CHASE
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My eyes on her lips, my mind wanting to kiss her. She looked concerned, her questions had stopped for a minute and she was silent but there was something on her mind and she was procrastinating, that much I could tell. She noticed my eyes on her lips, biting down on her bottom lip nervously she shifted on the bed, it was the first time she'd actually sat on the bed with me and she looked uncomfortable as hell.

'What is it Bella?' If she wasn't going to ask then I'd have to push her. She continued to stare at me for a minute before she decided to speak. 'Tell me about her.' I had a feeling I knew who she was talking about but I asked anyways. 'Who?'

'Sofia.' My heart roared in my chest, hearing her name was painful. I didn't want to think about her. 'I know that she was important to you, I want to know more about her.' I could see her nerves kicking in as she nervously sat there waiting for me to deny her request or to get angry, instead I leaned back against the wall and focused on her soft brown hair.

'She was different.' I didn't know how to explain it, I hadn't talked about her to anyone so it felt foreign to to me. 'She was small, really small. Just like you.' She watched me intently, fidgeting with her hands that were placed on her lap.

'She smiled even when she really didn't want to. The times that she was scared she'd run up and hide behind me, she knew that I'd always protect her.' I felt a stabbing pain in my chest, I couldn't protect her from myself.

'She was different from the other kids, no one tried with me, she did. She tried a lot to get me to play with her or to talk to her. Before I knew it, she had become the only person I cared about.'

'She always use to say the same thing to me. When times were hard and she or I were scared, she'd tell me something to make it go away. To make me feel better. I still remember what she use to say, word from word. It still echoes in my head, almost everyday.'

'What did she use to tell you?' Bella looked at me, waiting for me to reveal the little thing that was so important to me. I couldn't tell her, that saying was only for me to know. It was the only thing I kept with me all these years. When I didn't say anything, she nodded, understanding that I wasn't going to tell her that part.

'What happened to her Chase?' The look on her face told me she wasn't going to stop until she got her answers. I liked that about her, she was stubborn, she challenged me each and every time.

'I don't know Bella. I really don't.' It was the truth, I didn't know what happened to her, after I was taken away by the police, I was separated from Sofia and never saw her again. I spent a long time searching for her when I left the orphanage but it's like she had melted into the ground and forever disappeared. All and any trace of her was gone. She was nowhere to be found.

'In your sleep the other day, you kept repeating the words 'it wasn't me.' What wasn't you? Can you tell me about that?' My teeth clenching and my hands locked in fists, I wish she hadn't heard that. I wanted to come up with a lie, to tell her I don't know what she's talking about but I wasn't one to lie, I had never lied but at that very moment, I considered lying for the first time. I didn't want to think back to that, to the times where I was repeatedly had to say it wasn't me, repeatedly try and explain myself.

'My adopted parents use to accuse me of molesting Sofia.' I said it. What was the point in hiding it? It's not like I cared if she believed that I did do it or not. But I did care, I cared a lot and I didn't understand why. I knew the truth so why did it matter if she knew the truth too? She looked at me with an expression I couldn't read and god I was good at reading people but right there and then, I couldn't tell what she was thinking or how she was feeling and it was starting to irritate me.

'Why did they accuse you of that Chase?' She looked worried, almost as though a part of her wondered if I really had done it, almost as though she considered it being true. 'It doesn't matter anymore.' I didn't want to tell her anymore about it. It didn't matter. They were all gone, there was no need in talking about them, they weren't worth the conversation.

'I hope whatever happened to her was bad.' I gritted my teeth, all this talk about Sofia had me angry again. She'd betrayed me, after everything, she turned against me.

'Why do you say that? I thought you cared about her.' Her eyes flickered from mine to her hands, she seemed to be deep in thought. Clearly still had the last part of our conversation lurking around in her brain.

'I did but when push came to shove, she threw me right under the bus. Just like everyone else.' I looked away from her for a moment, not wanting to continue this conversation anymore, I was getting tired of discussing my past with her and surely it wasn't that interesting.

'What did she do?'

I thought back to the last time I saw Sofia. That was when she had stabbed me in the back, I should've stabbed her too. 'She's the one that called the police on me. After protecting her for so long, she ran away from me, she turned me in.' I know she was only seven but she had still hurt me, I felt like I could finally trust someone and then she went and ruined it all.

'What were you protecting her from and why did she call the police?' The questions were driving me crazy. I didn't respond anymore, I stared at her instead. We sat there for a long moment, she seemed to be getting restless under my gaze.

She turned her attention to me, her eyes searching mine for comfort. 'I went to visit the orphanage you stayed at, yesterday.' It was my turn to ask her questions, starting with 'Why the fuck would you do that?' I was angry at the fact she had invaded my privacy, not that there was any but the fact that she dug so deep into my life. My past had nothing to do with her, she should be feeling lucky that I even told her the things I told her.

'I just wanted to know more about you, you never talk to me.'

'My life is none of your concern Bella. You're just some girl that comes to visit me. A pretty face and a good company to keep me from my boredom.' I knew I had hurt her with my words but she had really pissed me off. I get that she was curious, wasn't everyone? That didn't give her the right to go to the one place I hated. She didn't have the right to stick her nose so far into my life, it pissed me off.

'Wow ok Chase.' She stood up from the bed, clearly insulted by my insult. A part of me wanted to hold her and tell her I didn't mean that but another part of me wanted to let her leave and hope that she doesn't come back.

'You think I enjoyed going to a place where you were hurt? You think I enjoy sitting here and talking to a brick wall? I do this for you Chase. Because I actually care about you, I actually want to help you!' She threw her bag over her shoulder and looked at me again, her eyes held regret, she regretted meeting me.

'You want me gone? Ok you got it. It was nice getting myself all worked up over nothing. Thanks for letting me be your daily entertainment. Good.bye. Mr Ashworth.' I jumped up and grabbed her forearm before she could walk away, spinning her around and pulling her against me. She tried to pull away, yanking her arm away from me but I held it tight in my hands.

'Let go of me!' She slapped my chest with her free hand, frustration evident in her face as she tried to get away. Letting go of her wrist, I grabbed her face and crashed my lips against hers. She stilled at my action. Her body becoming limp against me, I held her face tighter, my lips still pressed to her soft ones, I rubbed my tongue across her skin, awaiting entry, when her mouth parted, my tongue entered her. She met me halfway, giving into the never ending kiss, her hands found their way to the back of my shirt, clutching onto me for dear life.

When I finally pulled away, we both had to catch our breaths. My body felt like it was on fire. I had wanted to kiss her for a very long time and now that I had done it, I wanted to do it all over again. She woke up something intense inside me and I wasn't sure if I could control it for much longer, I was hungry, hungry for Bella and god save her the day I unleashed the beast inside of me. God save her when I didn't hold back anymore. I was going to destroy her, and that is exactly what I was afraid of.