My Love for You Broke Me
Chapter 204

Chapter 204

Chapter 204

I did not succeed in taking him, for I collapsed in his embrace while wrapping my arms around hiswaist. However, he did not push me away and let me be instead. Displaying an astonishing level ofself-control, he drove us back to the apartment eventually.

The flashbacks from last night embarrassed me greatly and my cheeks were burning as I struggled toface the truth. No, things have gone the wrong way! We should not have ended up in this way. Drinkingdoes lead to mistakes…

Moreover, I had never taken the initiative with Shawn, even though we were fully dressed last night. Werarely made love to each other, and the few times we did, he never tried any outrageous positions. Butnow…

I had tried to hold myself together, but I fell apart after learning about the happenings from last night.With much sadness, I wandered out of the room like a ghost.

Meanwhile, he stood in front of the French windows and was currently on a call. Since his back wasturned on me, I decided to sneak out of the apartment.

Catching the sounds of my movements, he turned around and frowned in frustration. He asked dully,"Where are you going?" His unfriendly look unlocked the fear in me. It felt like going back to thebeginning of our relationship.

I mumbled, "I'm meeting Emma."

"She went to Bryxton last night."

"Oh. I'll visit her in Bryxton, then."

He put his phone away and walked toward me, sighing. "Until when do you plan to hide from me?"

I looked at the floor in silence.

Eventually, he gave in and ordered me, "It's raining in Bryxton. You should change before you go."

I was still dressed in the black camisole from yesterday. It suddenly occurred to me that theconservative Shawn could not tolerate seeing me in such an outfit.

The more he ordered me to change, the more I refused to.

Ignoring him, I attempted to leave without changing at all. Suddenly, he held my wrist and dragged meinto his arms. After staring at me with his deep eyes for a while, he touched my flat belly with his coldpalm.

I fought to resist his flirting as I looked at him in a daze. Subsequently, his smoky voice rang in my ears."Since when have you become a bad girl? Hmm, Ray?"

His tone went up slightly at my name, which was too much for my heart. Blushing deeply, I replied, "Letme go now!"

Of course, he did not as he held me up in his arms instead. With my legs dangling, I reflexively

wrapped them around his waist while holding onto his neck. Then, he looked up at me with a pair ofclear eyes.

I could not help but stare down at this handsome man. His features were well-defined, like a deity whovisited earth. That was my impression of him—out of this world. He seemed to be standing from ahigher point, dispassionately surveying the life on earth as if nothing would pique his interest.

Even when I had ruined matters and lied to him, he never once grumbled about it.

Feeling guilty about the incident from eight months ago, I hugged him tight and articulated, "I'm sorry."

He raised a brow in confusion. "Huh?"

"Kevin was right. I ruined you."

He clapped back. "I thought you did not know me at all."

I had no words.

In the past, he would never expose me. Instead, he would let me put on my act as he observed. Is heangry at me because I said I didn't know him?

I looked at the floor and bit my lips to stop my tears from streaming. After I composed myself, Iapologized, "Sunny, I am sorry. It's not that I didn't want to approach you—I was scared. Everything I'vedone is a failure, including your children that I miscarried. I'm fearful of meeting you again. When I wentto search for you in Finland, you shunned me a few times. I thought you didn't want to see me everagain. That was sad and depressing!"

He did not blame me at all. Sitting on the couch, he gently rubbed my cheek with a hand, comfortingme in a low voice. "Let's not debate the rights and wrongs of the past. The kids… We're not destined tobe their parents, but you're still young! With our advanced technology, you could go for an IVF if youwant a kid! If you don't, we don't have to try."

Just when I had held back my tears, his touching words set me off again. I buried my head and criedmy heart out in his arms. The pain, melancholy, and frustration I had experienced lately were gone in asecond.

I thanked him from deep down in my heart for not blaming me, and I felt grateful that he was willing toapproach me.

"Ray, you are the most important thing to me. Anything else does not matter. I won't blame you foranything in our past nor debate over rights and wrongs. Have you forgotten my words?"

He once said that any misunderstanding was not a good reason to leave. I held his words close toheart, but I also recalled the three times I did not get to see him in Finland, which was a huge blow.Sobbing, I asked, "Why did you refuse to see me?"

I was fragile in front of him, and I was willing to shed my armor and rely on him. This felt different frommy relationship with Nick. With this man before me, I could entrust my whole life to him.

He did not give me an explanation as it was typical of him to be taciturn. After saying all he had wantedto say, he went back to his old self.

Fuming, I called him, "Shawn Xenos."

He smiled. "That was rude."

When I called him by his full name, he would tell me off for being rude. After some time, he did notbother to correct me anymore.

At first, I had wanted to tell him that I had the right to call my man by his full name. However, I wasstopped by the thought of my shameful and ridiculous actions from last night.

Hence, I hurriedly left his embrace and was met with his confused gaze. I wiped my tears away andexplained, "I need to go to Bryxton."

Although we shared a room, we had not had any intimacy for eight months. I felt happy but unfamiliarat the same time. Furthermore, I should meet my parents to tie up some loose ends.

Still, he insisted, "Change your clothes."

Perhaps I was unwilling to give in, I purposely went against him. "I'm too lazy to do that. I'll see how itgoes when I arrive in Bryxton."

"Ray, listen to me and change that outfit." He looked unfriendly, and I could not bother to engage withhim. With my heart singing happily, I left the apartment with car keys in hand.

When I arrived on the first floor, Joseph immediately handed me a parka. I frowned at his unnecessaryexplanation when he informed me, "Mr. Xenos ordered me to pass this to you. He said that it's cold inBryxton and had me prepare it for you."

Nah, Shawn is not the type to talk much. The most he would say is, "Get her a jacket."

I took the parka and asked, "Are you still taking orders from him?"

He answered, "I have not communicated with him ever since he went abroad, but he texted me justnow."

"Text him back for me."

He deferred to me. "What do you want me to say, Miss?"

"Tell him that my parents are setting up a blind date for me."

Joseph was astonished. "Miss, is this an attempt to make him jealous?"