I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 11

For what ? I do not understand why . I would like to go back to properly prevent his act, I would like to erase this moment from my life and forget it as if nothing had ever happened. And yet it’s impossible, I constantly remember this moment so as not to forget it.

I hadn’t slept a wink all night because of him, I hate him, I hate him for kissing me and then becoming one with my mother in the next room.

I’m just an idiot, I should have pushed him away, he made fun of me after all I deserve it, I let myself be tempted by his hoarse voice, by his hypnotizing eyes,….by his lips.

His k**s was far from tender, I would say it was bestial and shit I can’t believe I liked it. And this last thought makes me nauseous, I never wanted to do that to my mother but it was him who crossed this limit, he was the culprit afterwards and the worst thing was that he acted normally this morning, which was absolutely not my case.

— Liya…you’re really somewhere else…

I come to my senses when I hear Inaya’s voice, I stammer apologies and realize that the room is emptying…I don’t have followed a bit of this course.

– What’s wrong ? Don’t tell me yet that he’s your father-in-law… Does she worry,

Father-in-law… just mentioning him makes all my hairs stand on end.

– We just had a bit of an argument as always” I lied.

She nodded unconvinced and didn’t press it.

– I knew what happened yesterday, why didn’t you tell me anything? She reproaches me.

— I don’t know what you’re talking about.. I say, lost.

— Regarding your altercation with a hysterical woman, you seem in good condition to me in any case.” -She .

— Perfectly, she had been looking for me.

…………

It is now 6 p.m. and classes are over. I start putting my things away as does Inata and we rush towards the exit.

Inaya comes out first when someone rushes at her. I catch her just in time before she ends up face down on the ground.

— Can’t you be careful? the stranger thunders severely.

I glance in his direction with a frown.

– No but ?? It was you who rushed at her… I’m getting angry.

He readjusts his white shirt, gives me a dirty look and walks around me.

— I don’t have time to waste with kids like you? he mutters.

He walks away and rushes into the elevator.

— What an a*****e this guy is.. Inaya plague.

I take a deep breath and readjust my old bag against my shoulder.

— I have to do some shopping before the stores close, see you tomorrow?

– Okay, see you tomorrow… I replied with a smile on my face.

She rushes to her car and if I don’t hurry I risk missing my bus.

I continue on my way to the stop when I see Gabriel from afar leaning against the wall. I approach him and a tight smile appears on his lips.

— Hello… I said simply.

— Hello…I’ll take you home. he said.

“No, I’ll be fine, I’ll take the bus,” I replied

. I’m about to leave but he circles my wrist.

— Please, I would like us to talk.

I sigh loudly and give in. He smiles satisfied and shows me his bike parked not far from us.

He hands me his helmet, climbs on his motorcycle and I follow him closely. He drives off at a brisk pace, I tap him on the shoulder, he knows I hate that. We have been driving for a few minutes when he takes the opposite direction to mine.

– Where are we going ? I asked.

— I’ll take you to my place.

I automatically tense up, not appreciating his response.

— Relax, I just want to show you my place. he said.

I don’t answer, there’s no point in protesting since he’ll do whatever comes to mind.

……….

After a few minutes of driving, he finally parks in front of a magnificent white villa.

I stand there like a stake not knowing what to do.

— Come on, follow me… he breathes.

I carefully follow his steps and enter his cabin. His gigantic, orderly living room is the complete opposite of mine. I look around me, it’s really beautiful here but unfortunately I don’t see any piano which is a real shame.

Gabriel calls out to me, bringing me back to reality, I place my school bag on the ground, remove my worn sneakers under the curious gaze of my dear friend.

I roll my eyes and follow him into the kitchen.

– A Coke ? he asks..

— Water will be fine..

He throws me a small bottle which I barely catch and drinks the whole contents in one gulp, my throat was dry, which makes Gabriel smile.

— Sit in the living room, I’ll order.

………….

We are watching a football match, I eat the last bite of my hamburger and without further delay I start the pizza.

— You really have an appetite for a girl, it’s surprising, I wonder how come you’re not gaining weight? he said with his mouth full.

— Food is my whole life… I said, shrugging my shoulders.

I have difficulty finishing my last slice of pizza, I hate leaving food.

Suddenly Gabriel gets up from his chair to sit right next to me, I stare at him for a moment, he runs a hand over his hair, a sign that he is nervous.

— Liya I…I’m really sorry for what happened with jade ” he begins.

Oh so this slut’s name is jade?, I think that suits her.

— Well I’m sorry but your girlfriend is hysterical, she must have confidence in you…

– It’s my ex Liya, ” he cuts me off with an annoyed sigh.

— Apparently she’s still crazy about you… I noticed.

He inhales loudly and settles comfortably on the couch, moving closer to me.

— I wonder what possessed me to go out with her, she represents everything I don’t like in a woman, I was seduced by what she gave off from the outside but deep down her behavior m ‘unbearable.

I listen to him attentively and suddenly he stands up, facing me and stares at me mischievously.

– You didn’t go easy on her” he said with a smile on his lips.

– Indeed, unfortunately for her” I giggled and winked at him.

I stop laughing when I meet his serious gaze on me. He stares at me strangely which is disturbing.

— Stop looking at me like that… I said embarrassed.

. “You have incredible charm, Liya?” he whispers so quietly that I thought I hadn’t heard correctly.

He closes our distance without ever taking his eyes off me. He tucks a rebellious lock of my hair behind my ear and his hot breath falls against my face.

His warm hand ventures on my cheek without wanting to I shiver slightly in the face of his contact. He approaches me dangerously, I know perfectly well what he wants to do and yet I take no effort to prevent his action. Our knees are now brushing against each other, he devours my lips with his gaze.

His face gets dangerously close to mine, our breaths mix.

Suddenly a slam of the door makes us both jump, he automatically steps back from me and leaves a reasonable distance between us. I sigh discreetly relieved not to have gone further with him.

— I apologize for the inconvenience.

I turn around immediately upon hearing this hoarse voice and to my greatest surprise it is the idiot from earlier who is in front of me.

— Liya, let me introduce you to Yanis, my brother,” he said, somewhat annoyed.

His brother? Tell me I’m dreaming. The man named Yanis stares at me for a moment then a mocking smile distorts his face.

— You really have no taste, brother .. he says.

I widen my eyes at his reply no but what an a*****e, first he calls me a child and now he replaces me ugly, it’s official I hate this man. He turns his back on

us and probably goes upstairs to get to his room.

— Don’t pay attention to him, he can be unpleasant sometimes. Gabriel told me.

— I saw that….otherwise I think I’ll go home. It’s getting late.

— Already? Don’t you want to stay a little longer?

— I would like to, but I’m exhausted.

He agrees despite himself and offers to accompany me, which I gladly accept.

I wear my shoes, recover my bag and we are now outside.

— I’m going to get my motorbike.

I nod and wait for him wisely, I take a look at the upper floor when I come across Yanis leaning on the balcony with a cigarette between the fingers.

He looks at me intensely and then a mocking smile stretches his lips, it annoys me. Without hesitation I give him a magnificent middle finger and immediately turn around. Gabriel appeared and handed me a helmet, I sat behind him and he started.

The wind blows deliciously against my face, it moves at a normal speed. I cling tighter to him and put my head against his shoulder, I felt him tense for a moment.

………

We are now downstairs from my house.

– Thank you… I whispered, handing him his helmet.

— How many times am I going to tell you not to say that word again” he breathes.

I stick out my tongue slightly and approach him to place a k**s on his prickly cheek due to his budding beard.

At the moment where I wanted to move away from him, he firmly grabs my waist with one hand, bringing me closer to him and takes me in his arms. This gesture surprises me enormously but I let him do it because deep inside I appreciate this contact, I simply appreciate his presence.

I finally move away from him, we are still in the middle of the street and I would not like anyone to surprise us.

— Good night Liya, ” he whispers.

— Good night.

******

Today is Sunday,…the day of the week that I don’t like.

— Liya, I’m not going to repeat myself .. my mother thunders from downstairs.

I blow loudly and press my face further into my pillow.

Mom’s dear and loving fiancé has invited us to dinner at his place, I absolutely don’t want to to go but unfortunately I have no choice. I feel that this day will be long.

A dull click was heard telling me that my parent has just come out.

Finally a little peace! I sleep very little These days, I’ve stayed up almost every previous night for my revisions and I’m terribly lacking in sleep.

Just as I close my eyes to join Morpheus’ arms again, someone rings the doorbell.

I g***n dissatisfaction decided not to open but the ringing persists.

I curse internally and get up against my sandstone. Like a zombie I walk towards the entrance and open the door slightly.

I come face to face with Gabriel, he scans me strangely from top to bottom and pauses for a long time on my face.

I congratulate myself internally for having dressed in an old pair of jogging pants rather than a nightie.

— Can I come in?!” he asks with raised eyebrows.

I open the door wide and beckon him in.

— What good wind is bringing you?”

He sits comfortably on the sofa and a smile appears on his thin lips.

— I came to get you,” he says simply.

I look at him in disbelief with my arms crossed against my chest.

— To pick me up, you say? And to take me where? Do you really think I’m going to follow you?

He suddenly gets up and approaches me until he’s at my height.

— aren’t you tired of refusing everything I offer you? accept Liya for once, we’ll spend some time together, just as a friend.. he says to me winking.

I roll my eyes, this man is annoying me.

— Get dressed, let’s not waste time. ” he said, pushing me by the shoulders in the direction of the stairs.

— And if he please give it a brush,” he chuckles.

– F**k you Gabriel.. ” I cursed.

I rush back to my room, take out jeans and a simple t-shirt and enter the bathroom.

…………. —So

where are we going?

I grab onto his broad shoulders and step over his bike.

I sigh loudly to show him my displeasure, I feel like I’m not going to like it.

We ride for a while, my arms firmly around his waist. I wonder if I’m choking him because of how I’m squeezing him. I’m no longer afraid of his bike but I don’t know how to hold on to him really comforts me.

He slows down for a moment, I straighten up a little and see the sea

.

— Gabriel isn’t telling me that..” I began. He

finally stops,…not the sea.

— Come on, come down… he says simply.

I do what he asks and wait a moment for him. time for him to park his motorbike.

He then approaches me, his hands in his pockets and he gestures for me to follow him.

— I want to go home.. I whisper behind his back.

— We just came arrive.

He stops suddenly when he notices that I am no longer there. He immediately turns around and meets my furious gaze. He approaches me with long strides,…that’s not a good sign . Suddenly I replace myself in potato sack mode on his back.

— Gabriel stop… I fear.

I hit him on the back and he closes his grip around my legs.

He ignores my protests and continues his path on the sand.

— Get off, you idiot, I have sand on my face because of you.

The idiot is turning a deaf ear and why is he irritating me right now.

He goes up the stairs , I think I’m going to vomit, luckily I didn’t eat breakfast.

My feet finally replace the ground, I sigh relieved.

– I hate you” I said harshly.

And in response he gave me a magnificent smile.

I looked around a little confused.

— It’s my parents’ cabin… he explains.

I simply nod, I like it anyway, it’s warm.

He turns his back on me and looks for I don’t know what.

– I brought you this, of course Inaya helped me” he said proudly, showing me a swimsuit. I opened my

eyes wide when I saw what I would use as a swimsuit, Inaya I’m going to kill you.

— Are you serious? You chose me to wear this thing, I’m not going to swim Gabriel.

— And why is that? he asks seriously.

— I don’t know how to swim..

He examines me for a long time, probably thinking that I’m joking , I wait for his reaction but it doesn’t come. Instead, he quietly takes off his t-shirt.

— Wh….what are you doing?

He replaces himself shirtless before my eyes and I I can’t take my eyes off that part of his body. He’s muscular but not too tight as it should be. A few hairs run across his tanned chest, yeah a real delight for my poor eyes. He has a satisfied smile on his face

. and my cheeks catch fire, I looked at him without embarrassment. The worst thing is that he doesn’t stop there, he undoes his belt, that’s too much, I immediately turn around and contemplate the sea from through the small window.

– Don’t wait too long, I’ll wait for you downstairs… he breathes after he has finished undressing.

He leaves the room and closes the door behind him.

What do I do now, I don’t want to swim dressed or undressed either.

I inhale deeply, having no choice I retrieve this famous pink bikini.

…………..

I hesitantly leave the cabin, look around me and see no trace of Gabriel. The beach is practically empty which encourages me to come out of my hiding place.

I sigh with contentment when my feet meet the warm sand, my hair flies in all directions and the sun beats deliciously on my white skin, I missed the beach so much.

— Liya…

I turn around immediately and face Gabriel whose eyes are popping out of their sockets and his mouth is wide open.

He details every inch of my naked body, which embarrasses me greatly.

– We’re going to stand there?” I said to stop this discomfort.

– I understood that you didn’t know how to swim… he said with difficulty.

It’s really me who put him in this state, I almost want to laugh.

“That’s the case,” I replied seriously, crossing my hands against my chest.

He grabs my hand firmly and pulls me with him towards the sea.

I protest for a moment but give in when the cold water tickles my feet deliciously.

“She’s frozen,” I said, laughing.

Suddenly he puts one hand under my knees and the other around my shoulders, he carries me and by reflex I put my hands around his neck.

— Gabriel, you won’t dare? I panicked.

A devilish smile stretches his lips, I move as best I can and neither one nor two he throws me into the water.

— Shit!” I screamed beside myself.

He burst out laughing like a pig, the idea of ​​drowning him was tempting.

I approached him furious as ever, seeing my state, he began to swim.

— Come back here!” I shouted.

I follow him closely and start to swim as best I can, he moves further and further away and I realize that my feet are no longer touching the ground, panic rises in me and I move in all directions.

— Gabriel ” I screamed.

I don’t like this feeling,… fear. I struggle to stay on the surface, the salt water stings my throat and crosses my nostrils, preventing me from breathing properly. Fortunately

for me, two large hands grip me firmly by the waist bringing me back to the surface…Gabriel. I cough violently and try to regain normal breathing.

My legs are wrapped around his waist and my hands take support on his shoulders .

— Idiot,” my friend thunders harshly.

My body is completely glued to his, my heart is beating wildly and I can also feel his energetic beats.

I shift slightly to face him. His face is distorted with worry and he delicately caresses my cheek.

— Are you okay?” he asks.

I nod slowly, my body is trembling all over. He holds me closer to him, we are so close that our noses brush. His hot breath falls on my face and his hand tenderly caresses my back, this simple gesture soothes me.

He stares at my lips and I at his, they are devilishly tempting, what is surprising and absurd is that in this moment I only have one desire, so I take the initiative and seal our lips.

A bestial sound comes out of his throat, I don’t know why I like this sound, his lips are surprisingly soft, he likes to bite my lower l*p thus asking for access to my tongue Our tender k**s becomes fiery, he grips me firmly by the h**s, pressing my pelvis further against his, I widen my eyes when I feel the effect I have on him lower down. He breaks our k**s for lack of breath

, our breathing is jerky despite the cold water I’m hot, at this moment I’m not thinking anymore, I just wish he would continue.

He begins to swim despite me clinging to him like a lifebuoy, never taking his eyes off me, they have darkened,

We are now out of the water and he delicately places me on the sand, drops of water streaming from his Apollo body, he is irresistible.

He spreads my legs slightly and settles between them, he leans towards me and supports himself with his elbows.

— You’re so sexy” he whispers, rubbing his nose against mine.

He places a chaste k**s on my lips and continues his exploration at the level of my neck.

He nibbles my flesh, sucking it causing a slight pain but which is pleasant, he continues this operation up to my shoulder. A m**n leaves my lips without me being able to hold it back, I can feel his smile against my skin. — Excuse me

young people but we are in a public place.

Gabriel is abruptly straightens up, facing us with a man in his forties who points not far from us to his wife and children.

– Excuse us… I stammered embarrassed.

He left not without a dark look in our direction. direction.

I jump slightly when Gabriel places his hand against my burning thigh.

What did we just do?

“We shouldn’t have done that” you said without looking at him.

He lifts my chin with his index finger, forcing me to look at him.

— You wanted me to know,” he whispers.

I free myself from his grip.

— It was a mistake,” I say harshly.

He closes his eyes for a moment and takes a deep breath, he suddenly gets up, he forces me to get up, holding my hand and tries to smile.

— Let’s forget about it then,…come on, let’s go have a bite to eat.

I’m somewhat surprised that he gives in easily, anyway we both know that it won’t be the same again……