The Grateful Rejection
Chapter 3

Mates. The other half of you, the one that not only completes you but gives you a reason to live,laugh and love. Every being needs a mate to give your life a meaning, to come back home in thewarm arms of you love. To wake up in the morning next to your life sleeping peacefully. To look atsomeone and see the unconditional love in their eyes. To feel that they're worth it.

A tear slipped down my eyes as I looked at the endless darkness of the sky, there are no stars today.Maybe there are but I chose not to see them, I don't want my cursed fate to ruin their brightness.The only thing that I through would make me feel worth has been snatched away from me. I don'tblame that girl, or him, I would be nothing but a burden on him anyway. A sob desperately wantedto escape my mouth but I swallowed it, not wanting to show anyone how broken I am.

I look down at my bloody wrist that I cut with my wolf nails, the crimson colour looks so beautifulcoming out of my veins. This is how it should be. I should be dead. It's not like I have anything oranyone to loose anymore nor would anyone feel my absence. Maybe death will finally make me restin peace, maybe death will be my friend. It's true what they say, life is a beautiful lie and death is thebitter truth. I have lived a bitter live, I can have another short at bitter but this time no other thingwould make me feel any pain. I'll be long gone in the arms of death. Finally resting in peace.

My wrist stops bleeding as it heals every cut that I made leaving nothing behind as if nothing everhappened in that place. Tears just keep streaming out of my eyes but no sound came out of mymouth, no furrowed brows, no sniffing, no emotions in the eyes. I have done this a billion times, justcry showing no emotions. It's not like anyone will ever understand then why give an effort? It's all awaste, just like me.

The motionless forest and the wind coming from between the trees makes anyone sigh in relief...But not me... Not me.

I wonder when I die will there will be a burial or as mother says that they'll throw me in the bottomof a sea for other animals to feed on me or as father says they'll throw me in a dumpster for vulturesand rats to feed on me. They'd always joke about this during the dinner we used to have andeveryone.. EVERYONE would laugh.

I look down from the cliff I am sitting, beautiful sharp bed of rocks. If I jump will one be kindenough to pierce my heart? At least they will do what is really expected of them, unlike all thepeople I know. Not even the elders in my-- Janine's pack are civil to me. They'd push me aroundand make me do worst things. I remember one day when Justin asked me to get his bag from thegym and when I went to the gym, there were my bullies from and some elders who had sworn toruin my life. Werewolf elder are not the elders you think. Even when a werewolf is a 170 year oldthey'd look like in their 30's.

One of the elders had punched me in the face and dragged me to the middle of the ring, they allkicked me untill I was half unconscious then they put me inside a punching bag and started hittingme ruthlessly. I was in the hospital unattended for days even after having fast healing. That's howunwanted I am. It's been like this since forever, I never knew what I did wrong to offend people tosuch a extend that they'd want me tortured to death. I'll never know.

As soon as I had dropped the alpha couple off to the pack house and taken them to alpha Gilbert, Iran. I ran to my sanctuary, the edge of a very dangerous cliff. When elders used to talk to theirgrandchildren, they'd always mention how dicey this cliff is and how easy it is to trip and fall intoknife like sharp rocks. When I heard about it, I went on a quest to look for it and when I found itafter getting lost in the woods for 6 hours, it was worth it. It was beautiful, yes it was very scary butbeautiful.

The cliff was so high that there were fogs beneath it, the cold harsh wind really melted my grief. Islowly walked towards the edge and that day I truely had a real smile, it was Breathtaking. Thedifferent coloured rocks, so sharp that it could pierce a giants skin in one gash and giants are haveskin thicker than steel, at least that what I heard.

But today my sanctuary only increased my grief, I saw how lonely and alone I am. Just like this place,lonely, alone and hated for no reason even through it's the most beautiful place but the onlydifference is that even after being all of that it stands tell and strong, unmoved by what peoplethink. I am not like that, I get hurt, I feel unspeakable pain. But can I ever express that? No.

The moon shined on my face making me glare at her, "Play with me, as much as you want but Ipromise there will be a time when you'll be at the mercy of someone. And when the day comes I'llcelebrate with joy" I spat at her. Moon goddess, what moon goddess? All she is an taint. She'll neverbe a mother.

I stood up from the cliff and wipped the tears. After taking few sets of deep breath I walked towardsthe pack house. I suddenly felt empty, numb almost. It.. felt nice in a way, no pain, no grief justnumb. I striped out of my clothes and turned into my grey wolf. I picked up my clothes and sprintedtowards my house.

I took out my second hand clothes from the cupboard and put it on a small bag and headedtowards the pack house. M parents rarely gave me clothes or money, they said feeding me andgiving me a roof over my head was enough of parenting done for me. When I started working atthe age of 13, the old human couple for whom I work would give me some clothes that used tobelong to their daughter or the lady herself when she was younger as both of them were big girls Ididn't have to worry about the jeans not fitting me.

When I reached the pack house, the living room was buzzing with laughter and happiness, I didn'twanna ruin anybody's mood so I put my head down and walked up stairs. Janine had order fatherand mother to make me move to the pack house when I went to pick the alpha couple as extrahands were needed for arrangement. I didn't had the energy to argue whatsoever so I just movedand anyway I didn't meet anyone of them, they just mind-linked me.

I raced towards my room in the first, where there are spare rooms for omegas even though I am notone. I went inside a random room which had a door message “empty written on it. I took the cardand went inside, I locked the door and threw bag in one corner of the room and went to take ashower.

When I was in the shower I heard Gilbert's voice in my head, I sighed and opened my link.

"Yes alpha" I said too calmly, there was a second of pause then he spoke, " where the hell have youbeen? Your sister needs help, you ungreatful bitch" he snapped at me, in other times I would behurt but not today, I felt nothing.

"Sorry for the inconvenience, I'll be down in a few minutes" I said robotically and cut off my link. Iquickly showered and got dressed.

I followed my sister's screeching voice to the alpha office in the 5th floor, I knocked on the door. Agrumpy “come in’ came from the other side, I rolled my eyes and went inside to see Janine sobbingcomically. Thank God my parents were not here or else this would have been another soap opera.She looked at me and jumped on me, "I never knew I'd say this but I need your help, Nora" she saidmaking me roll my eyes mentally, so what the fuck has she been doing the past.. 17 years?

"What's wrong?" I asked her ignoring the earlier statement. She sniffed in her mates arms, "Thedecorator has cancelled on me and the wedding is in a week, no one will be able to take up theproject” she wailed.

"Don't worry I'll take care of that, I'll go to the town tomorrow and talk to some decorators and ifthey don't agree then I'll do something” I said trying to calm her down. She looked up at me withteary eyes, "You'd do that.. for me?” She asked in disbelief. I just shrugged my shoulders, "Yeah, whynot. Don't worry” I said and headed out of the office.

As I was climbing down stairs slowly I was pulled by my arm in the 4th floor. It happened so fastthat I couldn't comprehend anything, one minute I am walking downstairs and the other my matehad pushed me against the wall, kissing me.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pushed myself more into him. I let myself all pour the needfor him and his love in that kiss. When he pulled back his eyes were as dark as the night showingthat his wolf is in control. He looked at me lovingly, "Where have you been? You were gone for theentire day" he said huskily causing me to shiver.

"Do you really expect me to stay here while you steal kisses from your wife?" I just went straight intothe point. I pushed his off me, God what has gotten into me?

He sighed putting his head down, he didn't say anything for a few seconds then he said somethingthat'll always haunt me, "I love her" he looked up to me. I turned my head and bit my lips, his eyeswere back to normal, “I know your my mate, my other half and I should have waited for you but Ilove her. So does my wolf. She was all I had in the tough times, she was there when I needed ashoulder to cry on. She was ther--" he kept on declaring his love for the other woman burning mysould with eternal pain. I had to stop him, "I don't wanna hear about your undying love for her." Isnapped at him and created more distance between us.

I looked at him coldly, "Just get it over with" I said trying to act tough. My wolf was howling inmisery, begging him not to do it. But it had to be done, I don't wanna feel anymore pain. When Iknow there is no hope for me here, I don't wanna drag this. He looked at me pleadingly, "Please" hesaid I looked at him in disbelief.

"Then what the hell do you want? You want to keep both of us by your side? That's not going tohappen, I will not be the other woman, I never will be. Even if it's of my mate. Unlike you I havemorals” I snapped at him. His eyes darkened and he growled at me, "Watch your mouth wolf" hesnarled in his alpha tone but being an alpha's mate, his tone didn't effect me but I put my headdown just to calm him down.

After a few intense seconds I looked up with teary eyes, "I have suffered all my life, mate. I had hopebut it all went away. I don't wanna hold onto any more false hope when it's only gonna make meend up in this tribulation of loneliness" I begged him. He looked torn, "You're very special, mate butmy love for her is too much for me to leave her for you, I am sorry" he said making me flinch andsob.

I took a deep breath and told him to say it. He asked for my name and I told him.

"I, alpha Tyler Schumach reject you, Nora Brukes as my mate and Luna" he said sadly. A sudden painstarted from my heart and spreaded all over my body. I bit my lips so hard to stop myself frommaking any noise that blood came out of it.

I could feel the bond breaking, crumbing into pieces. My entire body was burning, as if I wasdropped in boiling hot water. My head was hammering against my skull making it feel like I'd breakany moment now and then it all ended, I was suddenly numb, like my soul had been ripped awayfrom my. My wolf laid on the grass unmoving, just slow shallow breathing could be heard.

I was already on my knees sobbing, I looked up to see Tyler leaning against the wall trying to copeup with the same pain. I looked at him emotionlessly as I got up on my feet, "I, Nora Brukes acceptyour rejection Tyler Schumach* I said blocking out anything coming my way and went down feelingnothing. Not anymore.