The Christmas List: A Novel
: Chapter 2

Celeste Hatt

Single mother, 29 years old. Son, Henry, 7. Ms. Hatt lost her home after you persuaded her to purchase a larger home than she could afford by putting her entire life’s savings into the down payment. Six months later you sold her home at a sizable profit after foreclosing on it. Ms. Hatt’s current whereabouts unknown.

ONE DAY EARLIER

Celeste Hatt rooted through a box of children’s books looking for the thinnest in the stack. It was definitely a short story night. Barely nine o’clock, and she was already exhausted. The single mother routine never seemed to get easier. During the day, when her son, Henry, was at school, she worked as a checker at Smith’s Food and Drug. Weekend evenings she waited tables at the Blue Plate Grill, a small diner half a mile from her home. In addition to her two jobs, nearly every night she assembled circuit boards at home for a local electronics firm. Her tiny kitchen was stacked to the ceiling with brown cardboard boxes printed with Chinese characters.

On most nights, after dinner, the dishes, and her son’s homework, she and Henry would watch TV while she snapped the circuit board components together. The process wasn’t so much technical as it was tedious; something a machine would be better suited to doing. All the same, it was extra money. Two dollars and fifty cents a board times five an hour equaled thirty dollars a night.

Between her jobs, household chores, and raising an active seven-year-old boy, the only time Celeste had for herself were the few minutes between when Henry went to bed and when her own head hit the pillow. It’s been said that the best way to extend the day is to steal a few hours from the night, but there’s a price to pay for all theft and it showed in Celeste’s dark-ringed eyes. She settled on a book from the pile and carried it into Henry’s tiny bedroom. Henry was already in bed, the room illuminated by a small lamp on the floor.

“Hey buddy,” she said. “How about The Grinch? It’s getting near Christmas.”

“Okay,” he said, leaning up on one elbow.

She sat down on the side of the bed and opened the book.

Henry brushed a wayward strand of silky blond hair from his face. “Mom, how long are we going to have to live here?”

She looked up from the book. “I don’t know, honey. A while.”

“How long’s a while?”

“I wish I knew.”

“I don’t like it here. I want to go back to our house.”

Celeste had scrimped, sacrificed, and saved for three years to get them into a home of their own, only to lose it, and their down payment, just five months later. Now they were living in a run-down two-bedroom duplex looking out on the busy thoroughfare of 7th East. It was obvious to her now that she never should have bought the house. Why had she listened to that man at the development? Maybe the better question was, why wouldn’t she? He spoke so well, so wisely, like a father giving paternal advice to his daughter. He used logic that seemed irrefutable and words that carried their own persuasive power, like: home ownership, personal equity, tax deductions, and financial security; each word replaceing ground in her scared places. She had trusted him to do what was best for her.

“Well, we can’t. It’s not our house anymore.”

“How come?”

“When you don’t pay the mortgage the bank takes your house from you.”

“What’s a mortgage?”

“It’s money we borrowed from the bank.”

“Why don’t you just get more money?”

Celeste sighed. “It’s not that easy, sweetheart.”

As she lifted the book again Henry asked, “How come Daddy didn’t have to move?”

She frowned. “Do you want a story or not?”

“Okay.”

She started to read, fighting to bury the anger Henry’s last question brought up. While she battled to keep their heads above water, her ex-husband, Randy, continued to fight her on paying alimony and child support. To make matters worse Henry was struggling in school and his teachers had suggested he needed counseling.

Of course he was struggling. His father had virtually abandoned him, missing the last six months of visits. She wondered how Randy could so easily dismiss this wonderful little boy from his life. The first time her ex didn’t show up for his visit, Henry had stood by the door with his suitcase packed for nearly an hour. When Celeste finally got him on the phone he first told her that something had come up but eventually admitted that he had just forgotten and made other plans. He told her that Henry “cramped his style.” When she asked if by “style” he meant “selfishness” or “stupidity” he hung up on her.

Henry interrupted again.

“Mom, how is Santa going to replace us this year?”

“He’ll replace us. But don’t expect too much. Times are hard for Santa too.”

“I’m just going to ask him to make the bank give our house back.”

“That would fall under the ‘too much’ category.”

“Not for Santa. He’s magic.”

Celeste sighed. “Henry, we need to talk about Santa.”

He stiffened. “What?”

She looked into his frightened eyes. “Never mind. You know, I’m pretty tired. How about we skip the rest of the story tonight. Okay?”

“All right.”

She closed the book and got up off the bed. Henry grabbed her hand. Celeste looked down at him.

“Mom, were you going to tell me there really isn’t a Santa?”

“Why would you think that?”

“I already knew. Miss Covey told me.”

Celeste felt a prickle of annoyance. “She did, huh?”

He nodded.

“I’m sorry, sweetheart. You should have heard it from me.”

“Miss Covey said our parents were lying to us.”

Celeste groaned. “Well, I guess I’ll be having a talk with Miss Covey.”

“Did you lie?”

“Henry, Santa is the spirit of giving. And sometimes it’s good to have something to believe in. I just wanted you to have something to believe in right now.”

“What do you believe in?”

She looked at him for a moment then forced a smile. “I believe in you.” She combed her fingers through his hair. “And I believe we’ll be okay. Now let’s say our prayers.”

She knelt by the side of his bed. “Would you pray tonight?”

“Sure.” Henry closed his eyes. “Dear God . . .” He stopped. Opening one eye he whispered, “Mom?”

“Yes?”

“Is God fake, like Santa Claus?”

“No.”

He closed his eyes again. “Heavenly Father. Thank you for our many blessings. Please help Mom to feel better. Help us to get more money. And please help us get our house back. Amen.”

“Amen,” Celeste said softly. She leaned over and kissed him on the forehead. “I love you, sweetheart.”

“I love you too.”

She turned off the light, shut the door, then went out into the kitchen. She wished she really believed what she had told her son; that things would be okay. She wished something would happen to make her believe.

Through the kitchen window she could see the snow falling outside. She turned on the radio. “Santa Claus Is Comin’ to Town” was playing. Mitch Miller. She turned him off. It was far too festive for how she felt. Thanksgiving had just passed and she and Henry had spent it eating TV dinners with sliced turkey and processed mashed potatoes, then she went into work at the diner. When would something good happen to her?

She heated some water in the microwave, then dropped in a bag of chamomile tea, followed by a teaspoon of honey. She walked to the rocking chair in their front room, stirring her tea, and sat down. A steady flow of cars rolled loudly by. It was like living next to a river that squealed and honked. She took a sip of the tea, then lay her head in her hands and began to cry.