My Love for You Broke Me
Chapter 90

Chapter 90

Chapter 90

"I'll always be here waiting for you, my lady." His twinkling eyes were filled with concern as he gazed atme under the night sky. I was certain that I would be able to embrace the entire universe in his eyes if Ihad the courage to take one step forward. However, I couldn't bring myself to do it in the end. "I'msorry," I cried while shaking my head.

Christopher sighed as he lowered his gaze. "You ended up choosing Nicholas two months ago too. Idon't know what you're thinking, but I've decided to support any decision that you make. My greatestwish is for you to replace happiness! I just want you to live a good life. But, my lady, you don't seem to behappy at all, so why don't you give us a chance to return to the past?"

The past?! Christopher and I don't share a past at all. It was all one-sided—I was the one going afterhim for nine years, I thought. The lights by the school corridor were dim, and I stood beneath it as Ifidgeted around helplessly. I didn't know how to respond to him. However, I knew for a fact thatChristopher was just a teenage dream that I had.

I knew that I couldn't get close to him or hold hands with him, and I knew that I could offer myself to himwith the knowledge that I was an infertile woman. So, I shifted my gaze up and looked at him beforeopening up to him. "I used to love you so, so much—just the sound of your name used to send tinglesdown my spine. I would've jumped in front of a car for you! I still feel nervous even as I look at you now.But, Christopher, too many things have happened throughout the nine years I had been chasing afteryou. For example, I got married to your twin brother, Nicholas; I was diagnosed with cancer anddeemed infertile; I turned myself into a nationwide joke… Christopher, how could we go back to thepast after all that's happened?"

Christopher could hear the fear in my voice, and he comforted me in a gentle tone. "You don't have tothink about anyone or anything else for now. Just answer me—do you want to be with me?"

Do I want to be with him? What he wanted was a simple and clear answer, but I simply couldn't seemyself getting back together with him. I knew that things could never go back to the way it was. After aslight pause, he spoke in his warm and gentle voice. "I watched the video… and I genuinely felt sorryfor you. I was wondering, how did my lady allow herself to be bullied by someone else without standingher ground?"

I didn't stand my ground when I was being bullied… I pressed my lips together before rejecting him witha heavy heart. "I'm sorry. I don't know how I turned into this person, and I don't know why I'm so afraidto be with you now. But I'm really thankful for all the care and love you've given me," I ended uprejecting Christopher. He didn't reveal any emotion on his face, but I could sense that he seemed rathergloomy.

"Can you bear to give up on me just like that?" he asked in a soft and meek tone. A look of shockspread across my face—I never would've expected him to ask such a humble question. I thought aboutit before responding sincerely, "You once said that there are too many people in this world who neverget what they want. Regardless of whether I can bear to let you go, I'll have to do it in the end," Ireplied. Christopher deserves to replace his own happiness. He shouldn't be with an infertile woman likeme! He deserves a perfect family with children.

I had to admit—what Nicholas uttered about my infertility was too much of a blow to me. It resulted in ascar that would lay in my heart forever.

"Can you listen to me playing Street Where Wind Resides for one last time?" he asked. This was the

song that initiated everything between Christopher and me, so I figured that things should end at thesame point as well. However, it seemed like we were still in each other's lives even after biddinggoodbye a few times. We were like old friends who would gather together to talk about our sweet past."I'd love to," I uttered with a wide grin. Christopher walked into the classroom, and I sat by the wallwhile listening to the piano, just like the good old days. Tears streamed down my cheeks. I guess I'llnever be able to return to my teenage years! The four-minute-long tune eventually came to an end.Right before it ended, I stood up and walked off. The summer breeze lifted the hem of my skirt, and itblew away my nine years of unforgettable love.

…

It was late by the time I drove home. I lay on my bed and scrolled through the texts that my assistantsent. 'President Felix, the company's shares saw a 5% reduction after all the crazy rumors in the pasttwo months. However, everything else is fine, and our finances are looking good. We look forward tohaving you back." Crazy rumors… He's probably talking about the video of me begging Nicholas in therain. I'm the face of the Felix Family, so this must've caused some impact on the company.

I didn't reply to my assistant's text—I simply lowered the phone and fell into a restless bout of sleep. Iwoke up sometime in the afternoon, and my phone, which was on silent mode, had tons of missed callsfrom Clair, May, Kevin, my assistant, and so on. I felt drained just looking at all of these calls. In theend, I decided to check my WhatsApp to see the text that my assistant had sent me.

'Check the trending topics, President Felix,' it said. Something sounded odd about the text. I openedmy Twitter app—the top trend was 'Renee Felix', followed by 'pianist Christopher', followed by 'StreetWhere Wind Resides'. The fourth trending topic was 'Renee's men'. Renee's men… The term itself leftme speechless. I frowned as I tapped into one of the videos. There, I found a clip of Christopher and I,with him standing upstairs and me standing downstairs.

He was gazing at me lovingly while I looked back with my teary eyes. We looked like a perfect coupleunder the moonlight. This video recorded every single bit of the conversation we had last night, and itwas filmed in such high definition. I could hear our voices. "I tried so hard to look for you. I kept you inmy heart for nine years while you chased after me for nine years." I turned the video off after that.

When I scrolled down to look at the comments, most of them were criticizing me for being a b*tch.Come to think of it, I've appeared as a trending topic three times in the past two months, all for differentmen. I guess I can see why others would think of me that way. I somehow became everyone's target.

'I'll handle it once I'm at the company,' I texted my assistant after getting off the Twitter application. Iknew that I would have to deal with this eventually—the Felix Corporation's shares couldn't afford tofluctuate for much longer.

As I thought about the videos, I felt extremely unlucky all of a sudden. Who could it be? Did someonefollow me to the school building? I ran through a list of my potential enemies, but I realized that most ofthe companies that had some form of conflict or competition with Felix Corporation would be part of thelist. There were too many people involved, so I gave up and lay in bed for a while more before headingoff to shower.

After getting changed, I drove to the office. I was shocked when I saw a familiar face waiting outsidethe building. "What are you doing here, Kevin?"