Claiming My Wolf
Chapter 44

~~Sadie’s PoV~~

It’s been weird without Micah at school this week. I didn’t realize just how much I associated him with the place, for better or for worse. I keep expecting to see his face as I round every corner or glance over at his empty desk.

I miss him, I have to admit. But is it as a friend, or something more? That, I’m not so sure about. I do keep thinking about the way he kissed me. I wish we had a chance to talk about it, but that won’t be possible until he comes back.

Meanwhile, Logan is still being friendly but not too friendly. I’ve been hanging out with Ally and Emma more since I have more free time, even though I’m still being watched constantly by my protection detail.

Logan called me on Sunday when he got back from the Alpha meeting with his dad to tell me about how they think my mom was the vessel and that I’m supposed to be the next one. They figure someone caused my parents’ accident on purpose and that the same person is the one behind the attempted attacks on me.

I have to admit it makes sense, but that would also mean admitting that there really is a moon goddess and that my mother met her, and I’m still having a hard time with that. I agree to the extra security because I don’t really have much choice, and I keep my doubts about the rest of it to myself. But I think Logan knows I don’t really believe it anyway, and it feels like it’s putting more distance between us, which isn’t what I want at all.

But I can’t just pretend to believe in something I don’t either, so I don’t know what else to do.

“Hi everyone,” Logan’s deep voice says as I sit outside talking with Ally and Emma. Spring is definitely here now, the days are a lot warmer and all the snow is gone. I had my back to the school so I didn’t see him walking over to us.”

“Hey, Logan,” they both reply and I say hello too, but without turning around.

“Can I borrow Sadie for a minute?” he asks my friends, and they both give me excited smiles before excusing themselves and I have to try hard not to roll my eyes. Whatever he wants to talk to me about, I know it’s not what they think it is.

“What’s up?” I ask, turning to face him. It’s the first time I’ve seen him today and he looks good. My stomach does a little flip at his closeness, even though I tell myself I’m being stupid to get my hopes up. Every time I hope, I just get disappointed.

“I talked to Micah again last night,” he says, keeping his voice low as he sits down across from me. “He’s made some progress.”

Instantly I’m on the edge of my seat, my own problems forgotten. “What happened?”

He tells me everything Micah told him about the meeting and how he’s supposed to be meeting with the real boss tonight.

“That’s great,” I say sincerely when he finishes. “He’s doing really well.”

“He is,” Logan agrees. “Hopefully we’ll get some answers soon and we can put a stop to the whole thing.”

That would be nice. One less thing to worry about, anyway.

“Are you… uh, planning to come to the party tomorrow?” he asks, suddenly looking a bit nervous.

The party. He means his birthday party of course. It’s the first time he’s mentioned it to me even though it’s all anybody at school’s been talking about all week. The whole pack is invited, so I know I don’t need a personal invitation from him, but it would have been nice to get one anyway.

“I’m not sure I want to see what kind of party Blair and Tonya are throwing,” I tell him honestly, which makes him laugh.

Ava told me Logan had asked them to plan the party partly because they’ve thrown a lot of parties before, and partly to give Blair a distraction. She seems pretty upset about Micah leaving. They must have been closer than I realized, which only makes his declaration about liking me before he left even more strange.

“But it’s your birthday,” I continue. “So of course I’ll be there.”

His genuinely pleased smile makes my stomach flutter again. “I’m glad. I’ll see you there, then.”

He walks away and I watch him go, my mind racing. What happens if Logan replaces his mate tomorrow and it’s not me? He wouldn’t act on it, since there’s still the Alpha’s hold on all new bonds, but it would have to make him wonder.

Or even worse, what if somehow it is me, but then he thinks it’s not true because all the bonds are going wrong?

I don’t see a good way this can go, but I know I don’t really have a choice. I’m going to have to go and replace out for myself.