Scarred Alphas by Norisha May
Chapter 35

and pat my clothes down.

Poppy walks in but Colt is already up and standing straight with his arms crossed. He is so fast that even I'm surprised but Poppy still looks at him with confusion and then her eyes flicker to me. I am lying on the sofa with my clothes all disheveled. I quickly sit up "I...came to bring you this." She holds a tray with bread and a bit of food.

"Oh! I thought Wa-...father said I wasn't allowed to have any."

"I know but he doesn't have to know and it is not much."

She looks at Colt. "Why are you in here?"

"She was asking me for food." He says.

I immediately nod. "And he said I couldn't have any. He is so mean."

She smiles and hands me the trey. "Oh honey, he's not mean. He's just doing his job. Alexis here is one of the good ones." She walks back to the door and when she is about to go out, she whispers. "Be careful you two."

I look at Colt and he looks back at me too. I can see his concern.

I am now panicking. "I...I don't want to but...maybe we should stop."

"And how are we going to do that? Can we, Cass? Can we stop? Cause I can tell you that I have no will in me to make me stop wanting you."

He is right. I don't think I can stop. I don't want to.

"Besides...the minute Garret found out, we were done.

Warrick knows already." He says.

"What?! But you said..."

"I lied. I didn't want you to worry."

"But why didn't he do or say anything?"

Colt sits next to me and puts a hand on my cheek. "He's a smart man. He'll probably use this later on. Or maybe he did say something and Warrick is waiting to use this information."

I move his hand away and shake my head. "Then we can't, right? We should......" I sigh unable to get my words out.

He gives me a tender smile. "What I am saying with this, Angel, is that there is no need for us to stop. Might as well enjoy it while we can.

"Will he do anything to us?

How are you so calm about this?"

He shrugs his shoulders. "I guess because I know that if anyone is going to get punished by this...it's not going to be you." "What? That is still not okay." Some paragraphs are incomplete if you are not reading this novel on Narugi.com. Visit Narugi.com to read the complete chapters for free."Cass...just enjoy this moment we have right now." I narrow my eyes. "Are you telling me to shut up?"

"I would never tell you that."

"Yeah? As if you didn't just slap me and you said you'd never do that."

I am only messing with him.

He gasps. "That was all you. I would never put my hands on you like that."

I laugh, replaceing his expression funny.

He smiles and pulls me to sit on his lap. He hugs me and then nuzzles my shoulder.

This is the most comfortable I have ever felt with anyone. I like this feeling. The feeling of being wanted, of being loved.

"I wasn't expecting you to come into my life when you did." He says.

I pull back just a bit and look at him, remembering that man I met back in the cells.

He looks and feels so different now from that man.

My hand traces his cheek and then follows the lines of his scars.

"You...you changed, Colt. Didn't you?"

It's crazy because it hasn't been that long but I see it. He is different than the man I met back then.

He looks at me and nods. "I was so angry, Cass. I was so angry back then. I always thought that if I ever came back, if I ever stood in the presence of Warrick, I would kill him or die trying. I wanted revenge and never thought of anything else. But now, all I think about is you. All I think about is how I want you to be safe. And if enduing that man again is what keeps you safe, then I will do so."

I press my forehead to his. "That is not fair for you. you deserve to be happy, Colt."

"I am happy when I am with you." Before I can say anything cheeky, he continues. "I am at peace when I am with you. I am myself. I don't have to pretend...to be strong, to have no emotions. You see me. I think you always have."

I close my eyes as I feel him, I feel his presence. "I wish...I wish you would have been my mate."

"Mh, I think we would have been amazing together." He says.

"Would you have accepted me back then when we were young? If I had been your mate?"

"Yes." He doesn't hesitate but I feel skeptical about it.

"Are you sure about that? You didn't know me back then as you do now. How can you be sure that you wouldn't have acted like your brothers?"

"Cass, if you had been my goddess-given mate, I would not have thought it twice. I would have loved the f**k out of you because you were meant for me. You would have meant to be mine."

I smile, liking that answer.

"We are not mates...but why does it feel like we are?"

"Because...this is real, Cass. Because we are kindreds. Because we see into each other's souls. Because we've both been scarred and broken yet now learn to love again. Because we choose each other."

He traces his hand through the scars on my shoulder.

"Two scarred Alphas learning to love."

"So...this is love, then?" I whisper.

He looks directly into my eyes. "You can deny it all you want...but this is love." His eyes go down suddenly now looking afraid. "I don't deserve you."

"What? Why would you say that?"

"I...there are..."

"What is it?"

His expression changes to a remorseful one. "Secrets. There are still secrets."

I can see how torn he is about this.

"It's okay. You can tell me anything."

He looks up at me, into my eyes. "You are going to hate me."

"You know what? No. I don't think I could ever hate you."

His shoulders hump down and he looks sad.

"Colt, it's okay. We have time. Tell me when you are ready."

Now he looks at me as if he was admiring me and then he kisses me. I welcome his embrace. I cling to the back of his head, pushing him closer not that it is possible because there is no more space between us. I want him. I want him to make love to me. There is tension in the air. My body burns for him and I know he wants me too. My hands start caressing his chest over his shirt but he pulls away for a few seconds to look at his watch and then he sighs.

"Serge will be here any minute, Cass. We can't."

I close my eyes with a huff in disappointment.

"Can't we go for a run like last time?"

He smiles. "You want me, huh?"

"Oh shut up. But yes, I do."

He smiles and his face lights up. I love to see genuine happiness on his face.

"Unfortionetly Angel, you are grounded. If someone spots us outside, there will be problems this time."

I give him a pouty face which makes him laugh.

"Stop being so cute. I'll do you extra good next time if you are a good girl for me."

Somehow, that excites me. "Not sure if it's about the extra good part or if it's because he told me to be a good girl but I am all for it."

He gets up, gives me one last k*ss, and then walks out of the door to wait for Serge. I take in a deep breath, alone in my room again. I lie back on the sofa and start thinking about what he said. Love...is it, love...

I smile.

I think I am in love. I have never felt like this before about anyone. I never knew he could be so amazing but then again, out of all the brothers, he was the more reasonable one. I want to think that he was telling the truth. That he wouldn't have done the same thing as Ezra. I mean, he could have had any girl he wanted and still is able to have any girl he wants but he chooses me.

Two knocks on my door make me sit up.

Colt slips his head in. "Serge is here. He'll be guarding you tonight."

I want to run to him and k*ss him good night but I just nod.

He gives me a wink and closes the door. I fall asleep thinking about him.

The next morning I am training again with Victor. I try to concentrate but all I look forward is to lunch, when Colt will change places with Serge.

"I think we should incorporate a bit of running in your training."

"Why?"

"Because you've only thrown a few punches but you are already winded."

huff, blowing a hair from my face.

"You mean... running in human form?"

"Yes."

I make a fake crying face. I am sure that I am not going to enjoy it one bit but I also don't want to complain about it. I know I need to listen and do what he tells me in order to learn to fight. After my training, I eagerly head to the dining room. I patiently eat and wait till finally Colt arrives.

I think this is the highlight of my day.

I give him a smile while he stoically walks towards Serge.

"About time," I mutter when he settles behind me.

"Missed me, huh?" He whispers.

I giggle. "Yep, big time."

"Alexis!" The girl Julia calls for him.

She sits a seat away from me and smiles at him.

"Where have you been? I missed you!"

"I am working right now, Julia."

I get that that is exactly what he has to say but it pisses me off. I want him to tell her to f**k off, that he has eyes for me and only me and to leave him alone.

Taking a slow breath, I calm myself knowing that this is all my jealousy.

"Oh." Julia looks at me.

"Yeah, sorry. He's all mine right now." I say, unable to control myself.

Whoops.

That came out very catty. I guess I didn't calm myself enough.

"It's fine...I guess. I mean he is just doing his job. I'll get him later." She has an attitude as she says this.

To say that I want to claw this girl's face off is an understatement.

"Hmh, that might be difficult since he spends ALL of his time with me."

Oh boy...what the hell am I doing? I can hear Colt clearing his throat behind me.

"I am sure he will get a much-needed break from you eventually. I'll be there when he does."

Colt puts a hand on my shoulder before I can say or do anything. "Your brother is waiting for you. We should go."

Huffing a breath out, I get up and leave the room seething.

"I'll see you soon, Alexis," Julia says but Colt doesn't answer.

"What was that?" he asks me once we are in the hall.

"What do you think that was?" Before he can answer, I abruptly stop walking and point a finger at him. "You are mine."

He looks shocked and so am I have never been possessive like this before.

"I...I am all yours." He now says with a smirk.

"Yeah, laugh it all up. It's not going to be funny when I break her face."

He chuckles. "I never thought I would replace this so cute."

"Stop it."

He smiles as his hand reaches my cheek and caresses me. "You have nothing to worry about with her or with anyone. You are all I want."

I nod. "And you better stick to that."

"Always," he replies, smiling.

We make our way to the war room but this time we don't have our way with each other in the closet. Garret was angry yesterday and I don't want to make him angry again so I go directly to the war room where everyone starts to gather.