My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance)
Chapter 59

Chapter 59 LANCE'S POV

I stared at the little women sleeping in my arm, feeling complicated. The scars on her body broke my heart into pieces.

If this happened one year ago, I would have been so happy, but right now, this wasn't what I wanted to see.

She cried to me, telling me she's really afraid this time and begged me not to treat her this way anymore.

For the first time, her tears softened my heart.

I have a very embarrassing secret. Ever since I became an adult, I kept having racy dreams. In my dreams, I was always making love to a woman. I couldn't see her face clearly, but I remember very vividly the red birthmark on her breasts area. When I accidentally ripped off Jennie's shirt that time and saw her red birthmark, I was completely stunned. I couldn't believe my eyes! So Jennie Gomez has always been the female in my sex dreams?

But when I was 18, she was merely only 10! How is this possible!

And on that same day, I had the same dream again. But this time I could see her face, it was Jennie Gomez. I was covered in cold sweat that night, I never thought that the woman who took my heart and soul away in my dreams is the woman I hated so much.

To be honest, I couldn't accept this. It was like you hate one type of food, but someone told you that you have eaten this food more than one time.

I didn't have enough time to digest this unbelievable fact. And as I was going to see Leo to talk about some stuff, I saw Jennie's message on his phone, asking him to meet her at the hotel.

Leo was going to marry Lia the next day, yet Jennie invited him to the hotel, what was she thinking. I wouldn't allow my dear brothers family to be ruined by her.

Only after many years later, I only realised that I had been using Leo as an excuse, to separate them. It had always been me, I wanted to possess that woman, I wanted her all to myself.

Once I saw the message, I went back to my room and drank some whiskey, alcohol always make people extra reckless. And after that, I drove to the hotel and saw her in this beautiful red dress, like she was the bridesmaid. And right at that moment, I couldn't control myself anymore, I couldn't resist the woman that I have hated for so long. I used drunk as an excuse and forced myself onto her.......

But I knew it was just an excuse. I wasn't even drunk at the very least. I just used that

as an excuse to touch her, to make her mine. I wanted to know if she would feel even better than in my dreams.

In fact, she felt even more better than in my dreams. It was amazing. It was wonderful.

Last time, when she was still only in my dreams, I could use other women to satisfy my own needs. But ever since I touched her body, and made love to her, I became only interested in her. Other women can't satisfy my needs anymore. And with a wave of my hands, Jennie became my secret lover.

Sometimes I wonder, this must be our fate. She appeared in my dreams for nearly 10 years, and we did so many intimate stuff in my dreams, even our blood type is the same.

Then I even dreamed about her giving birth to my son.

So when I knew she was pregnant with my child, and was 3 months pregnant, I was stunned. But then she aborted our child without hesitation and I got so mad. She asked me jokingly if I liked her.

In her eyes, I have always been the powerful and rich Lance Mason, I always look down on her, how would I even like her?

Later only did I realize that it's not that I didn't like her, it was me who didn't want to admit that I like her.

In this world, the people that I love most is my grandma and Leo. So when grandma was injured and every evidence pointed at her, I was angry. My hatred for her hasn't

sappear and I also realized that my feelings for her had changed from hatred to something better, I hate that she's already my woman.

Thated that she's already my woman, but she still thought about Leo. Every time she looked at Leo, her eyes were filled with love, and when she looked at me, there's only hatred and disgust.

I knew she pretended to be sweet and gentle around me, trying to make me happy. At first I kind of enjoyed it but when she met Leo and looked at him with loving eyes, I wanted to tear her apart with my bare hands.

So, when father called the cops, I let them take her away. Plus the stuff in England was giving me much work. At that time, she still wasn't someone THAT important to me. At least, not as important as business and grandma.

I actually doubted grandma's words too, because I knew even if god gave her some guts, she wouldn't dare do something like that. I planned to settle this once I handled the stuff in England, so I allowed them to lock her up in jail for a short amount of time.

I wanted her to know that if she dares crosses me, then I wouldn't let her live a peaceful life.

But I didn't expect my father to be so quick to send her to jail. The day I came back from England, I thought about her and asked my assistant about her wellbeing.

My assistant made some phone calls and when he came back to report to me, his face was not looking good. He said: "Sir, something happened to Ms Gomez."

Looking at his face, I had a bad feeling. "What happened?"

"Ms Gomez committed suicide."

My mind went blank at that exact moment, the words kept repeating in my ears. 'Ms Gomez committed suicide.' I demanded my assistant to check which hospital she was sent to, and I went straight to her. On my way, I saw an ambulance rushing towards the hospital.

My eyes locked onto that ambulance, thinking if she was inside that ambulance.

I arrived at the hospital at the same time as the ambulance. I saw the nurses pushing her down, her face was as pale as ghost. She looked like she wasn't breathing. I wanted to approach her, to see if this was really happening, but my knees gave out, my assistant had to hold onto me.

She was rushed to the ER, i stood outside, looking at her.

The nurses kept rushing in and out to grab the blood bags, a nurse scolded: "We shouldn't save criminals who commit suicide, plus she is of Rh blood type, such a scarce blood type, our hospital is already lack of this blood type.

I heard what the nurse said, and right at that moment I wanted to kill this nurse who said that they shouldn't save her. Then only I realized that this woman had already taken up a huge space in my heart. She has already become someone really important to me.

I didn't want anything to happen to her.

The nurse said she lost too much blood, and the blood bank was out of Rh blood, if she didn't get enough blood, her body will become very weak.

I remembered that I'm also of Rh blood type, so I rushed towards the nurse and told her to get my blood and give it to her.

And very quickly, my blood was infused into her. I prayed in my heart, to make sure she's okay.

I admit I'm someone with many flaws, especially my personality, and to her, I'm the devil lord. But if not for her mother, my mother wouldn't die so quickly, and for that I hate her and her mother. Every time I see her smiling at Leo, it increased my hatred to her. And slowly, she

attracted all my attention, i knew which high school she went to, which university she got accepted into. I even knew that she was secretly dating my brother. I knew everything.

Hi dear readers, this is a bonus chapter of Lance Mason's POV, So now all of you know why he hated Jennie so much, and also the reason why sometimes he treated Jennie sometimes bad.

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