The Goddess of Beasts.
Chapter Eleven.

His warmth was suffocating; it surrounded my entire body. Making it impossible to breathe. I could feel his hot breath fan against my cheek. He softly pinched my chin, making me look up, and meet his stormy gray eyes. Wearing his emotions right on his sleeves. Daniel lifted his arm blocking any way out. My heart started pounding rapidly into my ribcage as he pressed his chest against mine. Pinning me further against the wall. Both arms lay flat against the wall. Not wanting to move a muscle. Afraid that if I did, he would get the wrong impression of me.

Had I given him the wrong impression? Did I do, or say something, for him to think that I want to kiss him?

As I stared into his eyes, I started comparing Danny to Alexander. For starters, there were no sparks when Daniel touched me. I didn't melt at his touch, I didn't crave more of his touch. All I felt was pure panic. I did not want to kiss him. I've realized how mean I sound, but I can only look at Danny like the brother I never had. But then again if Alexander was here I would have wrapped my arms around him, leaning into the kiss.

Daniel was soft and gentle; he always cared for me. He was always there for me when I needed him the most. Somehow Alexander has wormed his way into my brain. Memories flooded of the day he kissed me on the stairway, the way he pulled me into him aggressively kissing me, showing me that I was his from that moment on.

"Come back to me." Danny, softly said, taking me out of my daze.

We were in the same position, me against the wall trying to not breathe. His fore tinger and thumb still hold my chin up. My mind started thinking about ways I can get out of this situation; without him getting angry. Without telling him that I did not feel the same way he does. That I love him but it is not in a romantic way. I just don't want him to become a beast in front of me, but I also can’t lose my best friend either.

I was in panic mode at this point.

I am positive that he can feel my heart ready to jump out of my chest. As our forehead touched, I was mentally preparing to dodge the kiss. Yet, praying that something would happen to prevent this kiss.

“You fucken bitch! Open the door right now!” Isadora’s voice boomed throughout my bedroom. The banging out the door brought me out of the trace that Daniel had put me in.

“Get out of here.” pushing Daniel out the door, locking it behind me. Letting out a puff of unsteady breath. I looked back to the wall I was pinned at only seconds ago.

I didn't have time to think about what just happened. I ran back upstairs, and took a couple of deep breaths, trying to steady my heart. I swung the door open, revealing Isadora, looking pissed, and Raymond behind her a smirk on his stupid face. My forehead wrinkled in confusion. I seemed to be calm on the outside, but on the inside I was a complete mess, hoping that Daniel left without getting caught.

“Where is he? Raymond said you brought a guy in. Where the fuck is he?” Isadora frantically started looking around my room.

“What guy?” Confusion laced my voice.

“Don’t play dumb, doll, I saw him,” Raymond said, pulling a strand of my hair. Twirling it around his finger. Making me shiver in disgust.

“There is no guy in here. I was sleeping when you started banging at my door.” Moving away from the creep of a boyfriend that Isadora has.

“Raymond, what the fuck? Why the hell did you wake me up? This piece of shit is telling the truth, there is no guy here.” Isadora said when she finished searching every single inch of my room.

Raymond was right, there was a guy here. And I thank him and Isadora for banging on my door. Although my stepmother will be angry in the morning I could have been more grateful. I will take that anger, this will be the only time that I would be grateful to them. They had stopped a kiss between Daniel and me. A kiss that might have saved our friendship.

They both left my room Isadora was angry at Raymond for waking her up for something stupid. Closing the door after them, I started pacing in my room trying to stop myself from having an anxiety attack. How am I going to be able to see him tomorrow? How will I react?

I mean, I cannot just walk to his jeep as if nothing had happened. He almost kissed me! How can I fix this? I can't fix this with a box of chocolate. He tried to kiss me, but I didn't want to, and if Isadora hadn't knocked. Only god knows where the night would have ended. Everything is a mess. To the point that sleep is no longer important.

All I can think about is the consequences. How is Daniel going to react? Will he think that I wanted to kiss him because I just stood there like an idiot, not knowing what to do? Did he get the idea that I wanted us to be something more than just friends?

Oh god, there was no point in sleeping now.

Hours passed and I was not able to regain my sleep. All I did the rest of the night was stare at the ceiling. Hoping that I can replace a solution to the whole Daniel problem.

Ever since Alexander has been in the picture Danny has been more persistent in wanting to date me. He seems more moody than usual, always glaring at the new group. Acting possessive and jealous.

Of course, he was jealous. He has asked me to be his girlfriend for several years now, but I've never accepted. Alexander comes along and within two days I am craving his touch, his attention. But how can he know that? It is not like I do not love Daniel, I do. I love him to pieces, he has always been there for me and I couldn’t be more grateful. Is the fact that I cannot look at him as more than just a brother. I’ve tried to love him more than a brother, it’s just not the same.

The alarm went off, alerting me that it was time to get up. I dragged my body to make my ‘family’ breakfast, so I could get to school. But I did not want to go to school. How can I possibly see Daniel? I was not even able to see him while I pushed him out the door, and did not bother texting him afterward to make sure that he didn't get caught. Walking on my way to school I got a bright idea and I prayed that she will come along.

When I got to school I was looking for that spunky black hair girl that bring out the best in me. Even though I've knownAdrastea for two weeks, we act as if we have known each other, forever. I only have her for a class in the morning, but it’s the one right before we head out for lunch. My plan seems to have failed, I did not replace her before classes, I guess I am staying in school today. We are here for a couple of days, Thursday will be our last day, then I do not have to see his face for a week.

Blasting my music and reading will be the way that I am going to ignore him for today. He knows very well that I do not like to be disturbed while I am reading, especially when I have my earphones on. Dodging the students I made it to class listening to ‘sign of times.’ by Harry Styles. A song that Daniel would sing to me whenever I had my mental down. For every death anniversary, I have from my parents. He knew these words fit perfectly with what I am going through. Daniel is the best, and I almost feel bad, and hate myself that I cannot love him the way he wants me to.

Students trying to make their way to class, I was about to enter mine when I saw Daniel, Grayson, Trey, Mikey, and Ben talking to Alexander, Janus, and Zaiden. My thick brow shot up, what are they all doing together? Curiosity took over me, what can they possibly be talking about, I thought they hated each other. But it did not look like a normal conversation; it looked like a heated argument, but they were all whispering.

I forced myself to get into the class, I cannot get in the middle of these things. I’ve learned way too many things in the past three weeks, it only leads me to overthink. One by one all of the guys came into the classroom, looking as if they wanted to kill each other. All of their eyes went to me as if they knew I was looking at them. Quickly I hid my head in my book.

The teacher came in to tell us that we have a free period and that we can do whatever we want but to keep it down. After that, the teacher left the room leaving the students to go crazy. That is when someone started poking my cheek. My mind automatically went to Janus or Grayson. They both love to bother me. But with every poke sparks erupted throughout my body.

“Love,” Alexander said, pulling my earphone and jamming it into his ear.

“Queen, nice. I saw them when I was younger.” How young I wanted to ask, but I bit my lip.

He pulled the chair closer, bobbing his head to the music. I can feel his soft warmth next to me. Waves of electricity went through my body now and then as he touched me, while he danced. He danced carelessly while every single girl had his eyes on him. Rumors will start soon, and all of them will be about how Alexander was sitting next to Samantha’s weird sister. Or maybe they will add their own twist to the story. I pretended to read, all while I read the same sentence over and over again.

“Why haven’t you returned any of my calls?” Alexander asked as the music died down.

“I've been busy.” I simply replied, with a shrug.

“You are not busy now?” He probed me.

“I am trying to read,” Hoping he would leave me alone. I cannot come up with a good enough reason, as to why I don't want to talk to him right now.

There is too much happening at once, not only am I going crazy trying to replace an explanation for my eyes. But also my step-sister has been hovering over me like a vulture since the day she found out that Alexander kissed me. She believed me at first, but then all of the boys started talking. Making bets to see if they were able to sleep with me before, Alexander did.

“Can't you do that on your break?” He questioned.

Please, bell ring already! When I look up there are still twenty minutes left in class. and if that is not enough I can feel Daniel’s angry stare on the back of my neck. The staring on my right side became intense as if he was trying to read my mind. But I left it blank and pretended that he was not there and started reading my book.

Soon after the bell rang, so I was able to escape. But what is there to escape from? They are going to be here whenever I decide to come back. There is no way of running away. Right? I just need to confront them. Walking out of the classroom I felt someone pulling me in a different direction. When looked to see that Daniel was pulling outside, maybe to our place we went whenever we needed to talk. We didn't get far when I had been slammed against the wall. It happened all too fast, but that's when I feltDaniel’s lips were on mine.