He’s My Ruthless Billionaire
Chapter 17

Robert's POV

{Flashback}

After sending the doctor to treat Hailey, I went to my office.

Mafia Office. MO, in short.

"Sir, Ervin is still having his chance at the award ceremony" Cane informed me.

"It's okay," I said. "I missed that deal; I can't do anything"

"Boss," he said. "You worked very hard... and he-he took it"

"You don't need to remind me that, Cane," I said half frustrated.

"Boss, we can talk into this. You only lost this because on that day your wedding was set. You can-"

"Just let him win!!" I yelled. He never argued with me before.

"S-sorry boss," he said.

It's hard. Everything is hard. How long will I live two lives? It's not possible. I'll lose one day. I'll lose myself. It's getting suffocating every single day when I don't even know what am I even living for. "Robert," Max said. Cane left the room. Max is my junior, and Cane and Ron are Max's junior. So, they leave us alone when he enters.

"What Max?" I asked.

"Hailey is not the person you should hurt to relieve your stress, Robert. She's innocent" I banged on the table.

Hailey, Hailey, Hailey.

Max always talks about Hailey.

"You don't think it's wrong seducing my wife?" I asked him. He looked startled.

"H-How can you think- oh for god's sake! I'm like her brother!"

"Don't come near her or I'll hurt her" I said plainly. He looked at me with anger, which only flared me up more.

"Max stop this bullshit right away!"

"I'm just- I'm just caring like a brother... Robert, please. Don't ask me to do this. You don't trust me? Is it what I get for working with you for these many years?"

"I'm your boss," I said. "The first rule, never question your boss' decision"

"Fine," he said. I sighed. "By the way, you are gonna take her tomorrow, right?"

"Where?" I asked.

"To the award ceremony!"

"Oh yeah. I will"

"Robert, stop living like this..." he said. "You're hurting yourself in every way"

"I'm not"

"You don't even sleep! Being the best businessman in the day and the biggest mafia boss in the night is not easy, Robert and you can't hide that from me! You're- you need a break from life, Robert!" "I took a day off. Mr. Spencer's deal went off. What else do you want??"

"One deal doesn't matter, Robert..."

"Max. Sometimes I feel, even you aren't on my side" I said and left the office. I went to my other base to check every situation. Then I returned home, ate my breakfast as It was 5 in the morning, and went back to check everything once again, and then Max took his place as 'the boss for the day and I went to my legal office.

Or LO for short, that was the Anderson Corporation.

As I returned home at night, she came out. She made me feel something in my non-working heart.

And that's what I hate.

I don't want her to make me feel anything. I hate it when it hurts. It is dead, my heart is dead, and she is waking it up, which hurts. But I don't want to hurt her for just making me feel better. Then I took her hand softly and went to the ceremony.

Everything was perfect. He won the prize below me, the second-best businessman. I knew it, but if I hadn't missed that day, I would've defeated him. His words made me lose my temper and I took Hailey with me too.

I didn't want to leave her alone because she was shy and all those men...

NO. I don't care about her. I don't care about anyone!

She's my wife and that's why I did that.

Then I went back, calming myself cause I expected to win the last award too. I won it. It was no happiness now. I don't replace any happiness in all this.

In the end, she looked damn adorable.

No, get that word out of your head.

She looked damn... damn... damned.

I wanted to kiss her so badly, but I don't know why am I having these thoughts.

You can't forget anything.

You can't.

'You don't deserve to be loved'

'You'll die alone'

'Or your wife will kill you.

'No, you won't get a wife'

'If you do, she'll poison you within days'

All these sentences keep repeating in my mind. I can't give in. I will never.

Robert Anderson never kisses a girl first. He never initiates a kiss. Never. Except for the wedding day of course!

But she is different. She's your wife.

Oh, come on, not wife.

Legally, yes. (My brain said)

Emotionally, no. (Something in my chest said)

I don't have a heart. I don't have a fucking heart and no one said no, so I kissed her. I kissed her even if she didn't want to because I have every damn right on her. I don't care about anything. But it was different. Different from anything I ever felt. Different from any kiss I ever had.

"You're messing with my heart, which doesn't exist, Hailey," I said to myself because for the first time I felt guilty when she ran away towards the car with tears in her eyes.

The car ride was nothing like before. With her crying looking out of the window, it was just uncomfortable.

Just, stop, Robert.

Don't ever lose.

Don't give in.

Don't feel anything, I know you won't.

Because you don't have a heart.

You don't have feelings, your heart and soul died way back.