Rejected You Alpha, for A Beast
Chapter 50

JESSICA’S POV

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Waking up in a coat of sweat has never happened before, my sheets and pillow are clammy, my hair too and it’s hot. I toss the duvet off me, the cool air of the open balcony door breezing in. Wait…why is the balcony door open? I hurriedly get up and walk over to the curtain, pulling the fabric aside, I swear my eyes deceive me…It can’t be…

I storm out without a second thought as rage fuels me, “What are you doing here?” I grit out and Nathaniel slowly turns, blowing out a cloud of smoke as he ashes his cigarette off the balcony. “I came here for you.” he shrugs, acting so cool as if it were the most romantic thing he’s ever done. “Go home.” I grit out, realizing that right before me isn’t standing my loving mate, no…he’s a beast…one I am mated to.

“Can we just talk?” he asks as he pads over to the plant in the corner, crushing the cigarette in the soil. “No, I want you to leave.” I croak, my voice tainted with fear and I could tell he noticed as his eyes soften and he freezes on the spot.

“I’m not going to hurt you Jessica, I never was…I just didn’t know how to tell you.” he shrugs, looking guilty. He should be feeling guilty, he practically lied to me when he decided to withhold the truth.

Hell, is this what Louis was talking about?

“Yeah right, you were just going to kill me like the rest, weren’t you?” I seethe as I hold myself. The air is cold or I’m losing my mind. “What? I never killed any of my mates Jessica.” he frowns, looking highly offended, but who the hell cares? He’s a liar, what else would he lie about? I think he’d lie about who he killed.

“Then what happened to them? How old are you even?” I stumble back as he steps forward and he halts in his step, tilting his head to the side in disbelief.

“They died of old age or in war. I never harmed any of them.” the hurt flashing through his eyes makes my heart squeeze. I don’t want to make him feel bad, but he did this. This is all his fault.

“Sure, so what? You just looked all about twenty six-ish and you were next to a grandma?” I snort, shaking my head. “That happened only once, wait…Who told you this?” , “No one, but look at you!” I shriek, blinking rapidly. “This could not be any worse.” I rub my forehead. “What can’t? What I’m half vampire?” he glares at me, “That you didn’t tell me! I have all these questions and I’m scared. I am scared Nathaniel!” I bellow and he sighs, glancing over his shoulder down at the city before his eyes meet mine again. “Look, I did want to tell you.” His gaze flicks to the floor. “It doesn’t seem like it…” I breathe out. Some tiny part of me is scared of him, I’m scared of the answers he’d give me to the million questions running through my head, but the bigger part of me doesn’t fear him, I’m angrier than I am scared and I have this energy that just makes me want to scream until my lungs give out.

“I did, they didn’t handle that right. F**k…” he rakes his hand through his pitch black hair.

“They told me they’d tell you…I just thought I had more time to tell you myself. I’m sorry if they scared you but all of those photo’s…it’s out of context, I swear.” his hands press together as he takes one slow step forward.

My gaze flicks to his feet and then back up at him, “Could you just stand still?” I freak out. I don’t want him coming closer than he already is… I don’t want the mate bond to influence my thinking, I don’t want it to fix this because even if I admit to myself that he’s looking very dreamy standing there in all black, right under the moonlight…I might just k**s him and I don’t want to.

My gaze flicks to his feet and then back up at him, “Could you just stand still?” I freak out. I don’t want him coming closer than he already is… I don’t want the mate bond to influence my thinking, I don’t want it to fix this because even if I admit to myself that he’s looking very dreamy standing there in all black, right under the moonlight…I might just k**s him and I don’t want to.

I want answers.

He sighs, “Can we just go inside? You are shaking.” he motions to the door behind me and I glance over my shoulder from the side of my eye, nodding and I turn, intentionally whipping my hair before I charge into the apartment.

“How are you paying for this when your stuff is at home?” he asks as he closes the door. “Nick is lending me the money.” I shrug, not making a big deal out of it. He caused physical and emotional damage to me, he owes me this at least.

“No he’s not, use my bank details.” Nathaniel scoffs and I turn on my heel, “All I want from you, is f*****g answers.” I seethe and his eyebrows knit together as he stills. “I didn’t mean to hurt you…” he mutters and his hurtful expression has my chest caving.

I glance away before strutting over to the couch and I sit down, “You can stand there, this seems like a pacing conversation.” I shrug and his eyes flick to the ground as he scoffs.

“Seems like it.” he mumbles and I hum. I can’t drag my eyes away from him…

“So, ask your questions,” he mutters after a long silence between us. “How old are you?” he starts to laugh, “Why is that always the first question?” his smile fades when he notices my hostile glare and he clamps his lips together into a thin line, biting his inner cheek as he tries to stop laughing.

“Sorry, I never realize how important that question is.” he sighs as his fingers rake through his hair.

“I’m sorry that I want to know if I’m sleeping with a grandpa, which I clearly am.” I snort and he jokingly rolls his eyes, “Well I am three hundred years old, three hundred and thirty to be exact.” he shrugs, making the b***d drain from my face…He couldn’t be…

I press my knees together as I run my hand down and up my thighs, taking deep breaths.

“It’s not that bad, is it?” He snorts, trying to make a joke, but this was far from funny.

‘It’s a little funny.’ Zola laughs and she makes my b***d boil. I roll my eyes and Nathaniel sits down next to me, leaving a space between us. “I’m sorry…this has never been easy for me and it’s freaking me out that you are freaking out just because of what I am.” he scratches his nape, acting all innocent.

He has killed, hunted people like animals, and probably did worse things than I could ever imagine.

Wolves and vampires are enemies, they are bloodsuckers, a disgrace to the earth and hundreds of wars have been fought between our kind, but right next to me is him, the hybrid, the Lycan wolf vampire…How crazy is that?

“I don’t hate what you are.” I sigh, it’s a little bit of a lie. I was raised to hate vampires, but he’s my mate.

I can’t help but love him, it’s like my entire soul is magnetized to his.

“Then how do you feel about what I am?” he turns his body to me, leaning his back against the armrest. I mirror his sit so that we face one another.

“I’m mad, confused, and a little hurt.” I admit truthfully and it feels like some weight is lifted off my shoulders.

“Ask me what you want, I promise I won’t lie. I will be honest, even if it’s uncomfortable.” his eyes glance to the side and I can’t help but fear that he’s lying…

“How did you turn into a vampire?” I stare at him, waiting for him to say anything as he stares back at me, “Anything but that.” his eyebrows furrow together and I blow out a breath through my nose as I glance down at my hands in my lap. I pick at my nails and I could feel his eyes boring into my skull. “It’s difficult talking about it.” he mumbles under his breath and I stare at him through a hooded gaze. “Did you do anything wrong?” I raise my eyebrows. “No.” his eyes narrow. “Then why is it difficult?”

“Because I trusted someone and they broke that trust.” he grits out, his jaw ticking. “And that makes it difficult for you to explain it to me? How hard could it be?” I cross my arms and he squeezes his eyes shut, I could see the frustration pulsing through him as his veins pulse faster and faster.

“You don’t understand.” his head tilts to the side, his neck cracking. “Because you won’t explain it to me!” I bellow and his eyes ping open, his cold glare turning soft, “I’ll try.” the determination is his orbs sparks light in my heart and I nod, “Then start.” my voice comes out in a begging tone.

“My first mate…” she small smile twitching at his lips makes my heart break, he’s smiling when thinking of some other girl…

“She was a vampire.” he gulps down the lump in his throat as my eyes widen, “What? How is that possible?” I frown and he shrugs, “Whatever the Moon Goddess wants, she makes.” he scratches his nape. “I loved her, she was beautiful. She didn’t have pale skin like the rest because she could walk in the sun because of a spell that was casted on her pendant that always hung around her neck. She was elegant, kind and caring…I of course didn’t understand what I did wrong to deserve a b***d sucker as a mate, but I fell in love with her and I was casted out of my own pack, my father, the alpha, disowned me and she took me in…” my heart aches at the thought of knowing that his father disowned him just because of his mate…It must have been awful for him to have his own family turn their backs on him.

“Anyway…” he sighs, “We were together for months when one night, she made dinner with a delicious red wine, but it wasn’t just wine…It was a potion that started a spell…We always use to have arguments about her feeding, she use to kill and that made her turn me with the help of a witch alliance and she actually stabbed me in the heart with a knife…” he rubs his chest, asif feeling it all over again.

“Oh my Goddess…that’s awful.” I stare at him with wide eyes.