My Hot Alpha
Chpater 109

I wasn't going into this blind. I jumped in with two feet and it was a mistake. The more time we spent together the more nothing else mattered.

I knew deep down he was going to be in my life whether I wanted him to be or not.

"You coming?". He asked knocking me out of my thoughts. Smiling I walked the short distance to his front door. "You want anything?". Walking behind him into his living room I couldn't help but stare in awe. His home was beautiful.

"No I'm good". My stomach rumbled, I was starting to feel a little sick.

"Grilled cheese okay?". As this point I would eat anything.

"I'm starving". I groaned. "Do you have any Cheetos?".

"That's my girl". He winked. "Snacks are in the far right cupboard. I'm going to change I'll be back in a minute".

I was already walking to the kitchen before he could finish his sentence. Reaching up and into the cupboard I pulled the family sized bag out and ripped them open. I loved that his house was open plan. The row of full sized windows looking out into his backyard. The scenery that you could see for miles, it was a beautiful sight and I would never get tired of looking. "Beautiful isn't it?"...

"Yeah". Making my way towards one of the corner couches I sat down tucking my feet under my bum. "I bet it looks amazing in winter". Shoving a few Cheetos in my mouth I could see him smile.

"You'll replace out soon enough. This will be your home one day to". His voice lowered as he took a few steps towards me. "Baby I'm sorry". The sigh left his mouth as he bent down in front of me. Our eyes now level. "I'm sorry too". I whispered.

"You've nothing to be sorry for. I should have just told you the truth but instead I caused an argument that didn't need to happen. Sarah and I messed around a lot but please know I haven't been with anyone since you got here. Those girls are trying their hardest to get under your skin but trust me Leah I don't want anyone but you".

I believed him but I still wasn't sure I trusted him 100%. Not yet anyway.

"Do you know how hard tonight was for me?". He asked.

"It was hard for me too". Chewing my bottom lip I broke our stare. He had no idea the effect he had on me. These feelings were all new to me and yes sometimes I wasn't quite sure how to handle them.

"And that dress". He groaned. "Please tell me you're wearing panties". I couldn't hold back my grin.

"I don't like this". I sighed.

"I don't either princess". Taking a seat next to me he slid his arm around my shoulder. "I can't do this Leah. Not speaking to you or seeing you is driving me crazy. I almost shifted tonight". "What?".

"Why do you think Jack was by my side the full night. Every guy in that damn club had their eyes on you".

They did?

A snarl fell from his lips his body tensing beside me. "I don't like people looking at what's mine".

"Jealous?". I asked.

"Fucking right I'm jealous. You're mine princess. I can't do this without you".

"I believe you Jake but I don't want to jump right back in there as if nothing happened. I asked you a simple question and you didn't give me an answer. What did you think was going to happen?". "What do I need to do to get you to trust me?". He asked.

I didn't expect that. I was expecting a screaming match and him trying to show his dominance over me. It didn't take much for him to snap.

"I don't know"....

"If you don't know then how am I suppose to fix it baby?".

"If you hadn't of slept with every girl in this town we wouldn't be having this conversation". I had no idea where it came from but it needed to be said.

"That's not fair". Pushing himself off the couch he walked into the kitchen pouring himself a drink. "That was my past Leah".

"Yeah and your past keeps raring it's ugly head. Those girls don't respect me and they never will. How am I suppose to help run a pack that I have no control over. Those girl could kill me if they wanted". "Do you want to be with me?".

"I want to be with you but not everything that comes with you". I didn't know how else to say it. He needed to know the truth and how I was feeling.

"My wolf is me". He bit out through clenched teeth. "You gotta want the full package babe".

"I'm not talking about your wolf. I'm talking about everyone in this town having a fucking opinion". I snapped getting to my feet. "I wouldn't get half the abuse I do if I was a werewolf. They don't think I'm worthy because I'm human". "Who gives a f**k what they think?". He yelled.

"Me, I DO". He had no idea what it was like. He didn't experience what they were like when he wasn't around.

"I'm going out of town for a few days. It'll give you the space you need. Once I come back you need to decide on what you want. Bringing the glass to his lips he downed what was in it. "One minute you want me and the next you don't. Gotta make up your mind princess".

"Never once did I say I didn't want you". I glared.

"I know baby look I'm sorry". Running a hand over his face he closed the distance between us. "Whatever you want, whatever I need to do I'll do it. I need you in my life, I need to know you want the same".

"I want the same". I whispered. "But I need to know it's just me". I know I shouldn't let those girls get to me but it was hard. I didn't want them talking about how big his dick was or how good he was in the sack.

"It's only even going to be you princess". Placing his arm around my waist he pulled me flush against him. "When I get back be prepared because I'm going to show you just how much you mean to me".