I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 31

Liya’s POV

I’ve been walking for a while, not knowing where to go. A hotel…that would be nice but I don’t have enough money with me, Inaya? I’m not going to

go and disturb her house.

It’s already dark, I’m cold and I have a terrible headache after crying my eyes out and being ignored for many hours.

My phone vibrates in the pocket of my jeans, I retrieve it and grimace when I see Gabriel’s name displayed… I have to get away from him as Yanis said so well, if he learns everything that s It happened…

My phone stopped vibrating, he hung up and it’s better that way.

He calls me a second time, finally I reluctantly pick up.

— Are you okay?”

— Yes.

I hear him sigh for a long time on the other end of the line and I bite the inside of my cheek hard to stop myself from crying at the sound of his angelic voice. —

What what happened Liya and where are you? I’m worried.

I can’t stop the incessant trembling of my lips..

— Hello! Answer me..

— gabr.. my mother…I

don’t able to contain myself, I burst into tears in the middle of the deserted

and dark street.

— Liya…tell me where the hell you are!!

A few days later..

— Do you feel good at his house?

Inaya drinks a sip of her fruit juice then gives me her full attention.

— Not really..

She sighs deeply and brings her face closer to mine.

— What’s bothering you? I thought you loved Gabriel?, she said worriedly .

— I…I like him yes but…I’m not welcome…it’s not Gabriel the problem but his brother Yanis, he can’t stand me.

— Yanis? Again? It’s really weird! I would have liked you to come to my house but…

— Don’t worry Inaya, I understand you perfectly, thank you anyway..and I won’t stay at their place for very long, I’ll soon look for a place to live..

She nods silently with a smile, then she looks around of us as if to make sure no one hears us.

• And now ? Are you going to tell me what happened? Gabriel spoke to me, he is very worried about you.

I nervously play with the ice cubes in my glass feeling

Inaya’s insistent gaze on me.

She places her hand on mine forcing me to look at her.

— Liya…you don’t want to say anything to Gabriel about what happened to you but you can tell me, I’m your friend it will do you good to tell each other and as girls we understand each other better.. .

I close my eyes for a moment and take a deep breath…my painful heart asks to confide in me. I keep everything to myself and I can’t take it anymore, I won’t be able to bear it anymore.

I’m dying to tell him everything that happened to me…to reveal to him what I keep deep inside me…I so need to take refuge in his arms and cry out to him about my suffering and I know she will listen to me like the sister I never had…but I must not tell her anything.

— My mother just doesn’t want to see me anymore…it’s…sorry but I can’t

tell you anything, it’s personal.

I take my school bag, immediately get up from our table and run towards the exit of the restaurant.

— Liya…Liya wait…

I don’t listen to him and continue my race…I’m ashamed! I’m too afraid

that she will be able to read me and know what I might have done.

I close my eyes tightly to stop myself from crying, this is not the time.

I stop in front of the university, out of breath from my run. The few students stare at me for a long time but I don’t pay attention.

I readjust the strap of my bag against my shoulder, I am about to enter this immense building but I don’t change my mind.

I don’t want to do class this afternoon, I take a step back, then two, and turn around to go back to the Henrys.

My heart skips a beat at the sight of an icy gaze. I’m not dreaming, it’s really there! Piss off.

I haven’t seen him for several days…and now he’s only a few pitiful meters from me, my pulse is beating abnormally, I’m gritting my teeth with rage…the cause of all our problems here he is in person.

I hasten to run away before he sees me, my steps are fast, I

don’t dare step back for fear of meeting his gaze.

I see Inaya from a distance heading towards her car. I walk towards her with long strides, she notices me and frowns, not expecting me to come back towards her.

— I…excuse me Inaya, I got carried away earlier, I said uneasily.

Her deep black eyes scrutinize me for a long time, she displays a less severe expression now and approaches me.

— It doesn’t matter, I know it must be hard for you, know that I will always be there.

I simply nod and thank her sincerely.

— Aren’t you going to class?” I asked.

— No…I told you earlier that I had to stop by my sister’s house, you apparently didn’t hear me.

I lower my gaze embarrassedly. not having paid him more attention than usual.

“Do you want me to drop you off?” she kindly suggests.

I agree without hesitation and we get into his little car.

I put my bag in the back and meet Inaya’s surprised look.

— What’s wrong?”

She stares at something behind me, I follow her gaze and meet a dark suit.

Xavier is in front of me, his gaze hard, and without waiting he opens the

door.

— Get off, he orders me in his deep voice.

I ignore what he has just said to me and pushes me to put on my belt, then

cross my arms around my chest to make him understand that I will not move from here.

His jaw contracts, he leans towards me, with a sudden movement he undoes my belt, his hands rest on my waist and I suddenly replace myself propelled against his shoulder like a common sack of potatoes .

— Put me down, a*****e, let me go, I shouted while struggling.

All eyes must be on us, I hear Inaya’s voice ordering him to release me, I cry for help. He walks to long strides and soon I no longer hear my friend’s voice, and he throws me like shit on the leather seat of his damn car.

My head bangs sharply against the seat making me wince in pain and he takes advantage of this moment to get into his car and lock it before I escape.

He starts off at high speed, making the tires squeal as he passes.

I look straight ahead, taking care never to meet his gaze. My clenched jaw becomes painful and my nails dig deep into the leather to mark his perfect car.

He’s driving too fast, he’s in a hurry, angry, tense.

As I have to bear it, I lean my head against the window and close my eyes to forget his presence which upsets me so much.

I don’t know how long I stayed like that but I feel him slowing down and then parking. I open them and see that we are in front of his house. Shit!

He opens the door for me, I give him the coldest look I have in reserve, he remains impassive waiting for me to move my butt I

finally get out, barely have I taken a step when he firmly encircles my wrist lest I run away and drag myself into his dwelling.

“Eat,” he said, pointing to my plate filled with good things.

He doesn’t care about me for sure, he kidnaps me and takes me to his house to eat? I can no longer contain myself, I had to put up with it the whole way but now…

I suddenly get up from my chair which falls backwards, and throw my dish at the other end of the kitchen which breaks into pieces parts .

Rage furiously accelerates my pulse, it increases when I read the indifference crossing his steel blue eyes. With clenched fists I walk towards the shelves and throw everything I see on the ground, breaking its magnificent plates one by one.

— Eat yourself stupid, eat these pieces of glass…you’re just a real bastard!

It’s all your fault. I shouted, continuing to throw everything I

saw in every direction.

He approaches me, meets my eyes blurred by my f*****g tears and I will say that pity invades his face.

— You destroyed me, you destroyed us…WHY? Why did I tell my mother everything? I hate you…I hate you, you hear me?

I can’t stop screaming, I exploded after all these days of remaining silent and it feels good to let off steam. He gets closer and closer and narrowly dodges the object that I threw in his direction.

He firmly encircles my shoulders forcing me to stop all movement.

His body moves closer to mine, my breathing is irregular, and

he sniffs loudly.

He encircles my damp cheeks with his warm palms which shiver at his

touch.

It is not me. It was Ks who threw everything away.

My eyes widen following his revelation..Yanis?.this is not possible, how?

“I don’t believe you…you’re lying,” I cursed, breaking away from his grip.

His gaze darkens, his eyebrows furrow dissatisfied with my reply.

“Am I stupid enough to tell your mother what we’re doing?”

“What we’re doing? What you were doing, you mean, you started

all this. You were supposed to be with my mother and you were circling me. And now look where we are, my mother threw me out because of you and.. –

Wait, what?! You don’t live at home anymore? Where do you live then, booms you- he’s furious.

I run a hand through my hair, pulling it hard to calm myself down, and using my forearm, I wipe away the last tears that have fallen and meet his furious gaze. — Answer me,

yell- he.

“Where I’m sure I’ll never see your a*****e face,” I cursed.

I pass by his side and pass him to leave the kitchen but he stops me by forcefully encircling my arm, making me grimace. pain.

— Let me go, whore..

as if he would listen to me.. he pins me against the wall and his imposing body

blocks mine.

— Let me go, I struggled against his hard chest.

He circles my wrists above my head and places his forehead against mine

, his breath meets my face, I close my eyes..I hate myself for

enjoying this moment which my heart rejoices in.

—What are you going to do after breaking us? “, I murmured painfully.

His hands let go of my wrists to grip my h**s, he nestles his face in the crook of my neck, the beating of my vital organ goes wild. He draws back and meets my gaze. — I am going to win back

your mother, he replies.

I look at him with furrowed eyebrows, surprised by his reply…to win her back?

That’s the best one.

— Stop having fun, I won’t let you do it…and she doesn’t want you anymore anyway.

His index finger runs over my cheek then my jaw, and he stares strangely at my

lips.

— I don’t play with your mother Liya…I really love her.

— If you claim to love him then why did you approach me?” I asked through gritted teeth.

He stops all movement and looks straight at me.

— Because you were innocent, young and I wanted to meet me. ‘have fun with you,’ he said,

with an evil smile on his lips.

My heart tightens painfully, he leans towards me and presses his lips to my ear.

‘But now that your Innocence has gone, I am no longer interested in you. no longer and the game has stopped.

My lips tremble…my fists clench with anger, my teeth

torture my cheek with rage and my heart is compressed by disappointment and pain.

—You are just a kid.. I have nothing to do with you.

I don’t want to cry…I shouldn’t…too late, my tears flow of their own accord because his words are so hurtful.

— Don’t tell me that…you feel feelings for me?, he says in a

mocking tone.

That’s too much, my hand goes to meet his cheek, and I also give him a second slap, putting all my rage into it.

— Know that I only feel one thing for you…hate. I hate you Xavier,” I whispered with tears in my eyes.

I push him away with all my strength and run as quickly as possible towards the

exit.

How did I fall in love with this man?