Legends of Amacia Rise of the Caverias
Chapter 2: Hanna's Revelation

Harry lingered for just a moment as Nathanael emerged from the bathroom. “You know you could have taken advantage of that girl,” Harry pointed out.

Hanna sighed and nodded, replying, “Yes, I could have, but it definitely wouldn’t have been right in my present state. She was on the verge of betraying Jacob. I had to stop her and it seems that what I said brought her to her senses, for which I am glad.”

“What’s going on?” Nathanael asked as he approached the bed.

“Rebecca almost did something she would have regretted with Hanna, but she stopped it,” Harry replied as Hanna slumped her shoulders, looking down at the bed.

Nathanael looked at Hanna as she looked up at him, saying, “It was close. An unbelieving adulterous spirit was on her briefly. I saw it in the way she looked at me. But the Lord was merciful and spared us any grief.”

Nathanael’s gazed narrowed for a moment, and then lightened as he said, “That’s good. I think I’ll just leave that dog be and not ask any details.”

“She was thinking I was a goddess or something and to prove to her that I wasn’t a goddess, I had her touch my burned chest. That’s when the spirit reared itself. However, I managed, with the Lord’s help, to quell that insurrection in her. When I pointed out what she was doing, she immediately repented of it and I sent her back to Jacob with the instruction to give him the love and adoration that she wanted to give me,” Hanna explained, feeling the need for a further explanation. “I had to stop her. She was looking at me as if I was still a man, which is obviously not the case now. For us to do what I saw in her eye would have been a terrible folly. Moreover, it would have been so easy to do it after what I endured in the Emperor’s private slave pen. It just rends my heart to think that betraying Selina was that close.” She choked at the thought, adding “I’d rather be ripped to pieces rather than betray her. I....”

Nathanael squatted down in front of Hanna as Harry sat down beside her, putting a comforting arm around her. “You did right by her and the Lord,” Harry cooed as Hanna sobbed softly at the thought of what might have been.

Nathanael took her by the hands, saying, “Hanna; look at me.” Hanna looked into the great cat’s face as he said, “Harry’s right. I know that you would never betray her or us. I know how close you are to her. Betrayal isn’t in you and it never was so don’t let this incident bother you. Now buck up, sister. Your bath is ready.”

Hanna composed herself as Harry pulled out a handkerchief and wiped her running nose. “Nathanael is right,” Harry added as he wiped Hanna’s nose. “Don’t worry about it. You remained loyal so cut off the waterworks and don’t worry your pretty little head about it, sweetheart.”

Hanna heard Harry’s sarcasm and grinned. “Sweetheart is it?” she chided, “Well, I guess that’s better than being called an ugly ape like you.”

“I may be an ugly ape,” Harry retorted, “Better me an ugly ape than a pussy, sweetheart.”

Hanna looked at Harry crossly for a moment, and then laughed softly. “Touché,” she crowed. “You got me there. Now, that name isn’t just an insult.” Hanna sighed deeply and with great sincerity both Harry and Nathanael noticed, she said “Thank you so much, both of you. I don’t know what I’d do without you.”

Harry rose and said with a smile, “It’s the least we could do, sweetheart. Now, I’m off to get something to eat. I expect to see you in the cafeteria after a while.”

“I’ll try and get out a little later,” Hanna replied.

“Nonsense!” Harry retorted humorously. “You will not try. You will. And don’t tell me you can’t. Only a wuse would use that cop out. You’re not a wuse, are you...or have I followed a wuse into this savage land? You need to be seen by the people.”

Hanna began to laugh again, which caused her some pain. Harry and Nathanael laughed as well as Hanna managed to say, “You’re right. I’ll come out after Arabella wraps these blasted ribs of mine and puts the braces back on. Is that sufficient or shall I part the sky with a wave of my hand for you?”

Harry laughed as he stopped at the door. “Just show yourself. The people need to see you,” he said seriously after he stopped laughing.

“Deal,” Hanna replied as Harry left. Once Harry was out of the room, Hanna stated, “You know something, Nathanael, as strange as it sounds and despite being a woman, I don’t feel the slightest embarrassment about being naked in front of you or Harry. It’s strange. I’ve never felt this comfortable about being nude in front of anyone. Agh...maybe it has something to do with the hell I’ve been through.”

“I don’t think so,” Nathanael stated, looking at Hanna with a contemplative expression. “I think this ease you have about us is that you have finally accepted us into your heart, just as you did with Selina. You now truly understand how much we care for you and accept us as your family. However, the hell, as you call it, that you’ve been through may have had some bearing on you finally coming to that decision. But I think it’s more about your connection to us.”

Hanna’s mouth fell open as she realized the wisdom of Nathanael’s words. “Oh, Lord,” she murmured. “You’re exactly right. It took everything up to this point to get me to finally lower my guard and allow you and Harry to become truly my family emotionally. What a priceless gem of truth! It just shows how stubborn I’ve been.”

“But you’re changing,” Nathanael pointed out, “...and I don’t mean your mutation. Your spirit and soul are growing and maturing in ways you never comprehended since you’ve set foot in this savage land. Questions that have dogged your existence since the day you were born are finally starting to be answered. You’ll replace out your true purpose eventually and when it happens, everything will finally become clear to you, including this terrible mutation you’ve endured. All you have to do is persevere and not faint at the finish line. This mutation is just another bump in your path that you have had to deal with. And may I say you are dealing with it in a much better way than I ever anticipated. You’re getting to do something no man has ever done, to my knowledge; and that is replace out what life’s like from the other side of the gender line while still alive. Every man has that secret desire. Hell, even I have that thought from time to time. But you’re actually getting to do it.”

“Well, not by choice,” Hanna reminded Nathanael. “What I’ve experienced in this form is no picnic, you know. I’ve experienced the deepest depravity because of this mutation. I could’ve done without it.”

“I know,” Nathanael countered, “But because you have only seen the bad part doesn’t mean you won’t get to experience the good parts of it. This mutation will allow you to see a world no man has ever experienced and when we finally replace the way to reverse this mutation, you’ll take these experiences back into your male body and incorporate them in ways that’ll give you unparalleled insights into both men and women. You just have to see the good in it.

Hanna shook her head with a wry smile. “You should have been a lawyer, Nathanael, because I just can’t counter your argument,” she declared. “I’d be a liar if I didn’t say that I’m not seeing the good in my present condition. Being a woman has enabled me to become much more attuned to my emotions. I’m replaceing I’m able to express my emotions much easier and it’s making me a much happier person. I’ve suppressed my emotions all my life, and now I’m feeling a bit liberated by this forced gender switch because of this new ability to release those emotions. I’m feeling freer than I’ve ever felt before. Plus women have sensations that men never encounter, some of which are right down pleasant.”

“You seem to becoming enamored by being a woman,” Nathanael stated. “You like being able to release your emotions and just enjoy life.”

“Not liking it...loving it,” Hanna replied softly. “The physical feeling of being a woman has me, shall I say, feeling more alive than I’ve ever felt before.” Hanna blushed deeply as she thought of her time with Selina on the sex floor. “I’m feeling physical sensations that I must admit I really enjoy. Having breasts and the sensation they give me make me feel so alive, not to mention the other part of that equation. All my life I’ve been a destroyer of life. Now, I feel like I can truly be a giver of life, like Selina. It’s a totally new world to me to know and understand that I now have the capability to literally bring new life into this world when the Lord wants me to. The feeling is almost magical in its allure and I really enjoy it. Moreover, because of that, I’m getting a much deeper respect for Selina. I can now literally relate to her. Nathanael, can I tell you something that’s bothered me since it happened?”

“You can tell me whatever you want, Hanna,” Nathanael replied, knowing Hanna was about to reveal something deeply disturbing to her, “...no matter how disturbing or embarrassing it may be. I will not make fun or condemn you.”

Hanna became very soft-spoken as her blush deepened. “When I was prisoner of the Emperor before he mutated me, he somehow transferred my mind into a clone woman and then sexually abused me until I was almost dead. I begged the Lord to take me,” Hanna admitted, her voice whispering as tears rose. “But it was not to be. While my mind was locked in that clone’s body, the Emperor did something I never believed he’d do.”

“What was that,” Nathanael replied softly.

“He forced me screw Selina with a sex toy,” Hanna wept. “He tied me and Selina together with an enormous vibrating sex toy connecting us, and there wasn’t a damned thing either of us could do about it.”

Nathanael’s eyes grew wide with horror. “You’ve got to be kidding. He made you and Selina have lesbian intercourse using a device?”

Tears poured onto Hanna’s cheeks. “Yes,” she sobbed softly. “I’ve never felt so abused and violated as I did at that moment. Selina and I literally became sex puppets for the Emperor’s amusement. In fact, I don’t even remember when he had us tied together like that. I just woke to that condition, being tied to Selina with that damned thing violating us, buzzing like a fucking hornet while we dangled ten feet above the floor on a rope. That beast had us tied together so tightly that even our privates touched. The restraints were right down painful. Before it was over, my arms and legs were completely numb from the tightness of the restraints. Worse yet, the damnable thing violating us was so big...and painful that...that....” Hanna broke and sobbed deeply, unable to continue.

Nathanael gathered her into his arms and hugged her gently, purring, “You don’t have to say any more about it. I get the idea. I’m here for you. Just let it out. Don’t keep it bottled up. It’ll destroy you if you do. Release this pain and horror.” He stroked Hanna’s back gently and purred for her until she regained some composure.

“Thank you,” Hanna whimpered once the surge of overpowering emotion subsided. “You’re such a good friend.”

“It’s all right,” Nathanael purred, wiping the tears from Hanna’s cheeks. “It’s what real family and friends do...they help each other when they’re hurting, and I can clearly see you’ve been traumatized beyond any sane belief. I’m here to help you carry this burden.”

“You’re so kind,” Hanna answered, her voice still distressed. “You just can’t comprehend the physical and mental pain it caused me to be in that position. However, something happened in that incident with Selina that I’m still processing and amazed that happened that gave me hope and strength.”

“What was that,” Nathanael asked softly, realizing Hanna was about to share something incredibly intimate and profound concerning her relationship with Selina.

“The Lord showed His power and mercy to both me and Selina,” Hanna whimpered, a soft smile slowly creeping across her lips. “The Lord opened Selina’s eyes and let her see that it was me trapped in that clone girl she was tied to. When she realized who I was and that I was trapped in a body not my own, Selina turned the tables against the Emperor and his sick perverted game. She became my strength and reminded me that our vows were made so we wouldn’t bring a child into the world while the Emperor was still a threat. Furthermore, to violate those vows, I had to physically be a man, so our vows technically weren’t violated. The Lord used her to strengthen me and give me hope that He’d not abandoned me, even in that hellish situation. It galvanized my resolve to resist the Emperor not in my strength, but in the Lord’s strength. Still, the humiliation of being forced to a lesbian mating openly with the one person I love the most was unbearable. It’s only through the Lord’s mercy and strength that I didn’t completely break in that event. I can clearly see why the Lord had me bring you and Selina along on this adventure.”

“What happened next?” Nathanael asked softly, his mind reeling at the Emperor’s seemingly bottomless depravity and his anger at the Emperor rising.

“Selina suggested that in order to beat the Emperor at his own game, we needed to accept his diabolical gift,” Hanna whimpered. “I agreed with her, and for the first time in my life, I made sweet physical love to Selina in that terrible position. We truly mated mentally as man and wife while being abused physically, deepening our bond to a completely new level I never thought possible. Furthermore, it was done without breaking our vows because I was not a man at the time, and the circumstances were completely out of my control. The Emperor did that thinking it would cause me to collapse mentally because of who I was being forced to mate with. The sick prick wanted Selina and me to mate with that thing in us until we hated each other’s very presence, but it backfired in his face big time. When Selina and I didn’t respond the way he wanted, instead exhibiting the physical and mental pleasure of our mental mating rather than the pain and horror of our forced lesbian intercourse, the Emperor went nuts with rage, eventually separating me and Selina after knocking us out.”

“Oh, you poor thing,” Nathanael replied with great compassion, giving Hanna another gentle hug. “I can’t even comprehend that depth of evil. But somehow together, you and Selina made something good out of that terrible evil, didn’t you?”

“We did,” Hanna murmured, tears dripping slowly. “I came to love Selina in a way that I never thought possible. We physically and mentally became one in the midst of that hellish abuse despite my mind being locked in a clone woman’s body. And I hate to admit it, but it was during that abuse that I began to enjoy being a woman. The orgasmic pleasure women experience so surpasses that of men that we men can’t even fathom of the delight it gives women when a man makes sweet love to his wife or fiancé.” A deep, troubled sigh escaped Hanna’s lips. “I came to love the delight I was feeling being connected to Selina in that manner,” she admitted. “Is that so wrong? Am I loosing myself to this existence because of this apparent infatuation with the sensations a woman’s body has?”

Nathanael shook his head solemnly. “I cannot answer that question,” he said. “It’s something you must answer for yourself. I just don’t know. The only question I would ask is would you willfully engage in that with someone other than Selina?”

“Absolutely not,” Hanna declared emphatically. “But to be clear as to what happened in that sex hell, we had no say in how we were treated. Whatever the Emperor’s sick twisted mind wanted to do to us happened, whether it be lesbian sex, floggings, fluid harvesting, or even piston rapes while being crucified.” Hanna shuddered violently as she added, “The last one that demented shit actually did to me just before the incident with Selina. He had me raped me with a rubber piston while nailing me to an X-cross with red-not log spikes, and then lashing me with a cat-o-nine-tails with twenty lashes. I really thought I was going die when that happened.” Tears flooded her cheeks again as she wailed in agony at the memory. “Even though it happened while I was locked in that clone girl’s body, I can still feel where the log spikes impaled me through the wrists and feet!” she sobbed. “I can’t forget it, as much as I wish I could! I thought I knew what evil was until that happened. You can’t understand what it feels like to be so mercilessly used and abused!”

“Dear God,” Nathanael breathed, astounded at Hanna’s humiliating account. “This is crazy. You talk as if you were a sex slave to the Emperor. Moreover, it sounds like he took great pleasure in defiling and torturing you while you were locked in that clone. It’s utterly heinous beyond my comprehension!”

Hanna looked Nathanael dead in the eye and said, “That is exactly what I’m saying. But it wasn’t just me; there were scores of other women there being abused in ways you can’t even fathom. It’s the worst thing to ever happen to me.”

“I should say so,” Nathanael replied, his anger against the Emperor starting to show in his face. “Someone needs to teach that evil bastard the proper respect for the female of your species. Women are not just toys to be abused and tossed away like empty beer cans when he’s finished with them.”

“I fully agree,” Hanna said softly, her tone dripping with grief and anger at what she’d experienced at the Emperor’s hands.

“I take it those weren’t the only ways the Emperor abused you, was it?” Nathanael asked pointedly.

“No,” Hanna murmured. “I won’t go into the gory details. The methods and horrors are just too humiliating and graphic. But I will say this: The whole time I was there, all of the abuse where I wasn’t forced into lesbian acts with someone else was done by a machine; a machine that I found out later apparently is a cybernetic organism with the Emperor’s original wife in its center. She didn’t want to abuse us, but her programming forced her to do what she did, so I don’t blame her.”

Nathanael’s eyebrows rose with surprise. “A woman buried within a machine; is that even possible?” he asked. “Are you sure about that?”

“Absolutely,” Hanna replied softly, but deliberately, “Apparently, my telepathic potential is not just anchored just to my physical body. I was able to exercise it in the clone too. How that can be I have no idea, but it happened. I looked into that giant Cyclops eye of the machine that abused me and saw the woman’s soul buried in the center of the machine’s matrix. That was after the Emperor physically raped that clone body I was in and then had my arms and legs cut off.” Her eyes grew wide and tears flooded her cheeks afresh as the pain of the doll-making process surfaced again. She choked and cried, “He had the machine cut off my arms and leg all at once and then had me mounted on a table as a trophy! I was supposed to be his sex slave for the rest of my life. I was turned into a living doll without the ability to move at all!”

Nathanael’s face fell dramatically as he saw and felt Hanna’s pain telepathically. His eyes grew wide and his anger boiled. “He physically raped you?” he asked, his rage boiling on his face.

“Yes,” Hanna wept deeply. “He nearly choked me to death while raping me mercilessly for several minutes. I couldn’t escape because I was tied down to a table. Even though it was a clone body I was in at the time, I can still feel him raping that clone girl’s body. It’s etched into my mind forever! I can’t forget it! It haunts me even now. It’s like he was not just raping my clone body, but my mind and soul as well. If it hadn’t been for Selina and the girls in the Harem where he dumped me after my mutation, I would have never been able to cope with such a devastating attack.” The sobs became soft wails of grief, anger, and pain. “What did I do to deserve such a terrible fate?” she despaired. “It’s just not fair. I didn’t ask for this!”

Nathanael saw Hanna’s emotional trauma and it tempered his anger. He slipped next to her and put his arm around her. She leaned into his embrace and sobbed deeply. “I don’t know, Hanna. I cannot image the horror and pain of what you just told me,” he murmured, purring for her. “It seems the Emperor’s lusts, depravity, and evil has no bottom. All I can say is I’m here for you now, Hanna. Release this grievous poison so that you may be healed of it. Being raped and ravished is about the worst thing that can happen to a female of any species. Only by releasing the pain of the act can you conquer it.”

Hanna’s sobs quieted with Nathanael’s words and purr. She looked up into his great cat face and whimpered, “I love you so much, Nathanael. Like Selina, you have always been there for me and know what to say to make things right for me. Thank you.”

Nathanael wiped Hanna’s tears away. “You’re welcome, Hanna,” he replied. “Since this seems to be a very touchy subject for you, let’s leave it and get back to what you were saying concerning Selina and your enjoyment of the incident with her despite it being forced on you. Did she enjoy it as much as you apparently did; the forced lesbian mating with that clone body the Emperor apparently had you stuck in?”

“Yes,” Hanna admitted, whimpering, “She told me so. She loved having me tied to her like that so that we were forced to share our pleasures. Selina craves physical contact with me and it really showed in that incident. If I ever get her back, I’ll never deny her that contact ever again. She means the whole universe to me. If it weren’t for her and the Lord, I would have broken in that situation. Our fusion allowed me to draw on her strength and knowledge in that diabolical position. I’m so grateful to her for her help. She taught me how to be a woman and enjoy it. Still, I’d rather be my old self despite the feeling of pure life being a woman has given me. I…oh, hell, I don’t know. I now look at myself now and wonder if I’ll ever return to being a man or if I even want to.”

“You sound conflicted,” Nathanael observed. “You like being a woman because it’s allowing you to open up and enjoy life in a way you’ve never allowed yourself to do before, but you also like the experience, strength, and power being a man for fifty years has made you. I wouldn’t give up on returning to your original form. You can’t just abandon it. But for now, if I were in your position, I’d just accept your new state and enjoy yourself while you can. Being a woman has its advantages, as you have pointed out. As for your concern about the apparently lesbian mating with Selina, that was not your doing so don’t worry about it. Furthermore, I know how deeply connected you are to Selina. You’ll always be her husband and her man, no matter what form you’re in, so whatever you and she decide is appropriate will not bother me.”

“Thank you,” Hanna murmured with great appreciation. “It helps knowing that you approve of us.”

“I have always approved of you and Selina,” Nathanael stated. “Even in this strange somewhat twisted situation, you two belong together. The Lord put you together and this mutation isn’t going to separate you. The incident you told me about is proof of that, so just relax. You’ve done nothing wrong. Now, are you ready for your bath, little sister?”

Hanna chuckled painfully. “It still sounds weird being called sister,” she replied, “But yeah...I’m ready. You’re going to have to bathe me though. I still don’t have any strength to do anything.”

“That’s why I’m here,” Nathanael said in a fatherly manner, pulling back the blanket uncovering her legs. He noticed her legs and hips were still bandaged with the splints still on them. “Oh, I guess we need to get these splints off and the rest of the bandages off before you can take your bath. Allow me.” Nathanael promptly removed the splints from Hanna’s legs and arm. He then loosed a single claw from his index finger and cut the bandages loose. In seconds, he’d removed the remainder of Hanna’s bandages, uncovering her hips and legs. Noticing the wounds had almost completely healed, he smiled. “Looks like the gashes on your legs and hips are healing up nicely,” he stated, tossing the bandages on the floor. Glancing at Hanna’s groin, he noticed it was still a bit swollen, but otherwise okay. “How does your groin feel? Any discomfort?” he asked.

“No,” Hanna replied softly. “But it does tingle a bit. It seems every time I remember what happened in Amacia, I get aroused somewhat. Fortunately, I’m so weak I can’t really get that stirred up from it.”

“So I noticed,” Nathanael replied, gently scooping Hanna up into his arms. “Did the Emperor sexually abuse you after he mutated you?”

Hanna blushed as Nathanael carried her to the bath, carefully supporting her back. “Some, but not at the level he did while I was in that clone body,” Hanna whispered. “He sexually assaulted me with his fingers and choked me right after I was mutated so I’d know I was truly a woman. Apparently, my mental strength must have really impressed him because he gave me a day or two to ponder my fate before I was taken to the Arena to die. Somehow, I’ve gained his respect.”

“Those in power often respect power when confronted with it,” Nathanael commented as he stopped beside the tub. “You have obviously demonstrated a power he is unfamiliar with and dreads, otherwise you’d be dead. He sees that power in you and is forced to respect it after you survived everything he threw at you. But he’ll not let that respect stop him from destroying you.”

“I’m well aware of that,” Hanna replied as Nathanael lowered her into the steaming water of the tub. “Oh, yeah,” she moaned with delight. “That feels so good.” A brief broken cough erupted from her chest that concerned Nathanael. It rattled as she flinched in pain from the cough. “Damn,” she moaned, closing her eyes in pain. “That hurts like hell.”

“It should,” Nathanael declared, “Remember, those ribs aren’t completely healed yet. But that rattle has me worried. Do you think you’ll be okay while I go get Arabella, Amelia, and Magnus? Between the three of them, they may be able to figure out what that rattle is and if it’s a problem.”

“Sure,” Hanna answered, her face relaxing as the heat of the bath soothed her battered body. “Just don’t take too long. I don’t want to be stuck in here all day.”

Nathanael chuckled, saying, “I promise I won’t be long.” With that, he quickly left.

A smile came to Hanna’s face as the warmth of the water penetrated her core. “Oh, yeah,” she moaned. “This feels so good. I don’t remember the last time I had a good hot bath.” Drowsiness swept over her as her body suddenly felt like dead weight. In moments, Hanna felt her head starting to spin from an abrupt change in her equilibrium. “What the...,” she moaned. Seconds later, a sharp pain pierced her right chest, eliciting a shriek as she grabbed her right breast with her left hand. Searing, fiery pain filled her chest as a gurgle rose in her throat just before she plummeted into unconsciousness.