I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 17

Xavier’s POV

I caress Marie’s soft, sweet skin with my fingertips, our legs are intertwined, her head rests on my chest and her frail arms encircle my waist. His short hair tickles my skin, which I don’t mind but what is starting to bother me a little is his short hair. I admit that I miss his long locks that I used to have fun wrapping my fingers around during the night.

I contemplate her sleeping deeply, her slightly open mouth is swollen by all the k****s I gave her last night, I devoured her whole, I devoured every bit of her delicious skin.

Several red marks appeared on her beautiful body and I am proud of myself for my work. I decide it’s time to get up, so I shift my body slightly against hers and shift away from her, she grunts in displeasure, turns on her side then sleeps face down, letting me admire her tempting bare back.

I place my lips on her shoulder, then gently get up so she doesn’t wake up.

After taking a trip to the bathroom, I put on my sports clothes and my sneakers, then discreetly leave my house.

It’s only 5:30 a.m., everything is silent and calming. It’s still early, and right now, nothing would give me more pleasure than running.

The sun has already risen, I slow down my steps, and resume normal breathing, my body is dripping with sweat, I feel good..

After catching my breath, I take a brisk walk.

I hurry before Marie gets up and doesn’t see me next to her, which she can’t stand.

My steps slow down when not far from me, at the other end of the street, I see a silhouette that is familiar to me.

I move closer, hesitant, it’s really Liya!

What is she doing outside at this early hour? Footing ? Impossible with his pajamas. What troubles me are his slow steps and his body which wobbles slightly.

Without further ado, I rushed towards her with long strides. Arriving at her level, I place a hand on her shoulder to turn her around and what I see leaves me speechless.

I can’t take my eyes off his eyes, big dark circles mar his angelic face, his parted lips are dry, his skin is so pale, and his white t-shirt is covered in dirt.

I didn’t recognize him, I…I’ve never seen him in such a pitiful state.

– There is ?! What’s happening to you?” I asked worriedly.

Her eyes, which were sometimes empty of expression, darkened with fury I would say, she doesn’t speak, no,

I notice that we are not far from her house, and that she rushes to run away from me.

Oh no Liya, I won’t let you go. I follow her without further delay, and stop her a second time.

– What’s wrong Liya?” I say in a more authoritative tone.

Her gaze falls on my hand resting against her arm, her eyebrows furrow in displeasure.

– Take your dirty paws off.. on she hisses at me.

I loosen my grip in the face of her hateful tone and she takes advantage of this moment to break away from my grip.

This time she doesn’t move, she faces me and looks me straight in the eyes.

— What did you and my mother do yesterday?” she asks suddenly.

— Why this question?” I said in turn with an arched eyebrow.

She sighs in exasperation at my lost expression.

– Very well, you don’t want to answer, so leave me alone.

She walks around me and continues on her way once again. Her behavior is starting to get on my nerves, I don’t see where she’s going with this.

I hurry to walk alongside her, carefully avoiding any contact with her so as not to rush her.

— In your opinion, what will we do on a Sunday? , I ask.

“Hmm, spend your day in bed doing un-Catholic things for example,” she complains furiously.

Why so much aggression in his voice? and since she is so keen to know what we did then..

— Not just in bed, we also tried the kitchen, the bathroom, the sofa and even the piano, I answered her question frankly.

At my response, she stops abruptly and her whole body tenses.

“I knew it,” she whispers with pursed lips.

— What did you know, Liya? Explain to me, I don’t understand anything about your behavior.

I get closer to her, when I notice that her fragile body is trembling slightly.

“I knew it,” she writes. It’s your fault she forgot, she screams, hitting me in the chest.

– There is . calm down! …There is ! Enough, I said harshly, holding her fragile wrists tightly against my palms.

My heart aches painfully at the sight of his teary eyes.

She no longer struggles, she closes her eyes for a moment and her body rotates slightly to the left. I hold her firmly by the waist and instinctively she grabs onto my t-shirt.

— Didn’t you eat anything this morning? , I asked worried seeing her in this state.

I place a hand against her cheek which I caress tenderly, which is strangely cold and force her to meet my gaze.

—Xavier?

Liya instantly tenses up, I raise my head and meet the lost gaze of Marie who deviates between her daughter and me.

Before I react, Liya immediately moves away from me.

— What are you doing here, Xavier? And what is Liya…, she stops when she sees her daughter’s exhausted face.

“Liya, my darling,” she said sadly, approaching her as if she knew what was wrong with her.

— No, mom, leave me alone, will you? , she roared.

She turns around and runs inside towards her home, I hadn’t noticed that we had already arrived in front of her house.

Marie rushes to join her, I breathe loudly exasperated by this situation which I absolutely do not understand!

When their cries are heard from outside, I hurry to join them to calm their crisis.

—I’m so sorry darling…

— Sorry about what, mom? , to have to spend the day with your fiancé doing I don’t know what, instead of visiting dad?” she says beside herself.

My whole body tenses up when she pronounces this last word.

— Liya, that’s enough, I’m not allowing you to talk to me like that, my fiancée gets angry.

— I can’t understand, I don’t understand how you could forget dad’s birthday all this for this despicable man, open up eyes mom, your fiancé is just an a*****e, hateful.

I didn’t have time to react before Marie’s hand fell violently on Liya’s cheek.

— Marie!” I say harshly, holding her firmly by the wrist.

I meet the bewildered look of Liya who has a hand against her painful cheek, her mouth wide open.

— You’re crossing the line Liya, I’m not allowing you to ‘insult Xavier.

A solitary tear runs down his bruised face, and quickly a second joins it.

— Apparently you don’t understand your daughter’s reaction… I just needed you not to feel alone in this day… excuse me mom..I..I’m really sorry.

After she finishes her monologue, she quickly leaves the room, or rather the house in this inappropriate state.

I would like to join her, the comfort, at this moment she seems so fragile. But Marie clings to my arm, and places her face against my chest.

— How could I have forgotten Xavier…how? I came to sort everything out but apparently I have made the situation worse, she whispers.

I encircle her waist with my arms and tenderly caress her back.

— It’s going to be okay my darling..

Liya’s POV..

I’ve been walking for a while, I’m tired of putting in the f*****g physical effort, I can’t stand my body or my legs anymore, I’m having difficulty holding back my tears, I just need to burst into tears in front of all these passers-by to appear even more pitiful.

She slapped me…

I swallow hard to erase this unpleasant episode from my mind.

It’s not the fact that she raised her hand on me that bothers me, on the contrary she has every right to do it, it’s more the fact that she did it for Xavier! She went way too far on this one.

After a long time I stop in front of Gabriel’s house, I hesitantly cross the large garden and now replace myself in front of the front door.

My heart is beating a lot faster, is it a good idea to come see him?

Yes because I desperately need his comforting arms at the moment, feeling his presence will do me the greatest good.

So I take a deep breath and knock on the door.

A few seconds pass, I tell myself that it is not too late to escape from this place, but my legs do not agree since they refuse to move.

The door unlocks and opens halfway to make way for….a girl…yeah a girl who is also dressed in tight shorts and a white tank top which perfectly reveals her chest!

My heart aches painfully as

I see Him, she looks me up and down without restraint.

– Yes ? That is why ? , she asks with her head held high.

All I want is to poke out her viper eyes so that she stops staring at me like that.

– Who is it ?

I tense up completely when I hear Gabriel’s hoarse voice, the door opens wide and he appears, more handsome than ever dressed in pajamas.

When he sees me, he looks surprised and then worried.

What is he worried about? From my pitiful state or the fact that I surprised him with this slut?… I think I’ll opt for the second option!