My Hot Alpha
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My stomach filled with nerves.

What if I couldn't do this? What if I was a werewolf that couldn't connect with her wolf properly?

What if I was different and not good different?

A sigh fell from my lips. I was thinking way too much about this. It should be easy right? Should just come naturally?

"What's the sigh for princess?".

I chewed the inside of my cheek. I felt stupid and embarrassed about this whole situation. He shouldn't have to teach me because I should be able to do it all on my own.

She was part of me and yet it didn't feel like it.

"Do you want me to turn the car around?".

"What, no". I frowned. "I need to do this".

"Want princess. You must want to do it".

"I do I just-...". I paused. "Why is this so hard for me?".

"It's not hard baby it's just the unknown of it all. You don't know any better but today we'll try, and we'll keep trying until you're comfortable enough to do it on your own".To access the complete chapters for free, visit Jo b( n1 b).com. He brought my hand to his lips placing a kiss on my knuckles.

He was right. The only thing standing in my way with this was me. I had to put all the negative thoughts and overthinking out of my head. I could do this; I was born to be a wolf.

...

We had been at the training ground for over an hour and achieved nothing. I wasn't sure how long it would be before Jake lost his temper. Nothing was working.

I tried to take his mom's advice and make it fun, but I remained on two legs instead of four. I couldn't seem to shift.

"Get angry". He pushed my shoulder slightly.

"What?". I made a face. I didn't want to do this through anger. I wanted to be able to shift freely.

"Come on get mad". He pushed my shoulder again. "You want to shift then get f*****g mad".

"Stop".

"Get fucking mad and shift". He roared.

I felt the chill run down my spine at the tone of his voice. There was nothing friendly about it, nothing nice. His own wolf was present, his eyes shifting from brown to black.

But I felt her. I felt her rise within me and push her way to the front. Instead of counting my breaths or trying to control my breathing so I could control her I let her in.

I let her push her way through and the next thing I knew I had Jake pinned beneath me. Snarling and snapping at his neck.

Wow.

The thrill I felt, the power radiating through my body. The strength within me felt exhilarating. I wanted more.

"Put the teeth away princess".

I snapped my teeth and shook my head, but I didn't remove my paw from his chest. Yes, he helped me shift, that was the point of coming out here, but I didn't want it to happen like this. But once again I was probably making a big deal out of nothing. I shifted I should be happy right?

"Let me up I want to show you something".

I did as he asked and moved back.

"Can you hear me?".

Huh?

Wait did he just....

Then I heard his laughter.

"We can communicate through the link".

No, I didn't want him inside my head. I didn't want anyone in there. Could he do that whenever he wanted? Did I have to be in wolf form for that to happen? I didn't realise I was pacing until he stepped in front of me. "You can block me out. You can block everyone out". He grabbed hold of my face in two hands. "Our link is open for when we need it and baby sometimes, we need to use it".

I wanted to change back. I closed my eyes. I knew there was a mind link, Alanna had mentioned something before but never had I experienced someone's voice in my head other than my own.

I felt something being draped over my body and only then did I open my eyes and realise I was lying on the ground naked. This is why I wanted a controlled shift. My clothes were ruined.

"You shouldn't have done that". I pushed his hand away as I got to my feet. "I didn't want to shift that way. The whole purpose of coming out here was for you to teach me and you haven't taught me anything". "We tried Leah, and nothing worked".

"Then maybe I'm just not meant to be a wolf". I pulled his jacket tighter around my body and stormed my way to the car.

This was meant to be fun; we were meant to have fun with it.

"Leah, wait up". He grabbed hold of my arm and pulled me to a stop. "Stop losing your head all the time. I told you it takes practice. You'll never learn if you keep storming off".

"I just want to go home".

"Like always". He muttered.

"What?". I made a face.

"Look I get that this hasn't been easy for you but if you want to do this then you need to be serious about it."