The Alpha’s Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger
Chapter 84

84 Die and be done with it .

Lyla D 

I should get used to disgrace by now but as I walked away feeling the thousand pair of eyes on my back, I knew that I would never get used to this , no matter how much I tried .

Maybe , I should just die and be done with it .

I walked until I could no longer hear the murmurs of those around me or see the pity in their eyes .

I still didn’t stop until I reached a small copse of trees hidden from view .

Only then , did I allow myself to break .

Everything inside me shattered .

The sobs came violently , shaking my entire body .

I pressed my back against a rough tree trunk and slid to the ground .

Not caring about my clothes or dignity as tears dripped down my face in torrents .

My mother’s words kept echoing in my head .

Not my daughter .

Wicked .

Worthless .

Abomination .

I touched my cheek where the slaps had landed , feeling the heat of broken blood vessels beneath my skin .

But the pain paled in comparison to the heartache I felt .

I had known , somewhere deep inside , that choosing Nathan would have consequences .

But this ? 

This complete rejection , this public denouncement ? And this was not the first time .

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If my mother hated me so much , why did she give birth to me ? What on earth did I do to her to always get this hostile treatment ? 

My sobs quietened .

I inhaled and exhaled deeply .

Once I’m done with whatever burial rites they needed me to do for my father , I’ll round them up as fast as I can and head back to my life .

Back in the human world … I mattered , I was an important person .

A valuable member of my work team , a good student at school , a good neighbour and Paul … he … 

That was when I remembered that I had yet to reply to his text .

Quickly , I took out my phone from my pocket , wiping the tears from my eyes as a ghost smile appeared on my lips .

This humiliation is nothing compared to what I’d had suffered 3 years and six months ago .

I would give Paul a chance if he asks me out and hope our relationship grows into something beautiful .

Maybe , I might start a family ….

No ! I shook my head at the last bit .

No children .

I didn’t want any child of mine to suffer the same fate as me .

In the human world , men are fond of keeping their boundaries .

You could be in a relationship and still act like an independent entity .

So , even if I told Paul that I didn’t want children , he would understand .

Male humans will go to any length for the woman they love .

Sighing with satisfaction , I opened his message and typed back a reply .

84 Die and be done with it .

few minutes , texting him and smiling like a fool .

He was a charmer .

I was enjoying my texting when a call from Nanny came in .

I took it immediately .

“ Hii … ” I said happily .

Being here in the bush with the sweet night air blowing at me warmly must have caused the pain to dissipate from my heart .

I was happy .

“ You sound excited ? ” Nanny observed .

“ Not exactly the report I got .

Are you alright dear ? ” 

“ Very fine and I had a feeling Nathan would call you .

” I sighed .

“ I just had a little quarrel with my mom earlier but it’ll be fine .

Did Nathan tell you he’s now an Alpha ? ” 

“ He didn’t mention that ! ” Nanny chuckled “ He was so busy freaking out when he called me .

“ So , did he propose yet ? ” 

I blushed at the question .

“ Why would you even say that ? I told you nothing can happen between me and him .

We’re best friends and we’re not involved like that .

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“ You did , true but you can’t speak on his behalf too .

Have you seen the way he smoulders you with his look whenever you’re not looking ; with eyes filled with lust , love , passion and everything a woman wants .

” 

“ You need to get your eyes checked .

Nathan is not like that , Nan … ” 

“ Sure , sure , she teased “ Just make sure you’re never behind a closed door with him .

I know your mate was a Lycan and their thing is big but I heard Werewolves are quite different .

They’re the masters of sex and … ” 1 

“ Ewww … Nanny … ” I blurted wrinkling my face in irritation .

“ Why are we talking about sex on the phone ? What kind of example are you setting for me ? ” 

“ You’re not a virgin , Lyla and you’re 23.

Believe it or not , I wish one of these days , you’ll show up to the house pregnant or something .

You’re too reserved for a young woman .

When was the last time you got laid ? Or even kissed ? ” 

Nathan ! 

My memory flashed his name .

Nathan was the last time I got kissed .

I blushed deeply , suddenly feeling ashamed as though if I continued with this conversation I might get exposed .

“ Okay , I’m getting off now .

I can’t stand you when you’re feisty .

By the way … did you meet your friends ? ” 

Nanny had travelled with us but had gone to Golden Gates pack to visit friends .

Since she didn’t want my mother’s wrath .

“ Yeah ! A lot of catching up to do .

Now , go and replace , Nathan … he’s calling again and I’m sure he’s worried and if he proposes and you’re unsure about it … just seduce him and make love to him .

Sex is like a … ” 

“ Goodnight ! ” I interrupted her and ended the call before she could say something else .

I took in a deep breath , trying to still my pounding heart .

I’ve been celibate for more than three years now and I want to keep it like that .

It’s not because of Nathan … but Ramsey .

Ever since Lenny and I had the conversation , I keep getting hot flashes of our first time together .

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And to think that I could remake that memory again , with me back to this world ….

Frightened me .

I didn’t want to be thinking about sex and Ramsey .

Sighing , I rose to my feet , cleaning off the debris of sand from my clothes .

I needed to go home .

As I took a step towards the direction I had come , the air grew colder and the wind stop blowing .

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The air became still … the kind of stillness that sent goosebumps all over my body .

It felt as if someone was coming … as if someone was watching me .

Then I heard approaching footsteps .

Loud and distinct … I held my breath , swallowing hard as my heart hammered against my ribs .

The footsteps whoever it was suddenly stopped at the edge of the trees and waited….

I waited to , unable to move … above me , through the branches , the moon hung full and bright Was this another Feral attack ? Did they know I was here now ? 

Suddenly , the shrubs in front of me flattened as a familiar face appeared .

“ Lyla … ”