Her Cold-Hearted Alpha
Chapter 121

Her Cold-Hearted Alpha Chapter 121

Her Cold-Hearted Alpha Chapter 121

Devastation

KIARA

” I love you … Amore … ” His voice pierced m y heart . The sadness , regret and guilt in his eyesbefore they closed . No … This was not farewell ! Pain ripped through me and never had I felt such alevel of hurt .

It was worse than seeing Alejandro and Jasmin together at the mating ceremony . My knees almostbuckled under the agony , my eyes on Alejandro as he ripped her heart apart .

” Baby no ! ” I shrieked . No ! I can’t lose you ! No ! His howl of pure agony ripped through the air , andit was a sound I’d never forget . I rushed towards him , falling to m y knees . ” Hold on ! ” I cried ,pressing my hands to his chest . I poured all my healing into him . My heart was thundering as I tried tolisten to his heartbeat . Nothing .

” Goddess no ! Please no ! ” I cried . My eyes were blurring with tears but I didn’t stop .

He had to heal ! He couldn’t die ! Why him ! No … please no … ” He’s … gone … ” Someonewhispered . I didn’t even notice when everyone hadi gathered around me or the fact that it was raininglightly . ” He isn’t ! ” I cried out .

He couldn’t leave me , I felt the weakening bond , but it was still there … He’s still here No one spoke ,as Mom wrapped her arms around me , letting me do what I needed to SEE Please , Selene … Please… A broken sob left my body as I rested my head on Alejandro’s chest . ” Please … ” I whispered . ”You promised me ”

*** A faint beat of a heart reached my ears and my heart leapt . He was still here ! I didn’t stop pouringmy healing into him , but the heartbeat remained faint .

Why wasn’t this working ? ” Alejandro ! Baby come on …

” Kiara … You’ve healed what you can . ” Dad’s quiet voice came . H ” No ! It’s not strong enough yet… I kept going . My entire body was screaming for a break but I couldn’t . My vision blurred , but Icouldn’t stop . What if he slipped away ?

The thought terrified m e . I couldn’t live without him . He couldn’t just step into my life and then leave !” Kiara ! Think of the pup ! ” Mom pleaded , cupping my face and forcing me to look at her . My heartpounded as the truth hit me .

I couldn’t help Alejandro … Why ?! Wasn’t this my gift ?! Why can’t I heal the one I loved ?! What kindof joke was this ? I pulled away , refusing to stop , not relenting until I felt the strain wrapping aroundmy stomach .

I stilled , I had used up everything I had … but I couldn’t risk the pup . If it wasn’t for my pup , I’d havedrained my entire life source for Alejandro . My tears spilt down my cheeks as I kept my hands onAlejandro’s chest .

His heartbeat was so faint … ” You’ve healed him . The rest is up to him . Endora tried to take him withher , but she didn’t succeed . Have faith , Kiara . Rafael’s hoarse voice came . 11 I looked up at him ,seeing the pain in his eyes .

” He’ll be ok , Kiara … We all know how stubborn Alejandro is . ” Dad said softly . I didn’t reply , lookingat the man before m e , his body covered in dirt , blood and sweat . His handsome face looked as if hewas simply asleep .

I cupped his jaw , leaning over and placed a deep kiss on his lips . Wake up , my king … Please wakeup … Nothing . I could barely feel him breathing . What was wrong ? Why wasn’t his heartbeatsteadying ?

My mind was going through a vicious cycle of questions that had no answers . ” Kia … ” Mom saidsoftly . ” Let’s take him inside . ” Rafael said , gently . I didn’t want to move away . Mom pulled m eback and Rafael lifted his brother .

I could barely stand , my energy was completely depleted . I reached out to Alejandro , don’t leave me…. please … My vision spun and I felt myself fall forward before darkness welcomed me … TWODAYS LATER ..

The devastating aftermath of a battle was never one of happiness … We had won , yet I felt nothing butremorse for our losses .

We had lost so many … Uncle Aaron , Grandma Amy , Grandad , Aunty Indy , Daniel and his mate …Valentin … Someone I had struggled to save , in the end , he still lost his life . So many had lost theirmates , parents , siblings .

It hurt more than I could ever put into words . Everyone was affected , one way or another . Two dayshad gone by , yet my king never awoke . His heartbeat was fainter than an unborn pups … I wasunravelling .

Looking back , I felt like he knew there was a chance of this happening .

I had seen how he had shielded me from her right until the end , but he was not protecting himself … Atthat last moment when he had her heart in his hand … The silent apology in his eyes , the pain and theguilt .

The man who said he was a monster , sacrificed everything for our kind . Why did you leave me ? Theworst thing was , I couldn’t even let myself break .

An entire pack was looking a t me for guidance . For answers to why their king did not make it ? Toknow that it’s going to be ok . I looked towards the shining moon . Was this fair ? I felt as if I had failedeveryone …. I had failed my mate .

Every day I tried to heal him , but nothing . Callum had come a s well , but there was nothing . It wasnot magic . We both had determined that … But there seemed to be nothing we could do , a WhateverEndora had done in her last moments by linking their hearts had all but destroyed Alejandro . AlthoughI had been able to stop it from completely killing him , it only put him in a deadlock .

It was as if I had simply frozen him on the brink of death . The bond was so weak I could barely feel it ,and in its place was a terrifying emptiness that was pulling me into its depths .

” Kiara , It’s time for the farewell . ” Liam’s voice broke me from my thoughts , and I turned towards him. His eyes were filled with sadness , 1 nodded . We had burned our dead and tried to list everyone whowas gone , but not everyone was intact .

It had been hard to tell their families that there wasn’t even a body for them to look upon . Many Alphashad taken their dead and moved on , but The Black Storm , The Blood Moon and The Night WalkerPack remained .

We were combining our farewells , those who had lost mates and family had all joined us here . Liamtook my hand and led me from the room . I saw Grandma Jessica standing there and it hurt to see thatshe was losing it . The loss of her mate and daughter had hit her so hard .

She also didn’t understand why Grandma Amy had not saved Aunty , not understanding when Momtold her the baby was holding out thanks to something Grandma Amy had given to both me and Auntybeforehand .

This only triggered Grandma Jessica even more , to the point where she was blaming Grandma Amyfor not stopping us from joining the battle . But I understood , whatever Grandma Amy’s gift was , itseemed she couldn’t really foretell it .

She always seemed to know things , but at the same time , she never said much . We would nevertruly understand the depths of Grandma Amy’s past or her heritage .

But to me , no matter how many people were disgusted that she had a witch heritage and that she hadlived amongst us , I would always remember her as that beacon of light who had always been here forme and for my mom .

The one with witty crass remarks and how she loved to tease all the men , a That was another thingthat pained me . The hatred our people felt towards witches had increased ten – fold . It hurtconsidering Janaina had helped us somewhat ,

Delsanra had given her life to relay the truth and Grandma Amy , maybe not a full witch , but she hadsome lineage .

No one saw that , in fact … the disapproval that mom agreed to carry a child transferred by magic hadhit the wrong way . It seems no matter what we accomplish , something else takes its place .

The negativity and stigma that Mom was facing shocked me . Although she took it all and put people intheir place , it did not stop people from talking . ” We should go . ” Mom said to Grandma , who clung toher .

Dad was quiet too … He had lost so many people he loved , including his best friend . Damon hadstepped in as Beta already , although he wasn’t showing his emotions at all .

I tried a little , but there was nothing I could do when I myself was crumbling from within . ” You’re goingto have to speak for the Night Walkers Pack . ” Dad said to me . I nodded , as he pulled me into his

arms and kissed my forehead .

” You got this ; he’s going to wake up . ” He said firmly , looking down at me .

I nodded but said nothing , I had barely spoken unless I needed to give orders . Alejandro … I looked atthe glittering ring o n my finger and my heart clenched . I need you , my king .

Ten minutes later , we were gathered in the open grounds , not far from where Endora had tried toresurrect the dead witch . My mind flitted back to that night . I had felt the darkness she wasresurrecting and I had channelled my own power into destroying the remnants of the magic thatremained within the earth .

I wondered if I hadn’t focused on that , would Alejandro b e here now ? I had deviated from the plan ….But something had told me I needed to stop her from completing that ritual no matter what … and I hadsucceeded .

I knew she had already made the link with the darkness , even if we killed her , I had a feeling itwouldn’t have been the end of her … I was sure if Endora had gotten the third death , or even me , shewould have accomplished her plan .

It had been close but we had won . But we had paid a price … ” We’ve all lost someone close to us ;parents , siblings , mates , children , friends , neighbours … someone .

I understand your loss because I have lost many too . Each one of my wolves and those of our allieswere like brothers and sisters . We faced an enemy who had been planning for years , we won but at agreat cost , one we are all feeling . And our King … was the one to deal the finishing blow , but at aprice .

He is currently in a coma . ” ” A murmur rippled through the crowds , and while everyone knewsomething had happened , no one knew what it was . Until now . ” Luna ! Can’t you heal him ?! ”

Someone asked .

One of Alejandro’s warriors growled , but I raised my hand .

” I tried . ” I said quietly . ” But Endora did something before she died . I have faith that Alejandro willwake up soon . Until then , let’s pay our respects to those who have lost their lives . Let’s work onsupporting those who need it , to show your emotions aren’t weakness , to feel isn’t wrong .

Be there for one another and let others in . I’m hurting too , for every loss that has happened , for mymate , your king Alejandro … my grandfather Jackson , my great aunt Amelia , my aunt Indigo , UncleAaron … and everyone else who lost their lives … It’s ok to let the world know how you feel . They saytime heals all wounds , but I think it doesn’t .

We just learn to live and accept what’s happened . To come to terms with it , it won’t be easy , ” but wewill get there … ” I couldn’t carry on .

The suffocating pain that threatened to consume me overtook me once more , and I felt Raven’s arms Iwrap around me . She had wanted to fight , but her father had refused , and Dad had also said no onewithout a wolf was to even try .

She had been so pro – active since everything had happened , helping Mom around the pack , tellingMom to take breaks . Without Mom and Aunty Monica a t their best , Raven had stepped up and takenon the role that the Luna or Beta female would usually do .

Rafael said a few words and I simply listened quietly .

The pain in my chest was growing , but for my pack , I had to hide it n o matter how much I told themthat I was ok . Everyone was suffering , and as queen , I couldn’t afford to fall weak . I would not ruinmy king’s reputation , not when he had done everything for the werewolf kind *** Everyone fell silent aswe remembered those we had lost , joined as one as we howled into the night sky .

The pain and loss of our loved ones will never be forgotten … ” Come on guys , cheer up . ” Ravenwhispered . The four of us were sitting near the river . They were drinking beer and I clutched a mug ofhot chocolate .

It was long into the night , and everyone had retreated indoors after those who had gone for a run inremembrance of those w e had lost had returned . But the four of us had come out here , and althoughit was rainy and cold , it didn’t matter . Nothing was worse than the pain we felt inside .

” How the hell do you expect that to happen ? ” Damon asked quietly . ” How is Aunty ? ” I asked softly. ” She’s losing it , I don’t think she’s going t o make it if she continues like this . ” He sighed , ” Don’tsay that ! Aunt Mo is strong .

She’ll ” Raven broke off and looked down . We had all seen her try to take her life earlier today . Afterthat , Mom refused to leave her alone . Grandma was deteriorating too . ” We can’t imagine what losinga mate feels like .

We can’t just expect them to be o k . ” Liam said softly , pulling me into his arms . Silent tears trickleddown my cheeks . I hadn’t wanted to come out here , I wanted to go to Alejandro …. I still did … butLiam and Raven had been adamant .

” No matter what , we’re always here for one another , right ? ” Raven said softly . ” Guess so . ” Liamsaid . ” The four of us have always and will always be friends , no matter what . ” Damon said , raisinghis beer can . ” Always .

” I whispered , raising my mug as we clinked our drinks . Alejandro … Please wake up . We sat there ,trying to make small talk , or just falling into silence and comforting one another , huddled together forwarmth .

I stayed for an hour but the pain within me to go to him could no longer be satiated . I excused myselfand headed to the pack hospital . I was halfway there , using my powers to illuminate the path .

The leaves in the trees rustled and I felt a shiver rush down my spine . I wasn’t alone . I spun around ,scanning the area . ” I’ve come for my reward . ” A quiet voice said from behind me .

My heart thumped as I turned only to see Janaina standing in the shadows . I looked at her , feelinganger at the same time . If she had so easily gotten here now , why hadn’t she helped us ?

” You could have helped us . ” I said quietly . How had she gotten past patrol ? Witches were indeeddangerous if they wanted to b e . I understood people’s fears , but I still hoped that one day there wouldbe peace between our kind . ” I’ve told you before , I dislike your kind . ” She said , holding her hand out.

So she had come for her necklace , I reached into my pocket and took it out . ” He removed it from herneck before she died … He fulfilled his promise . ” I said softly .

” So , He didn’t make it . ” She said , motioning for me to throw it . I did , and she caught it . At one pointI would have wanted to know what was so important about that pendant ? But I no longer cared .

” Can you not help ? ” I asked , trying not to pay attention to how unbothered she sounded . Despite thefact it stung . ” There’s nothing I can do , nor am I willing to .

This is the last time we shall meet , daughter of Selene . ” 18 I said nothing as she turned and vanishedinto the woods . I looked at the passing buildings . Some still had lights on , whilst others werecompletely dark .

Would anyone remember those that had lost their lives ? Would they remember a few months or yearsdown the line ? Was anyone worried about their king , who was known as ruthless and cold – hearted ?

Would anyone remember his sacrifice ? In the end , no one cared . I didn’t care if I sounded bitter . Ithurt . I continued on my way , my heart shattering a little more . With each step , it felt harder to breathe.

I broke into a run , rushing through the hospital halls until I pulled open his door . Rayhan jumped , hehad seemingly been dosing off in the armchair . ” Sorry . ” I whispered . He shook his head , giving mea small sad smirk . ” Not at all … no changes . ” He said ,

answering the question he knew I’d ask . For the last two days , Rafael and I have taken turns beinghere . Rayhan had come only last night and was returning home tomorrow . ” He’ll get better . ” He saidquietly . I looked at him in the dim light , barely able to make out his eyes . ” I hope so . ” I whispered .

” I know the timing might not be the best , but congrats on the baby . ” He said , flashing me a wink . ”Thank you … ” I said as I walked over to Alejandro , caressing his cheek .

The soft tingle was so faint that my heart ached , his skin was so cold … ” I’ve been without cousins forages and now suddenly I’m getting two , Marcel’s kid and this one . ” a ” I guess so .

” A moment of awkward silence fell between us . ” I’ll leave you to it … ” He said , picking up his jacketand heading to the door .

” Rayhan . ” ” Yeah ? ” He stopped at the door . ” Delsanra . How did she die ? ” I whispered . Talkingabout witches has become so taboo lately that I didn’t dare ask anyone else this . He sighed deeply .

” She jumped . She was under some spell . With every word she spoke , it was destroying her . Shewouldn’t have survived either way , and the look in her eyes . I can’t get it out of my head …

” I turned and looked at him . Clearly , he didn’t seem to hate the topic as much as most around here . ”Did you try to stop her ? ” ” I did , I told her you could help . I told her that I knew someone but she saidshe has no one and that it wasn’t worth living .

” H e looked down , I sensed the guilt and regret in him . ” 4 ” It’s not your fault . ” ” I try to tell myselfthat … ” He muttered .

Take care , Kia , he’s going to be ok . If anyone can make it out of that state , it’s Uncle .

” I nodded , turning away as silent tears trickled down my cheek . Only taking a deep breath when thedoor shut behind him . I looked down at my mate , my lips quivering . ” Wake up , my love .

” I whispered , bending down to kiss him deeply .

My warm lips met his cool ones , a soft tingle rushed through me . Letting my healing pour into him ,but once again there was no change . I moved back , brushing my fingers through his hair as I slowlyslid into the bed next to him .

” We’re waiting for you to wake up . Me and our little pup . ” I whispered , sliding m y arm under hishead . I lay there gazing at his face . The moon shone on him from outside , illuminating his handsomeface .

He looked like a work o f art as he simply lay there . I wouldn’t give up , not now , not ever . He wouldwake up . He had to wake up .

I needed him.