Reckless Regrets
Chapter 7

Morgan

I don’t think there was anything in the world better to me than waking up in Kade’s arms. I was never more at peace than I was when I was here with him, and as much as it still nagged at the back of my mind, I wouldn’t let myself think about it coming to an end. I couldn’t.

I stared up at his face as I built up the courage to tell him what was on my mind. I had been thinking of making a change, a considerable change, but didn’t know how he would take it. I felt that if I had done this sooner, we maybe wouldn’t be in the mess we were in, but better late than never, right?

Rubbing my fingers across the features of his face, I slowly woke him up. “Good morning, handsome. Did you sleep well?”

“I always sleep good when you’re in my arms,” he replied in his gruff morning voice. I loved the sound of it.

“Since you’re in such a good mood, I have something I need to tell you.” Kade stretched and let out a huge yawn. He was barely awake, and this probably wasn’t the best time to spring this on him, but I had to do it.

“Are you listening?”

“Of course I am Sugar Bear, I’m always listening to you.”

“Good. Okay, so I’ve been thinking about something, and I really want to do it. I know this may not be the best time, but it’s important, and I think-”

Kade rested his hand on my mouth and smiled. “Just tell me. If it’s important to you, it’s important to me. What is it?”

I took a deep breath and looked him in the eye. “I’m going to have Tyson turn me into a bear. A full-blooded bear.” Kade gave a blank state. The few blinks were the only indication that he was still with me.

“What do you think?” I timidly asked.

“I don’t know what to think. I figured we’d moved past the fact that you weren’t a shifter; I thought you were okay with that.”

“I was, for a while. But not anymore. If I could mark you, all of this would go away. You wouldn’t have to leave, and we could continue our lives together. We could have our babies and get married. Everything would go back to normal.”

He sighed and took my hand.

“It wouldn’t, baby. The law states that we have to see this through. I was unmarked when all this s**t happened, unmarked when I was told about it, unmarked when we took the test. I can’t just show up bearing your mark now and expect it to go away.”

I was afraid of that, but I still had hope that things would go our way. But these hopes were fading day by day. But still, I didn’t want to be weak anymore.

“Okay. But I’m still going to have Tyson turn me. I’m a bear; I should be able to do everything that being a bear entails. It’s what I want.”

“When did you two decide this?”

“About five minutes ago?”

“Five minutes ago?”

“I haven’t asked him yet! I just woke up and decided that it needed to happen; you’re the first person I’ve told. Do you think he’ll do it?”

“I don’t know, Sugar Bear, turning someone is always dangerous, maybe less so in this case since you’re already a partial shifter, but you should probably have asked him about it before you got your heart set on going through with it. If he refuses, then you’ll be left disappointed.”

“Can you ask him for me?” I gave Kade my best smile, hoping that it would help.

“You’re beautiful, and so is that smile of yours, but no. If you want me to, I’ll go with you when you ask, but I won’t do it for you. He’s your cousin; besides Taylor, no one else would have an easier time convincing him than you.”

“I threatened to cut his d**k off the other day! He’s not my biggest fan at the moment.”

Kade looked confused by my outburst but brushed it off. “This is a big deal and a big decision. You need to take the lead; you’ll regret it if you don’t.”

“Fine. Maybe I can get Taylor to help me talk him into it.”

“Try it by yourself first, then if you need help, you can ask. How does that sound?”

“It sounds impossible, but I’ll try it out. The worst Tyson can do is say no. I’m going to go over now, while I have the courage and just hope for the best.”

***

“No. Actually, hell no.”

“Please! You’re the only one who can turn me! If I could have Kade turn me to a wolf, I would, but I can’t. I need to be a shifter, Tyson. Please!”

“Mo, you don’t need to be turned, you want to. There is a difference.”

“So what? I want to be turned, what’s wrong with that?”

“Why?”

“Why what?” I asked.

He was pissing me off, and I didn’t want to have to deal with him, but he was my last hope. My only hope, actually.

“Why do you want to be turned now? If you wanted to be a shifter, why didn’t you ask me when you first found out about our family line?”

I’d been thinking of this for a while. And I knew he would ask.

“It wasn’t a factor then. Kade met me as a human, and he accepted me without question. Then we found out I was part bear, and again he accepted me. Me not being able to shift was inconsequential. But now, that’s no longer the case. If I had been a shifter when we met, he would have been marked, and we wouldn’t be in this situation.

I know that there isn’t anything that we can do to change what’s happening, but I don’t want ever to feel inadequate again. Besides, I’m a member of a wolf pack and am the only one besides the children who has never shifted. I want to feel like I belong here, not like I’m visiting.”

He sighed and finished his drink. “It would be nice to not be the only bear in the pack. And I did tell you that I would teach you and show you about being one.”

I began to bounce in my seat; he was about to say yes. I could feel it.

“But I don’t know how to do it,” he finished.

I just looked over at him. Maybe I misheard.

“What the f**k do you mean you don’t know how? Your partner was human; you can’t tell me that you hadn’t planned to turn her as soon as you got the chance. Matt just beat you to it!” I was livid. Tyson was lying; I just knew it.

“For someone who is asking me to do them a favor, you’ve got a lot of attitude. Too much actually.”

I rolled my eyes and bit my tongue. He was right. I was in the middle of asking for his help, so telling him to go f**k himself would probably not help my cause.

“Anyway, like I was saying, I don’t know how. Yes, I was going to turn Taylor, but the process of turning a partner and turning anyone else is not the same-”

“Why not? It can’t be that big a deal,” I cut in.

“You turn your partner during s*x, Mo, right at the climax. And turning someone creates an intimate bond between the two. I love you to death, but I don’t want that bond with you.”

“Why don’t you ask your mom? Aunt Gloria is a full-blooded bear; maybe she knows how to do it?” He g*****d and refilled his glass. It appeared that I was annoying him. Good. I’d been doing it our entire life, why stop now?

“Werebears have a type of venom like werewolves, right?”

“Right,” Tyson agreed.

“So, you bite down, it enters my bloodstream, blah, blah, blah?”

“It’s a bit more complicated, but basically, yes.”

“Milk it.”

Tyson looked at me, confused.

“Milk what?”

“Yourself; the venom. Milk it, just like how they do with snakes, and put it in a syringe. Then if it has to be done during s*x at the time of o****m, I’ll just have Kade inject me. Would that work?”

He thought about it for a second, then slowly nodded his head.

“I guess it would. I’m not sure if it would be as effective, but you are 25% bear so your body wouldn’t have that hard of a time accepting the change. And I wouldn’t have to sleep with you, that’s a bonus,” he said with a laugh.

“Can we try it? Please?”

“I’ll see what I can do. I’ve never milked myself, and I don’t even know how. I also don’t know how much venom is needed. But I’ll do what I can,” he finally said.

“Ahh! Thank you. I love you so much! I love you!” I screamed as I launched myself at him and wrapped my arms around his neck.

“You only love me when you want something. And I’m telling you now if it doesn’t work, we’re not trying it again. This is a one-time deal. Got it?”

I nodded my head and continued to hug him as tight as I could. He was an a*s, but he never failed to help me when I needed him, even when I gave him tons of attitude.

When he’d finally peeled me off him, I couldn’t help the smile that had taken over my face. It felt like I was finally becoming the person I was meant to be. It felt incredible.

“When can you do it?”

“I want to get this over and done with, so I’ll try to get the syringe to you later this afternoon. Then it’s up to you and Kade.”

***

Kade

I wished I told Morgan how I felt about her being turned, but she seemed so determined that I didn’t want to discourage her. It didn’t matter what type of shifter you were turned into; there was always the possibility of something going wrong.

And I’d never seen anyone get turned into a bear. I had no idea what I would or should look like, what was expected, or what was dangerous. I wouldn’t have any control, and that was terrifying. But she wanted this, and there wasn’t anything I wouldn’t give her.

When she rushed into my office wearing the biggest smile I’d ever seen, I figured her talk with Tyson had gone well.

“He’ll do it! At one point, I thought we were going to fight, literally, but he agreed,” she told me.

“I thought so. How does it work?” I asked.

She sat across from me and filled me in on the experimental process that neither of them even know for sure would work. All the nerves I had before she came in returned with a vengeance. How was I going to sit back and watch her go through this?

“I want to do it tonight. I want to make sure you’re here with me through the whole thing, and when I have my first shift. I won’t be able to do it without you.”

I looked over at her beautiful face, and my heart dropped. Her eyes; they were the first thing I’d noticed about her after her scent; and my favorite feature. After everything was said and done, those gorgeous bi-colored eyes would be gone.

“I’ll miss your eyes, Sugar,” I quietly told her.

When she processed what I’d just said, her smile fell to a pout.

“I didn’t even think about that, and I know how much you love them too. Maybe I don’t need to be-”

“Yes, you do. It’s what you feel that you need to do, so we’re doing it. Besides, I’ve got them tattooed on my ribs; they’ll always be a part of me.”