Rejected You Alpha, for A Beast
Chapter 55

JESSICA’S POV

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I couldn’t stand in front of him anymore, every single nerve in my body was paralyzed by shock when he told me that he’d reject her, but I couldn’t trust him in that way again because I have heard it for weeks before he brought her home and mated with her, claiming her in our home that we had built.

I storm into the hotel and march right up to the elevator, my fingers pressing the top floor button a trillion times before the door slowly closes and right before it fully shuts, Nick appears in the small gap, staring at me with pleading eyes, calling out my name as if I were about to disappear into the abyss.

I blow out a breath as the elevator moves and that one single breath makes my body sink to the floor.

The entire ride up, I sit with my back against the wall, watching as the numbers of the floor change.

How could he think that I would want to go back to him?

Did I lead him on when I told him I needed my best friend?

‘He’s an i***t, you made the right choice.’ Zola beams, but she’s only saying it because she’s in love with Nathaniel’s wolf, they are bonded too, but my mind is stronger than my heart.

I sigh as the elevator still at the top and I get up, walking out into the short hall and I unlock my hotel room door, closing it behind me, but before I could think to lock it, my back is slammed into the door, my skin erupting in sparks as I’m pinned back by my shoulders and my gaze lifts to Nathaniel’s bright red one.

“Nate-“, “Where the hell have you been?” he interrupts me, seething.

I try to push him off, but he’s like a boulder, stuck in his stance, glaring down at me.

He inhales deeply and his bright red orbs slowly turn brighter, as if erupting in flames.

“I was with…”, “Nick.” he finishes my sentence in a low growl, disgust clear on his face.

“We went to get something to eat.” I look at him dumbfounded, wondering why he was acting out like this. “I don’t care, you are not to go somewhere with your ex.” he seethes, “Let go of me! You’re hurting me!” I fakely winch and he pulls away, his eyes turning back to it’s normal collar, his orbs flicking over my body, looking for bruises.

His large hand rakes over his shiny hair, “Why couldn’t you just answer your phone?” he snaps, turning his back to me.

I stare at him with dumbfounded, I don’t know what has gotten into him, but he’s seriously disoriented and mad.

“Nathaniel, I left my phone here. If I was ready to ask more question, I would have asked them.” I push myself off the door, putting my things down on the small table.

He turns to me, looking completely hopeless before he sinks to the ground, his knees slightly pulled to his chest, his elbows propped up on his legs and he lowers his face into the palms of his hands.

He looks so distraught…

I lower onto my knees in front of him, resting my hand on his bicep, but he lifts his face, shaking his head, “No, just…” he holds his hand out as I snap my arm back, staring at him with wide eyes, “What is going on?” I sit down and he gets up, staring down at me.

“I haven’t fed since you left and my brain…is not functioning right and I feel angry and…” he starts to ramble and I just blankly stare up at him as he unloads, “I can’t think and I’m worried.” he grabs locks of his raven hair, tugging on them.

“What are you worried about?” I mutter as I scoot back, wanting to stand up, “You!” he haunches over, hovering over me as he screams. His hands are stretched out in front of him as if he’s having a mental breakdown.

“Why? I’m right here.” I whimper.

I can’t help but be afraid of him at this moment, it looks like he’s about to lose his mind, as if the war inside of his head is going south and he’s losing the battle.

“Because you’re going to leave me.” he blankly stares down at me, straightening his back. The sadness and fear in flicking through his beautiful emeralds are breaking my heart.

I want to help him, but I don’t know how.

“I’m not…” I shake my head, “Then what are you doing with him?” he croaks out and it’s like my heart completely shatters.

“He was my best friend…but I now saw that we could never be friends again.” I frown, Nick’s offer replaying in my mind.

I feel ill at the thought of just going back to the West pack.

“What do you mean?” Nathaniel c***s his head at me and shame fills me, probably because I was wrong reaching out to him in the first place…

“He made me a offer, a offer that I straight up said no to.” I shrug as I stand up. He takes a slow taunting step forward, “Don’t be so vague.”

“He asked me to return to the West pack.” I shrug, thinking that it’s no big deal since I’ll never go back there.

The West pack just isn’t my home anymore, no matter how badly I want it to be, the minute I ran into that place, it felt strange, like I never should have been there, but it’s the place my parents grew up in, it’s where I grew up in.

It was home, but Nick has made it impossible to go back.

He held me hostage when I was finally ready to leave after he hurt me for weeks, not caring about how I felt.

Nathaniel snarls, his head twitching to the side and he turns on his heel in a blink of an eye, striding towards the balcony door.

I follow suite, “I would never go back.” I tell him, but it’s like he isn’t listening to me.

“Nate.” I call out to him as he walks to the edge, gripping the railings tightly.

“I won’t leave you.” I try to convince him.

“I have to go.” He turns, looking at me with bright red eyes, “Please don’t…”, “Don’t ask me to stay.” he interrupts my plea for him to not go. “If I stay, I will hurt you. I can hear every second of your b***d pulsing, I can see your veins bounce as you breathe and I..I need to go home and feed. I’ll come back, eventually.” he sighs before jumping off the balcony.

A b***d hurling scream erupts from my lips as I run to the edge, gripping the railings as I glance down, but he’s not squashed on the floor, in fact, I can see him walking just fine across the road. He glances up at me before he vanishes into thin air like he wasn’t there a second ago, like I had imagined him.

I step back, staring at the blue sky above me as I stumble and fall back onto the small couch, gripping the handles.

Nathaniel is a mess because of me…

I inhale a deep breath and I stand up, glancing over at the road before everything in my brain just clicks…

He’s not much different from anyone else…he has feelings, he could be offended, he can feel, he can love and be sad.

He has humanity and he’s nothing like what we were taught.

Since we were little, we had class every day and every single day, we were taught about vampires, how to hide from them and what they are.

It’s all very ridiculous thinking about it now and I can’t even imagine that they are actually like that.

I could remember the exact lecture we got that made me hate vampires…

Sitting in a circle, the teacher sits on one of our chairs, “So we come to today’s lesson about the b***d sucking creatures we call vampires. Remember that they are pale, they have red eyes and no soul. They don’t know kindness or love, they don’t have mates and they are heartless creatures, who kill without caring about people’s feelings and how it would affect others. We are no friends to vampires and we never will be.”

Thinking back of that speech that was drilled into my brain since I was a kid although school, I realize that all of it was bullshit.

Vampires have mates, one was mated to Nathaniel…she wasn’t the best, but what if she was just misunderstood?

I rush inside and shove everything I have into the suitcase and I rush out of the room, not giving the suite a last glance as the door slams shut behind me.

I trot down the hall, pushing the button repeatedly until the door opens and I slide right in through the crack even thought the door slides open fully.

I hit the ground floor and run to the front desk, “I need to pay for the suite, immediately.” I breathe out and the woman behind the desk raises her head slowly, chewing gum with an open mouth.

“Coming right up.” she types something out, then hands me the card machine. I tap my phone against the machine until it beeps and I grab my bag and rush the to car, throwing my bag on the seat next to me before I drive off towards home.

Home isn’t just the place, it’s not the bed or because everything I own is in the room and closet, it’s not because my parents are there, it’s because he is and he needs me.

I can feel it in my heart that he’s the one I am suppose to be with, even though he’s different, but in my eyes, he’s mine and he always will be.

I curse as I swerve through the traffic, grinding my teeth when some i***t drives on my a*s like this is a linked train.

Just as I’m about to pull up to the highway, a car comes speeding from behind, swerves into the other lane and when I glance to the side to see what kind of i***t is driving so recklessly, I see Nick’s face, staring right at me.

I frown, but before I could glance away, the side of his car swerves into the one I’m driving, sending me off the road.