Rejected By My Mate, Chosen By Fate
Chapter 19

I had another nightmare that night and the following nights. I’ve been living in the palace for two weeks now and each night, I always had a nightmare about Zephyr either beating me up and killing me or raping me. This gradually plunged me into insomnia and then depression. I couldn’t eat properly and I grew scared of sleeping. Tara tried to talk me out of it but she couldn’t. It was apparent that she was also scared too.

Elsie noticed my sudden withdrawal and she tried to replace out what the problem was but I couldn’t bring myself to tell her. I knew telling someone would help to bring me some relief but I still felt scared, I didn’t want to recall what he did to me so many days ago.

Ana hadn’t been feeling well so she didn’t replace out about my withdrawal and it was better she didn’t know, I really didn’t want to add to her problems.

Emily also tried to help but I just pushed her away and stopped communicating with her. Kayden gradually became a pain because he was trying to look for ways to cheer me up but it wasn’t working. I remained sober, lonely and scared.

All my courage began abandoning me because Zephyr’s words were the only thing that echoed in my ears and I felt like I was going mad.

Morning had arrived and I hadn’t slept a wink, my eyes were bloodshot and had heavy eye bags under them.

I picked myself up from the bed and slowly walked to the bathroom. I had become very thin and my body was tired from the lack of food and sleep.

I picked out a long dress and headed for the bathroom. I was about to take off my dress when I caught a glimpse of myself in the bathroom mirror. Zephyr was right, I was ugly and worthless. I looked completely terrible, my eyes were bloodshot, my skin was overly pale, I had eyebags under my eyes, my lips were dry and cracked and my cheeks had lost their color, my hair was so rough and tangled. I looked like a mad person.

I didn’t realize when the tears finally fell down my cheeks, I felt completely miserable despite having everything that I had ever wanted in life. My fear of Zephyr was eating me up and not letting anyone in was only making it worse.

I looked at the mirror once more and saw him, he was right behind me.

I turned around and saw him just a few metres from where I stood. He had that deadly grin on his face, the one he always had each time he tortured me.

“Hello Evelyn.” He said and I drew backwards, my body hitting the bathroom sink and I gripped it for dear life.

‘How……. How are you here?’ I asked silently. “I’ve always been here.” He said and walked up to me.

‘No, you’re not. You’re just in my head.’ I said, trying to sound defiant.

“No Evelyn, I’ve always been with you, in your head, your body, your heart and even your mind. We’re mates, remember? Sorry, we were mates. You thought you were smart, didn’t you? You thought you could escape me now look at the outcome. Look at what you’ve become despite having everything you have ever craved for. You’re ugly and useless. You only cause problems for anyone who harbours you.” He said and I shook my head.

‘No. That’s not true.’ I said, tears flowing down my cheeks. “It is true, Evelyn and you know it. You know it so well. Look at Ana, she was fine before you arrived but once you started living with her, she’s fallen ill and is fighting for her life. You’re responsible Evelyn, only you.” He said and I tried to cover my ears.

‘No! You’re lying like you always do. I’m not responsible for Ana’s condition.’ I defended myself.

“But you are Evelyn and you know it. You’ve only been nothing but trouble to them ever since you arrived, you’re completely of no use to them because you’re worthless and you’re only a menace. You’re not beautiful and no one can ever love you, your life is nothing. Your existence was a mistake and it’s up to you to correct that mistake. You’re better off dead than you are alive, at least the world would be free of you then.” He said and my heart clenched, I turned away and saw myself in the mirror, he was also behind me.

“Go on Evelyn, do it. Kill yourself and finally end your misery. Free the world of your existence, let go of your life.” He continued to chant and I couldn’t take it anymore.

I threw the shampoo bottle at the mirror and it shattered, broken glass filled the floor. “There’s your leverage, pick up the glass and slit your wrist. It’ll save you a lot of pain as it’ll be a quick and painless death.” He said and I found myself picking up a piece of broken glass.

“Evelyn, stop. Please don’t do this. He’s not real, none of this is but if you slit your wrist, you’ll die. He’s not real, you’re just hallucinating. Please listen to me, don’t do this.” Tara pleaded and I closed my eyes and balled my hands in fists.

The piece of glass was still in my left hand and it cut through my skin, causing my hand to bleed but I couldn’t feel any pain.

The bathroom door threw open and Emily rushed in. She looked around and saw the pieces of glass scattered around the floor. “Evelyn, what happened here? Are you alright?” She questioned and I turned to look at her.

Her eyes widened when she saw my profusely bleeding hand. “Evelyn, you’re bleeding.” She said alarmed but I couldn’t feel anything, just heartache.

She rushed to me and forced my hand open, making it free of the glass. My hand kept bleeding. “What are you doing?” Emily questioned and I just stared at her blankly.

“Come with me, your hand is bleeding.” Emily said and grabbed a hold of my wrist. She turned to leave the bathroom, pulling me with her and my vision blurred instantly.

I tried to keep awake but my eyelids felt too heavy, they closed on me and everything went black.

***

My eyes opened weakly and I closed them back up before opening them again. I tried to register my surroundings and realized that I was in my room. Elsie sat beside me and she seemed to be in tears. Another woman who I presumed to be a doctor, took my pulse. My left hand was bandaged.

“Thank goodness you’re awake, you got everyone worried.” Elsie said and I blinked.

“She’s alright now your Highness but please try to take care of her a bit more. She was lucky this time but anymore neglect may prove to be fatal, she should not be left alone as she may not be in her right state of mind. Depression is very dangerous in the condition she is currently in. She should eat a lot more and eat the right foods. She should also sleep a lot more and she should exercise a bit and she should be taken very good care of. I’ll come to check up on her often and I’ll draw up a diet chart which must be followed strictly. She should also take her medicine on time to ensure her health and that of the little one.” The doctor said and Elsie nodded.

“OK doctor, we’ll do everything you’ve said.” Elsie responded and the doctor bowed and left.

“I’m really upset with you, how could you do something like that? Don’t you value your life? And even if you don’t, you should give him or her a chance. I asked you a hundred times but you refused to tell me what was wrong, why didn’t you tell anyone?” She questioned me and I was completely oblivious to what she was saying.

I gave her a look of confusion as if to say ‘What are you talking about? What was the doctor talking about?’

She sighed before revealing the news that was sure to ruin my life a second time.

“You’re pregnant.” She said and I felt my breath hitch in my throat.