Sweet Redemption: The Morningstar Series Book 3
Sweet Redemption Chapter 39

After about ten minutes of silence my twin spoke again.

"Soooo. You and Bou." I looked over to see her smirking at me.

I rolled my eyes. "Don't start."

“Come on Acaisia. He obviously isn't like your first mate. He's been infatuated with you since he first laid eyes on you. Give him a break." She pushed.

I scoffed at her.

"I do give him breaks. I suck his d**k and let him call me his stupid pet names." I argued. "I still can't believe he left hickeys all over me though." I mumbled. Ahkari snorted and shook her head.

"Give him an emotional break." She offered.

"I do that too." I mumbled. "I told him about my first mate." I admitted to my twin.

Ahkari's eyes went wide.

"You did?" I nodded. "What did he say?" She asked.

I blew out a breath.

"A lot of crap I don't want to talk about right now."

"Oh please." Ahkari grumbled out. "I know you're hurt and scared Cas but you have to let go and trust him."

I scoffed at that. Trust him? I trusted my first mate and look what happened.

"I'm just not ready yet." I whispered.

Ahkari wrapped an arm around my shoulders.

"I know you are dealing with a lot from your first mate. But Cais, anyone with a set of eyes can see how much Bou loves you already. Bianca told me he's wanted a mate his entire life. He isn't your first mate. Stop treating him like he is. You're making Bou pay for everything that stupid f**k did to you, and you're letting that stupid f**k win. Take the risk with Bou Cais, be with him, be happy, and then rub it in your first mate's face. f**k that guy. You and Bou deserve to be happy with each other." She ranted.

I thought about what she said. I still wasn't ready to fully let go but I was already opening up to him. Bou listened to all of my worries and loved me regardless. He loves my bratty attitude and I love the amused way he reacts to it.

Selma was whining in my head. She's the only one that truly understands my pain and my hesitation. Even she thinks Bou is different.

Smiling I looked up into my twins matching eyes.

"Everyone can see it huh?" I asked.

Ahkari chuckled at me then clicked her tongue.

"Yeah. Simon apparently thinks he's hilarious. Says hes never seen someone look at him with so much hate before." She told me amused.

I had to laugh at that one. The moment we had walked into Tia's office and greeted Simon, I knew something was off with Bou. It didn't take me long to figure out that he was jealous. I had to act all lovey dovey with him to calm him down. Act. Yeah, it was just an act. I didn't f*****g absolutely love it or anything.

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Ahkari and I spent the next couple of hours sitting and talking. Nothing came out of the cave. There were no screams or chills. The black roots didn't move. All in all, things were silent.

Eventually Simon emerged from his tent. He stretched his arms above his head and yawned.

"I'll take over now girls. Go get some sleep." He said as he took a seat in one of the chairs.

Ahkari and I agreed and went back to our mates. Demons, among other supernaturals, didn't need a lot of sleep. Simon could get three hours and be completely rested. I, on the other hand was feeling exhausted.

At least I was until I walked in our tent to replace my mate rolled over on his side, leg sprawled out, his back to me, and his bare a*s on full display. My Goddess he is sexy.

Deciding I was no longer tired I stripped out of my clothes completely. I put Bou's hoodie back on though. Walking back over to the bed I crawled under he covers. I was trying to figure out how to cuddle up to him with the way he was laying when he rolled onto his back.

A small whimper left his lips. His eyebrows were drawn together tightly. Then his breathing started to get heavier.

Confusion hit me as he started to wiggle around more. I placed my hands on his bare chest hoping to soothe him. That didn't seem to do anything though so I started to shake him slightly. "Bou?" I called his name.

Suddenly Bou shot up to a sitting position. He was breathing heavy and his eyes quickly scanned the room. My hands had fallen from his chest and I just waited patiently until he noticed me.

When Bou's eyes landed on me his body visibly relaxed. He ran a hand through his hair as he tried to calm his breathing. Bou flung the blanket off and swung his legs over the side of the bed. He put his elbows on his knees and rested his head in his hands.

I didn't know what to do. Comforting people wasn't exactly my strong suit. Something was clearly wrong though and I couldn't stand seeing my mate upset. Bou is never upset. He's always happy or teasing me.

Crawling up behind him I did the only thing I could think of. Slowly, I moved my body around his. Pushing his arms gently away I sat on his lap and wrapped my body around him completely. My legs wrapped around his torso and my arms around his neck. I buried my face in his neck and just held him close.

Bou didn't react at first. I think he was confused as to what I was doing. Once I was settled into his lap and hugging him tightly he finally reacted.

Bou wrapped his arms around me and hugged me to him just as tightly. He buried his head into the side of my neck, snuggling into my hair. We stayed like that for a few moments until he pulled away from me.

I leaned back and looked into his bright blue eyes. The sadness I saw there nearly broke my heart. What the hell was he dreaming about?

"Are you okay?" I asked instead, as I started to run my fingers into his hair.

Bou sighed but smiled at me. "I am now." He said then pressed a kiss to my cheek.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked tentively.

Bou averted his eyes from mine. He gripped my hips and scooched back on the bed. While still holding me, he moved us into a laying position. He grabbed my hand and placed small kisses to my fingertips. "It was just a nightmare." He said vaguely.

I frowned. "I picked up on that much." My comment was snarky but I couldn't help it.

Bou gave me a small smile.

"Growing up in the system was rough. We were only in the system for ten years, but it was enough to show us the evils of the world." He said looking away from me again.

"Bianca and I witnessed several other kids get molested, beat, or worse. We didn't know what we were back then, not that we had much power before puberty anyways." He gave me a dry chuckle.

"I got my fair share of beatings protecting Bianca. It's easy to forget those memories when I'm awake, but... Sometimes they come back intensely when I'm sleeping. One memory in particular. It was the home that we met Robby and Max in. The foster father was a real d**k. I mean they both were but he would always look at Bianca in a disgusting way. The night he decided to act on it I wasn't strong enough to protect my sister. I got knocked out before I could even do anything. Thankfully Max killed him before anything happened. That was when Bruce came barreling in to save us all. But... It was a hard pill to swallow for me for a long time. Sometimes it's still hard. I felt like I couldn't protect anyone for a really long time. I beat myself up over it a lot over the years." Bou kissed my fingertips again, still not meeting my eyes.

I pulled my hand from his grip to cup his cheek. Forcing Bou to look up and meet my eyes I looked deep into his. I was damn near ready to hunt down every single mother fucker that ever hurt my mate and I was certain that Ahkari would be right there with me. "I'm sorry that you guys had to go through so much." Was all I could manage.

Bou gave me a more sincere smile.

"I'd go through it all again if it lead me back to you."

His words made my heart feel full. I knew he meant it too. All the love in his eyes made his words more serious. f**k, I'm in trouble. My walls are crumbling slowly.

"What are the names of all the ones that hurt you?" I asked it softly, hoping that he wouldn't pick up on the murderous intent behind my question.

Bou laughed lightly at me before kissing my nose.

"Bruce already had them hunted down and killed babe." He gave me a quick kiss. "Sorry."

I pouted.

"All of them?" I asked.

"Yeah." Bou answered amused. He snuggled even closer to me. "Sorry there's no one left for you to kill little mate." He teased.

Then suddenly he pulled back from me. I frowned at him as his eyes trailed down my body.

"Is this my hoodie?" He asked.

As much as I tried I couldn't stop the blush from creeping up my neck.

"Uh, maybe." I answered lamely.

That stupid sexy smirk formed on my mates lips. He pulled me flush against his body and I could feel his boner against my stomach. Bou captured my lips with his and I instantly reacted. It's so unfair how good he feels.

One of his hands trailed up my bare leg and he smirked against my lips. I chose to ignore it since his touch feels so f*****g good. Bou kept moving his hand up the side of my body until he reached my hip.

His entire body shivered against me, causing a wave of plessure to course through me and settle at my core.

"f**k Baby.." He breathed out. "Are.. Are you completely naked under my hoodie?" He asked against my lips.

I yanked him back to me so I could keep kissing him. If he wanted an answer to his question he would just have to feel for himself. Bou gently pushed me back until I was on my back. He was nestled between my legs as his hand went up to cup my b****t. We moaned at the same time and I licked his bottom lip demanding entrance. He didn't budge as he started to twist my n****e. Sucking in his bottom lip I bit down.

"Harder." He ordered and I couldn't help but obey.

I bit down harder until I tasted his sweet blood. The moan I let out was much louder than I intended it to be. My legs wrapped around Bou's waist and I pushed him into me. His hard c**k pressed against my wet slit.

Bou shuttered and moaned out my name. He slipped his tongue in my mouth breaking my hold on his lip, but I didn't care. I kissed him back feverishly.

f**k, I want him so bad.

Bou started to move himself between my folds, my juices lubricating his fat c**k. Our breathing was getting heavier. I was lost. Completely lost in him. When he pulled away I pouted. Even as he started kissing down my neck. "Bou.." I whined out.

"Hmmm?" He hummed against my skin.

"Bou please.. I need you.." I breathed.

"Mark me then." He murmured against my neck.

I wasn't ready to mark him yet. But I was so horny I felt like I was going to combust. While Bou's hands and mouth could bring me coutless o*****s it wasn't enough. I wanted him inside of me. Needed him. Unfortunately, the fear won. I was too scared.

For any supernatural creature losing your mate was like being ripped apart. Whether that loss was a rejection or death. Werewolves felt the mate bond more strongly than any other creatures. The more powerful you are the stronger you feel it too. I'm literally one of the strongest creatures in all the realms.

Being rejected tore my f*****g heart to pieces. I had no idea how I managed to gather myself together and go on. It was the hardest thing I had ever done. The agony that I went through because of that prick. And I didn't even feel as strongly about him as I do about Bou. If I marked him and he still left me... I don't want to live the rest of eternity in that kind of pain.

"Hey hey hey." Bou whispered as he brushed a few tears from my cheeks.

I didn't even know I was crying.

"Don't cry, please baby. I can't stand seeing you cry." Bou told me which only made more tears spill out. "Baby please stop." He tried again. "You don't have to mark me yet.. I'm sorry."

"I.." I didn't even know what to say. "I'm sorry.. I just.." I blubbered out.

"Shhh." Bou soothed. "I know baby. You aren't ready yet. That's okay. We can just cuddle for now."

Bou moved to my side, he turned me around so my back was to him, then pulled me flush against him.

"Just like this okay? This is perfect." He kissed my cheek. "Please don't be sad." He whsipered in my ear.

My tears had stopped coming. Thankfully. I probably looked like a complete psycho. Leaning back against my mates warmth I relaxed.

"I'm not sad anymore." And I meant it.

I might have started off crying from sadness, and built up frustration, but he calmed me immediately. Just another thing to add to my list of pros when it came to Bou. The genuine way he cares about me. How the f**k was I supposed to give that up?