The Apple of My Eye
Chapter 345 Premarital Phobia

"Do I?" Sam was extremely worried about Autumn. The moment he realized that he had lost sight of Chris, he felt very sorry for her. He immediately explained to her, "I have been too busy these days to care about you, and I sincerely apologize for that."

"It doesn't matter." Chris said to Sam with a worried expression on her face, "Sam, I don't know what on earth has got you so worried and anxious. But I want to remind you that after our our wedding ceremonies next year, we will legally be man and wife. With that in mind, I wish we could deal with the dilemma no matter how it may impact us. As you can probably see, Charles and Autumn deeply trust each other, so nothing will do them apart. The foundation of their relationship strongly rests on love and trust. I hope to build the same with you!'

"Are you envious of them?" Sam asked her with curiosity as a frown set on his face.

"Of course, I do!" Chris got happy and excited just at the very mention of Charles and Autumn. "Charles has been my role model even since I can recall. All through childhood he guided me. He is a perfectionis with every work he takes up, irrespective of how small or big it is. So I do admire him quite a lot. And about his marriage, although he married the wrong bride, he married a girl who was the right fit for him, his true soulmate. Autumn is also a very nice person. No matter what difficulty I face in life, she always knows what to say to guide me in the right direction. Besides, they never have a row with each other. I don't know what you think of them, but I really envy them."

Sam couldn't help laughing. "Then, we won't have a row with each other in the future, either, I promise you that. No matter what happens with me, I will inform you immediately so we can face it together." "OK. This is a deal." Chris was content and happy with his dedicated answer.

Sam was eager to tell Chris about the Autumn's volatile emotions. But after thinking over it, he decided against it and kept it a secret from Chris. Anyway, this secret would not affect their relationship and it wasn't definite. He didn't want to spread it around because it was her story to tell.

"It is getting dark. I should head back home now," Sam said. Before he left, he added, "My parents are busy with the wedding preparation. As for things like taking wedding photos and the like, it's all your decision do whatever you think necessary to make yourself happy. You don't need to think about the money, that is my part."

"Then I will make decisions from my own wishes and whims." Chris then added with smile, "Have a safe ride home."

"OK, I will." Chris then went outside to see Sam till his car. Once she returned, she found Autumn was looking at her through the French windows in her room. She waved to her with delight. After she walked into the house, she saw Nancy going upstairs as she carried a glass of milk. Chris asked, "Nancy, is that for Autumn?"

"Ye, Mrs. Lu drinks milk every night before going to bed, " Nancy answered indifferently.

"Then let me take it up to her today." Chris said with a smile, "I am just going to see her."

"How can you do that?" Nancy stopped her in her tracks at once and said, "Miss Lu, this is a servant's duty. I can't let you..."

"What are you talking about?" Chris was taken aback by Nancy's words. She retorted, "You are not a servant. I was brought up by you since my birth. After all these years, you have been more like a family than most of our blood relatives. Moreover, I just help you take a glass of milk. It's no big deal. Come on! You may take a rest now."

"All right." Nancy was a little hesitant at first, but at last she handed the milk to Chris. Chris took the milk to the Autumn's room. As Chris opened the door, Autumn draw the curtains close. Autumn saw Chris with surprise, so she asked, "Why do you come to send me the milk today?"

"Autumn, I just want to have a word with you. I met Nancy on the way to your room, and she was ready to send you the milk. So I helped her send the milk and asked her to take a rest." As Chris explained, she handed the glass to Autumn.

Both of them then took a seat on the sofa. Chris looked at Autumn with admiration as she said, "Autumn, you will never know that how much I admire and value you. You inspire me to be a better person everyday. You and my brother have never had a quarrel. You are leading a perfectly content and happy life with my brother. But now, I am starting to get a little scared."

"Afraid of what exactly?" Autumn was a little shocked when she heard Chris' words. Sam was a kind man. If Chris married him, she would also replace her own happiness and source of support.

"I have no idea." Chris thought about it internally. She could hardly make sense of what it was that was terrifying her so very much. Probably, she was worried about the uncertainties of her future life. Chris continued, "Although I have been in a relationship with Sam for a very short time, we have known each other for a longer time. In the past, I always thought it would nice if I became his girlfriend. But now, sooner than later I will be his wife. I am more confused than content in my heart."

Chris smiled bitterly as she added, "I always wonder if I will lead a happy life after I marry him. Even though he is kind to me now, I'm not sure he will not regret this hasty marriage after living with me for a certain time. So what I am essentially afraid of is that my future marriage will end up with unhappiness and resentment."

Autumn finally understood her dilemma. It was a typical premarital jitters that Chris was suffering through. She was getting cold feet and it was only natural because this was probably the most important decision of her life.

"You are thinking too much and stressing over nothing." Autumn smiled at Chris as she comforted her, "You say you're envious of my marriage with your brother, but on the other side I really envy the way Sam and you get along. The grass is always greener on the other side."

"Really?" Chris widened her eyes with surprise. "Why are you envious of Sam and me?"

Autumn sighed, and explained, "As you know, I didn't know about your brother from earlier but still our wedding was a mere accident. By chance if you will."

"I know that fact. But the marriage by accident finally leads to a happy ending. It was almost like that accident was written in your destiny." It was the first time Chris heard Autumn complain about her marriage.

Autumn smiled as she said, "Yes, we both do appear quite happy. But you look on the bright side, there is a long enough courtship period for Sam and you to get along with each other. In my opinion, you managed to build up the relationship with Sam when all the conditions were working against you. Unlike your brother and me, the start between us was confused. But after our wedding, we have no extra time to go shopping. We were caught by life, somehow."

Autumn sighed, "And you know, how excellent your brother is. I am just as ordinary as any other girls. I am now growing tired of fending off the admirers wandering around your brother."

"Autumn, you need not worry about that at all." Chris patted her chest and said to Autumn, "You are the only one in his heart. He won't respond or give any attention to a single one of those admirers. You can give your mind some rest."

Autumn smiled and declined to comment. She said, "You are just suffering from premarital phobia. You are not worried about marriage but your future. You should always be happy by keeping in mind Sam's kindness. You should believe that no matter what direction relationship takes, he will always be nice towards you and take concern in your welfare."

Autumn's words suddenly jolted Chris out of her jitters. Chris smiled at her, and said, "Autumn, every time I talk with you, I feel lighter and always learn something from you. Now I am really happy that my brother married you."

"OK, stop flattering me here." Autumn replied with a smile, "It has gotten way too late now. Please go to bed."