The Alpha & Beta's Regret
The Alpha & Beta’s Regret – Chapter 19

Addison POV

Orien had been unhappy with her, that she was travelling in a separate car from him, but what more could he expect? He had stared right at her, expectantly, as he’d held the car door open for her like he’d always done in the past. Addison had, however, turned away from him and snapped at her son Thatcher, to go and travel in the car with his father, then walked over to the second car they would be taking and got in and banged the door shut.

Her Gamma Chad, he’d already learned the hard way that week to stay the hell away from her, regardless of how she was feeling. He’d tried many times to use that Gamma Charm of his on her, had been sent by Orien to contain her. When Orien himself had refused to allow her to come to the Black Forest Pack on her own ahead of him.

That man had actually had the hide to tell her ‘no’ and then, to back it up, had put word out to the packs border patrol and the gate guards to stop her from passing them and leaving the pack. Had done everything he could to keep her inside his pack and not come here to replace her daughter.

It had not just ticked her off, it had pissed off Fallon herself, and they’d taken an actual piece of the pack Delta himself. Fallon had shifted her and attacked the Gamma as well, all her Alpha Wolf’s aura rolling out of her to keep him at bay, and keep those Charmed hands of his off of them.

Chad had still tried to put hands on her and so it had ended up in a wolf-on-wolf fight as he realised he was going to have to defend himself. It had become the pack Luna against the pack Gamma. Chad had come out the worse off. They had no idea what they were dealing with, she was pure Alpha-blooded on both sides of her family bloodline. Not that she ever brought that up, who her mother and father were.

When Orien had heard what was going on, he’d turned up with not just the rest of his Alpha Unit, but his most formidable and highest ranked Elite Warriors Unit as well, to contain her and Fallon. Pissed both her and Fallon right off to epic proportions, he had no idea what she was either, the venom that ran in her veins. Not something he had ever seen the likes of, before that day.

Orien had lost two of his own men that day. Fallon had killed them in her effort to get out of the pack and to their daughter or to her daughters’ pack. It was all she wanted. It wasn’t that much to ask. Then that bastard, her own Mate, had tranquillised her to stop the fighting and keep her within the confines of his pack by force.

She had woken up inside their suite, a silver handcuff attached to her wrist to contain her beast as he’d put it. He had been sitting in a chair in their bedroom waiting for her to wake up. Had told her not only was he completely disappointed in her for attacking their Delta and her own Gamma, putting both of them in the hospital. But for her to kill two of their own pack members was wrong, and she had disgraced herself and him by doing so.

He’d told her this was for her own good, and it was all he could do to punish her because he didn’t want to see her hurt, himself. Addison didn’t believe him, not for a second. She had told him that he didn’t care about Luci, that she was out there so very close, he didn’t care that she wanted to see her daughter at all.

Orien had used the excuse that the Black Forest Pack had only just gotten over being attacked by an unknown enemy, a threat that could still well remain. That she was not safe there, like she was here in their pack. Certainly, wasn’t safe to travel there alone on her own, that it could wait until things calmed down. Then he would go with her.

That Thatcher had called while she was unconscious and announced he’d found his Mate and was bringing her home to the pack. So, she’d had to be there for that as well, another reason she couldn’t leave the pack. It wasn’t that she wasn’t happy for her son, she was. But Luci had been missing for six and a half years and finally they had caught her, well seen her. A picture of her had been captured.

Luci had gotten away yet again, though it did not really surprise her that Luci had run off again. Her daughter had been in love with Rafe and Jack and once they found their Mates, of course she was going to be devastated and leave them. Though it had shocked her that Luci had never come home, Addison had thought that she would.

Addison didn’t think that Luci had just run off, something was off. Luci would have known to come home, had to know that her own mother would comfort her, but she hadn’t and now, six and a half years later got caught on camera and still so close to the pack. It wasn’t like her to get caught. That girl knew how to sneak around and not get caught, had been doing it her whole life to stay off Orien’s bad side.

No-one in the Nightfall had come near Addison in the past week, since she had killed two of their own, she was forced to wear a silver cuff that only Orien had the key to, to contain her beast. Is what he’d told her, along with to make the pack feel safer. Little did he know about her or her beast. They had ripped that damned bracelet off, got a nice wound doing so as well, dislocated her thumb in the process and skin had been peeled off along her hand, practically degloved her entire hand, but it wasn’t going to be staying on their arm. Would have cut her own hand off if need be. Had stalked herself into his office and pegged that bloodied cuff right at his own head and he’d only just gotten out of the way of it, had thrown it with all her Alpha strength. He had looked more than horrified by the state of her bloodied hand.

She had shown him right then and there she was not going to let him contain her or her beast in anyway, that she was strong enough to get rid of anything he tried to contain Fallon with. Had a whole Elite Warrior unit on her, after that, 12 of his best men, to make sure she stayed put.

She’d moved herself right out of their suite and into Luci’s old room. It had not gone unnoticed by the pack either, that she had pretty much left her Mate, even stopped attending to the Luna duties as well. When Orien had found out he’d blown a gasket and the whole packhouse had been on edge after that, they were all waiting for the inevitable fall out. Still were, in fact.

When Thatcher had come home with his Mate Cathy, a Delta’s daughter who’d been making a delivery to, the Alpha College for her Pack, they’d met and he’d been attracted to her right away, convinced her to stay till the full moon, was dead certain she was going to be his mate she’d shaken her head but her own future Alpha who’d she’d been there to deliver stuff to had convinced her to wait and see. What harm could it do?

Addison had met the girl, congratulated them both then informed Thatcher promptly, seeing that Orien had not done so over the phone. That Luci had been seen by Alpha Rafe and his Beta, Jack. He’d looked surprised and happy to hear the news that his sister was okay. He’d been happy until she had told him, that she had every intention of bringing Luci home to their pack.

Then Thatcher had looked very angry, looked just like his father when he was angry. He knew that Luci was the eldest, technically the Heir to the pack. Clearly, Thatcher didn’t like the thought of his sister coming home and taking her rightful place as the packs’ Heir. Happy she was safe but not happy to have her here in the pack. Just like his father.

Addison had watched him stalk off to his father’s office and slam the door shut, to speak with his father in private. That had started a full-blown argument between the three of them over who was the rightful Heir to the pack. Thatcher had no idea Luci was not his father’s child. They’d always agreed to never say anything to him.

Luci had always been going to take over, until he’d tried to once again forcibly Mate her off to Victor. Not something she had ever agreed upon, and he’d known that, had nearly torn them apart once before. He had even promised her he wouldn’t, then had gone behind her back one day and asked the man to come to the pack and just take her off his hands. She’d lost Luci that day.

Watched her only daughter attach herself to Rafe and Jack, who’d been in the pack already, they were the reason he was so pissed off with Luci, had found her with them yet again. Ticked him right off and he’d gone off on his own without consulting her and called Victor.

When Luci put herself right between the two of them, rubbed herself all over Rafe, while reaching out for Jack to pull him up behind her. To show not just Orien, but Victor as well, that she had no intention of going with Victor, she would rather be with Rafe and Jack. Orien had lost his temper completely.

Had yelled at her, yelled she was useless to him, nothing but a complete shame to the pack, to go. Leave the pack for good and be a bloody concubine to the two of them and Luci had. The only reason Addison hadn’t stopped it herself was because she knew that Victor would have taken her for himself, if she stayed in the Nightfall Pack.

So had told her to go, to stop Victor from getting his hands on her. Told her that at least she would be happy with Rafe and Jack. They were the only two men that had ever satisfied her daughter completely. It was likely she needed two Mates, due to her bloodline.

Though she was the only one to know Luci’s true heritage, no-one knew, not even Orien. They would all just use her for their own means and there was no way Addison was having that for her daughter. She had only ever wanted Luci to be happy. Had not expected her to be.

Alone without her real father and true family around her. Thought she would of made for a sad child. Was glad that she had not been. This had surprised Addison a lot, but she was a bit on the naughty side. Then, when Luci had not gotten her wolf at 16 like everyone else, Addison had worried a lot over it.

Not Luci though. No, she’d seemed fine with no wolf. Though Addison had learned after Kali had come along when Luci was 18 that Kali had always been with her from 16, she just couldn’t seem to get out of her. It took the full moon after her 18th birthday for that to happen.

Now standing staring at the lake and being told Kali had run right into it and had not come out…she understood everything, why her little girl had been missing the past six and a half years. She wasn’t actually missing at all, just living like her real father would have, down inside the water of the lake.

Addison did recall that Rafe had told her Luci had run away, and that they’d lost her once she’d left the eastern border to the pack. This lake backed right onto that border. It was likely her daughter had found her father’s linage inside of her finally. That the heartbreak she knew Luci would have felt at Rafe and Jack replaceing their Mates, had brought out the Siren in her bloodline.

Lucian had told her that their child would be very special. He had used to sit and sing to her and their unborn daughter while she was pregnant with Luci. Before he’d made her flee, when war had come to the small Siren pack he commanded. A war that had decimated all her pack. Addison had not lived like them, couldn’t being a wolf.

She had a nice little cabin on the shoreline to live in. Lucian had been a very loving Mate, could still smile when she thought of him, those brilliant green eyes of his so full of desire for her, so full of love. They’d created a child very quickly. To his delight, he’d thought it would take years. He’d been very excited for his daughter to be born, but sadly had never lived to see the day. She’d felt his death and stumbled and fallen over, howled in pain at the loss of him, but had made herself get up and run to protect their unborn child like he’d told her to.

His last words to her “Run Addi, don’t look back. Don’t come back if the worst happens. Know I love you always, protect our daughter always.” And that was what she had done, ran even when she just wanted to lay down and die from the pain of losing him.

Walked into the packhouse with Rafe beside her, he looked drained to her, and not just because his Mate wasn’t here. Because she knew, that he and Jack didn’t get what they actually needed from their Mates, those two men were bonded so closely, shared everything including her daughter. Now they did not have that, she’d seen them over the years since they’d been Mated off. Not once had she ever seen any affection between them and the other’s Mate.

It was harming them, slowly but surely, wondered absently how long it would take for one of them to become so ill that they’d likely die. Knew that if, hell, when it happened, the other wouldn’t be far behind, she was certain of it. One could not live without the other. They had practically glowed with Luci here.

Luci would have been the better choice, a much better fit for them. That much she did know, Luci had loved them both. Nothing they wanted would she have denied them, it was not in her nature, not once she had truly chosen them and Addison knew she had. Luci had told her she’d gone into heat. She’d heard Luci’s fears on the matter and those fears no sooner had been said aloud, had come true.

Saw the footage, really looked at her daughter. Kali looked good and healthy and Luci too. But her hair was much lighter now and when she stood up, Addison realised she was also taller now too. Her first shift as a Siren had changed her like sometimes it did when a wolf shifted for the first time. It could make one taller and more muscular, showing the strength of the wolf.

Luci was all Alpha Siren on her father’s side and she herself was Alpha-blooded. That Siren part of her had changed what her body and hair looked like, but she was still beautiful, typical of Siren genes. They were some of the most beautiful creatures in this world.

Everyone was drawn to them, like she had been Lucian, he’d not been her Goddess Gifted Mate, but she had loved him, he’d chosen her and, with her acceptance and love, a true bond had been gifted by the moon goddess herself.