Rejected, Broken And Forgotten
Chapter 19

Lindsey’s POV

I don’t know why the bloody Princess of Essex had to come home. Walker has not been the same since she returned, and I wouldn’t say I like that he can not stop talking about the Princess. What is so remarkable about her? Is she his real mate? Is that why he can’t stop talking about her? I have tried potions and spells I got from witches on Walker to make him fall in love with me, but none of them seems to work. I wonder if the witches I go to see are even real witches, as their magic is not working. Or their magic is too weak to work on Walker. I need the help of a strong witch to make Walker fall in love with me. Everyone talks about Princess London and even calls her the people’s Princess. Walker disappears every night, and I have no idea where he is going. I can not and will not lose him. Walker Brooks is mine! I will become his Luna, and everyone in my way had better watch out, as I will do anything to destroy them. I am a strong warrior who can kill any she-wolf that tries to take Walker away from me! I do not care if she is a Princess or even a Queen. I will kill Princess London even if she is the people’s Princess.

“Why do you look so upset?” Jonathan, the Beta, asks me.

“Where is Walker going every night?” I ask Jonathan.

“I don’t know, and I don’t ask. It is his private business, and you had better keep your nose out of it, Lindsey,” Jonathan says.

“He is going to see that Princess, isn’t he?” I ask. Jonathan looks at me and shakes his head.

“You know the Princess has already met her true mate and that she will marry Oliver soon,” Jonathan says. I am not buying it. If Walker defeats Oliver, the Princess does not have to marry Oliver. There were rumors that she had found her true mate, but if she was back from America and willing to marry Oliver. It means she rejected her true mate to save the Kingdom. So, if Walker defeats Oliver, will she marry Walker to save the Kingdom of Essex? I wish we had never come to England. Maybe if we had stayed in America with our pack, I could have asked the shaman to help me with a spell to make Walker mine. I know our shaman will never do anything like that unless you have something they want. I sigh. I am going to follow Walker tonight and see where he is going. I can not allow him to have a she-wolf somewhere I do not know. If it is the bloody Princess, I swear I will replace a way to kill her.

“You have to forget about Walker, Lindsey. You are not his mate, and Walker will never take a she-wolf that does not belong to him. I know about the potion and witchcraft you are trying on him. You know it will never work, no matter how strong the magic is. Walker is not a normal wolf and is not just an Alpha. He has royal b***d in him. Whether he likes it or not, he is a Prince, not the crown Prince of Mercia. He is the crown prince of Sussex. The two old kingdoms have a fascinating history, and she-wolves like you do not want to mess with any of the royals,” Jonathan says. I wonder what he is talking about, but I will not ask as I do not want to know what he is talking about. There must be magic strong enough to make Walker wants me as his mate. I will not give up. If no magic is strong enough, I will eliminate his second-chance mate. Walker will lose all hope of getting another mate and will take me as his mate.

“I don’t care what you think or say. Walker will be my mate! Don’t you want to keep him with us? What do you think will happen if he marries a Princess and if he takes the throne of Sussex? He will never return to America and our pack. What will happen to our pack? Those useless wolves of Ravenstone will take our land,” I say. I know how much Jonathan loves Cloverfield and that he does not want to lose Walker as the Alpha. We love Walker. He is brave and strong. The pack’s elders were happy when Walker took over the pack from the last Alpha. They do not want to lose him as the Alpha, but they know he has to fight his demons before becoming a true Alpha to the Cloverfield pack. That is why they are here, so Walker can fight his monsters and become the true Alpha of the Cloverfield pack. He does not need a mate! I am his mate. A shaman told me once that Walker would have a mate as strong as he was and that his mate would be the strongest Luna that the Cloverfield pack ever had. I know he was talking about me as I am a strong warrior. I will be the Luna that everyone is talking about.

“Walker will give up the throne and return with us. He is meant to be with the Cloverfield pack, but he also deserves a mate he can bond with. We can not be selfish and withhold him from his true mate, Lindsey. You are not his mate, and the sooner you realize it, the better for yourself. You need to replace your mate. Why do you want to be with Walker if you know he will never love you and you will never share a mate bond?” Jonathan asks.

“I don’t believe in the mate bond. If it exists, I would have met my mate when I turned eighteen,” I say. I have not met my mate, so I do not believe in the mate bond. I don’t even believe in the Moon Goddess. My views are not very popular with the elders or with Walker, but I do not care. If the Moon Goddess exists, why don’t I have a mate? It is all in the minds of the wolves. My wolf disagrees with me, but I silence her when she tries to talk to me. I believe she is only good when we fight. She threatens me that she will not help me when I need her, but I know she is all talk and no action. She will come out when there is a fight, as she likes to fight as much as I do.

“Not all wolves get their mates at eighteen. Maybe your mate was not in our tribe,” Jonathan says. He knows I do not believe in the mate bond and the Moon Goddess. I don’t believe in things I can not see. They can say what they want, but I will believe the day I see the Moon Goddess with my own eyes. I walk away to the little town where we are staying. Tonight I will follow Walker to where he is going. Jonathan walks with me as if I invited him. I wish he will piss off as he made me angry. He always has to mention that Walker will never fall for me. I can not wait for us to return to America. It is time I get my mate and have some pups. It is almost nightfall, and Jonathan gets busy with one of the she-wolves. He forgets about me, and I am not complaining. I watch Walker as he gets ready to slip away. As the moon hangs high in the sky, Walker walks into the woods. I follow him at a distance. I wonder where he is going. I move softly as I do not want Walker to hear me. I am sure he is just ahead of me as I run quietly after him. We run for about half an hour, and I swear we run in circles. We are a few miles away from the little town where we are staying, and I can swear we have already passed the same tree three times.

“Why are you following me, Lindsey?” Walker asks from behind me. f**k! He caught me.

“I was not following you. I want to go for a run. What makes you think I am following you?” I pretend not to know what Walker is talking about.

“Well, I have been running in circles to see what you are up to, and you keep following me,” Walker says.

“Okay, I want to replace out where you are going every night. You sneak away, and we do not know where you are going. What if you get into trouble? How will we know where to get a hold of you?” I say. I know I am talking bullshit, as Walker can mind-link us where he is if he runs into trouble, but I have to try and talk myself out of this s**t I got myself into.

“You know that is a bullshit excuse. Go home and do not follow me again. I will have no problem sending you home if you keep giving me trouble. We are not mates! I will never be your f*****g mate! You are nothing to me. You are only one of my pack members, and I will have no problem kicking you out of the pack if I have to,” Walker says. I feel sad as I hear his harsh words.

“We are friends. Walker, I love you, and I want to be your mate. Don’t be so harsh with me,” I say. I am not thinking straight as my heart feels like it is breaking. I can and will not give Walker up! He is mine! My wolf laughs.

“He is not yours. He is not our mate, you stupid she-wolf,” Alaska, my wolf, says.

“Shut up! What do you know? You believe in a creature that does not even exist. You believe in the Moon Goddess,” I shout back at her.

“When you are done fighting with your wolf, who is right, by the way, you can go back to the camp and pack your bags. You are leaving for America in the morning. I have warned you to stop with your bullshit about loving me. We are not mates! Get that into your thick skull!” Walker shouts at me. I know my time with Walker is over, and I start running away from him. I can not handle him rejecting me in such a cruel way. I will replace out who is responsible for this s**t, and I will kill her. Walker will only be this mean if he has found his true mate or who he believes is his true mate. I can not go home! I will instead become a rogue.

“Who are you running from, and why are you crying,” A voice asks behind me. I spin around and look at the tall, handsome wolf standing next to the river looking at me.

“Mate!!!” My wolf shouts, and I feel my heart beating like crazy. Is this what it feels like to see your ante for the first time? Is there something like a mate bond? Maybe there is a Moon Goddess, after all.

“I am just running,” I say.

“Then why are you crying,” The big man asks. He is as big as a mountain, and I bet he is very strong.

“I had a silly fight with my Alpha. Who are you?” I ask.

“I am your mate,” The big guy says with a smile.

“I know that, silly. I can feel it, but what is your name?” I ask as I smile.

“See, I made you smile and forgot to cry. My name is Wallis. I am Princess London’s personal guard,” Wallis says.

“I am Lindsey Baker, you better accept me as your mate, or I am going to keep running,” I say.

“Keep on running, then. I will not accept you, not if you are crying about another wolf,” Wallis says as he walks away from me.

“Wait! I did not believe in the mate bond and only wanted my Alpha because I thought I did not have a mate,” I say.

“You will have to prove yourself to me first,” Wallis says. I can not lose my true mate, and I pray to the Moon Goddess for the first time. I promise her I will give up Walker forever as long as I can have Wallis, my fated mate.

“Wait! How will I prove myself to you if I don’t know where to get a hold of you?” I ask. I did not realize I was in Essex territory. I only realized it as I saw the river Lia.

“You can meet me here every night, and we can talk,” Wallis says, but he doesn’t stop and keeps walking. I follow him, but he stops me as he enters the palace grounds.

“You can not come in here, and you need to go. I will meet you at the river tomorrow night at eight,” Wallis says. I nod, but as I turn around, I see Walker climbing up a tree to the Princess, waiting for him on a balcony. So, Walker is seeing the Princess. I don’t know how I feel about that, as my heart is filled with Wallis. I smile at Wallis one last time and blow him a k**s, and I don’t even look at Walker again. Wallis smiles at me before walking into the gates of the Palace. I walk back to our little town, and I feel like singing. I also feel a lot better. I will need to talk to Walker tomorrow and tell him I found my mate and am not obsessed with him anymore. I will beg him to let me stay so I can get to know Wallis Hawkins.