Rejected You Alpha, for A Beast
Chapter 35

JESSICA’S POV

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The entire week has been a fairytale, like something from a movie. It’s like my heart has been singing, my body been dancing in floating air.

Until tonight, where I get back from reading to a kids group and Nathaniel isn’t here, he only left a note.

A f*****g note.

‘I went out for a meeting, I’ll be back late. Don’t wait up for me.’

Reading the note brings back the memories of how worried I was the other night when he came back in the early hours of the morning.

“What the hell.” I mutter as I crumble the note up and toss it onto the bed.

I undress and go take a long hot shower until the water turns cold, smiling as I get out.

A part of me knows that he has his own life, apart from me, one he had before me and I still can’t fathom why I get so jealous and mad.

I know that meetings are important, but why is staying out late necessary?

Does he go to a meeting and then go out to party or does he have young clients that want to go and he needs to please them for business?

I trust him, but he’s hiding something, wether it’s a mistress that I would definitely know about, or it’s some cult beyond this pack.

It could be the pack itself because these elders aren’t old, they aren’t normal either.

Wolves believe in traditional magic, like the good witches that live among humans…not the kind that whatever they used to remove my mark…

Perhaps these elders are witches, evil ones at that.

On the other hand…Nathaniel doesn’t seem like the type of alpha that would follow evil witches, or any witch kind.

I dress into comfortable pajamas and just as I’m about to crawl into bed, a knock on the door stops me.

“Who is it?” I yell as I stand next to the bed.

“Someone trying to job you!” Louis sarcasm has me rolling my eyes as I smile. I walk over to the door, opening it and I c**k my head to the side, “Oh all mighty thief, what could you possibly seek?” I tease and he snorts, shaking his head. “Very funny.” His eyebrows hop up and then down.

“I am ordering something from the restaurant and wondered if you are hungry?” He genuinely seems like he doesn’t care, but he’s still asking.

“You don’t have to do this.” My lips press into a thin line. He’s trying to look after me, probably by Nathaniel’s demand, but I don’t need it.

“Do what?” His eyes squint into slits.

“Care for me. I’m good.” I force a smile and he glances into the room, as if Nathaniel might be here before he brushes by and enters the room.

“Look, it’s my fault you are here.” He shrugs and my heart sinks. “Does Nathaniel not want me here?” I ask with tears ready to form in my eyes.

“I didn’t mean it like that. He loves you and wants you here.” He corrects himself and I blow out a relieved breath, smiling. “Then don’t feel bad, I want to be here.” I shrug and the way the silence falls between us and how he looks at me makes a shiver run down my spine…

“What are you hiding?” I ask in a shallow breath.

“Me? Nothing. But this pack has many secrets Jessica and you seem to pure to handle them all.” He crosses his arms. “Like what?” I ask, knowing that he won’t actually tell me.

“I can’t tell you.” I should have seen that coming.

“Then why say anything at all?” I frown at him, “Because you’re different.”, “From who? All of you? I know that.” I scoff.

“No, from those who came before you.” He murmurs, shrugging as he head to the door.

I grab his arm out of instinct, making him halt in his steps and he turns to look at me, “What does that mean?” I ask desperately.

All I have heard is those before me, like I’m not like the rest, the others…it’s all screwing with my mind.

“You’ll replace out.” He shrugs and my grip tightens on his arm, my nails digging into his skin out of anger. “Just tell me…” I breathe out, “Is he seeing multiple people?” My eyebrows raise as I wait for his reply.

His eyes flick between my dull orbs, “No, he would never.” He smiles, “His loyalty is something you never have to worry about, ever.” His smile is small, offering some sort of comfort to the discomfort he caused by saying all of the things he did.

“Then why warn me? Why apologize?” I snap, my sanity slowly losing its path.

“Because one day you’ll blame me and I want you to remember that I tried to help.” He shrugs, but the tone he’s using…the pity makes my heart sink into my stomach.

“Why can’t you tell me?” I beg him, “Because it’s physically impossible.” He sighs, looking defeated more than ever.

I snort at his choice of words. I know that he’s loyal to his alpha and he would never betray him, but he’s over exaggerating right now. He can tell me, but he doesn’t want to. He doesn’t want to compromise his relationship or his position in this pack and I do respect that.

“Do you want to eat or not?” He changes the subject before I could say anything else, leaving me standing with no choice except if I want to eat or not.

“I could go for a chicken burger.” I shrug and his eyes almost pop out of their sockets, “What? Chicken?” He snorts before it turns into a bawl of laughter.

“What? I like it.” I frown. I hate when people make me second guess or make me feel belittled about what I like and what I don’t.

“Just trust me and get the beef.” His serious tone makes me agree faster than I could blink and he’s out of the door, on the phone.

I take my phone from the nightstand, my finger dragging across my bottom l*p as I think of what I should text Nathaniel.

My fingers hover over the keyboard as I stare at him name at the top of the screen.

Me: Hi

I hit the send button and when he immediately reads the lame text, I sit down on the bed as I watch the dots appear on screen.

Nathaniel: Hi

Well that is lame too. I guess I should have been more exciting.

Nathaniel: Is everything ok?

My fingers run along the keyboard as I just type random letters to seem like I am replying while I think of something to say and when my autocorrect turns one word into s*x, a light goes on in my head and I clear the confusing letters that is scrambled across the text block.

Me: No…

I bite down on my l*p as I watch the dots appear.

Nathaniel: What’s wrong?

Me: I have an ache…

My teeth almost breaks the dry skin of my lips as I hit send and watch as he types.

Nathaniel: Ask Louis to help, there is some cream around the house.

I roll my eyes at his response because I just know that he isn’t catching on.

Me: I don’t think you’d want Louis to help me with my ache.

Nathaniel: Why?

I could feel my face heat up when I shimmy put of my pants and take a picture of myself, sending it to him.

Me: Because it’s an ache only you could fix.

I throw the phone onto the bed beside me as I squeal and I inhale a deep breath as I try to calm my racing heart.

My phone dings and my heart rate spikes through the roof, but even though I am afraid to look at the reply, I dive for the phone and check anyways.

Nathaniel: F**k

I blush at his response and before I could even start to reply, my phone rings and his name flashes on the screen.

I gulp as I swipe to answer and I hesitantly bring the phone to my ear, “Hello?” My voice is shaky, “Don’t you dare f*****g move, do you understand?” The noise in the background has me wondering where he is, “Yes…” and before I could ask him where the hell he is, the call ends and I am left sitting naked on the bed, wondering how long I have to wait.

I fully undress and I move to the full length mirror in the bathroom, biting my tongue as I open the camera and take a few pictures while covering my breasts and I send it to him with a clock. He doesn’t read or reply to the texts and I glance at the shower, then the big bathtub and then at the ceiling.

I could hear the door open and before I could tell Louis to give me a second, Nathaniel appears in the bathroom door frame, loosening his tie while his eyes trail my body hungrily.

“How did you…” I frown, knowing that he wasn’t even near the pack.

His shirt is removed in seconds, “Don’t speak.” He demands as he closes the distance between us and he k****s me while his hands roam my naked body.

The k**s blows every single thought right out of my mind, leaving me speechless and with an empty brain, especially when he starts to lower the k**s to my cheek, jaw and then neck.