Rejected You Alpha, for A Beast
Chapter 19

JESSICA’S POV

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“Nick don’t!” I plead as I try and move the brick wall of men out of harms way, but the guards are rock solid, standing in front of me, protecting me. I winch at the loud bang and the guard in front of me falls limp like jelly and his body hits the floor. The circle of guards around me move one step, closing me back up. I scream as I try to break through the masculine wall. Tears stream down my face until every single one of them is shot dead, lying on the floor around me. Nick has the gun pointed at me, his gaze darker than ever, his face emotionless as he stares at me.

“Traitor.” he growls before his finger pulls the trigger and a loud bang erupts around me.

I jolt up, glancing around frantically, moving but no pain shoots through me. I glance down at my perfectly healthy body and pull the cover down onto my body as if to hide away.

“He’s not here, he’s not here…” I mutter to myself over and over as I calm down. I glance around casually and notice that it’s only one in the morning. I sigh before sitting upright and I glance down Nathaniel’s hallway. There’s no light coming from under his doorway and the house is completely quiet.

I toss the duvet aside and throw my legs off the couch, hissing when my bare feet touch the cold tiles. I stand up, tip-toeing over to Nathaniel’s door. I slowly turn the handle and push the door open, thanking the Moon Goddess that the door doesn’t make a single sound. I poke my head into the room, glancing around until my eyes land on his silhouette laying on the bed under the covers, his light snores fill the room and I suddenly feel too guilty to wake him up.

“Come in Jess.” he grumbles in a sleepy voice. I can’t help but blush, a small smile creeping up my face as I step into the room and close the door behind me. I know that he’s half awake, but I still tiptoe into the room all the way to the other side of the bed. I sit down on it, looking at his relaxed features. He’s very handsome, his face has strong bones, his lips are full and soft. His eyebrows are perfectly thick and his eyelashes look so long when his eyes are closed.

“Stop staring.” his one eye pings open and I nibble on my bottom l*p, smiling when he lifts the duvet and I climb underneath it.

I put my legs straight and shimmy down . My upper back is propped up with the pillows behind me and I pull the duvet up to my waist. “Why are you here?” he slowly blinks, trying to keep his eyes open, “I couldn’t sleep.” I lie and he hums, making my head turn to look at his taunting hum. “What?” I frown and he sighs, adjusting his pillow that’s smushing his face, “You’re lying.” he starts to yawn and I roll my eyes, “I wasn’t.” , “Your hair is messy, meaning you slept and when you said you couldn’t sleep, your heart skipped a beat at the lie.” he tilts his head, both his emerald eyes now open and staring at me curiously.

“I wasn’t lying!”, “Oh look, another beat skipped.” he props himself up on his elbow, “What’s wrong?” he asks with furrowed brows. I gulp, my eyes falling shut for a second before I avert my gaze to my hands.

Nathaniel snakes his arm past my legs and pulls me closer to him, my body immediately lowering under the covers and I turn my back to him. He pulls me even closer by the waist until my body is firmly pressed against his, the warmth radiating off him makes me cuddle into his embrace, “I had a dream.” I confess as I stare out of the big window. The sky is full of stars, there isn’t one cloud in the sky to cover the beauty of the night. “A nightmare.” I correct myself. He hums as he nuzzles his chin onto my shoulder, making me immediately feel warmer. “About?” he asks in such a gentle tone.

Nick always spoke gently with me, he had patience and he loved me, until Tiffany came along and he started yelling at me, abusing and taking advantage of my love for him.

“Nick and how he shot those guards. They were standing around me like statues and when one dropped, the circle got smaller, caging me in like I was an animal and in my mind I know that they were protecting me, but I didn’t want them to. I didn’t tell them what he did to me to turn them against him and follow me…I just wanted them to not fight you or your army, but they took my side and protected me, they sacrificed themselves to keep me safe and I didn’t even deserve it.” I snort, “I was leaving them with him.” I sigh and his hold on me tightens and he pulls me closer, holding me to comfort me, but all I feel is trapped, like in my dream.

“Stop.” I pull his hand off me and he immediately lets me go. I turn around, facing him. ” I feel trapped when you do that.” I tell him and he pulls his arm off me gently, “I’m sorry.” he mutters and I shrug it off as I pull the duvet to my shoulders, “It’s not your fault.” I admit and he nods, “If it makes you feel better, my army would have done the same too. You know we’re taught that our luna is the most prized possession, do you know why?” he smirks and I shake my head, listening to his deep voice. He calms me in a way that not even the best spa day could. I love how safe he makes me feel, I even had the courage to break out of that hole because I knew that he was on his way to me, I knew he was coming to save me.

“Because in the old days, the alpha’s were actually the prized possesion..” I snort , “Obviously, they are the pack leaders. It makes more sense.” I mutter and he smiles, “But…” he drags out as he stares into my eyes, “The alpha’s were so in love with their mates, their luna’s were everything to them, their sun and moon, their happiness and their oxygen…so the alpha’s starting preaching about how his mate was the prized possession of his pack and so everyone began to say it, every Luna was the glue that held the alpha to the pack and that is why the Luna’s are so important. The real Luna’s, the mate’s.” he grins, “It all just became a regular thing in the packs and that’s why the Luna’s are so praised and important these days.”

I nod as he talks, smiling at the sweet story. Whatever alpha who started it must have loved his mate dearly.

“How do you know that?” , “My sweet Jess, I am descended from the Moon Goddess herself, our ancestors have told tails to all generations, we still have that tradition. Every year, the night before Christmas, we come together and tell tales. It’s how our legacy lives on, it’s how the stories are told over thousands of years. Some are new and some are very, very old.” he scoffs and it turns into a chuckle.

Nathaniel snakes his arm past my legs and pulls me closer to him, my body immediately lowering under the covers and I turn my back to him. He pulls me even closer by the waist until my body is firmly pressed against his, the warmth radiating off him makes me cuddle into his embrace, “I had a dream.” I confess as I stare out of the big window. The sky is full of stars, there isn’t one cloud in the sky to cover the beauty of the night. “A nightmare.” I correct myself. He hums as he nuzzles his chin onto my shoulder, making me immediately feel warmer. “About?” he asks in such a gentle tone.

Our fingers slightly graze one another’s and heat forms at the base of my spine in an instant. I squeeze my thighs together, my chest heaving as I panic. All of this is so nice, it feels safe and peaceful and I could tell that Nathaniel was tired, his eyes are narrowed sleepily and if I move, I am sure he’d smell the arousal that’s forming every passing second.

Nathaniel is big, his shoulders are broad and muscular, I have no doubt that he needs his sleep to charge his body and mind.

His hand gently takes mine and I try not to move much as we stare into each other’s eyes.

I could feel the bond between us grow, because every passing minute, I want to be closer, I want to feel his touch all over me, but I am still bonded to Nick…something that I now regret.

I remember the night we did it, he was so sweet and kind…he asked me if I was sure, that if I don’t want to wait for my mate and that’s the night we made our promise, a promise both of us had already broken. But I’m the evil one because I left, I didn’t even say goodbye to my pack because of Nick, yet I still can’t fathom the thought of bringing him pain.

I know him, I have known him for most of my life and I know that he’s hating himself for killing his own people, for almost killing me…It’s enough pain and if I sleep with Nathaniel tonight, it’s no doubt that I will cause him pain too…

‘He beat us.’ Zola growls in my head and I avert my gaze down to the duvet.

‘I know, but he was upset.’ I defend him. I hate that I am defending him, but every time I think badly of him, my mind and body wants to tear itself apart until I think something good and tell myself I am over-exaggerating.

Nathaniel’s hand lets go of mine and his arm snakes over my waist. He pulls me closer in one swift motion. I gasp as our lips almost touch and I pull back an inch, leaving space for us to breathe, “What do you want to do?” he asks in a low tone, his olive orbs flicking down to my mouth repeatedly. My breathing gets heavier as I feel his hot breath on my cheek. It’s so warm…he’s so warm.

“Nathaniel…” I shake my head, “I’m still…” his eyes flick to my mark and he shrugs, “Look what he did to you, what he did to his own guards. He almost shot you Jessica, don’t you want some sort of revenge?” his voice is luring me closer to him. I nod, struggling to control my breathing and my eyes flick down to his full lips. He doesn’t even hesitate a second to crash his lips against me and I g***n against his mouth in appreciation of how soft and delicate everything feels. My entire body is ignited and electrified and our lips wrestle, the once delicate k**s turning into something needy and hot.