I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 43

Liya’s point of view

— shhh, mom is here

I tenderly stroke my daughter’s hair and move closer to her when she emits little complaints and moves all over the place.

I continue my gentle caresses, on her face, her arms, she calms down little by little and soon she replaces normal breathing. I place a k**s on her forehead and walk away when I’m sure she’s gone back to sleep.

I lie down full length on the bed, I yawn for the umpteenth time, a headache rears its ugly head, I’m sleepy but I know I won’t be able to sleep.

My cell phone turns on in the darkness, attracting my attention. I reach out to retrieve it and the message that appears stops my breathing for a moment.

“I’m outside Xavier”

Only my mother gave him my number and a thin smile stretched my lips.

I get up without further ado, light up using my phone, and look for something to sit on, being careful to make as little noise as possible.

Once I have chosen my outfit, I quickly get dressed, put on my sports shoes and I’m ready.

I leave my room discreetly, I’m about to go down the stairs

but I stop, swearing… I left my daughter alone.

I bite my lower l*p peeking into the room where mom is sleeping, I wouldn’t like to wake her up at this early hour but I have no choice!

— It wasn’t a joke, this jogging will really take place..

I jump at the sound of Yanis’ voice, he looks me up and

down with one eyebrow raised and I go down the steps to join him.

“As you see,” I replied uneasily.

He said nothing for several seconds, looking at me with a funny look, waiting for me to speak.

— Can you take care of Gabriellela please?

He simply nods, still looking at me.

— Come on, he’s been waiting for you for a while.

I smile at him in response and head towards the front door, I take

a deep breath and open it but before I get out, his hand traps my wrist and pulls me towards him to replace myself in his warm arms. Surprised by his gesture, I am about to ask him what is wrong but he beats me to it.

— It’s been two years since this flame that animates your eyes was extinguished, long days when we saw you suffering helplessly, and today I understood. It was enough for him to reappear for the faded flower to revive. I don’t like him, I never appreciated this Xavier,

My face buried in the crook of his neck, I am moved by his words and tighten my embrace holding back my tears and appreciating his gentle caress on my hair.

I murmur a weak thank you, not knowing what to say, he finally pushes me away from him, he places his lips on my forehead before encouraging me to leave my home.

After one last look in his direction, I replace myself outside.

My whole body is covered in shivers from the icy wind but also the presence of this man who is there a few meters from me and whom I had believed would no longer be possible. My body refuses to move, the beating of my heart is powerful and uncontrollable when I perceive his gaze wandering along my tense body, I struggle to breathe when he reduces the distance that separates us, his smell imposes itself in my lungs proving to me that it is indeed there, that it is not yet another dream but the

reality .

We don’t take our eyes off each other, I stare longingly at his delicious lips, I prepare myself mentally, this is the moment when we were going to k**s until we lost our breath, to meet again…he approached me, let him hurry up and touch me otherwise I’ll be the one who jumps on him..

We don’t take our eyes off each other, I stare longingly at his delicious lips, I prepare myself mentally, this is the moment when we were going to k**s until we lost our breath, to meet again…he approached me, let him hurry up and touch me otherwise it’ll be me who jumps on him..

— Come on, are you coming? , he tells me, showing me the direction to take.

Surprise, disappointment and incomprehension overwhelm me, what…?

Not even a hello k**s. Nothing ? He already starts his run without

waiting for me and I follow him with my head elsewhere and doing my best to hide

what I feel.

We have been running for several minutes, here we are already in the forest, the same where we did our first jogging. We take a short break and only my heavy breathing is heard.

During our race, he was “normal”, he gave me a few little smiles, we exchanged a few words and not once did he try to k**s me. He didn’t pin me on any tree to touch me like I hoped, nor did he lay me down on the cold ground to make love to me in this exciting place like I imagined. Now that nothing is forbidden, and everything is permitted between us, he doesn’t do anything about it? I’m lost, the day before I thought I understood that this jogging will be hot and unforgettable…

Did I dream of yesterday evening? Xavier had indeed come to declare his love for me and want me by his side…why is he suddenly distant? and reacts as if we were just friends? Does he regret being with me and does he think about the woman he left stranded yesterday?

A drop runs down my cheek, then a second…and now it’s raining mercilessly on our motionless bodies.

I stare at him for a long time, unable to take my eyes off his hypnotic ones.

In this moment I only want to rush at him and press my lips to his to taste his flavor mixed with the drops of water.

I need to feel his hands on my body, his voice tickling my ear.

his breath makes my hairs stand on end. I need him like never before and my heart compresses painfully when I perceive the shadow of doubt crossing his pupils. What’s happening to him ? What is he thinking? I want to scream and have the answers to my questions but no sound comes out of my mouth.

My body starts to shiver, the cold hits me, I’m lost, I didn’t think this day was going to take this turn…

I tense up when he approaches me and his surprisingly warm palm slides against mine, I don’t have time to react before he sets off in a mad rush, taking me with him.

I try to follow his rhythm no

Without tripping a lot of times.

We are already at an alley, fortunately for us, we quickly replace a taxi and we rush in to cover ourselves from this furious rain. This is how our jogging ended, which I replace very

exciting.

I try to resume normal breathing and close them for a moment, slumped on the seat, I open them suddenly when I feel his thumb tenderly caressing my wrist.

I stare at our hands still intertwined and he squeezes mine tighter, large encompassing it perfectly, this simple contact is enough to accelerate my heart rate. How many times have I dreamed of its simple touch on my skin? I avoid meeting his intense gaze, and mine gets lost on the

road.

After a few minutes which seem endless to me, the taxi drops us off in front of a small house that I don’t know, I look at it attentively, simple and beautiful and I like it. He takes us into what I imagine to be his home, and it’s only once inside that he releases my hand to get some towels. I take the opportunity to do a little visit, there are just a few pieces of furniture, and several boxes everywhere, proof that he has just moved in.

I hear his footsteps getting closer, and I close my eyes instantly when I feel his presence behind my back, he doesn’t touch me, but just places a towel on my head and I let myself go when he begins to touch me. to dry . He makes slow movements full of gentleness, he leaves my hair to take care of my neck, he moves a little closer, the towel ventures over my shoulders like a caress… Soon my back replaces itself stuck to his chest hard, the towel reaches the ground, his hot breath meets my neck and his lips are only a few centimeters away

I hear his footsteps getting closer, and I close my eyes instantly when I feel his presence behind my back, he doesn’t touch me, but just places a towel on my head and I let myself go when he begins to touch me. to dry . He makes slow movements full of gentleness, he leaves my hair to take care of my neck, he moves a little closer, the towel ventures over my shoulders like a caress… Soon my back replaces itself stuck to his chest hard, the towel reaches the ground, his hot breath meets the back of my neck and his lips are only a few centimeters

from my ear. Serious things can begin.

— Come on, we’re going to cool off.

I stop myself from emitting a grunt of frustration, what is he playing?

When will he devour me?

I follow him like an automaton towards the kitchen and it is only now that I notice that he is shirtless, wearing only his sports jogging pants…

I swallow hard and carefully observe his impressive back muscles moving, he comes out two glasses which he fills with water and hands me one and I stop myself from drooling at the sight of his chest… I had forgotten how perfectly handsome he is… No actually I don’t I haven’t forgotten, I am now free to observe it entirely without feeling any regret.

I allow myself to detail it without discretion, imagining my tongue tracing each of his well-defined abs, my lips sucking his throbbing neck, my hand caressing his lower abdomen to venture under his shorts where a beautiful bump is currently deforming his jogging .

An uncontrolled m**n leaves my lips at the erotic thoughts I just had.

I finally meet his face after avoiding him for a long time and my thighs tighten between them at the dark and wild look he covers me..I desire him like never before, he belongs to me, I want to feel him inside me..

— What do you want ? ..

His voice, which has become more hoarse, betraying his desire, gives me shivers, what do I want? It’s clear, him, completely and preferably naked, but I know that he pushes me to admit it loud and clear.

Like a predator, he reduces the few meters that separate us.

“Xavier,” I whispered.

I won’t be able to resist, if he continues I will die of frustration. We are so close, that with each of our breaths, our chests brush against each other. I devour his lips with my gaze, and he does the same, he is as impatient as me, I can see it clearly now, but he is waiting for this bastard. His hand approaches my

face, and his thumb caresses my open lips.

— What would you like Liya? ‘

I swallow at the way he says my name, sensual and full of desire.

— I want to make up for lost time, feel the f*****g thrills at your simple touch, I want you to give me pleasure, that intense pleasure that two beings struck by mad love feel. I want to savor the contact of your

Tongue all over my body. I want to live again under your caresses, to feel you entirely inside

me, to enjoy and m**n your name. I want you to own me, I belong to you from now on body and soul, I love you to the point of losing my mind..