Cold Hearted Mate
Chapter 14

"Even though it was six years ago, I still remember it like was yesterday, I didn't believe my wolf so I confronted the doctor along with my parents and they told me that since I was over infatuated with my mate, the bond between us had grown stronger as a results of my endless prayer to the moon goddess which is why the pain I felt for the death of my mate was equivalent to the pain a mated wolf would feel at the loss of their mate. That year when I grew cold and closed off, I had nothing to lose and nothing to live for, my pack was not enough to make me feel whole especially when I saw the way mated couples treated each other."

"I had built my reputation as heartless and I became feared by wolves and creatures that had heard of me, I ruthlessly killed rogues as I thought that maybe they were responsible for the death of my mate, I killed Alpha's who mistreated Omegas and people called me a monster and made up stories about me thinking that I was killing the Alphas for either power or no reason at all. When the only reason at all, I killed those Alpha's was because I had thought that maybe my mate was an Omega and died at the hands of ruthless Alpha."

"Sometimes, I would feel like maybe my mate was still alive and then I would remember the pain I felt or hear people saying that the moon goddess didn't give me a mate because I was a monster and I didn't deserve one. I started believing it, which resulted in my wolf becoming more hostile and feral towards others."

Louve couldn't bear it anymore, she couldn't handle hearing about all the pains and anguish she had unknowingly caused her mate and so she wrapped her arms around him as she begged him to stop.

She kissed away the tears that he was trying to hide from her while mumbling.

"I'm sorry..." She softly said as she cried for him.

She decided to come clean to him and share a part of her story with him and share a part of her story with him so as to help him better understand and maybe then he can forgive her and himself.

"It's my fault, I'm sorry I caused you such pain, I swear I didn't know. I was raised like a princess; I was the Alpha's daughter and the future Alpha of the Lunar Eclipse Pack. Life was a fairy tale until one day when I was 11 years old pack of rouges had infiltrated my pack and ruthlessly killed everyone in sight. Only me and my big brother survived. Thanks to my mother taking us into a secret passageway, all I had on me was a survival bag filled with my mother's belongings."

"I was a rogue at the age of eleven; we barely survived two weeks on our own but after that, we had found a friend of my mothers who was a powerful witch, her name is Helena. She took us in, loved us, protected us and trained us to survive on our own. My brother decided to leave me with our foster mother, Helena. Until one day, I had left to hunt some food for us without informing her, when I came back to our campsite, I found her drowning in the pool of her own blood. Rogues had killed her without any mercy or conscience and that was the second time I had lost the person I loved."

Connor wiped away my tears and said, "I'm sorry for not being there to protect you, my love."

Louve shook her head and said, "Connor you don't understand, six years ago when I was 12 and running away from the rogues, I was attacked by five rogues, I managed to fight them off but I was still young, I wasn't strong enough to fight them. Without sustaining great injuries and because of that and the fact that I was out numbered, I got injured during the fight and I was bleeding to death.

The rogues had used weapons spiked with silver and wolf's Bain, so my wounds were not healing and I was losing a lot of blood but fortunately for me, my foster mother who was powerful witch found me but still, her magic could not heal me because I was too weak. I had lost a lot of blood and I... I d-died."

Connor looked at her in surprise at what she had said, now he knows why he felt that much pain before.

"When I had gotten to the afterlife, I saw my parents and they provided me with the knowledge I needed to survive. I was dead for seven minutes until my foster mother had used a magic spell to force me to shift into my wolf in order for it to heal me but I didn't come back to life until hours later for the pain of a forced shift when my body was not ready resulted in me being in a two month coma. I didn't know that my death caused you such pain; I was unaware of the fact that you had felt me die. Even till this day, the events in my past still haunt me."

Louve cried in his arms as he kissed her forehead while wiping away her tears.

"It is not your fault that you suffered so much at such a young age. Don't cry, I promise to make you happy for the rest of your life. I want to carry your burdens for you so that you never have to be in pain. I hate seeing you cry. I will forever be grateful to the moon goddess for protecting you and bringing you back to me. Only she knows how meaningless my life would be without you."

Connor and Louve stayed in each other's arms as they silently comforted each other. They both knew that there was a lot that they still hadn't told each other but they didn't say anything. They just wanted to stay in each other's arms. Connor suddenly held her closer as he started to play with her hair. She turned her head to look at him and what she saw made her heart beat speed up. Connor's eyes were now golden as a sign of his wolf being controlled. "Hi..." She didn't know how to act towards his wolf. All she knew about Connor was how much of a heartless and ruthless killer he was and that didn't help calm down at all.

He looked into my eyes and said, "You... you are so beautiful."

"Thank you." She said as she blushed.

He lifted her up like a bridal style.

"Where are we going?" She asked.

"Let's eat ice cream and chocolate cake." He said with a goofy smile on his face.

He is so cheerful and cute, it doesn't really suit the description that she have in her head but she wasn't complaining. A man who gives you ice cream and chocolate cake is a keeper.

They ate ice cream and chocolate cake and then they had a tickle fight.

"What does mate want to do now?" He asked.

"Whatever you want to do." She answered.

"How about we take a walk?"

Connor shifted into his majestic midnight black wolf and then he insisted on giving her a piggyback ride even though she could shift into her own wolf form.

The ride was amazing. She felt like she was the master of a very wild animal and she had tamed it. She felt how he cared for her and she was glad they can still make things work out between them, even though she still is not over it. Once they got to a beautiful green pasture, Clell let her shift and their wolves played tag and hunted together.

After hours of just lying in the grass together, Clell's mind linked her.

"I apologize for marking mate without permission even though I am very happy to mark mate, Connor was angry, he said that now mate hates us that's why we couldn't mind linking with mate. Mate will never accept us, is that true?" Clell said. "Yes, it's true that you guys didn't ask for my permission and a part of me is still holding that grudge but I don't hate you guys, I had blocked our mind link as a way to punish you guys for not seeing me worthy of respect."