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Chapter Sixteen: Drowning

Nala POV

It's been two weeks since we started college, it's been pure hell. I can't tell my mates that I hate it. Ihardly talk to anyone, even jenny been distant lately she hardly talks to me anymore.

She missed a full week of college , i don't even know why, she wouldn't tell me and i didn't pushher.

I don't know what's wrong with my friend but somehow she's as miserable as me.

My mates are trying to talk to me, but I don’t wanna talk, I'm sleeping alone most nights. Well Ihardly sleep I lay down at night and stare at the ceiling.

I'm still not eating, i don't feel like eating food, Jace keeps trying to feed me but i refuse everything.Christian tried going all alpha on me so i would talk or eat but i only break down to tears.

Stefan said my physical check-up showed that nothing is wrong with me , well shocker cause i feellike death.

The twins are both trying to make me laugh, trying to make it up for me, Kyle been dressing me inmore colorful clothes, I wear them for him. Kane trying his hardest to be strong for me.

Aidan, sometimes Aidan will take me out and sit with me, we'll both sit in silence.

My heart hurt and ache. I can hardly breathe, I'm feeling lonely for the first time in almost a year.Maybe I should talk to them, but I don't know how to say what's wrong with me, I don't even knowwhat's wrong with me.

It's almost 2 am, i can't breath , i feel like the walls are closing in , i feel like I'm drowning. I get outof bed and run downstairs I see Christian looking at me from his office, i don't look back even i keeprunning outside. I need to be out, I can't take this anymore.

I run outside and change to wolf. I let out a long wad howl, I put all my heartbreak into it. I can hearthe rest of my pack, they are howling back with me in compassion, their luna is hurt they can feel it.I can feel other presence with me , i look around to see all seven of my mates. I start running, i runto escape my hurt, i run to escape the pain, i run cause i can't tolerate this anymore.

By the time I'm done running, I'm exhausted. I turn back to my human form and fall down to myknees, all seven of them are there for me, i can feel their coat keeping me warm, i can even seeother pack members they all bow their head down in respect. I look up at the moon, and close myeyes.1

Jennifer POV

After what holden said to me, I ran home. I'm broken, I wish for the thousand times that I couldshift, then I wouldn't have to run from holden then I wouldn't be abused in my old pack, no onewould dare to hurt my family but I'm weak.

I make it home, mum ask what's wrong with me but i don't reply i just run to my room. Close thedoor and break down crying. I keep my door locked, my parent tries talking to me, they ask ifsomething is wrong, i can't tell them anything,i can't tell them how much it hurt.

I didn't go to college for the last week, Nala text me sometimes but i hardly reply and she doesn'tmind much.

My friend isn't happy either, well it's life, it hurt us all.

Finn came to our house, he said that i can't keep skipping college, that i have to go back or he'llreport me to the alpha. I wanted to say fuck it, I wanted to hide in my room forever.

Dad wouldn't let me, he got enough with my attitude. He yelled at me and said that i have to goeven if he have to drag me there every day, he said he's not gonna let me waste my life, that collegeis an opportunity that he won't allow me to lose it.

I went back to college, i don't speak to Ethan anymore, Nala hardly speaks she look like a zombiebut i feel the same so it's okay with me.

Every night when I sleep, I see nightmares, it's getting worst, I see the old beta but this time he doessucceed to rape me and I scream and yell in my sleep. Sometimes I'll see holden laughing at mesaying what a stupid excuse for a werewolf i am.

Tonight is another bad night, I'm screaming and crying again, i wake up and go open my window, ineed to breath. I feel like I'm drowning in my own misery. I look out of my window and see themoon, it's full tonight, beautiful. I hear a sad howl, deep down even though I'm not a full wolf Iknow it's my luna, my heart breaks for her, she sounds so sad. I hear other pack howling with her iwish i can howl too but i can't. I feel tears running down my cheeks and i break to sobs.

A lone wold howl get my attention, i look down my window to see a brown wolf sitting down andlooking at me , the wolf got the same brown eyes as holden, he look at me with eyes full of worry,like he cares for me.

I spend the whole night looking down at the wolf, and him looking up at me, our eyes locked till ifeel asleep