The Elements
I'm sorry

Shadow’s P.O.V

Darkness.

Darkness it’s all I can see or feel. I’m looking in front of me and all I see is darkness. No sound, no feel, nothing. If I couldn’t feel me breathing I would thought that I was dead.

I seat down on what I think, and hope, that is a floor and buried my face in my hands. I have to get out of here. I have to go back. I need to go back. The guys need me.

But how?

I feel like crying in frustration and I’m so close to giving up.

We need you crazy.

My head snapped up. That was a voice? Am I hearing things?

You need to come back sis.

I know that voice. That is River’s voice!

Please, come back idiot.

And this one is Flame! I can hear them! They are here! Well, not here here, but here somewhere here.

I swear that if you don’t wake up I will burn down all your guns and your secret stock of jellies.

This little demon is Sparky. I’m more then sure. I need to get out but how?

Please come back Shadow-Pooh. I need you back.

My heart clenched when I heard Sky’s voice. He was more then sure crying and I don’t want to hear him crying.

I stood up and tried to replace from where the voices were heard. Say something again guys!

What the fuck is wrong with you? I was supposed to save your life and you dying, it isn’t part of my plan!

I chuckled. This must be Sirius. I turned to my left and started to walk. Good, keep going guys.

Shadow, don’t you dare to fucking go. We have been through a lot of shit so don’t go now. Just don’t.

I know Lincoln, I know. I really know but I can’t replace the damn exit. I started to run in that direction. I have to get out.

You need to wake up soon. Everyone is an emotional wreck and I didn’t spent my time training your ass so you can die in the first real battle you have!

I fucking know! I fucking know that I have to wake up but I can’t! I growled in frustration and hit the ground with my foot.

Damn it! Why I can’t leave?

I seat on the floor once again and sighed in defeat.

I want to leave this place. I want to wake up and I want to see all of them again. A special person the most but what’s the point? He isn’t even here. He didn’t bothered to come. I don’t know why I’m even thinking about that bastard when I have more important things to do.

After 15 minutes of intense thinking I made this plans:

1. Nothing

2. No idea

3. I’m gonna die here

4. Nothing again.

I growled and punched the ground. I heard a cracking sound when I punched it.

Wait a minute. Maybe I can get out through the floor! What I never thought about this one? I started to punch the ground numerous times. With each kick landed, the floor cracked more.

Hey Lighty. I know that you most likely hate me now, but I can’t blame you. I am an jackass and a fucker, but I’m sorry for everything. I know that this is my fault too, and I’m sorry for this too. Wow, I’m so lame. Anyway, you have to wake up. Please. Sparky needs you, the boys need you, and I need you. We all need you. Everything is a mess. You have to wake up and punch the things back in their place. You need to. Please, Lighty. Wake up.

I felt like crying. I sniffed and kept hitting the ground.

He came. He came and he said that he is sorry. I’m not going to forgive him, but I appreciated when people apologize for what they did. It shows that they care. That he cares.

I concentrate all the power I had left and kicked the ground. The whole floor made a loud cracking noise and I was suddenly falling fast in a fucking white light.

God, please tell me that I didn’t just killed myself.

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I slowly opened my eyes and studied my surroundings. I am in what looks like a hospital room. Everything is white and the heart monitor is starting to piss me off with all that beeping. I squirmed my eyes to see what hour it is because the clock was on the opposite wall.

Three sharp. Nice hour what can I say.

I sighed and leaned on my pillow. I’m bored and I think everyone is asleep. Maybe my phone is here.

I looked in my right and saw a night stand. There was a pack of fruit jellies and a coke.

Sparky must put them here.

I smiled and started to eat those jellies. God, how much I missed those things from heaven.

I looked in my left to see if I can replace another goodie. I almost screamed when I saw someone sleeping on a chair next to my bed.

The monitor started to beep louder and I tried to calmed down because I don’t want to wake that person up. I think that he, because it doesn’t looks like Sparky, is exhausted.

I tried to look at his face but I couldn’t see anything.

Okay. What should we do now? I decided to take a nap.

Yeah. A nap sounds good to me.

I wrapped myself in the blanket and put my head down on the pillow. I tried to fall asleep but it sucks because I can’t sleep on my side.

Fuck you stupid wires and needles.

Now, I was staying on my back staring at the ceiling. Let’s count jellies.

One jelly, two jellies, three jellies, four jellies, five jellies, six jellies........

I kept going until 1000 jellies and I still couldn’t sleep. I groaned and looked at the clock again.

Half past five.

I can’t wait any longer.

“Psst! You! Hey you! Wake up!” I whispered-yelled at the person.

Nothing.

“Hello?? I’m awake!!”

Nothing.

I started to get frustrated. “WAKE UP GOD DAMMIT!”

The person jumped from his seat and fell on the floor. “WHAT THE FUCK.”

“Sorry. I didn’t meant to scare you.” I said trying to figure out who he is.

He got up from the floor and rushed to my side with widen eyes.

“Are you really awake? Am I dreaming?” Black asked in disbelief and stared at me.

I did the only thing that came in my mind then. I slapped him.

His head snapped to the side at the impact. “I deserved that.”

“Oh, but this one wasn’t for you being the usual annoying jerk. This one was to show you that you are awake.” I simply said with a smirk.

His face broke in a relieved smile. “Thank God that you finally woke up.” he said and hugged me.

I awkwardly patted his back and furrowed my eyebrows. “Why I am here? What happened?”

I can’t remember what happened. Why I can’t remember what happened??

He pulled away and looked at me with a broken face. “You can’t remember?”

I shook my head and looked down. “No. The last thing I remember is that I was patrolling with Sparky.”

When he didn’t muttered a word I looked at him. He was lost in his thoughts and looked like he has an internal battle.

I put one hand on his shoulder, snapping him out of his thoughts. “You okay there?”

“Yeah. I just...I didn’t expected you to wake up and you losing your memory for a short time. That’s all.” he says and rubbed his face.

I glared at him. “I don’t believe you. Why are you lying to me? What happened? I want to know what happened! And I want to know now!” I yelled getting angry.

The monitor started to beep louder as my heart beat faster.

“You need to calm down. You can’t get angry. The doctor said that it’s not good for your health.” he said trying to calm me, but of course it didn’t work.

“I don’t give a royal fuck about what that so smart doctor said! If he is that smart then why I can’t remember what happened? And why is bad for-” I stopped and put my hands where my heart is.

My heart hurts. Literally this time. It feels like someone is stabbing in with a very damn sharp knife. My breath was ragged and I was trying to calm down.

He got up from his seat. “I hate to say I told you, but I fucking told you! Can’t you listen to me for just one damn time! Swallow that stupid pride of yours and listen to what the doctor will fucking tell you because it’s your damn health we are talking about!” he yelled at me and his face was red.

“Well, I’m sorry that I was asleep for God knows how long, for God knows what reason and then you finally wake up and you can’t remember a fucking thing. I’m sorry for getting fucking scared because of that! I’m sorry, okay?!!” I shouted back and looked at the window.

I heard him sigh and walk in my direction. He seat down back on the chair next to the bed and put his hand on mine.

“I’m sorry for yelling at you. I know that this is really confusing for you and I reacted bad. I am just worried, okay? I’m sorry.” He said and squeezed my hand.

I remained silent and stared at the window.

“Please, say something. Anything. Or at last look at me.” he begged and confused me.

Why he cares? Since when he cares so much? He usually doesn’t give a fuck. And this gives me a last theory. The something that I can’t remember must changed something.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when someone literally jumped on me and hugged the living hell out of me.

“OMG!! Shads!! You are awake! I’m so happy and you made us worried sick! Please don’t do that ever again!” Sparky rambled hugging me too tight.

“Sparky! Too tight! It hurts!” I said through clenched teeth because it really hurt.

She gasped and jumped out of my bed. “I’m so sorry! I-I didn’t meant to! I was just so happy and-”

“SPARKY!”

“YES!”

“I’m fine. It’s okay. Calm down girl.” I said and gestured for her to breath.

She took some deep breaths and calmed down. “Okay. Now I’m calm. So how are-”

“SHADOW! MY BABY SISTER! I WAS SO FUCKING WORRIED!” Flame shouted and hugged me but not so tight as Sparky.

I chuckled and hugged him back. “I missed you too.”

“Don’t you fucking dare to scare us like that. Flame lost his shit 3 times, beat 2 doctors and I had to calm him down every time! And I fainted one time!” River said and ripped Flame away from me, so he could hug me.

I hugged him back. “I’m sorry for making you worry guys.

I heard someone sobbing. “It’s thought that I lost my sexy and smart partener! I’m so happy that I’m not the only sexy and smart one remained!” Of course, this one was Hazel and he hugged the hell out of me, but stopped when River and Flame slapped him.

“Too tight!!” both of them yelled at poor Hazel.

“God, what a violent family.” he muttered rubbing his head.

I started to laugh at the scene in front of me. This idiots will be the end of me.

Sky walked past Hazel, Flame and River with shy steps and stopped next to my bed.

I gave him a soft smile. “Hi, Sky.”

He stared at me for a little before his lip trembled and he started to cry. “I-I thought that you died too. I was so scared.”

I swear that my heart broke and melted in the same time.

I opened my arms. “Nope. You can’t get rid of a Moonlight so easily. Now, give your sister a hug Sky-Pooh.”

He let out a sob and walked in my arms. I rubbed his back and kissed his forehead. “Everything is fine now. I’m fine and you are fine and everyone is fine. You don’t have a reason to cry, so please stop or I’ll start crying too.”

He nodded his head and I chuckled when he started to hiccup. He is too cute for his own good.

I hear Sparky cooing and took a photo with me and Sky. I flipped her the bird and pulled away from the hug.

I whipped his tears with my thumbs and slapped his shoulder, but not so hard like I would with anyone else.

“Man up pussy.” I said with smile playing on my lips.

He chuckled and smiled back at me.

“It’s good to see that you are not dead twiny.”

I laughed at the nickname. Lincoln calls me twiny because we look identical, like twins do.

“It’s good to see that you still stick with that name.”

He put a hand on his heart. “Always sis.”

I rolled my eyes and hugged him.

“How many you are?? I’m getting tired of getting so much hugs.” I said and chuckled.

“So I thought that you can forget about me? Girl! If it wasn’t me, you wouldn’t be here, in this world or team.” Ash said and smacked my head.

I rubbed the spot he hit. “Still a dork I see. I’m injured! Why would you hit me??!!” I yelled and slapped him back.

“Because you forgot about me, the person who showed you this beautiful world. Now shut up and hug me stupid.” he said and I hugged him. Tight. Very tight.

I smirked when he pulled away gasping for air, but my face turned serious immediately.

“Why I’m here? Why I’m injured and what happened? I want to know everything now.” I said more serious then ever.

I want answers and I want them now.