The Accidental Wife (Emily and Julian)
The Accidental 174

Chapter 174

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"This is a masterpiece, Rosie," Sabrina gushes as she twirls in her dress that I have designed for her. I'm in love with her reaction. I can't believe that my best friend is about to get married and I'm the one who got to design her wedding dress.

Today's is the last fitting and it looks perfect on her. I spent a lot of time designing this dress, but the happiness I now see on her face is enough to make me forget the exhaustion I felt while making it.

Knox and Sabrina's wedding is in two months and she is really excited. I remember being this excited too when I was busy with my wedding preparations.

"I'm glad you love it." I grin, looking at my best friend. I wish I had it in me to vividly share with her this moment, but I haven't been okay lately. Between working on her dress, taking care of Silas and working on the dresses for my fashion show, I don't have a moment to breathe. I'm so tired. I have never felt this tired in my entire life.

Silas isn't making things any easier for me. After that night at the hospital, he didn't extensively drink for almost a month, but then he relapsed and now, we're back to square one. I don't even know what I'm supposed to do anymore. While I understand how hard it is to lose something, I don't understand why he's acting like that.

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The self-pity he's drowning in is pretty foreign to me. He has never been like that. The Silas I know has a strong stamina. He is strong-willed and determined. He doesn't give up upon facing hardships. The man I'm living with is a stranger. "Thank you so much!" she exclaims, making her way towards me. She pulls me into a hug and I smile, hugging her back. Maybe this is my first real smile in a while.

I sometimes try to convince myself that this is how marriage is supposed to be, but then I look around me and I become sure that I'm wrong. Marriage is not supposed to be like that at all. My parents are a happy couple. Tristan and Scarlett are happy. Even Silas's parents are happy.

I know that there are happy couples around. I'm aware that all couples have their disagreements, but it feels like I'm running in a vicious circle and cannot put an end to my struggle.

"Rosie, are you all right?" she wonders after changing back into her clothes.

"I am." My answer is rather quick. It's like I have programmed myself to give this answer even if I'm not feeling well. I don't want to bother anyone with my problems with Silas and I'm trying to keep our issues inside the building we call a home.

"I don't believe you." Sabrina's frown is deep and I look away, afraid that if she pushes more, I may end up telling her everything. "Is everything okay with Silas?"

I want to shake my head and tell her that nothing is okay, but / do the opposite. I simply nod and tell her, "Of course."

The look she has on her face tells me that she doesn't believe me.

"I won't pressure you to talk, Rosie, but if you want to talk, you know that I will always listen." She gently rubs my arm as she says that and I take a shaky breath and give her a small smile. The thing I love about Sabrina is that she respects people's needs and privacy. I'm glad that she decides against pressuring me until I tell her what's wrong, because I don't think I have enough energy in my body to talk about what has been going on lately. "Are we meeting Kendall for lunch?" she asks.

Yes, she is at a restaurant nearby," I tell her.

"Knox has just texted me. He's going with Silas to a pub to meet some old friends," she fills me in and my heart sinks a little. A pub. This means that they're going to drink and Silas no longer knows how to control himself when it comes to alcohol.

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Chapter 174

I'm trying to deny all the signs before me, but it's crystal clear that Silas is an alcoholic.

"Can you do me a favor?" I hesitantly ask her. "Sure," she quickly says.

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"Please tell Knox to make sure Silas doesn't drink a lot," I tell her. She gives me a questioning look and I fear that she may ask why I want her to do that, but fortunately, she doesn't. She sends the text to Knox silently, probably sensing that I don't want to talk about this now.

Kendall and Sabrina aren't close, but they enjoy each other's company. They understand how important each one of them is to me and I'm glad that none of them is childish enough to compare my friendship with her with the other one. Kendall has always been there for me ever since I was a child and the only time we spent apart was during college. Sabrina was the one who always had my back during college and stood by my side whenever I needed her. I'm glad that I'm blessed with such amazing friends like them and I'm certain that without them, life would have been so much harder.

"It's been so long since I last saw you!" Kendall exclaims when she sees Sabrina as they both kiss on the cheeks.

"I have been so busy with wedding preparations." Sabrina sighs as we all sit down.

"I remember the preparations for Rosie's wedding. I bet yours is harder since you don't have all your friends with you." Sabrina nods at Kendall's words.

"But the wedding planner is a goddess. She's handling everything so well," Sabrina replies. Soon, the wa. our order. I'm not that hungry, but I usually get the appetite to eat when I'm with my friends.

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"Your bachelorette party is already booked, but I won't tell you where we're going now," I tease my best friend after the waiter leaves, knowing how impatient she is. I booked her a four-day bachelorette party in Puerto Rico. I know that she has always wanted to go there, but never got the chance to go there, so I'm planning on taking her there along with the whole bridal party.

"No, tell me! You know I'm the most impatient person in the world," she whines, making me laugh.

"Stop teasing the poor girl." Kendall playfully rolls her eyes at me.

"You know too?! This isn't fair!" Sabrina throws her head back, making me giggle. I haven't had that much fun in a lot of time.

"Puerto Rico," I finally tell her, making her gasp loudly that a lot of people turn to look at us.

"Oh my God! Rosie, this is too much!" Her eyes brim with tears as she leans in to hug me. "Rosie, I can't let you pay for all of that. Please let me pay for half of it at least," she murmurs.

"Not going to happen. You deserve the best," I tell her. When she first told me that she got engaged I agreed with her that her wedding dress and bachelorette party were my wedding gifts for her.

"But this is too much. I can't let you pay all of that," she argues as we pull apart.

"You can and you will," I insist.

She's about to say something, but her phone rings, interrupting her. "Hey, Knox," she cheerfully says. "Okay... All right, I will let her know." Her eyes meet mine as she says that. I have a bad feeling in my gut, but I'm trying not to believe it. "What's going on?" I ask her, already having a strong feeling that she wants to tell me something.

"Silas is... wasted and Knox is taking him home," she says, looking at me apologetically.

Just when I think that a day can pass without any drama, Silas decides to change that for me.

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