The Alpha and His Contract Luna
2. Mayra vs Raya

I wake up. The fear is still etched in my body. Still ringing in my mind and soul. Fuck! When will allthese be over? It's been five damn years and I'm still having nightmares. Still fearful.

Years of seeing different therapists and psychiatrists and there is still no progress. I don't feel anybetter mentally. My head is still a mess.

“Let me out!” Raya, my wolf screams out. Banging on the invisible wall that I have built around.

“Let me the fuck out May or I swear I will hurt you” she growls

I wrap my hands around myself and lean against the headboard. Bringing my knees up. I burry myhead between them and cry.

“Mayra!” she screams. Her voice took on an unnatural tone. Anger and bitterness laced with myname.

I ignore her. Taking deep breaths. Trying to push away the pain and tears. I hate how weak andhelpless I feel. How out of control I have become.

She hates me. I can feel it in every word that she throws at me. She blames me for what happened.The sad thing is I can't even be mad at her. Because she is right.

The day we were taken she tried warning me. She told me that she wasn't getting a good feeling.That we should just take the car or plane instead. I didn't listen to her but goddess do I wish that Ihad.

She is right and she has every right to hate me. It's my selfishness and stubbornness that got uscaptured and held in captivity for ten years.

"Please stop Raya. Please” I beg her, unable to bear the headache she's causing me.

She doesn’t stop though. Instead she continues throwing herself against my mental blocks.

Having enough of her antics. I get out of the bed and leave my room. I still lived in the pack house.Sebastian and Lauren wanted to give me my own house but I refused. I was afraid of living on myown.

Sneaking out, I leave the house and start heading towards the forest. I wanted fresh air. To be underthe moon and clear my head

I was nearing the river when a crashing pain fills my head. I fall down on my knees. Clutching myhead. I wanted to scream but I couldn't. Someone would be able to hear me and I couldn't havethat.

My mental blocks shatter. Raya begins taking over.

"Did you really think that you could keep me in that cage?” she sneers. “I will shift by force if that'swhat it takes to be free from you"

She has never been able to do this and it scares the crap out of me.

“Let's see how you like it being the one who is caged” she says with an evil wolfish smirk beforepushing me to the back of her mind and taking over completely.

When I wake up. I'm in the clearing near a pond. I'm exhausted and my bones feel like jelly.Standing up I look down at myself only to replace that I am covered in blood.

Quickly, I immerse myself into the water. Trying to get rid of the scent of blood. I don't know whathappened yesterday after Raya took over. I don't know where she went or who she attacked. Myonly prayer is that she killed animals.

I check on her to replace her passed. Rebuilding my mental blocks. I make them stronger this time. Thelast thing I want is her taking control again.

After washing my body. I get out of the pond and begin to head back to the pack house. By nowmost of the pack members if not all should already be awake.

Thankfully, no one was in the living room when I sneaked in. I don’t want anyone to know of mystruggles. Let alone worry about me.

I get to my room, shower then get dressed. When I am done, I go downstairs for breakfast.Pretending like everything is okay.

"Auntie May” Colton screams my name before his body collides with mine.

He honestly surprises me. His personality is part Sebastian and part Ren. Which in itself is a contrast.“Morning Colt” I tell him, kissing his chubby cheeks.

At five years old, he has all this energy that is sometimes hard to keep up with. That and the factthat his wolf has already started making his presence known. Something that excites and scares hisparents.

“Mama and I saved you breafast cause you were late” he says.

I laugh. Feeling relaxed for the first time since I woke up. “It's breakfast, baby”

“That's what I said...Breafast” he frowns at me.

I go to reply but I'm cut short.

Ren appears, while rubbing her belly. She was almost due. Just a few weeks to go and the little oneswill be here.

"Don't even bother arguing with him...you won't win” she says while kissing his cheek.

I smile at that. Longing hitting my chest out of nowhere. Maybe it's the fact that I'm not gettingyounger. Or because of everything I have been through. But I want what Ren has.

Don't get me wrong. I don't want Sebastian. I just want a loving mate and children. I want a familybut I know I can't have that. I can't give any man happiness. It's one of the reasons why I rejectedBash in the first place. I knew I couldn't make him happy.

"Come on...like Colt said, we saved you breakfast” she pulls me into the kitchen and orders me to sitdown.

Planting Colton on the seat next to me, I turn to the woman who has become more than a friend tome.

She and Bash decided after Colt was born to stay in the pack. The house in the city still remains butthey now live here in the pack.

"What's wrong May?” Ren asked me. Her eyes dug into mine. Trying to discover my secrets.

I sigh, shifting my eyes. “It's nothing. I'm just not getting enough sleep”

I know I needed to tell someone that I was struggling. But this was my problem. So I was going todeal with it on my own.

“You know you can talk to me right?” she asked. “I hate the purple bags under your eyes and howsick and weak you look”

I leave my seat and go to hug her. Though it's a bit troublesome with her big belly.

“This is one of the things I love about you Ren. The way you care for me, but you don’t have toworry. I'm okay, I just have difficulty sleeping of late”

She's a bit shorter than I am but it still works.

“I'm worried about you Mayra...you've come to mean a lot to me and I don't want you to watch yousuffer when I can help”

I thank the goddess every day for bringing Ren to me. She's the best thing that has happened to mesince I was captured.

“I know and I'm telling you there is nothing to worry about. I'm fine...I promise” I squeeze her a bit.Trying to reassure her.

“Fine then" the scowl on her face tells me that she doesn't believe me one bit.

I wanted to say more but then my phone begins to ring.

“Uncle Darren is calling” Colton shouts, embarrassing the hell out of me.

No one knew that I was in contact with him. I wanted it that way. But with how Colton just shoutedit and who his mother is, it won't be long before all our friends know.

I rack my mind for an excuse.

“He's helping me with some things” I rush to tell her before grabbing my phone and leaving theroom but not before seeing her knowing smile.

Shit, if she knew then I'm fucked.

“Hey” I answered, dragging out the word.

"Hello, Mayra”

His deep voice does something to my heart. I feel the wild beating of my heart. Almost as if with hisvoice, it came alive.

I push those feelings aside. They were dangerous and I couldn't afford having them.

"So..." Why the hell was I awkward all of a sudden? We've been sleeping together for a while now. Itshouldn't be this awkward between us

Maybe it's just me.

He chuckles. His voice diving deep, straight to my vagina.

“I was wondering if you wanted to go out tonight.”

We've never gone out. We've always just met secretly, fucked and then went our own ways. I didn'tever sleep the night and he never asked me to. So this is kind of a surprise

“Like a date?”

He laughs this time. “Yes, like a date...so will you go out with me?”

“Yes” I squeak out. Unable to hide the panic and excitement in my voice.

Man. I was acting like a school girl.

“I'll see you then...I'll come pick you up at eight” he says. His voice rich and sultry.

"Okay" I answer almost in a trance.

It's after he hangs up that I realize that I agreed to him coming to pick me up. I should have toldhim that I would meet him. That he shouldn't come.

After the initial panic, I became excited though. Excited to spend time with Darren. Curious to knowwhy he invited me out in the first place.

All I had to do now is to make sure no one replaces out that I was struggling. That my wolf and I werebroken in ways that I don't think would heal. That she was slowly losing her mind and it was gettinghard to control her.

If the council ever found out they would want me put down. They couldn't and wouldn't want awerewolf who's split from her wolf roaming free.