Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M
Chapter 353

Chapter 353

Chapter 0353It's been a week since | asked Rowan to give me time. He’s tried to keep his distance, but it hasn’t been easy for both of us.

| won't lie, | really miss him. | miss being around him. | miss our talks. | miss everything about him. It’s been quite an adjustmenttrying to merge the Rowan | was used to and the Rowan | woke up to after my coma.

It doesn’t take genius to know that he loves me, but is it enough? Part of me wants to forgive him and move forward; the otherpart is afraid that the

memories of the past will always be a thorn between us. | mean, how can we be happy if | haven't been able to let go of thepast?

It's also been an adjustment for Noah and Iris. They haven't made it a secret that they miss Rowan. Noah talks about him all thetime and keeps asking when we are going to go back and live with his father. Iris has been irritable since we left.

She cries a lot and is restless. The only time she settles down is when Rowan calls and she hears his voice. The bond those twohave despite Rowan not being her father amazes. It’s something else that | don’t know how to deal with.

| could go back for the sake of the kids, but | don’t want that. That is not the basis for building the relationship. If I’m to go back, |want it to be because | want to. Because | want to give us a try.

Aknock on the door pulls me from my thoughts. Since the day | went to the station, | haven’t been out much. I've also just hiddenmyself away, withdrawing from those around me. My mind hasn’t been able to settle, especially knowing that | have to make adecision soon.

| carry a crying Iris and open the door, surprised to replace Rowan’s mother on the other side.“Hello, Ava,” she greets with a small and warm smile. “Is it alright if | come in?”| was completely speechless, so | just nodded my head instead. | take a step back and let her in.

| keep bouncing Iris up and down, trying to comfort her and get her to quiet down, but it doesn’t work. | was at my wits end onwhat to do.

“Is she growing a tooth?” she politely asks. “Is that why she’s crying?”

| take a moment to compose myself before answering. This is a situation | never thought I’d replace myself in. Rowan’s mom neverliked me. | do understand her,

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caused my son to lose the girl he loved. | would even be more bitter knowing it’s because of her that my son was living inamiserable marriage.

“It seems she misses her home and Rowan,” | calmly and simply reply.

She nods her head as if she understands. It’s quiet between us for a while. The atmosphere is heavy with awkwardness. | didn’tknow how to deal with it. Part of me just wanted her to say what she came to say so | could relax.

“| don’t mean to be rude,” | begin. “But is there a reason why you're here?”

She takes a deep breath. “Yes. First of all, | want to apologize for everything that has happened over the years. You didn’tdeserve our scorn and you definitely didn’t deserve what we put you through.”

“It doesn’t matter; it’s in the past.” | immediately cut her off. The last thing | want is for us to rehash the past. | was so tired of it.Things happened that were beyond my control. They did what they did, and there is no use crying over what has alreadyhappened. It’s not like any of us can go back and change the past.

Then why can’t you forgive Rowan and let go? The nagging voice asked.

“No, it does matter,” she breathes out. “I believe that part of the reason why you won't forgive Rowan is because of what we didto you.”

“Rowan?”“Yes, he’s the other reason why I’m here.”| sigh tiredly. | should have seen this coming. “I see”

By this time, Iris had quieted down and was now struggling not to fall asleep. She still had the stubbornness of her drawn-downeyebrows, but at least she’d stopped crying.

“| don’t think you do,” she says softly. “Rowan has become a mess without you. He truly loves you, and now he thinks he’s lostyou for good. It’s like the mere realization of that fact has made him lose the life inside him. He has become a zombie. The onlytime we get a reaction from him is when you, Noah or Iris are mentioned.” o

It pained me to hear all this. | really didn’t think that my leaving would have this impact on him. In my head, | rationalized thatyes, he did love me, but was it too much for his life to stop simply because I’d left?

I did love him. | fucking loved him even after everything, but | just didn’t know