Bullied Mate Of The Lycan Kings
Chapter 143

Lily's

POV

Was I too harsh on him?

That was the question I asked myself the entire time I sat in the bathtub. I let my head fall back, making an angry sound at back of my throat.

Shortly after going off on Aiden, I had gone back to the gym where cleaners had quickly swooped in to clean the blood from the walls and floor and the injured had been sent to the infirmary. Zac and Ren had decided to go with some of the guards to scout the area and just as Ren had been about to leave, he stopped in front of me, jeering my thoughts on why neither him nor Zac were going to talk some sense into Aiden.

"I promise you that he's already beating himself up more than Zac or I would. Aiden is hard on everyone but he has always been the hardest on himself."

That had made me wonder if all of the words that I had said to Aiden had just been adding salt to an already infected injury and even when I finally came out of the bathroom, slipping into Zac's shirt that I had stolen from his room which was so long, it stopped at my knees, I couldn't seem to shake off my worry.

My anger had subsided and all that was left in its wake was the stale taste of regret. The bath made me feel a little better especially when I found that in the drawer were new underwear that looked to be the perfect size for me.

"Thank you, Zac." I whispered, heading to jump on the bed and rolling around in it. Zac's house was big enough that all of us got a room and while Rhea and Chelsea had opted to share one, I didn't mind being alone in mine. It gave me time to think.

And just like that, my thoughts went back to Aiden. I felt bad for going off at him like that. What he did was wrong but I didn't need to have gone as far as comparing him to his uncle. He could never be like Víctor Vanderbilt and that must have struck him the hardest.

I sighed and rose from the bed like a very grumpy corpse rising from the dead.

Stomping around in my room, I huffed in frustration and finally grew a pair, deciding to go and replace Aiden. This time I would try to be as calm as possible.

"Control your temper," I whispered over and over again as I opened the door to leave and froze because Aiden was standing right in front of me, his hand raised as if he was just about to knock.

Ren was right. If anything, Aiden looked far worse than the way he did at the gym. His eyes were swollen like he had cried and he looked even more tense than before. His hair was wet like he had just come out the shower and if he wasn't looking like someone in mourning, I would have described him to be looking like someone who had walked out of a GQ magazine photoshoot given how handsome he still looked.

He was wearing a big black tshirt that stretched across his chest and broad shoulders with black slacks and he was panting hard like he had practically run to this place and I started wondering whether it was a good idea to speak to him right now after the last time we saw each other.

Without saying a word, he walked into the room, towering over me and causing me to backstep a few step. The sound of the door slamming shut was louder than it should have been.

We stood staring at each other in the dimly lit room, the atmosphere thick with tension that was so taut, only something sharp could break it and when he took a step forward, I immediately took a step back, almost like it was reflex.

The more steps he took forward, the more I walked back until the back of my legs hit the bed, causing me to freeze while he towered over me. I decided to sit and see what he would do and my mouth fell open, my heart picking up speed when he knelt in front of

me.

I tried to meet his eyes and he looked away, his entire body tense and his jaw tight and I realized that the reason he couldn't look me in the eyes was because he felt guilty and ashamed.

Still watching for what he would do, my entire body aware of his presence and proximity, I froze when he took my hands and prushed his lips on my knuckles gently, pressing soft kisses to my skin and the action made my wariness fade immediately, understanding the apology in his gesture.

He's not good with words, I had come to realize, his gestures explain what his lips can't.

"Aiden," I whispered, "look at me."

And when he still wouldn't look up to meet my eyes, I took his face in my hands, forcing him to look at me.

"I'm sorry." He whispered and it was so low, I wouldn't have heard it if I wasn't so close to him but it was enough. It was more than enough. I could see all the emotions swirling behind those beautiful eyes and I couldn't resist. No, I couldn't resist Aiden even if I tried.

Leaning forward with my hands still cupping his face, I kissed him. Once, twice and the more times I kissed him, the more it felt like I was deep in the eye of a raging inferno. I felt it the minute the power dynamic changed and Aiden lifted himself from resting on his knees, taking over the kiss as he cupped my face and showed me exactly how it felt to be kissed to insanity.

He attacked me, pulling my lips into his, groaning and panting, whispering his apology into all our kisses.

By the time he finally let me up for air, we were both breathless and panting and he whispered against my lips.

"I don't deserve you." He rested his forehead against mine, panting softly, "fvck, I'll never deserve you. I'm a horrible person and I've done horrible things for no reason. I probably deserve all of the bad things that have happened to me. I'm no better than Victor." "NO!" I hissed, about to tell him that he was better and I shouldn't have said that awful thing but he slammed his lips against mine again and all I could think about was him.

Aiden's POV

Lily's words had hit me like several poisoned arrows to my back and it was worse because she hadn't said those words because she heard others say them. She said it because it was what she truly believed and I heard what she didn't even say. I was a monster. I knew that I didn't deserve Lily. I wasn't like Ren who was the perfect man for her or Zac who had saved her life. I would probably never deserve her but I was too selfish to let her go.

The thoughts of my uncle murdering my parents was eating me alive and the pain felt like a heavy weight pressing me into the earth and burying me alive and the only thing that was still keeping me tethered to the world, the only thing that kept me from going insane, from slipping into the darkness was Lily.

I knew that if I listened to the darkness that fed on my pain and rage, the world would burn and I couldn't tell if I wanted to break everything in my path or dig my hand into my chest and rip out my own heart to rid myself of the pain I was feeling. Lily pulled away from the kiss abruptly and I was about to apologize if I came on too strong or if I had somehow hurt her when she nipped my bottom lip.

"Stay with me, Aiden. I can feel you holding back. I won't break. Give me everything, all of your pain, your rage, your frustration, all of it. I can handle it."

I wanted to. So badly, I wanted to do what she was asking for but wouldn't that make me a selfish man? Wouldn't that make me the same man I was trying hard to no longer be? Someone who took out his frustrations on others?

"I can't do that to you, Lily. I don't deserve you bearing this burden with me. I have given you reason and reason again to hate me, and no reason to love me. I'm not a good man. I'm someone that takes and keeps taking. I don't know how to give anything that doesn't hurt. I have hurt, I have killed and I have made a mess out of everything in my life... but," I cradled her sweet, soft face, stroked her delicate cheekbone with my trembling thumbs, it's amazing how I was blessed with something so beautiful and precious, something I didn't want to taint with my darkness.

I bowed my head. "I regret that for even a second, I hurt you with my hands, my words, my actions and intentions. I will spend my whole life making it up to you."

She gasped and I kissed her hard and fierce and it was supposed to be a soft kiss, a short one, but I had a taste of her and i just. Couldn't. Stop myself.

I'm no stranger to drugs, back when I was desperate to escape my reality, I dabbled into drugs to ease my pain and make me forget... but none has made me feel as high as Lily. She coursed through my veins, purifying my blood, knitting my bones, putting me back together piece by piece until I was more of her than myself.

She's healing me and she doesn't even know it.

My grip tightened around her as her tongue delved into my mouth, tangling with mine and taking me to new heights. I wanted to bathe in her scent, to drown in her essence and I never ever want to come up for air. I was funneling my frustration, my rage into her, instead of the world and the innocents on my part, completely losing my s**t and going crazy on her.

I pushed her into the bed, hovering over her, my heart, tripping and falling as it raced with hers.

She moved further into the bed, her entire body distracting me, her eyes making it terribly hard for me to remember why I wasn't good for her. I kissed her roughly, pressing my torso into her, her thighs encasing my hips and I lifted both hands above her head, locking her wrists with one hand while my other hand grazed her thighs as I pushed her shirt upwards.

My heart stuttered, my eyes widened as a curse escaped my lips. Her skin looked so soft, her br3asts perfect, two perfectly pink nipples aroused and pointing at me.

Fvcking hell.

I dropped my lips to her flesh, taking one perfect bud into my mouth and sucking hard on it like a fucking animal and when she moaned, my dick jerked, pleased with her strangled cries, her sweet sounds.

My fingers traced her over her panties, replaceing her already wet for me and searing hot heat fried my brains as I slipped my fingers between her smooth wet folds.

"Fvck baby, always so wet for me. You're such a good girl, you know that?" I groaned, pushing my fingers in.

She whimpered at that, her p***y clenching around my fingers and I pushed in deeper, groaning when her pussy suctioned around my fingers. She was so tight, so wet, I couldn't think straight, hot bursts of heat searing my brain.

She let out a whisper-scream, her back arching off the bed, hips rising to meet my fingers, greedy for me and my heart squeezed and throbbed with the need, so much need, to please her. To make her see, to show her just how much I wanted her, I needed her with

me.

"The darkness whispers to me every day. Like a song, Lily, waiting for me to finally drop down the ledge and become insane. Everyday I struggle to remember why I shouldn't burn the world to the ground. But now I don't anymore. Because you're the one thing keeping me grounded. And I know it makes me a bastard but I can't lose you."

I took her other n****e in my mouth, sucking hard and rolling the pebbled bud under my tongue as I increased my pace in and out of her until she was writhing and sobbing underneath me.

Stay with me. Stay with me. Fvcking stay with me. Don't leave me.

"Aiden," she cried, panting hard and when I raised my head, I saw her red, sweaty, her hair a mess, her lips swollen and plump and my heart swelled with a foreign feeling that made it race in my chest wall.

I growled, nipping hard and tasting her skin and leaving tiny little bite marks in its wake.

Mine. Mine. Mine!

"Aiden please," she groaned as I sucked her like a man dying of thirst and I was already imagining how it would feel to lick her wettest center when she pushed herself up on her elbows and kissed me, locking her legs around me as my d**k ground into her p***y, obstructed only by her panties. Her wet panties.

My restraint snapped and I took the neckline of her shirt, jerking it hard until it ripped into two, kissing her all over, fvcking worshipping her and hoping she can feel how sorry I am through my actions, hoping that she could feel my apology because I wasn't good with words.

I kissed down her body, kneeling at her feet and settling between her legs. I pressed my face between her thighs and inhaled deeply.

"Gods, Lily. You smell so good," I groaned, my d**k as hard as rock when I nuzzled her p***y over her underwear.

She whimpered, spreading her legs even wider for me, her fingers threading through my hair and guiding my head and I realized she gets off on praise.

Holy fvcking sh!t

I ripped her panties and gave her no warning as I started to eat her out.

She cried out my name, rising on her forearms and my eyes met hers as I dedicated my entire existence to eating her out.

Her jade green eyes were dizzy with l**t, her entire body trembling as I sucked in her c**t and stroked her cunt with my tongue, her taste bursting on my tongue. "This fvcking p***y," I groaned, grabbing her thighs and pressing my face deeper into her sweet cvnt. "Are you trying to kill me, baby?"

She broke into a panting gasp, grabbing fistfuls of my hair, her legs trembling, breathless incoherent words leaving her lips.

My eyes moved to see how her breasts jiggled as she tried to ride my tongue and all I wanted was not just for her to come but to take her to new heights. Dipping my fingers back into her and grinning at the way she relaxed at my touch, I dipped my fingers back out and slid it down to coat her other opening. She stilled, her thighs tightening around my head and I gently coated her tight ring of muscle with her wetness and c*m.

Grinning hard, I pushed her thighs apart, spreading her wide and grinned even harder at her pretty pink p***y on display for me, my c**k going crazy in my pants.

I dribbled saliva all over her cvnt, watching it drip down her p***y and further down, wetting the sheets under her.

"Aiden," she whimpered.

"It's okay, baby, you can take it." I rasped as I sucked her c**t into my mouth, my fingers tracing her a*****e.

"Oh, gods," she whimpered, her thighs trembling around my head.

I drenched her p***y with my saliva, teasing her hole until I was sure she was properly lubricated before dipping into her for the first time.

"Sh!t Sh!t Sh!t!" She cursed, tightening her thighs around my head.

I buried myself back between her legs, my tongue alternating between delving into her p***y and sucking on her c**t.

"You like don't, don't you?" I rasped against her, "such a filthy girl for me, aren't you?"

Her reply was an unintelligible whimper that had me keening and eating her out ravenously as my finger dipped in and out of her even tighter hole, the thought of taking her there nearly made me blow my load and I growled against her, pressing sloppy, open mouthed kisses all over her as I took her and took her and took her.

She started jerking against me and I pressed my free thumb on her clit, my tongue dipping in and out of her pvssy as my finger mirrored its movement in her a*s.

I didn't hesitate to whisper to her p***y as I licked and sucked, smiling hard as she jerked against me, her o****m hitting her with a force that had her screaming, her body vibrating like crazy, her back arching off the bed as she rode off her o****m until she was a quaking, breathless mess.

And through it all, I crawled into the bed with her and held her close, my heart tearing a hole through my chest and beating for her, only her.

I love you, I fvcking love you. I just want to be yours.

The truth was a quiet, beautiful thing that set my heart free. Like a weight was finally lifted off my chest.

Soon, we were quiet, except for the sounds of her quiet pants, the whispers of our hearts beating as one.

She took my face in her hands and kissed me hard and fvck, I fell for her all over again.

"Aiden," she whispered against my lips.

"Hmm?"

"Take me. Take all of me. I want you, I want to have all of you."

A bomb detonated in my brain as she took my face again and kissed me hard, moaning as she tasted herself on my tongue. Her soft, delicate fingers traced my jaw, slipped passed my torso and then, she was grappling at my belt, and I snapped out of it, losing my patience and ripping off my belt, unzipping my pants and taking my c**k out, hard, pulsing and dripping with the need to be in her.

"I want to see you, Aiden," Lily whispered, tugging on the hem of my tshirt, "I want to see all of you."

I froze, my hands snapping out to take hers.

She looked up at me with dark green eyes that shredded my resolve to pieces and splintered what sort of autonomy I had left over my body.

I didn't... I didn't want her to see me... To see them...

"Aiden," she whispered, slipping her hands out of my grasp to touch my heart. "I just want to see you."

Shame made me grit my teeth, my jaw set in a stoic grind, an internal turmoil raking my mind.

But she has trusted me with our mating bond and her life tethered to mine, the least I can do is please her with my every breath and trust her with parts of me I wanted to hide.

My entire body trembled as she slowly took off my shirt and I froze as she took a long look at me, ashamed that she was seeing my scars, proof that even though I pretended to be strong, I was still that same scared boy who couldn't stand up to his uncle.

I had new, fresh scars that hadn't even been there the last time she saw me and I was about to start explaining that it wasn't a big deal when Lily kissed the scar on my shoulder gently, her hands gentle and soft like she was afraid to hurt me. That gesture alone, the softness of her eyes and acceptance, healed every crack in my broken heart.

She gazed up at me and her soft gaze was my undoing. I felt weightless like she was taking everything that was dragging me down away and only replacing it with her softness and peace.

She wrapped her legs around my hips and slid her wet cunt over my hard d**k, her eyes rolling back and I fvcking lost it.

Grabbing her thighs, I jerked her to me.

"I don't think I can be gentle, Lily." I whispered against her lips, grinding against her as my stomach tensed with need and pinpricks of pleasure trotted up my spine and when she nodded, it was like a screw loosened and the floodgates were opened because I smashed my lips against hers, placing my c**k against her center and wrapping her legs tighter around my hips as I slammed into her. Hard.

We both gasped, grappling at each other for purchase as the feeling of her walls surrounding my cock made stars splinter over my eyelids and I almost spilled into her, losing my fvcking self control.

How is she so tight, so wet, so sweet.

"Perfect. You're perfect, baby, It's like your body is made just for me." I groaned, slipping out slowly, to slam back in even deeper than before, swallowing her gasps as pleasure collected in my lower abdomen.

She moaned so loud, her voice bouncing off the walls, but I didn't care. I wanted everyone to know she was mine. That I belonged to her.

"Aiden..." she whispered. My name on her lips broke through every defence I had set up to maintain a level of control and something hot, explosive and needy bursted in my chest as I picked up the pace, driving into her and taking her like a man possessed. "I c- I can't stop," I whispered, trembling and slamming into her, hard and fast, my body was a machine created just to fit into her. To pleasure her and I didn't want to stop. I never want to stop.

My battered heart rattled its charred black cage, roaring and beating for her, only her, hoping she'd learn to love it through its scars and flaws.

It was hers since the beginning of time, hers it will ever be. My princess. My goddess. My fvcking queen.

"You feel so good. You feel so good, Baby. So f*****g amazing. You can't even imagine" I groaned as I thrust into her over and over and over again. I felt so much love, it felt like my chest was going to explode, the feelings so intense it made me feel like I could do anything.

Her moans had turned to cries of pleasure, tears slipping down her cheeks so that our kisses were messy and salty.

There was no power play. No need to dominate her, no demand for her submission or obedience, no objective to hurt her.

"Tell me you're mine, baby. Tell me you're mine and I'll give you anything you want. Tell me you're mine and I'll give you the whole damn world."

"y-" she was about to say but I cut her off, a desperate ache in my chest.

"Don't- Don't..." I squeezed my eyes shut, my rhythm faltering, "don't say it because I tell you to. Say it because you mean it. Because you never." Thrust. "Ever." Thrust. "Want to leave."

Her trembling fingers cradled my cheeks, tears streaming down her face. "I'm yours, Aiden. I'm never leaving. I'll never leave you. You're mine and I'm yours and I never want to leave this bond."

Heat poured into my chest and I became breathless, desperate, her words healing a part of me I didn't know had been hurting since I was a little boy.

I couldn't hold it in any more, my balls tensed with the need to blow and I squeezed her a*s, picking up her hips and drilling into her, the erotic sound of skin slapping skin filled the entire room as we pressed sloppy kisses to our lips and her fingers dug into my skin as if she could keep me tethered to her forever this way.

The new angle had her writhing and screaming and sobbing underneath me and the moment her entire body froze and her o****m hit, I bit into her neck, my fangs pressing into her flesh, roaring as the force of her o****m, triggered mine, causing me to come hard and spill into her.

We were both panting and breathless by the time the o****m finally subsided and looking into Lily's eyes, I said those words that I meant with everything in me.

"I love you, Lily. I love you so much."