Omega Lost
Chapter 31

**Elena**

This is the best thing I have ever tasted. As soon as I put it into my mouth I was hit by all sorts of delicious flavors that it was overwhelming at first. Then all I tasted was heaven. Pizza is now my favorite food. I take my time eating the one Sebastian gave me, savoring every bite. He watches me and I realize I haven't thanked him for the food and how good it tastes.

"This is delicious. Thank you." I tell him once I've swallowed the last bite.

He doesn't say anything...just stares. Shoot did I wait too long? Is he mad?

"Sebastian?" His eyes snap to mine. "Are you okay?"

He clears his throat and picks up some pizza for himself. "Yeah. How did you like it?" His words sound a little strained.

Was he mad at me? I don't want to displease him.

"I loved it," I say with a smile hoping he will forgive my rudeness.

A slight smile forms on his lips and it sends heat to my belly. He's so...handsome. Also, he smells really good, and my wolf approves. There is a kindness about him I didn't expect from an Alpha, but there is a darker side just under the surface. I noticed it when we met that other Alpha, but it was gone as soon as we left. Is it weird that I found that edge about him attractive? I don't know what's right or wrong in this situation. This wasn't how replaceing my Alpha was meant to go, and I know for sure if I had stayed I would never have met an Alpha like him. There is a pull to him I can't describe...like we were meant to replace each other.

That's crazy I know, but I can't help but think about it.

"I wanted to talk to you about something as well." He says after he's finished his pizza.

My stomach drops and I tense getting ready for whatever he might say. It doesn't sound good in his tone. Omegas are empaths, but he is a mystery to me. His face can be very blank but I get all sorts of emotion from him silently. It's been pretty confusing the longer I'm around him.

"Okay..." I say cautiously.

He clears his throat again and turns to face me. "When I saw you I had that same pain you mentioned you felt. It nearly made me pass out it was strong but there were times I felt relief. Did you feel that too? Waves of relief." I nod..

"Aria had come to check up on me and I told her everything that happened that day. She has a theory but still needs to research it more. Still, I feel like I should tell you." "Okay." I'm not sure where he's going with this.

"She says when we saw each other we created a mate connection. We are meant to be together by the will of the goddess. That's why we felt pain when we were away from each other. From what she knows, the bond is what causes the pain. When we're too far from each other." He scratches the back of his head like he's nervous telling me this.

Mates?

I remember reading a book about old traditions and beliefs of our people from hundreds of years ago. It went into this, and why that sort of thing died out. Too many people weren't waiting to meet their perfect match and Omegas began to decrease in numbers. Our society was so worried about improving the odds of more Omegas that everything else became lost.

"You think we are fated mates?" I ask just to be sure I am understanding him.

Something inside tells me that it's true, but how is that possible? Why now...why us?

He nods. "Aria is going to do more research, but yeah I believe it's true. I feel...a pull to you."

I feel it too, but it seems too good to be true. How have I stumbled upon my mate like this?

"Do you not feel it?" He asks looking a little nervous as if he's afraid I'll run away.

"I do," I admit because why not? "It makes sense now I guess. The pain and the trust I felt for you even though we are still strangers."

He smiles. "Exactly. There's this comfort like we've always known each other."

I give him a small smile in return and his grows making my face flush. The attention from such a handsome man is almost too much to handle, and yet I like that his attention is on me.

"So the pain...we can't be apart from each other...ever?" I ask.

He sighs. "That's what it seemed like. I didn't feel any real relief until I was close to you. If you want we can test it to see how much distance we can put between us. I don't want you to feel crowded."

The idea of him being far away from me makes me feel ill. Maybe it's impractical for us to be near each other at all times, but I don't want to be away from him right now. I want to be close to him so much that I have to stop myself from climbing onto his lap and cuddling into him. It's an overwhelming urge, but too forward. I don't want to presume he would want me to initiate contact like that. My eyes move over him a little more taking him in completely. The more I look at him my heart begins to race and my body heats up to almost an uncomfortable temperature. I have this itch to rub myself all over him. It's like my animal instincts are screaming at me to wrap myself in his scent and to leave mine behind so everyone knows he is my mate.

"Elena...if you keep looking at me like that I can't guarantee I can keep my hands to myself." He says with a growl to his words.

The sound makes me shiver. Wow...that voice...it almost felt like it moved over my skin.

"Sorry." The word comes out breathy and not like me at all.

"Tell me not to touch you and I won't. I won't do anything you are uncomfortable with." He promises and I don't need to think...I trust him.

"Can I...touch you?" I ask hesitantly.

Something in his eyes flashes and before I can say anything he leans closer wrapping his arms around me and pulling me onto his lap. I let out a sound of surprise that makes him chuckle. He moves me on his lap so that my legs are on either side of his and we're face to face. I open my mouth to ask him why he wants me to sit like this but then he leans in and hurries his nose against my neck. He breathes in a deep breath and blows it out against my skin. The feel of his breath on my skin makes me itch to feel more of him. I want to feel all of him, but I don't move. His lips brush against my skin and a sound I have never heard escapes me.

Sebastian groans and places both his hands on my hips holding me in place. We're not flush against each other and now he's holding me away from him. Is he changing his mind about me touching him? I start to pull away but he turns his head and brushes his lips against mine. It's soft and warm, but it doesn't last. Our kisses become stronger and more intense. I'm drowning in sensation grabbing onto his shirt for dear life. I try to move closer and he tightens his hands on my hips almost painfully.

I break the kiss and give him a confused look. "You don't want me to move closer?" I ask.

Maybe it's too forward a question but I'm not sure what to do. I need to know what he wants me to do. He drops his head back onto the couch and blows out a breath.

"Fuck I want you so bad, but if you start grinding on me even by accident I'm going to burst." He says.

I don't understand and I say as much. He looks at me like he isn't sure what to say, but blows out a breath and tugs me forward so that we are chest to chest.

"Do you feel what you're doing to me, baby?" He asks moving his hips and making something hard under me move against the sensitive area between my legs. "What-"

י

"I am so hard, and I don't want to push things too far too soon." He says.

His face tightens and his brows furrow. He looks like he's in pain.

"Does it hurt?" I ask him.

He chuckles. "A little but it feels fucking amazing too."

"I don't want you to be in pain. How can I help?" I want to help him feel better.

It's part of my biology to make my Alpha happy.

"Baby, you don't know what you're offering." He says shaking his head and sliding me back again.

I don't want him to push me away. I want to help him.