I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 9

A month later

— So?

I stop on the stairs and stare at Inaya apologetically.

— Really, I won’t be able to tomorrow” I said.

She sighs for a long time and runs her perfectly manicured hand through her curly hair.

— What’s the excuse for today? I’ll point out to you that we’ve just finished our exams, you won’t make it this time so my darling prepare yourself for tomorrow, you will have an unforgettable evening.

— I have a valid excuse, tomorrow is my mother’s engagement.

She looks at me with big eyes. eyes, not expecting this news.

– Okay, that’s clear, it’s great for your mother, I just have to say, have fun, she exclaimed with a broad smile.

– Yeah, I hope so.. I replied indifferently.

She nudged me and looked at me with her eyes

– You’re not excited for this engagement.. she said in a tone accusatory.

I shrug my shoulders as if to confirm what she says.

— Plus I have to put on a dress that my mother chose..

— She’s sexy at least.. she asks, looking for the keys to her car in his bag .

— I assure you, she is anything but sexy..

She looks at me for a moment and her brown eyes light up.

— I can lend you one if you want, I have several that will suit you wonderfully and will bring out your curves that you are so keen to hide. she said, pointing to my clothes.

— Thank you for your help but I think it will be fine.. I said, shaking my head slightly.

She looks behind me and smiles slightly, I frown and turn around to see what caught her attention when I replace myself face to face with Gabriel.

— Hello beauty… he breathes close to my face with a charming smile.

I roll my eyes while holding back a smile and push him lightly by the shoulders.

— Change your flirting techniques a little, they are ridiculous..

He makes a face and points at me.

— I’m not flirting with you, know that you’re not my type of girl.. he said..

— Eh? you finished yes? Inaya intervenes.

— Excuse me Inaya, I didn’t greet you. he said.

He comes closer to my friend and k****s her.

— you’re forgiven….well otherwise lovebirds, I’ll leave you, my sister is waiting for me” she said in a hurry as she opened her door. —

Let’s call each other, okay?

— Of course, my darling, she said in waving at me.

I then turn around to see Gabriel staring at me with a smirk and his hands in his pockets.

— It doesn’t matter, I’ll walk.

— Okay, we’ll walk together.

I sigh slightly knowing in advance that it is non-negotiable..

Don’t have any false ideas, Gabriel and I are just friends… yes, friends only.

— And did the exams go well? he asks after we cross the street.

— Well, it was affordable anyway, I expected worse.

We talk about everything and nothing until we arrive at my house.

— Thank you for coming with me….but OUCH… I collapsed with my hand on my forehead, this idiot flicked me.

— Don’t thank me, okay? he thunders.

In response I give him a blow on his chest which makes him laugh.

He abruptly pulls me towards him by the shoulders and delicately k****s my temple. I want to close them to savor this little contact. He then steps back and replaces a lock of my hair.

— See you soon then..

He nods and I move away from him, I go home and wave at him, which he responds.

After closing the door, I sigh deeply and go up to my room.

I throw my school bag on my desk, I hastily take off my sneakers and lie down on the bed, it feels good to be at home.

*****

— Liya wake up my darling.

— humm..

— Noo… I shouted when my kindergartener suddenly opened the curtains.

— It’s already noon, have you forgotten what’s planned this evening? she says .

I sit up slightly, my eyes puffy and my hair messy.

— We’re going to the hairdresser, go get up and get ready… she writes.

I sigh long, she stares at me with furrowed eyebrows and hands on her h**s.

– Mom, I’m not going, I already told you, get busy making yourself beautiful and leave me alone… I hissed, lying down again.

– Okay, whatever you want… she says, she leaves my room, slamming

the door.

I guess she’s disappointed but there’s no way I’m going to the hairdresser or even the makeup artist. After more than an hour, I decide to leave my bed, I stretch for a long time, yawning until my jaw drops.

I shuffle towards the kitchen and make myself a nice cup of tea. Under the heavy calm that reigns in the house I guess that I am alone.

I taste my tea until the last drop, now I have to get ready. I enter my bathroom, a long hair removal session awaits me. I’m finally ready. I look at myself one last time in the mirror. It is

strange to see myself more feminine, it’s true that since dad’s death, I’ve abandoned all makeup and other things but I admit that I missed it somewhat.

I take a deep breath and finally leave my house, as planned Xavier’s driver is waiting for me outside.

– Good evening mademoiselle… he greets politely and quickly opens the door for me.

— Good evening…thank you… I whispered, rushing inside.

It starts immediately, I watch the landscape pass by while nervously playing with my fingers.

We are arriving soon and all I want to do is order the driver to take me home. But why the hell am I so nervous?!

The car stops immediately, the driver gets out and opens the door for me. I am now outside and the wind pleasantly cools my skin which shivers slightly. I take a deep breath and run down the steps with my head held high. But

since I’m no longer used to walking in heels… I majestically stumble on a step.

My first instinct is to look around me, I see a few mocking glances in my direction, well done Liya! What an entry!

I try to contain the blush that is rising in me, I stand up and continue walking timidly.

– Welcome miss, please follow me… said a man in a suit.

I thank him and follow his steps, we cross a long corridor then he stops, encouraging me to go inside.

— Thank you” I whispered.

I am now facing a fairly spacious room, the first guests are already seated. There are a few curious looks in my direction which makes me uncomfortable.

From a distance I I see John, Xavier’s uncle who beckons me to approach, I only knew this man a week ago and I already adore him.

I approach him without hesitation until I am at his height.

— How are you, my daughter? He asks, naturally taking me in his arms.

— I’m fine, thank you, and you?

— Much better since you’ve been here, you look great this evening.. he says in Detailing me more closely.

“Thank you, you’re not bad too,” I replied, smiling to his lips.

He invites me to sit on the largest table, the room fills up incredibly quickly.

Half an hour passes and the future fiancés finally make their appearance, eyes are focused only on them.

My mother is incredibly beautiful, her dress hugs her body perfectly. I

just think her makeup is a little excessive but hey, she’s still beautiful.

And what about the handsome guy who accompanies him dressed in a magnificent black suit which highlights his blue eyes, still as handsome as ever, this idiot.

They sat down at our table shortly after. We start to eat dinner. Everyone

discusses and shares the happiness of our dear couple. My mother is in heaven, it’s been so long since I saw her in this state, I’m very happy for her.

—Aren’t you eating? Come on, don’t be ashamed, my daughter, expand your stomach. John said to me, sitting on my left.

He takes my plate and serves me a portion for three people.

— You’re still exaggerating. how can I eat all this?

I exclaimed, pointing to my plate.

— Know that a woman whose flesh sticks to her bones is not attractive… he teases me.

I smile at his response and begin to eat under his satisfied gaze.

A few minutes pass and the atmosphere is warm…, I take a sip of my cocktail when my eyes meet Xavier’s for the first time in the evening. I slowly remove my lips from my glass under

his intense gaze, he doesn’t let me go and neither do I.

— I’m happy to see that your plate is empty.. said John, patting my bare shoulder.

I smiled shyly at him and turned my attention to Xavier, he stared at John’s hand placed on my shoulder and in that moment I believed Seeing fury cross his icy eyes, I must have been hallucinating for sure.

He then ignores me and returns his attention to my mother, he smiles at her tenderly and places a k**s on the corner of her lips, I don’t know why my fingers are gripping my dress tightly, I lower my eyes and concentrate on my glass which seems more interesting to me.

The minutes pass, then the hours, the wedding rings now worn on their

fingers. My father and Xavier k**s each other tenderly. They are all happy

here but I am not and that worries me…terribly.

Soft music sounds and Xavier invites his fiancée to dance.

Their bodies move perfectly, I don’t leave Xavier’s imposing silhouette, his broad shoulders, his perfectly styled hair which my mother enjoys caressing, his virile man’s hands which are possessive around the waist of my parent.

— Will you give me this dance, pretty young lady?

I turn around quickly in surprise and meet a pair of black eyes, a man of around thirty I would say, rather handsome with his navy blue suit, his hand is extended in my direction, I hesitate to accept, oh and then I have the right to have fun. I follow him to the track where a few couples are swaying.

Xavier’s POV..

— I’m so happy my love.. whispers my fiancée with her head resting

against my shoulder.

– Me too, darling.. I replied, placing a k**s on her cheek.

We dance for a while longer when someone touches my shoulder.

— Could I have a dance? my uncle exclaims.

My fiancée smiles at me and nods, I step back and make way for John.

I move away from them and head towards the buffet to pour myself a drink, I loosen my tie which is starting to choke me, I scan the room when my gaze falls on her, Liya.

From what I see she is in good company, my cousin has his paws

resting on her waist, without waiting I place my glass noisily against the table and head in their direction.

I put my hand on his shoulder and tell him that it’s my turn to dance with her, he doesn’t need to be asked and finally gets out.

– I don’t want to dance with you… she curses furiously.

She is about to turn around but I stop her by holding her by the wrist.

– Your opinion doesn’t matter to me… I whispered against his angelic face.

I place her soft hands around my neck and suddenly encircle her thin waist bringing her closer to me.

Her hypnotizing eyes are wide open then she gives me her usual dark look.

I start the first steps and take her with me, her fruity scent is captivating, I breathe her in deeply without any discomfort and I feel her tense.

She looks to the right as if to escape my gaze, this evening she made an effort to put on a dress, I think it suits her well.

Her dress is much too demure for my taste, it barely highlights her silhouette and

her neckline is non-existent but it is perfect. her body is thus sheltered from all perverse looks. On the other hand, what annoys me the most is the fact that she constantly traps her blonde hair. The idea of ​​ripping off his elastic is very tempting but I change my mind.

I bring her frail body closer to mine and suddenly she crushes my foot.

My fingers tighten from the pain around her waist making her flinch, damn her heels hurt like hell.

— Don’t try to start again..

Her luscious lips are parted, does she know how tempting they are? She also stares at mine and her breathing becomes irregular.

The music suddenly stops, she displays an indecipherable expression and abruptly detaches herself from me, she makes her way between the guests and thus disappears from my field of vision…

***** Liya’s POV

— Hey Liya…..wake up.. Inaya whispers.

— Um..

I ignore him and turn around to continue my nap.

– Maybe I won’t bother you.

— If I want to sleep

I suddenly open my eyes and sit up straight away, shit I really said that to my teacher!

I dare to glance in his direction, he stares at me sternly.

– Excuse me… I said embarrassed, feeling all eyes on me.

He warns me then turns around and continues his explanations.

— did you have a sleepless night or what?” murmured my friend.

— Yes, unfortunately… I breathe.

A handsome blue-eyed idiot was the cause. Our dance had haunted me a little. I hated myself for having appreciated his contact.

Seriously why didn’t my mother choose an old bald guy?! No, but instead she fell on the most attractive man there could be.

We finish after two long hours of lessons civil law.

— Come on, tell everything.. said Inaya all excited.

— there is nothing to say.. I said somewhat exasperated.

We put our things away and went outside.

— are you serious? you have at least met a handsome guy?

— No Inaya… well maybe I think so, oh and then forget it, I don’t want to talk about that.

— I don’t understand why your mother’s engagement puts you in this state..

I don’t answer not knowing what to say and she continues:

– It may be your father-in-law that’s the problem.. she concludes.

I shrug my shoulders indifferently, just after she starts shouting in my ears .

— My God, you see what I see?

I turn around curious to know what puts her in this state when I see

Xavier leaning against his car.

— It’s just PERFECT… she exclaims.

– Shit… I g*****d, turning around immediately.

She looks at me confused, she grabs my hand and drags me to the other end of the street.

— But Liya, what’s wrong with you?

— This man who is supposedly “perfect” is none other than my mother’s fiancé” I whispered.

His mouth forms a magnificent “o” and his eyes are wide open.

— Seriously Liya?, that’s what it’s like what does your father-in-law look like?, wow…just wow, your mother is so lucky” she said dreamily.

— He has a nice face but he is unbearable..

A whirring noise attracts our attention. Gabriel, he greets us from afar and asks me if he can drop me off and I accept without hesitation.

– Well, I’ll leave you to it then… I said.

– But wait ? and the Apollo who serves as your father-in-law, you do not join him? she asks with a raised eyebrow.

– Absolutely not… I replied immediately.

He came without warning and I definitely don’t want to see him.

— you’re just a sick person, if I were in your place I would jump to her neck,… Gabriel wait, see you tomorrow then…

I nod, taking her in my arms then rushing towards Gabriel .

Arriving at his height, he gives me his best smile and hands me a helmet.

I put it on immediately and climb on his machine which I begin to appreciate.

I hold on to him tightly and we set off.

—Why did you drive so fast? I growl, handing him his helmet.

— Oh it was tempting all the same, admit that you liked it” he says.

I roll my eyes and whisper “idiot”.

— You’re not inviting me to come home for once? He asks sulkily .

I look at him hesitantly, my mother isn’t there anyway, I don’t see what the problem is.

– Okay, come in..

He immediately parks his machine and we enter my house. I turn on the lamp and he inspects the entire room.

— Settle down, I’ll be right away.

He nods and I rush into my room. I change quickly and go down to join him. I approach him and see him concentrate on a photo.

— Is that your mother….? She’s really young.. he said.

— Indeed, it’s really her.

I leave him in the living room and head towards the kitchen, I Opens the fridge and….it’s empty.

Apparently I forgot to do the shopping.

I turn around and see Gabriel looking mocking.

— Up for a pizza? He asks

— Absolutely.. replied -I .

“I would like to see your room,” he said suddenly.

I glare at him, he ignores me and gets up from the sofa.

– No way .. .

He gives me a challenging look and immediately takes the stairs. I get up and run towards him.

— Gabriel stop, I didn’t put it away.

I stop him by violently pulling on his black t-shirt, he faces me and without me expecting it he puts me in potato sack mode on his shoulder.

– Take me down immediately, idiot… I cried, struggling.

He doesn’t listen to me and continues on his way, he stops and opens the first

door.

— Hmm, it’s not this one…..this one is impossible,” he said in front of

my mother’s room.

He is now in front of mine and enters without further delay, he

throws me gently on my bed

— Damn… you can’t do it slowly? I shouted.

He doesn’t answer and looks around him, or rather at the mess in the room. —

Are you sure you’re a girl? he said, as seriously as possible.

— Maybe you want to check? I said annoyed.

— Oh yes, I would like to? he said with a perverse smile.

I threw my pillow abruptly against his face and burst out laughing. laugh at

his expression. He throws the cushion to the other side of the room, a devilish smile distorts his face. He approaches me, firmly grabs my ankles and pulls me towards him, propelling me violently to the ground.

— Ouch my a*s…it hurts like hell.

— Sorry kitten, you provoked me.

I insult him with all the names and get up with difficulty, I turn around and see him busy on I don’t know what.

– What are you doing ? I growled as I approached him.

— I knew that underneath this appearance was hiding an ultra sexy girl.. he said provocatively while inspecting my nightie….wait, NIGHTYETTE?!

I immediately snatch it from his hands angrily and give him a murderous look.

— you’re just a dirty pervert, aren’t you ashamed? Come out of my room right away… I said beside myself.

— It’s okay, calm down, it was just joking. he said innocently with his hands in the air.

He walks around me and lies down with all his weight on my bed, please kill me, this guy is unbearable.

I approach him and stare at him harshly, his eyes are closed and his muscular arms are crossed behind his head, not only is he a complete idiot but he is also well built.

— Stop watching me, will you? he whispers.

How ? I feel a blush rising in my cheeks but I pull myself together immediately.

He opens a single eye, looks at me, then suddenly he pulls me by the arm and I land on the bed right next to him.

Our proximity is quite reasonable but still I’m embarrassed to be lying next to him.

He stares at me intensely which makes me uncomfortable, he turns his gaze away from mine and stares at the ceiling where there are a few cracks.

— Let’s talk, would you like? he said calmly.

I don’t answer too focused on fixing his perfect profile.

— Do you live alone or with your parents? he asks .

— Um just with my mother, my father died three years ago now.

I whispered.

He suddenly turns around and looks at me, touched and saddened.

— Uh. sorry I did not know .

— It’s nothing, let’s forget it, will you?

He nods and stares at the ceiling again.

— I like your room.

– Oh yeah ? What do you like, tell me? the mess, the cracks or maybe the insects?

.

— Speaking of insects, I see one… he said with furrowed eyebrows.

—And where? I asked, not convinced.

He stares at my neck, moves closer to me, reducing our distance, his index finger

ventures onto my neck and I don’t know why little shivers run through me at his touch.

— He was walking on your milky skin… he whispers against my face.

He doesn’t step back, his eyes scan me, his finger moves from my neck to my jaw which he slowly traces, he stares at my lips….that’s not a good sign.

I stop him immediately and immediately stand up, turning my back on him.

– I think it’s time for you to leave… I said.

He does not answer me. he remains silent for interminable seconds.

The creaking of the bed tells me that he has gotten up, his footsteps echoing in the room.

— See you tomorrow Liya..

He leaves my room without waiting for me to answer him. When I’m sure he’s gone, I take a deep breath and lie down on my bed.

– We’re friends Gabriel…just friends” I whispered.