeping a strong position. This made her smile wider.

“This is my land. The land of the dead and the land of those to be born. An endless cycle that must be watched carefully.” She said, a galaxy in her eye exploding. The sky lit up in shades of blue and pink and purple, almost like the Aurora Borealis.

“Then I believe I am here because I have passed on, Moon Goddess.” I said, lowering my eyes as tears fell again. It hurt so much to not have Lilith here with me, and my chest squeezed again.

“Come here and stand before me Xavier Woods.” She said, and I quickly moved to stand in front of her. As she stood, her body shifted like a hologram before finally settling in place with both hands on either side of my head. She stared into my eyes, and it felt like she was searching through my soul. She smiled at me, and I watched as a cluster of galaxies split in different directions, the sky lighting up with red and orange and green colors.

“Lilith Winters.” She said, the bells of her voice chiming. More tears fell, but I nodded.

“The love of my life. And it hurts that I can’t be with her.” I said softly, ashamed to look at her.

“She is well protected and will be well taken care of.” She said, her hands coming to rest on my arms.

“I know Wyatt and Xander will lay down their lives for her. I trust all of her friends and family, and my friends and family to always care for her and be there when she needs them. I wanted to be the one to do all of that. Unfortunately, I’ll never see her beautiful face or hear the love in her voice when she says my name again.” I sobbed, breaking down finally.

My stepfather had always raised me that men never cry. We battle our emotions out, no matter what they were. But I couldn’t do that. I wouldn’t lie to the Moon Goddess herself, and I couldn’t lie to myself. I cried at her feet, letting all of my pain and frustration and anger about the situation show through my tears.

Something I couldn’t put my finger on was the fact that my tears created a stream into the pond. Moon Goddess watched quietly, her hands clasped in front of her. When I had calmed down, she pulled a wooden bowl literally from thin air and dipped it into the pond, filling it with a small amount of water. She turned towards me with the bowl in her hands, placing it in my hands. I looked at her questioningly, and she smiled another safe smile, bringing me peace.

“Do you love Lily with all your heart?” She asked, and I nodded.

“Yes, Moon Goddess. More than I love myself. More than I love my pack. Without Lily, there is no reason for Xavier. But without Xavier, she will do just as well.” I told her, accepting the facts. She nodded, motioning for me to drink from the bowl.

“Remember that and remain fair, my sweet child. You are and always will be apart of her world.” Her voice faded as everything became dark once again. The bowl fell from my hands, and my body fell into the pond, the water filling my lungs. The dusky sky was the last thing I saw before the blackness completely enveloped me again.